Last February I took a trip to the Lavender Farm in Maui with 2 girlfriends and spotted a small sign as we drove in that said, “Paragliding.” I immediately said, “Oh that sounds like so much fun, I want to do that.” I wrote down the number to call to get more information. I mentioned it to my friend, Larry, that night about how much fun it would be and that I would love to do it. My birthday was in October and he surprised me with a Paragliding gift certificate. I used my Paragliding certificate today and I am now a student/affiliate of the U.S. Hanging Gliding and Paragliding Association. How impressive is that?
I could hardly wait to get home and write about the experience because I had the time of my life. It had to be the perfect weather conditions to fly and it was perfect; the sky was blue, the wind was blowing just right, the instructor, Dexter, was from New York (where I was born) and my girlfriends were so excited and cheering me on and, of course, taking all kinds of pictures.
When we arrived at the Lavender Farm at 10:30 a.m. I looked up into the sky and spotted someone paragliding. With my mouth wide open, I said, “OMG, that’s what I’m going to be doing?” We all burst out laughing and my friends asked, “You mean, you didn’t know?” I am embarrassed to say that I hadn’t seen how high I would be traveling in the sky. This was probably a good thing because I may have chickened out. There was no turning back and off we went to find my instructor, Dexter.
Just standing on the mountain before we took off, the view was breathtaking as we were up 4,000 ft. and we could see all of Maui. Before my flight, I had to sign all kinds of papers and Dexter assured me that he had been doing this for 25 years and had never had an accident. This made me feel much better!
We were ready to take off as I put my helmet on and got strapped into my gear. I forgot to tell you that Dexter was flying with me and strapped in right behind me. I stood there with my hands open wide and prayed. There was a big parachute behind us that would open as we ran down the hill together. He said, “Just do everything I tell you to do and you will be just fine.” I smiled and said, “Ok.”
The first thing he said was, “We have to wait for the right wind to come so we can take off. It will come. When it comes, I will tell you to run as fast as you can down the hill.” I looked down at my Croc shoes and hoped and prayed they would stay on. They did and he was right. The wind came as the parachute opened and we lifted up into the air. What an exhilarating feeling to just put my arms up and float in the sky and go higher and higher. For many years, I have prayed to go higher and higher with God.
As the wind carried us higher and higher into the sky, I felt so connected to God and the Universe. I was amazed at how relaxed and at peace I was. I didn’t feel any fear and was completely in the moment. I didn’t want it to end and could have stayed up there for hours. I said to Dexter, “This is really a spiritual experience.” He said, “Yes, many people have that experience.”
There are many lessons that I learned from this experience. First, I had to trust my instructor, Dexter, that he knew what he was doing and I would be safe. I had to listen carefully to his instructions and do what he said. I had to wait and be patient until the right and perfect wind came to lift us off. I had to let go of control and give the control to someone who knew what they were doing. I had to be willing to take a risk and experience something I had never experienced before. I had to let go of fear and all the “what ifs” that could happen. I had to be willing to go higher with God.
I asked myself, “What are the lessons I am learning between this experience and the message for me in my life today?” There were many and I have a sense that they will continue to reveal themselves.
*Learning to TRUST God, myself and someone else
*Learning to LISTEN to all instructions and follow them
*Learning to LET GO of control and ENJOY the ride
*Learning to take a RISK
*Learning to go HIGHER
*Learning to let the Universe CARRY me higher and higher
*Learning to WAIT and be patient for the right and perfect timing
*Learning to have COURAGE to do things that I am afraid of
*Learning to ALLOW the Spirit to carry me
*Learning that God has my back and we are ONE
As I relaxed, lifted my arms to the heavens, let go, sang praises to God, and trusted that I was safe, the view from the top of the mountain was absolutely breathtaking and amazing.
I was still “flying high” from the day and wanted to just relax as I ate my dinner. I rarely watch the TV, but decided to put it on to just veg. out. This is what came on the screen when I turned it on.
“If you only had a few minutes left to live, have you lived your dream and have you come to earth to do what you wanted to do?” They kept repeating this in the background:
REMEMBER YOUR DREAMS, I SEE YOU, COME RIDE THE SKY
*There’s something more – just beyond your reach *We forgot our true greatness and magnificence
*Return to nature *Dream BIG *Give the Universe goose bumps at the way you live your life
*This is your moment, your time *Come play, be willing and carefree *Be the guru of your own heart
*Don’t look for shortcuts to God *I am another YOU *Do you know how truly blessed you are
*Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, the God who conceived me in love
*Do something so magnificent that the Universe bursts into applause *Prayer is celestial conversation between me and love and union with Divine Essence *When I know myself, I know God *Love is surrendering to the ONE
A couple of days after my paragliding, I was cleaning my bathroom and packing boxes to move, I heard a song on the radio that brought me to tears and confirmed my experience and that I am loved and safe.
“I will lift you up over the mountain and over the valleys. I will carry you on the wings of the angels. There is nothing that will keep you from my love. My heart surrounds you on the wings of the angels, you will rise high above everything and I will make everything right.”
I want to give the Universe goose bumps at the way I live my life. How about you? If you only had a few minutes left to live, have you lived your dream and have you come to earth to do what you wanted to do?
Thank you God for the opportunity to practice everything I teach. It is easy to live in gratitude when things are going “my way” or the way I think they should go. It is not so easy to be grateful when plans are changed mid-stream. That is where the rubber hits the road, if you will. For many years, I have been living my life trusting God to open and close doors when I don’t know what’s ahead of me. It has always worked, even though at the time, I don’t understand why the door is closed.
