As I sat down to write this blog, I had no idea what I was going to write about. Before I start to write something, I always pray that it will flow with peace, ease and grace and that I will write only what God wants me to write about. Usually, I have a lesson that I have learned during the week or a miracle story that I want to share with you, but as I sat there staring at an empty page, I didn’t have a clue what I was going to write about.
Then, last Sunday, I bought a really pretty turquoise sundress for fifty cents at a yard sale. I didn’t notice what was printed on the bottom of the dress until I got home. As I looked at it closer, I saw it said “NEW AND GOOD AND NOT THE SAME.” I asked myself, “What does that mean to me and why would I want to write about it in a blog? Who cares about what is on my dress?” Since nothing was coming to me to write about, I decided to explore the meaning of this saying.
NEW AND GOOD AND NOT THE SAME. I am not the same woman I was 1 year ago or last week for that matter. In fact, sometimes, I don’t even recognize how I have changed and who I have become. “How am I new and what does it mean to be new?” I asked myself. What came to mind was the scripture that said, “Be transformed by the renewal of your mind.” I also remember reading a book many years ago called “The battle is in the mind.” I am not a scholar by any means, but what that means to me is that I will be made new and transformed by changing my thinking.
Over the year I have been like a detective with my thoughts and when I become aware of any negative thoughts or limiting beliefs that that are not true, I immediately work on changing them. For example, as I thought about my journey to Maui and the steps I took to live here (emotionally, spiritually and physically), I remembered a time when I was really struggling. I had been counting the days for months for my trip to Maui in 2011 and couldn’t wait until it arrived. I was going to Maui for a month and would be living on the ocean. I didn’t understand what was going on because a couple of weeks prior to me going, I wasn’t feeling excited about going.
I couldn’t figure it out and was distressed and crying. I called my friend Linda and said, “I am really struggling and I don’t know what’s going on, could I please come over and we pray together.” Of course she said, “Come right over.” I was in my pajamas and had no makeup on. I have never gone out with my pajamas and no makeup on, but I jumped in the car and went to her house. When I arrived, she gave me a big reassuring hug. I knew I was safe as she listened to me and loved me right where I was. We prayed together and she did some energy work on me. I was really surprised what came up.
What came up for me as we prayed was guilt and the thought, “How dare you leave your business for a month, you don’t deserve to go away for that long.” I laughed when I realized I wasn’t making much money in my business anyway. If I had not uncovered the belief of not feeling deserving and changed it, I may still be in Rhode Island and not living my dream.
I feel like I have given birth to something new in my life as I live and breathe the energy of LOVE. When I pass people on the street or the beach, I send them love. I have a CD that I sing along with daily that says “I love my heart and soul, I love all humanity. Join hearts and souls together, love, peace and harmony.” I smile at people and they smile back at me. You don’t have to live in Maui to experience the energy of love. It is inside of you and all around you. You are the presence of God in this world. Go within and feel the love deep inside of you. It is there. You are love. You also deserve good things, to be provided for in every way.
This idea that I am loved and deserve to be provided for in every way is a lesson that I have been steadily learning for many years. Right now I am reading a book called “Absolutely Effortless Prosperity” by Bijan and have been practicing daily the lessons that will transform your life in 30 days. It is not “new” stuff and much of it I had already been living, so it is confirming what I know deep within my heart. I particularly enjoyed today’s lesson called “How Prosperity Works. ” He writes, “To be prosperous without effort, we must first decide to make peace our ultimate goal. To be in peace, we must know that our only function in life is to heal ourselves and others through our expressions of love and forgiveness.”
Prosperity does not necessarily mean that we have hundreds of thousands of dollars in the bank. Prosperity is not about greed or excess; it is not about doing anything. Prosperity brings the knowledge and firm belief that everything we need will be provided for us. It was like a light bulb went off inside of me and something shifted deep within my consciousness. It has been my experience that I HAVE BEEN PROVIDED FOR ALL MY LIFE. It now felt easy and effortless to say “I AM PROSPEROUS.” It doesn’t have anything to do with how much money I have or don’t have.
In the first chapter in my book, “Simply a Woman of Faith” I write all about how God provided for me and my family (and friends), at yard sales over the years. Friends would ask me to look for something for them and I would always find it. I am happy to say, I am still the Yard Sale Queen in Maui and my friends here ask me to find things for them too. For instance, my friends Joseph and Marlowe (you are really getting to know them) asked me to look for a bike pump. Sure enough, that Saturday I spotted a “super duper” bike pump and was so happy to deliver it to their home that afternoon.