This morning I received an email from my landlord telling me that he was sorry but plans had changed regarding leaving my boxes and belongings in the bedroom, while construction was going on in the house. Of course, my initial reaction was disappointment because it meant that I would have to get a storage unit and move twice until I find my new home-or it finds me. I made a decision to trust God and immediately became grateful for “what is” and the closed door in my face.
As I sat to meditate, I heard the small still voice of God say, “I am using you as my instrument to teach others what you do as a woman of faith, so they can do the same thing.” I then remembered an email I received from my friend, Linda, in response to last week’s blog. “Pat, this was your best blog ever. You know, what you’re going through is to teach others, and you’re doing an incredible job! I’ll bet you’ll get a raise after this assignment.” It is a humbling experience being God’s instrument and sharing the highs and the lows of building my faith muscles. But I would have it no other way and I am grateful that God has chosen me for this assignment!
I looked at a place to rent last week. There were many things I liked about it, especially the lanai with an ocean view. I loved the landlord and I could afford the rent. The problem was that it was very small and didn’t have a stove. I thought, “Well, I can always get a small oven and make it work.” The other problem was that it didn’t have a sink in the bathroom and I would have to use the kitchen sink to wash up. I was willing to make it work if that was God’s will for me. I prayed and asked God to close the door if that wasn’t my right and perfect place. I felt relieved when the door was closed because a bathroom without a sink and a mirror just wouldn’t work for this girl! Anyone that knows me knows I love my mirror!
I shared last week that I felt stressed and fearful because I didn’t know where I was going to move to. Today, I am happy to say that I feel “surrendered” and peaceful. I didn’t realize that I hadn’t surrendered until I actually surrendered and the peace returned. I wanted it “my way” and was struggling and fighting the reality of what was going on-not having a place to move right into when my lease was up.
I asked myself, “What does it mean to surrender?” It means that I stop fighting inside and say, “Okay God, you get in the driver’s seat and drive the car. I don’t know the way and what is ahead, but you do. You take over and I will stay in the passenger’s seat. I can relax and enjoy the scenery when I am in the driver’s seat- how much better can it get than that?. I am excited about the adventure before me and know God is preparing something wonderful for me. Could a delay be just a way God is showing me a better way? It really is about saying YES to whatever is showing up in my life.
That day, I received a quote from Abraham that spoke to my heart. “Say yes to whatever it is. Because if you say yes to it and then you get in the middle of it, and you say, “Uh oh, this isn’t really turning out the way I wanted it to,” then out of that is born another desire. And as you say yes to that, then it turns out. And you say, “Well, it’s still not quite right.” So you have another desire… Until eventually you get it exactly right. You cannot get it wrong. No creation is ever complete. Just do it.”
My friend, Louise, wrote, “It is incredible the blessings that have been attracted to you and how they came. Amazing when your flight was delayed several days, what unfolded. Thank you for sharing all the bright light. Now, as God, Spirit, Infinite Universe prepares for your move, a beauty is unfolding as vibrant as the energy you radiant. I am picturing lots of color that you love so much. Sparkling colors that are also very Earth oriented, as Maui so gracefully displays, are guiding you. Count me in on your Team!”
Thank you, Louise, for reminding me about what happened when my flight was cancelled in January and the miracle that happened. Often when things don’t go the way we expect them to go, there is a reason for the delay. I don’t know yet why I have to wait for the right and perfect home to “show up” and that is okay. I trust that I will know when I need to know. And it will be better than I could ever have imagined.
I have to be out of my ohana in 8 days. Friends have helped me pack boxes and get ready to move. I am moving in with my dear friend, Jodene, for 2 weeks and my friends, Patrick and Nicole, called and offered their home for me to stay in after that. My friend, Ali, wrote, “Count me in as one of your angels and team members. Thank you for taking care of yourself and sharing who you are with us. If it’s God’s plan for you to move out before you have a final rental, Bob and I would be delighted to have you sleep on our couch/live with us for free for up to two weeks. After all, it would be like having an angel moving in with us.”
Thank you for your prayers, encouragement, emails and offers to stay at your home while I am waiting for my right and perfect home to “show up.” My heart is full of gratitude for the love I am experiencing from all of you.
Have suitcase, will travel! I have my “giant” suitcase packed and will just wheel it right in to your home. What an adventure and so much fun to be walking in faith and getting out of the driver’s seat.
During meditation this morning, I imagined myself picking people for my team. I remember as a child when the captain of each team picked who they wanted to be on their teams. How horrible it felt if you were picked last.
Instead of team mates, I imagined myself picking words to be on my team and support me on my spiritual journey. I picked 11 words or values starting with Love, Trust, Peace, Joy, Contentment, Freedom, Happiness, Hope, Gratitude, Prayer and Faith. I then imagined myself, as the captain of the team, in the middle of a huddle doing a cheer together. As a cheerleader in high school, this was easy for me to imagine. The cheer was “The team is in the middle, the captain is at the head, they all got together and this is what they said, T.E.A.M. go TEAM go.” I felt so safe and protected being in the middle of the huddle. Perhaps it is also like being in the middle of all the angels and our loved ones.
This visualization reminded me that I am the captain of my life and my team. My team is there to support me and they are dedicated to my success. They want me to win and will do what I direct them to do. In order for them to support me, I must know what I want and then be able to communicate what I want them to do. Do you have a team of supportive people and do you feel protected and loved?
To be the captain of my team means I must be responsible for my life, my thoughts, feelings, actions and choices. I can surround myself with people who are supportive and loving or with people who are energy vampires. I can surround myself with all the values that I chose for my team and call upon them at any time when I need them.
It has been an interesting week and I have spent quite a bit of time alone and going within, remembering what has happened in the past and listening to what Spirit is saying to me today. As I shared last week, I am looking for a new home and there are decisions I have to make. Do I need to make provisions for a storage unit for my furniture and where will I live if I don’t find a place before the end of the month?
As the days tick off, and it gets closer to the end of the month, I am constantly in prayer and choosing trust instead of worry and fear. Have I felt fear? Yes I have. I wrote in my journal one morning that I felt like a little girl who wanted her daddy to take care of her because I didn’t feel strong.
I have surrounded myself with beautiful, supportive, loving beings on my team. I have asked for prayer and help when I needed it. I am doing all I know to do and it’s up to God to do the rest. I know that God is working behind the scenes and preparing the perfect and right place for me to live. I am acting “as if” and packing boxes and cleaning my ohana. I know the miracle is around the corner as I let go and trust.
In prayer, I heard God say to “REST, instead of pushing and rushing. Give your fears to me and have faith that you are being taken care of. Let go of worrying about HOW your needs will be met because I will take care of all the details. Be open to receiving gifts and help from other people.”
Has this ever happened to you? One minute you are full of peace, knowing all is well and the next minute you are so stressed that the tears are pouring out of you and you just want to crawl up in a ball and go to sleep? Perhaps just the human condition! When I’m feeling like this, it is an invitation not to judge myself, but to love and accept myself just the way I am. It is not only an invitation to be gentle and to love myself, but to allow others to love me when I’m feeling so vulnerable and weak. To strengthen my faith, I have been carrying a heart shaped stone that says FAITH on it. Whenever my faith is shaky, I just put my hand in my pocket and peace returns. Today, I found a small rock that said, TRUST so that is in my other pocket.
Years ago, when I worked as an alcohol and drug therapist, I had a patient who had real difficulty with the concept of God and a Higher Power. He truly wanted to believe, but it took time for him to get there. I gave him a rock to carry with him and he called it his “Pocket God.” He said, “Pat, until I am able to believe, I will carry in my pocket Pats “Pocket God.” In time, through this small act of faith, he found his own Higher Power.
My own experience this week reminded me of what happened with my client. I told my friend, Kati, “My faith is shaky, please pray for me. I am not feeling like a woman of faith today.” She said, “I know who you are, I will remember for you, until you can remember again.” Sometimes, I just need another person who believes in me to hold that for me until I get aligned with Spirit again and know the truth of who I am and who God is in my life.
What I know about the spiritual life is that it is about progress and not perfection. I pray, ask for help, let go, trust, surrender, do a gratitude list and feel my feelings. I don’t have to pretend that a woman of faith doesn’t have fear. I am trusting that I am moving through it and will come out the other side stronger, brighter and lighter.
I want to stay in the middle of the huddle, with my team of angels and loved ones surrounding me. I know I am protected and God is showering us with divine love. I hold Love, Trust, Peace, Joy, Contentment, Freedom, Happiness, Hope, Gratitude, Prayer and Faith in my heart.
Thank you or praying for me, reaching out to me and offering your home for me to stay until I find my right and perfect home. Thank you for being on my team. GO TEAM GO.
I am Fearless and Free – Daily Word
I am an overcomer. I am bold and fearless. My indomitable inner power comes not from my ego, but from the power of God within me – for God and I are one. All my accomplishments are the result of a TEAM effort. With God as my partner, no one or no thing can defeat me.
Life is about change and change is inevitable. You may be in the process of changing a job, a relationship, a belief, a dress size or where you live. It is a fact and it is our attitude and perception about change that makes the difference in our lives.
Do you worry, feel afraid and is your mind like a blender when you sense change is approaching or do you see it as an adventure to grow and invite something new into your life? Sometimes we have no control over the change that is coming upon us and at other times, we know the change is coming and we can try to prepare ourselves. We cannot control when a loved one dies suddenly or when we have an accident that totals our car.
That is why I love the Serenity Prayer. “God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference.”
All I can change is me and the choices I make in each moment. I can choose to trust God and believe everything will work out for my highest good and will flow with peace, ease and grace or I can choose to worry and think the worse will happen. This is what I call “future tripping.”
I don’t know about you but when I realize I have a choice about my attitude, I want to choose peace and love over fear and worry. I may have to choose it several times a day when I become aware that I am in the energy of worry or fear.
What works for me is to REMEMBER. I remember who I am as a child of the Universe and I remember where I came from. I choose to remember what has happened in the past and how it ALWAYS worked out for the best and at the right and perfect time. Not always my time, probably never my time, but always God’s time.
As I reflect back on the last 38 years of my awakening and spiritual path, I remember the doors that have opened and closed when it wasn’t for my highest good because I kept believing and trusting God. I used to think I was being “tested” when things didn’t go as I wanted them to go. I don’t believe that any more. I believe that whatever is before me is an invitation for my faith to grow and be strengthened. That feels so much more loving.
In January 2012, God invited me to move to Maui for 6 months. The plan was to rent my condo in Rhode Island and to find a place to live when I moved to Maui. When I made the decision to do this, I bought my round trip airline ticket, but didn’t have anyone to rent my condo nor did I have a place to live in Maui when I got there. I trusted, believed and kept repeating my mantra, “Thank you God for the right and perfect place to live that will flow with peace, ease and grace.” I know it was God’s grace because I truly was peaceful and knew that it would work out perfectly.