As I look around my lovely Ohana, all I see is how God has provided for me and with prices that are dirt cheap. I have purchased curtains, lamps, rugs, baskets, trays, pillows, clothes, dressers and so much more. I always pray when I get in the car and ask God to provide and help me not buy anything that I don’t need. That prayer is heard and it delights my heart when I find exactly what I am looking for.
Prior to leaving for my trip to Kauai last week, I wanted to buy a new bathing suit. I went to the local consignment store called “Rainbow Attic” and found a beautiful brand new bathing suit that fit perfectly. I also found a matching beach cover up that I loved. It was a 2 piece bathing suit (haven’t worn one since I was a teenager) and the top was strapless (never worn strapless). It looked great but I was a little concerned that it might fall down when I swam in the ocean. I thought about buying some kind of a strap at the fabric store that I could use to hold it up when I went into the ocean. The next day was Saturday and I planned on going “Yard Sailing.” I found another brand new bathing suit for $3.00 that I loved. It was the same colors as the one I bought the day before, except this bathing suit was one piece and had straps that could come on or off. I could hardly believe when I returned home that this “STRAP” fit both of my bathing suits. What is the likelihood of that happening? I knew I was being provided for.
It is my belief that life is about change, trust, surrender, letting go, taking risks and following your heart . We are on this sacred journey together. Let us join our hearts together because we are the light of the world. You are being made new every day. Let your light shine and be the presence of God to all you meet and love.
In his book, Creative Ideas Ernest Holmes, writes “Whatever I should know, I shall know. Whatever I should do, I shall do. Whatever belongs to me must come to me.”
For me, this quote is all about trusting and letting go; trusting in the Divine and trusting in myself and that my answers are within. Whatever I should know, I shall know. This quote is also about trusting in divine timing and what must come to me. I have been on the spiritual path for many years and it seems like life is a constant invitation to let go and trust more deeply.
I believe everything is our teacher if we are awake and conscious. As I sat outside in my yard one morning and looked up at the Ficus tree right in front of me, God spoke to me through nature about the importance of letting go. I noticed that the pod (with a flower inside of it) was still hanging from the tree. Then I noticed another pod right next to it that had partially opened and I could see part of the flower peeking through, but the pod was still hanging from the tree.
A couple of hours later when I walked outside, the pod had “let go” and was completely open and had fallen from the tree to the ground. A beautiful white flower had opened up before my eyes! I asked myself, “How did the pod know when it was time to let go from the security of the tree and bloom?” It just knew it was time! These beautiful flowers surround me every day (there are hundreds of pods on the trees) and are a constant reminder of God’s love, and our ability to trust in divine timing and let ourselves bloom at just the right time. We are invited to bloom where we are planted.
How do we know when it is time to let go? In my own experience, I know that I let go when I am ready (just like the pod with the flower in it) and not a minute before. Today, I don’t judge myself about not being ready or willing to let go until I am ready, I just trust that whatever I need to know about what to do or not to do, will be revealed.
When I asked my husband for a divorce 13 years ago, after 30 years of marriage, I knew in my heart that this is what I needed to do to live my life to the fullest. I wasn’t ready until that moment. How did I get myself ready? There were many things I did, but most of all, I loved myself unconditionally and became my own best friend. I focused on what made me feel happy and alive. I prayed and meditated and was willing to do whatever I needed to do to heal and transform my fears and insecurities so that I could move forward.
My lesson this week has been about letting go of the timing and WHEN things are going to happen in my life. As I have shared before in other blogs, every once in a while I find myself in a place where….”I want what I want when I want it, and I think I know what is best for my life.” Wrong! Time and time again I have learned that HOW things manifest in my life is none of my business. I just “show up” for life and follow my heart and passion and miracles happen. That is why I am now living in Maui. I “showed up” to speak at a Unitarian church in Rhode Island in 2010 and met my now good friend Ellen, who invited me to visit her in Maui – for as long as I wanted. Two years Later, I am now living my dream in Maui.