And it did, of course! Just a few weeks before I left for Maui, I found the perfect and right tenant. Her name was Carrie Ann and she was from my church. She had just moved to the area from California. I felt total trust in her and never worried a minute about my place while I was in Maui. She loved my home as if it were her own. Her mother died while she was there and she told me it was like her sanctuary and a very healing place for her to live.
The same thing happened in Maui. Just a few weeks before I was scheduled to leave for Maui, I received a phone call from a woman named, Pat, inviting me to stay with her and her husband. For 6 months I lived with Bob and Pat in a beautiful condo on the ocean for $300 a month. Now that is God.
So here I am today in that same place of believing and trusting God for the right and perfect place to live. I have been living in my ohana for a year and a half. It has truly been a safe, sacred and beautiful place to live.
Recently, my friend, Kati, had to move and she had only 2 weeks to find a place to live. Kati is also a woman of faith and she believed her new home would show up easily and effortlessly, which it did – 3 days later. I went with her to look at the first and only ohana she looked at. I fell in love with the spaciousness and view of the ocean from the lanai.
When I walked into my ohana that night, something had shifted inside of me and I was quite surprised. I felt “closed in” and a sense of constriction that I hadn’t experienced before. My arms literally crossed over my chest and I immediately opened my arms wide to receive. I knew that I didn’t want to live there anymore and that my time there was complete. My lease was up at the end of February and I planned on telling my landlord that I would not be renewing my lease. Instead, a couple of days before I returned to Rhode Island my landlord informed me that they would not be renewing my lease because they had plans to do construction on the house. I was so grateful that God had prepared my heart and that I had made the decision to move, rather than feeling like I was being kicked out.
I know what I want in my new home and I have put it out to the Universe. I will continue to trust and believe that what God has done in the past, He will do in the present. I’ve read a few chapters in my book to help me REMEMBER all the “moving” miracles showing up at the perfect and right time.
Although I am told that this is the “worst” time to be looking for a place to rent due to it being “high season” and there hasn’t been anything on Craigslist, I will continue to use my mantra, “Thank you God for the right and perfect place to live that will flow with peace, ease and grace. My faith is being strengthened, for sure and I look forward to sharing how my new home “shows up” in God’s perfect and right timing. I woke up in the middle of the night and started to think about finding a place. I heard God say, “Go back to sleep and let me worry about finding it.” I said, “Okay and immediately fell back to sleep.
Thank you for your energy and prayers concerning finding my new home. I have 3 weeks before my lease is up. Stay tuned and I look forward to sharing the story with you.
I experienced a miracle today that I would like to share with you. Today is the 6th anniversary of my daughter-in-law Suzie’s death. When I woke up in the morning, I asked that I would experience Suzie’s presence today. I had an appointment for a massage with my friend, Marise, the day before, but she had to cancel and reschedule for today. We set up the massage table (which I just bought that morning) on my lanai in front of my house. It was a peaceful setting with the beautiful flowers and the birds singing their song. I felt so relaxed and felt like I was in heaven when she finished the massage. When I opened my eyes she told me about the butterfly that “showed up.” I asked Marise to write her experience.
“As the session was winding down and I was closing the etheric energy fields around Pat’s body. I heard a voice (this is not entirely unusual), however, I had not heard such a voice so clear before and it came in the image of the Blessed Mary, this was unusual for me. She said, “place your left hand on Pat’s soul spot and cub your right hand over the crown.” I did exactly as I was instructed. While holding those two positions, I felt the Divine flooding through the space, and then something caught my eye. I looked up at the green bushes above Pat’s head and there was an orange butterfly, fluttering its wings like a happy song, it flew around the top of the table and then circled Pat’s head. I instinctively wanted to hold the butterfly and show Pat on her awakening, however, it flew back to the bush and disappeared. After a deep breath of gratitude for the moment, I then shared it with Pat. Later when I was at home, I was struck by the memory of the amount of light that had streamed from Pat’s eyes.”
Of course, Marise had no idea that today was Suzie’s anniversary and that I had asked to feel her presence. The tears poured out of me because I knew I had a visitation from Suzie. This was not the first time she has “showed up” for me.
In January 2008, my daughter- in- law Suzie was dying of brain cancer. She was diagnosed with stage 4 breast cancer in September 2006. I remember the phone call as if it were yesterday. Time stood still as my emotions swirled around in the pit of my stomach. I wanted to be reassuring, but words wouldn’t come out of my mouth at first. I took a deep breath and said, “Suzie, everything is going to be alright.” When I hung up the phone, I dropped to the floor and sobbed. “God, how could this be happening, she is only 35 years old.” Fear enveloped me and I couldn’t move. I don’t know how long I stayed there, but it seemed like forever.
Family and close friends surrounded her bed, offering prayers and words of comfort hours before she passed away. Suzie was in and out of consciousness for several hours and often opened her eyes and said, “I love you.” You could see the anguish and pain on her face as she struggled to let go. After she passed away, we sobbed and held one another tightly. We would no longer see her smile and laugh with her. Although my heart was broken, it brought me solace to see the peace on Suzie’s face. She looked like an angel. I’m grateful Suzie allowed me to be part of this sacred experience of death and new life. I believe her spirit is with God as she continues to live on.
The next morning after praying and meditating, I asked God for strength and the grace to be there for my son and grandchildren. I allowed myself to feel my feelings rather than run from them. I sobbed uncontrollably as the feelings of sadness, disappointment and anger pierced my heart and soul. I randomly chose an “Angel card.” I picked the Angel of Transformation. There stood a magnificent Angel holding a butterfly in her hand. Suzie’s symbol was the butterfly.
A half hour after my prayer, Suzie graced me with her presence and love. As I walked outside and stood on the balcony with the sun shining brightly on my face, suddenly a butterfly came from out of nowhere and encircled my head for a few minutes. I couldn’t move as my heart pounded deep within my chest.
There is a legend that the first butterfly you see after a loved one dies is their spirit coming to you to let you know they are safe. Whenever I see a butterfly, I sense Suzie’s presence around me. Here it is 6 years later and on the anniversary of her death, she comes again to greet me and let me know she is safe.
Thank you Suzie for “showing up” for me again today in the form of the butterfly.
The next day as I was cleaning out my closet, I found a book of inspirational poems and sayings that Suzie had lovingly made for me the year before she died. It was such a delight to read them and ponder their meanings. There was a picture in the book of Suzie and my 2 grandchildren taken right before she died. I held the picture to my heart as the tears flowed down my cheeks.
I rarely go on Facebook, but for some reason that night, I clicked it on. As I was scrolling down to see all the updates, I spotted the same picture of Suzie and my grandsons that I found that morning in the book. The picture was put on there by her sister. What are the odds of that happening?
We are all spiritual beings and all connected to the one Source. I would love for you to share with me how your loved ones who have passed over to the other side have reappeared and made their presence known to you.
Mother Maui welcomed me with open arms. After experiencing the “cold snap” in Rhode Island, the warm sunshine felt so good on my face and I couldn’t wait to take my shoes off and walk the beach.
I jumped back into my life head first as I prepared for the workshop, “Radical Abundance: Creating the Life You Want.” It was held at Kaunoa Senior Center in Maui. What a wonderful group of women showed up – the oldest at the ripe age of 97. Her name was Pat and what an amazing spirit and attitude she had. I want to be like her when I grow up. She danced and shared her light with all of us.
I am continually amazed what happens “when I get out of the way” and let Spirit have its way. Of course, I planned a schedule for the day, but I am always open to listen to Spirit when a change is needed. While in prayer and meditation the morning of the workshop, I sensed God wanted me to do the forgiveness meditation and exercise that I had done in other workshops. This was not a part of “MY PLAN” but I listened and put it into the schedule for the day. As I reflect on the day and the comments from the women after the workshop, this was the most powerful part of the day.
When the forgiveness exercise was completed, I wanted to play a song called, “Be Gentle with Myself” but couldn’t get the tape recorder to get to that song (number 5) so I just started with the first song. When the exercise was over, we all stood in a circle holding hands and lo and behold, “Be Gentle with Myself” started playing. I couldn’t have planned it better. What a lesson in trusting and letting go of my plans. The workshop was a great success and I have another one scheduled in a few months.
I love to see what happens when I listen to the voice of Spirit and not question the “WHY” I am led to do something. A couple of days before I traveled to Rhode Island I went to my bank to withdraw some money. The tellers at the back are so friendly and always comment on the jewelry I am wearing. This one particular day, I got into a conversation with Diane and she told me she worked with the youth in her church. I was led to tell her about my book, “Simply a Woman of Faith.” She said, I would love to read it.” I told her I had a book in the car and wanted to know if she wanted to buy one. She said, “I will have to pray about it.” I said, “Okay.” As I walked to my car, I heard God say, “Give her your book as a gift.” I grabbed a book from the car and walked back into the bank to give her the book. I said, “God wants you to have the book as a gift.” She was so touched and thanked me profusely.
A few days ago, I went back to my bank to deposit some checks. When I walked in, Diane got so excited and said, “I knew you would be back. I wanted to call you, but I decided to wait because you were going to the mainland. I loved your book and have told everybody about you and your book. In fact, my minister wants to meet you. When I finished your book, I gave the book to Juanita, the teller next to me and she loved it too and is going to send it to her son. She was so touched because her mother died a few years ago and her mother’s name was also “Honey.” Juanita was off that day.
I shared in last week’s blog how my mother “showed up” for me on New Year’s Day when I received the “HONEY” packets from Starbucks. I heard God say, “I want you to go to the bank and give one of the “HONEY” packets to Juanita tomorrow. I didn’t question it and said, “Okay God, I will do that.”
When I walked into the bank, Juanita spotted me immediately and quickly came from behind the counter to greet me and give me a big hug. She had tears in her eyes and said, “I loved your book and am sending it to my son to read. I have to tell you what happened because you are not going to believe this. I started to read your book immediately when Diane gave it to me at the bank. On my lunch hour that same day, I went to the Salvation Army to browse around. I went to the book section and there staring me in the face was a brand new copy of your book for one dollar.” My jaw dropped open and I had “chicken skin” as they call it in Maui. What are the odds of her finding my book at that perfect and right time when she needed it? I call it a “Godincidence.”
After she told me the story, I smiled and said, “I have a gift for you from God.” Now her jaw dropped open as the tears flowed down her cheeks when I handed her the HONEY packet. She was visibly shaken up and touched by the gesture. As I left she said, “You made my day and I feel so lifted up. I know my mother came to me today.”
I have learned to listen to that “small still voice of God” within or intuition. Whatever you may call it, it doesn’t matter, what is important is that you trust it and follow the guidance. It does take practice and a willingness to get out of your comfort zone and letting go of worrying what others will think of you.
It is such a joy to experience daily miracles and see what unfolds when I step out in faith and let go of my plans. I guess that is why I am called, “Simply a Woman of Faith.”
For many years, it has been my belief that God guides us through open and closed doors. When I don’t know what’s best for me, I pray that God open or close the door. It always works- even though I may not like it at first!