I know that if the details of that dream can manifest so perfectly, so can any other desire I hold, but I have to be willing to let go and trust. So, how do you know if it is time to let go, and release the need to know WHEN things are going to happen? I recently reached this moment when I realized that I was feeling anxious and complaining about my house not selling yet, and I was also looking outside of myself for guidance and answers. I had several dreams indicating that I was trying to control things in my life, and often, when I am trying to control a situation in my life, I dream about a person from my past who was very controlling. This week, my mantra became, “I let go, I let go…. until my peace came back.
I have learned that the sooner I let go and surrender, the faster I will manifest what I want, and it cannot manifest when I am in fear. Since I let go, I am experiencing a peace that passes all understanding and I have been more “IN THE FLOW” than I have ever been.
Usually, what drives controlling behavior is a fear, and for me it is fear that I won’t get what I want. I was starting to feel afraid that my house wouldn’t sell and I would have to leave Paradise and that I wouldn’t meet my soul mate. I know that FEAR is False Evidence Appearing Real, so I needed to re-connect with my source and TRUST that God and I are ONE.
Once I restore my connection to this source, I know that all is well in the spiritual world and I am exactly where I need to be (or I wouldn’t be there.) I remind myself that I hired my Higher Power to take over my life, therefore I am choosing to trust in God’s faithfulness and promises to me. I know on a deep level that I came to Maui to meet my soul mate and it will happen in God’s timing, not my timing. And like many other things that have manifested, I am sure it will be beyond my wildest dreams. God’s timing is perfect and He/She is always on time. As that quote states, “whatever belongs to me MUST come.”
On a lighter and more fun note, my Hawaii license plate is KRG, which to me, means KEEP RECEIVING GOOD.
I believe that I have been letting go, so that I can keep receiving more good. The more good that I receive the more good I can give to others. Today, I truly believe that I am worthy of receiving good things in my life and so are you. In fact, a couple on months ago, my friend Ellen invited me to join her at her time-share on the island of Kauai. We are leaving Sunday for a week. We will be staying at the Marriott on Poipu Beach, which I am told is beautiful!
I said YES to the Universe and doors have opened up for me beyond my wildest dreams. Almost everyday in paradise, there is sunshine and warm breezes, swimming in the ocean, butterflies and incredible views of mountains and sunsets. I continue to have a grateful heart for the blessings God has bestowed on me as I continue on this wonderful, adventurous journey one day at a time.
Remember, we get what we expect. Are you expecting more good in your life?
My Heart is a Verdant Meadow with many blooms
Heart Steps, Julia Cameron
I open my heart to receiving love and respect. I open my heart to many quarters. I allow my good to come to me from all directions. Remembering that the Universe is my source, I release individuals from any demands that they be the source of my good. I allow the Universe to support me as it chooses, not as I demand. I surrender my narrow version to a broader and longer view of events. I trust that as I respect and honor myself and others, I will be treated in kind.
“It is our life that must be our practice. It is not enough to hear spiritual truth or even to have our own spiritual insights. Every aspect of what happens to us must become part of a learning experience.” Diane Mariechild
As I prayed this week in gratitude for all that I have received, I picked an angel card that read: “Your life is a direct reflection of the Divine Presence. Commit your full attention toward the living of your spirituality because this is your means of service.” Writing this weekly blog and authentically sharing “all of my life” with you, is a large part of how I live my spirituality and choose to be of service. Thank you for being a part of my sacred journey and allowing me to be a part of yours.
Another way that I live my spirituality is by being willing to do the inner work when “opportunities” come my way. I call them opportunities because I believe they manifest for my growth and highest good. I know that Mother Maui continues to invite me to look deeply at “my stuff” so that I can be a pure instrument and channel for God. I want to be the best I can be, so I say, “Bring-it-on (but gently, please!)” I decided to share with you some of my experiences this week and how I used the tools of acceptance and forgiveness to keep my peace of mind.
It is my belief that I attract everything into my life for my highest good. This means that I take responsibility for my part and stop blaming and judging others when I “perceive” they have wronged me. When I blame or judge another, I take on the victim role. That is not where I choose to live my life any more. It doesn’t feel good to be a victim because I lose my serenity and peace, which is extremely important to me. When someone upsets me or something happens that I don’t like, I don’t waste any time, but immediately go within to see what my part was in creating this, and what I need to learn for my highest good and growth. Part of this process also means not taking things too personally.
You’ve probably heard the expression “If you spot it, you got it!” That means that whatever I see in another, (whether it be positive or negative), is just a reflection of what is inside of me. I love it when I meet someone and when we connect – he or she reflects back a part of me that is loving and beautiful. I am not so thrilled when I spot something that I perceive to be negative in someone, because I have to accept that it is also a part of me, which I have not accepted and loved yet. At first, I want to deny that could possibly be inside of me. But, I know the truth and I want to grow and be whole, and as the Bible says, “the truth will set you free.”
I “spotted” a few things about myself this week that I needed to love and accept, and I knew it was time to use the techniques I learned a few years ago, when I read a book called “Radical Forgiveness” by Colin Tipping. Radical forgiveness is easy, yet profound, and it takes commitment and faith to practice it in all of my affairs. Over the years, I have practiced it with small annoyances, as well as big things that have come into my life, and it also works great dealing with family members.
Here is how Radical Forgiveness works. Whenever I think I have been wronged, judged, talked down to, or rejected, I first allow myself to feel all of my feelings, especially the anger. It works best for me when I write my feelings down in a journal (and I hold nothing back) and then I tear it up. After I have written my feelings down about the “perceived” wrong, I move on to the next step, which is to say, “I attracted this into my life for my highest good and _______ (insert the name of the person you are upset with) is not wrong and I am not right.”
This is the hard part because I often want to blame the other person and say what he or she did was wrong! I may have to repeat this phrase several times before I finally free myself from that desire to be right. Since peace is very important to me, I am willing to let go of making someone else wrong in order for me to be right. I also don’t need to know why I attracted the situation into my life or to judge myself for creating it, I just have to trust that it is for my highest good and God will reveal to me what it is I need to learn from it.
In addition to using the tool of radical forgiveness this week, I also practiced acceptance. It says in the Big Book of AA (paraphrased) “Acceptance is the answer to all of my problems. If I cannot accept everything exactly as it is, I will not have peace.”
Living on a tropical island has some things that I’m not crazy about – like critters! I found tiny ants on my kitchen counters that I went after with a vengeance and wanted them gone! Then I heard God say, “what about accepting them.” “Really, God, you want me to accept them?” I asked. “Yes,” I heard in reply, ” Remember, acceptance is the answer to all of your problems.” My attitude has changed and when I see them, I calmly get rid of them. Perhaps it is my imagination… but they seem to have gone away or maybe it’s the ant traps?
I have found that if I am able to practice radical forgiveness and acceptance, I feel lighter and can often find the humor in the situation, which I couldn’t perceive before. I find that when I find the humor in things it enables me to get back into the flow and restore my peace. Thankfully, I also had an opportunity to laugh hilariously this week. I had invited my friends Marlowe and Joseph to lunch, and while they were here, they put up my curtain rods that needed to be drilled. After they had finished, I asked them if they could also take a look at my VCR player, which wasn’t working.
A couple of weeks ago, I had been given the VCR for free at a yard sale, because the man said, “This was given to me and I don’t know if it works so you can have it for free.” I went to Radio Shack and bought the cable for it, and tried to set it up myself. Nothing came on the screen and I figured that was why I got it for free. When my friend Joseph pulled out the TV, he discovered that I hadn’t lined up the cables properly. Yeah! It looked like the VCR was going to work after all. Then I explained to them that there was a DVD in there and I had no idea what it was….
When Joseph pushed the start button, all of a sudden on the screen there were 2 women with huge boobs. We all screamed and laughed hysterically we were in such shock. Of course, we turned it off immediately. I have lost my status as “Angel Sparking Star” and now they are calling me “Angel Porn Star.” How quickly I fell from grace!
So all in all, this has been a great week of learning, growing, listening to music, accepting new parts of myself and having fun. It has also been a week of receiving interesting messages and this one came to me while I was listening to a spiritual CD on ITunes. All of a sudden, while listening to the spiritual CD, my first radio show (from 2 years ago) called “Let Miracles Find You” began to play. I was interviewing my dear friend Linda Pestana, author of “Voices of the Heart.” I think the message for me and all of us is to “RELAX, ALLOW, TRUST, RECEIVE and “LET MIRACLES FIND ME.”
I AM PARTNERED BY THE UNIVERSE IN ALL MY DEALINGS
Heart Steps, Julia Cameron pg. 83
I lead my life in partnership with the Universe. In all situations I have choices and options, which lead me to freedom and expansion. In every time of darkness or difficulty I affirm there is a doorway, which will open if I knock. I am never separated from the power of God. There is nothing which stands between me and God. I am within God and God is within me. We are one substance, one energy, one Life.
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