I wasn’t expecting God to close the door in my face on Monday as I prepared to travel back home to Maui. I was all dressed and packed at 6 a.m. when I received a phone call from my friend, Ruth, who was already at the airport traveling to Maui. She said, “Pat, do you know the airport is closed due to weather conditions? I was able to get a flight out tomorrow.” I quickly opened my email and sure enough, my flight had been cancelled and was rescheduled for 5 days later. I thought I was seeing things because I had never heard of rescheduling a flight for 5 days later. I tried to call the airlines, but there were so many cancellations they weren’t answering the phones.
Everything that I have been teaching and practicing “kicked in” and I immediately went inside, surrendered to “what is” and prayed, “Okay, God, what do you want me to do?” I knew I had a choice. I could complain and moan or I could trust and thank God that I attracted this into my life for my highest good and there was a reason for the closed door. I chose to be grateful and trusted good would come from the closed door.
I called my best friend, Carole, and asked if I could stay at her house for a few days. She immediately said, “Yes.” I called another friend, Glenn, and left a message asking if he could drive me to Carole’s house that morning because I didn’t have a car. He called me back and said, “Yes, I have time this morning and I would be happy to drive you to Carole’s. What is interesting, Pat, is that last week when I looked at my schedule 3 or 4 times for the coming week, I knew I had this morning free and didn’t schedule anything in it.”
Glen picked me up a short time later and off we went to Carole’s house. On the way to Carole’s house, Glen asked if I would like to see his new home. Of course, I said, “Yes.” His beautiful honey colored cat greeted us at the door. I didn’t think much of it until he called her by name. Her name was “Honey.” My mother’s name was “Honey.”
My mother died on January 1st 48 years ago. There is a chapter in my book about my mother and how she “shows up” for me when I most need to feel her presence. Glenn looked at me, as the tears flowed down my cheeks, and we both knew “Honey” was “showing up” through his beautiful cat. My mother loved cats.
On New Year’s Day, I said to my daughter, Mary, “I wonder how my mother will “show up” for me today. A few hours later, I met my friend, Amy, at Starbucks and I ordered us both something to drink. As I was leaving the counter, the clerk handed me a small package of “Honey.” I gasped because I knew my mother was “showing up” for me. When we are open to signs from our loved ones who have passed on, they will show up.
Even though the weather outside was 1 degree when I arrived at Carole’s house, the warmth and love I received from Carole and her family was exactly what I needed. I was treated like a queen, my bath was drawn for me in the evening and coffee was served to me each morning as I prayed and meditated. I didn’t realize how exhausted I was because of all that I had processed the past 2 weeks and how I needed to rest and do nothing. Carole lives on a beautiful lake and just sitting and looking out the window every morning brought me deep peace. We get what we need, even when we don’t know we need it!
I had sent an email to the women who attended my retreat about my cancelled flight. Several of the women contacted me inviting me to stay with them. Since I didn’t have a car to get around, one of the women even offered to be my chauffer for the week. Again, I felt such love. My friend, Carrie Ann invited me to stay at her home a couple of days and then drive me to the airport at 5 a.m. on Saturday. Now that is love.
As I shared in the beginning, I knew in my spirit that there was a reason why my flight was cancelled for 5 days. I found out WHY the day before I was scheduled to leave when I ran into an old friend that I hadn’t seen in years. She opened up to me that she was at her lowest point and hadn’t shared her pain with anyone. She was feeling alone and quite distraught. I was able to listen and love her right where she was. I told her about my flight cancellation and that I knew the reason for it was that I could be there for her. It’s all good and it’s all God.
I thank God for all the love and healing I received while in Rhode Island. As I open my heart to receive, I am able to give more to others. Mother Maui welcomed me home with open arms. My friend, Karen, who stayed in my Ohana while I was in Rhode Island greeted me at the airport with a beautiful Lei and chicken soup and salad.
I am Open and Available to Receive my Good – Daily Word, January 10
An accident, a distressing diagnosis, a job loss (plane cancellation) – these are situations many of us would deem unfortunate or even disastrous. Yet, if we stay open and available to a good outcome, we find great blessings ready and waiting for us to receive. Today I am willing to see new possibilities unfold from seeming difficulty. In acceptance on my humanity, I allow myself to grieve any loss as I clear inner space to receive my good. I am restored as I open to God’s abundance. Life invites me to grow, and I am open and available to the manifestation of God’s abundant blessings at all times. As life unfolds, I look for the good in every experience.
The sun is shining brightly after the “Perfect Storm” when I returned to Rhode Island a couple of weeks ago. I shared last week in my blog that I felt like I was in a dark tunnel and needed to allow myself the space and time to feel my feelings and heal. I knew I would move through the darkness and into the light. I am happy to say that my light is shining brightly today and I have been transformed.
It is my belief that I attract everything into my life for my highest good and for my soul to grow. While I was in the storm of unhealed emotions from the past, all I could feel was pain. But I knew in my Spirit that it would pass and I would be stronger and there would be a gift from the experience.
It was not only the “Perfect Storm” within that I experienced, but there were blizzard conditions and freezing weather the day before my retreat, “Fall in Love with the Goddess Within” was scheduled. I prayed and trusted that the women would be able to get there safely and 22 women showed up ready and willing to learn how to love the Goddess within. Unfortunately, two women from Maine had to cancel due to weather conditions.
Before the retreat began, my daughter Mary (who is a wise woman) asked me a question that I had to really think about. She said, “Mom is this behavior/pattern that you’ve had for years serving you anymore?” I admitted that it wasn’t serving me anymore and I needed to let it go and change. I also knew that I needed God’s grace to change because I had tried to change the behavior, without success.
Thank you Mary for the question and thank you for opening up your home for us to have the retreat. Everyone loved your energy and especially the chicken soup you made for us to eat. The space was perfect with the wood burning stove keeping us all warm and toasty.
I decided to bring with me a small plastic bag of Goddess Laxshmi Gold Dust to share with the women on the retreat. ‘She brings golden magical energy and good fortune to your heartfelt prayers and intentions. She will help manifest that which you truly desire’ When I arrived and opened my suitcase, the plastic bag had ripped and some of the gold dust glitter was at the bottom of my bag. So, every time I took out a piece of clothing, I got glitter somewhere on me.
As each woman arrived at the retreat and I welcomed them, they were sprinkled with the gold dust. What I didn’t realize is that the gold dust not only got on the women, but landed all over the room. As we cleaned the floor the next day, Mary gave me one of those “looks” that only a daughter can give you and said, “Mom, there is glitter everywhere.” And she was right. I told her that every time she spots some gold dust glitter she can think of me and pray for me. I got another look! She also said, “Mom the next time you do a retreat here, please leave your gold dust glitter at home. I smiled and promised I would never do that again.
I had been praying for the women who had signed up for the retreat for months. I knew it was going to be a very powerful and healing retreat. The women came to the retreat as strangers and left as friends and sisters. We prayed, danced, sang, cried, shared deeply and broke bread together. It was clear that the women who attended were not new to the spiritual life, but had already done deep healing work. They were ready to receive more of God’s love and embrace themselves as Goddesses.
I have been leading retreats for over 20 years and although all of them have been special, this retreat stands out because of the authenticity and energy of the women who attended. It has taken me years to accept my gifts and allow my light to really shine as I did for this retreat. It felt awesome to BE ME and to be affirmed for the woman of faith that I am. I no longer want to play small. It is time for us Goddesses to let our lights shine in the world. Will you join me and allow your light to shine in the world?
The first exercise that we did on the retreat was to share what we wanted to let go of that no longer served us. I was the first to write on the board: “I want to let go of trying to control how my children show their love for me.” This was the awareness and gift that I received when I was in the dark tunnel. I thank God for that awareness and realization that trying to control how I was loved was no longer serving me. I am free and full of gratitude.
Here are some comments from the women:
“This retreat really let me know that I am not alone in my thoughts. I would like to keep the flow going, knowing that God loves me and will never let me be alone.”
“This was the most inspirational gathering I have ever attended. Pat’s Spirit and connection with God is contagious.”
“I am walking away feeling empowered and would now like to create a workshop to continue to empower the powerless. Pat, you have planted the seed within me.”
“I loved every minute of this retreat. I am leaving inspired, happy and full of love. I’m signing up as soon as I hear about the next retreat you are doing.”
I want to wish you all a Happy New Year from Rhode Island. I like to think about the past year and all that’s happened and to think about all I want to co-create with God in the coming year. For me, this year has been a year of “going within” to heal and to learn how to BE, rather than a human DOING. I have also learned how to really “play” and have fun and be me.
I don’t know what this year is going to look like, but I know I want to expand into the world, using my gifts for the good of all. I am excited to see what doors are going to open as I say YES to being the best I can be. I am opening my heart to receive all the love and joy that is mine.
Although I love being with my family, it can be stressful with old family dynamics playing out. I often hear people say that they are glad when the holidays are over because they are so stressful and I am no different than anyone else. The day before I came to Rhode Island, as I walked along the ocean, I felt alive, free, happy and joyful. It was my intention and prayer to show up as ME and allow my light to shine and to bring that love and joy to my family.
Have you ever prayed for something, perhaps to change an old behavior in yourself and HOW it “showed up” is not the way you thought it was going to show up? In fact, you judged the way it “showed up” as wrong and bad.
I wasn’t expecting “The Perfect Storm” to erupt in my body when I returned to Rhode Island to visit my family. I didn’t see it coming. We often think we have dealt with something from the past, but unless we deal with it on all levels (body, mind and spirit) it can come back. And it sure did! It felt like I was in a tunnel that was dark and very painful. At first, I judged myself as wrong for the feelings I was experiencing. I thought things like, “I shouldn’t be feeling these feelings after years of therapy, I thought this was healed, why is this coming up now and AGAIN?”
Thankfully, I allowed myself to think and feel whatever was coming up. I gave myself permission to stay in the tunnel for as long as needed so I could fill myself up with love. I spent time alone and rested, instead of pushing myself to do things with the family. During the quiet time, I asked myself some questions: “Was this old stuff coming up? What was mine and what was theirs? What was past and what was present? What did I need to change and own? What was the gift in all of this?”
I asked for help and allowed myself to be vulnerable, which was not an easy thing to do in the middle of the pain. I am much better sharing when something is over and I have learned my lesson and see the gift. My Spirit knew that if I allowed myself to go into the pain and even thank the pain, I would come out on the other side into the light and healed. This has always been my process and I trusted I would get through to the other side. And I did.
I have read in Dr. Dain Heer’s book, Being You, Changing the World, that being uncomfortable and in pain is an awareness that change is underfoot. I must be willing to have the intensity of pain if I am going to have the change to BE myself and show up as me (which is exactly what I had prayed for). The greater the change you choose, the more uncomfortable it may seem for a while. It’s really the way we know that the change we have been asking for is being created. We have been taught that being
uncomfortable and in pain are bad and wrong. Instead of the pain being wrong, what if this pain is the greatest rightness because it lets us know that we are headed in the direction of the change we are asking for?
One of the most common things we do is to recreate the trauma and drama that we used to function from because it is familiar and we know who we are. How many times do we have to recreate this drama before we allow ourselves to be free and show up as ourselves? I asked myself, “Am I willing to let it go and choose differently? YES I am. Today, I choose to function from living in the question, choice and possibility. I ask myself the question, “Would an infinite being choose this?”
It was amazing when I woke up the next morning after allowing myself to feel the pain and go through the dark tunnel. I felt different inside and it was like I was a new person. I felt lighter and was free to be ME. I reminded myself that what I had prayed for (to show up as ME and allow my light to shine and to bring that joy to my family) had “showed up” in a totally different way than I thought it was going to. Spirit knew what needed healing deep within for me to BE the light in my family. With the grace of God, I am letting go of past drama and choosing differently.
I received this email right after I finished this blog.
“There comes a time in your life, when you walk away from all the drama and people who create it. You surround yourself with people who make you laugh. Forget the bad and focus on the good. Love the people who treat you well, pray for the ones who don’t. Life is too short to be anything but happy. Falling down is a part of life, getting back up is living.”
Quote: “Today may there be peace within. May you trust that you are exactly where you are meant to be. May you not forget the infinite possibilities that are born in yourself and others. May you use the gifts that you have received and pass on the love that has been given to you. May you be content with yourself just the way you are. Let this knowledge settle into your bones, and allow your soul the freedom to sing, dance, praise and love. It is there for each and every one of us”.
It’s hard to believe it is already the middle of December and we will be starting a new year in a few weeks. I don’t know about you, but time is going so fast and sometimes I can’t even remember what I did the day before. This time of the year can be stressful with all the added commitments and things that need to get done that we can lose our peace – if we allow it and let it. It is our choice. This season is about love and preparing our hearts to receive the Christ presence in a deeper way.
I remind myself what is important to me and that I am responsible for the peace and pace that I bring to my life. For me, it is about being aware and living consciously in every moment. It is about loving me and knowing what I need to do for myself. I am becoming more and more aware of where and who I spend my time with. For example, I am saying NO to others when they ask to get together or ask me to do something when it doesn’t feel right inside. It is not selfish, but self-care. There was a time in my life that I couldn’t do that because I felt guilty and responsible for others feelings and didn’t want to hurt them. I heard God say to me, “What about loving you and are you hurting yourself by saying yes?” My prayer for you is that you will go inside and live consciously in every moment. As we learn to truly love ourselves, we will know how to love others.
Sometimes my life feels like a “soap opera” with God. One of my readers told me how she looks forward to Wednesdays to receive my blog to see what miracles and adventures Pat had with God that week. God always “shows up” and so do I.
I spent quite a bit of time with my grandmother when I was growing up and loved it. I remember lying on the couch on Saturday nights (while she combed my hair) and watching “The Lawrence Welk Show.” She also watched the soap opera,“As the World Turns” every day at 1:00 p.m. and I sometimes watched that with her. All I can remember is the actress “Erica.” I am really dating myself and wonder how many of you remember these shows?
Stay tuned for this week’s soap opera with God. Here we go.
Last week one of the men at the dance community bought my book for his niece and said, “I think it will help her.” When I saw him this week at the dance, he came right up to me and said, “I read your book.” I said, “How did you like it?” He said, “I liked it.” “Hmmm, what did he like about it?” I wondered to myself. When I danced with him later in the evening, I was curious and couldn’t keep my mouth shut and said, “What did you get from my book?” He looked at me rather succinctly and said, “GOD.” That was it, no more, no less. Nobody has ever answered like that before. I chuckled to myself and thought “That was the best answer I could have ever received” because all there is, is GOD. He was right on target and a man of few words.
I shared several weeks ago how I hurt my back and all the good that had already come from it. I found a wonderful chiropractor to help me heal and I met his wife Dr. Kim, who is also a chiropractor and the author of, “The Power to Heal Yourself.” It was Dr. Kim who informed me that her patient invited her to a book signing and it was my book they were reading. The book club is this Sunday and I have been invited to join them.
I felt led to get to know Dr. Kim and asked her to go out for lunch. We have already been out twice and she is such a delight and woman of faith. In fact, we are planning to do a retreat together in April of next year. How much better can it get than this?
I was thrilled and honored when Dr. Kim wanted to buy 10 of my books as gifts for her friends and family. I brought the books with me when we met for lunch today. I was signing 3 of my books at the table while we waited for the food to come. It was a Korean-Chinese restaurant and the waitress and Dr. Kim spoke Korean. Of course, I couldn’t understand a word they were saying. The waitress asked Dr. Kim, “How come there are 3 books on the table?” Dr. Kim explained that I wrote the book and I was signing them for her friends and family. The waitress asked to look at one of the books. She looked through it quickly and said, “Can I buy one of the books?” Of course, I said yes and a couple of minutes later she was back with the money.
I love living and BEING in the flow. I am grateful for all the good and people who have showed up in my life. I never know what the day is going to bring, but my eyes and heart are open to miracles, adventure and whatever else “shows up.” I know that I attract everything into my life for my highest good and for my soul to grow. I also know that God has me covered!
Alan Cohen writes, “There are no accidents. Coincidences are just miracles to which God wishes to remain anonymous. Chance plays no part in God’s plan. Everything and everyone shows up in your life at the invitation of your thoughts and intentions. Cohen, Wisdom Heart, 2002Sometime
I want to wish you all peace and joy as you prepare your hearts this season for love.
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