Being Honest with Myself, God and another Person
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God is good and it’s all good! Many people have commented over the years to me, “You have so much faith and courage, how did you get it?” In my divine downloads, I share not only the magical moments and how I manifest many of my dreams, but the personal challenges and opportunities for growth, especially in my journey to Maui. Faith is built and strengthened often in the darkness because that is where we learn to trust God and ourselves more deeply. My desire is that your faith be strengthened, by reading about what I do to increase my faith.
God continues to “show up” in the morning when I sit and pray and see multiple beautiful rainbows across the sky. I am provided for at yard sales and Maui’s finest boutique “Sally’s” (aka Salvation Army.) For example: In just the few weeks that I have been here, I have received a new turquoise bathing suit, Puma sneakers, curtains for my bedroom, shorts, tops, head phones, brand new water shoes for snorkeling, sexy sun dresses and the list goes on. I don’t want for anything and it is such a thrill to find exactly what I want when I need it, and all for a great price. When I get home from my various adventures, I can look out and see the whales jumping in the ocean from my condo, and I have been on 2 Whale Watches since I have been here that have been breathtaking.
As you know I love to speak and give seminars and joining Toastmasters had been a great way for me to develop my skills and make friends who share my interests. Last week my friend Marti picked me up to join her for a Toastmaster’s meeting, and of course, she wanted to know what was going on since I moved to Maui. Before I went, I had decided that I wasn’t going to share with her that I was struggling. But as I started to share, it just came out – I wasn’t doing that great. I had some low energy for a couple of days and was feeling fear, impatience and a desire to control came up that I needed to release. As I have shared in other downloads, coming to Maui will bring up all your stuff and Mother Maui will “spit you out” if you are not meant to be here! Since I was basking in paradise, this emotional place was not where I wanted to be. Instead of having fun, what was coming up to be healed seemed like work. I was feeling conflicted because I know that life is to be enjoyed and my goal is to have fun while learning my lessons.
After the meeting on the way home, Marti thanked me for my honesty and sharing what was really going on in my life. I reflected on this and why I didn’t want to share with her in the first place. I wanted to look good, not feel vulnerable and I didn’t want to be judged (not that she would have judged me.) This is what was going on in my head (which can be a bad place to be sometimes). I found myself thinking things like “God has opened the door for you to come to Maui. You have a beautiful place to live. How could you not be doing great. What’s wrong with you?” Talk about self-sabotaging thoughts and behaviors. I knew I needed to change my thinking and fast!
I really appreciate it when my friends are honest with me and share their struggles. I feel honored and blessed to be there for them. I trust that they feel the same with me and want to be there for me when I need them. I strive to be authentic in all of my relationships. I am not saying to go around and be an open book to everyone you meet, but you can learn to discern and choose who is trustworthy and who has your best interests at heart. I did call my close friends, shared my struggle and asked for prayer. I know their love and prayers helped tremendously because I felt a shift inside of me.
My f faith is strengthened in many ways but the lesson for me today is to be honest with myself about what I am feeling, and also to be honest with God and another human being. And most importantly, to ask for help when I need it and allow myself to receive the love that is there for me. I am grateful for my daily lessons, for my renewed faith and for the people who love and support me on my faith walk.
After reflecting on all of this, I opened to this in prayer this morning when I picked up “Until Today” by Iyanla Vanzant
I am faith-filled and fear-free because….I know what to do without doing anything at all. You don’t have to do anything to get your good in life. You must, however, be open to receive it. For some of us receiving is much more difficult than doing, because we think we know what is required to earn our good. Earning puts you in control. Your doing is motivated by the belief that the more you do, the more you will get. Receiving means trusting that God is aware of what you need, desire and deserve. Deserving is a function of being. Being open! Being clear! Being grateful! Being focused! Being committed! Being Faithful, and being willing to receive. Being is a state of consciousness developed through unwavering faith and trust. You trust that you will always have what you need, and that is the foundation of your faith.”
And so it is! Aloha
Going Deeper With God
As I stood at the point overlooking the ocean, while waiting for the beautiful sun to set a couple of nights ago, I was mesmerized by the many turtles popping up their heads and then going back down into the ocean. Turtles are one of my symbols that God often speaks to me through. Turtles know when to stick their heads out, take a risk, move forward and they know when to go within, rest and do nothing and head back down to the bottom of the ocean. Or at least it seems like they are doing nothing. But what is really going on when they are resting, I pondered? It appeared to me that they trust themselves and always knew what to do next. I thought to myself, “Is it that simple to just trust myself – to know when to act and when to rest and do nothing? What was God trying to teach me about through the turtles?
In prayer the next morning, I asked myself “Am I willing to go within, stay quiet, do nothing and trust…….that my answers are within and that everything I need is within?” I realized that I was willing to do that up to a point, but then I get tempted to get the show on the road – even if I don’t know what to do next. I became aware that I didn’t trust myself (or God) completely because it just didn’t make sense to do nothing. It’s frustrating and uncomfortable to do nothing in regards to my heart’s desires. I took action all of my life, set goals, made lists and I succeeded in reaching my goals. Now, here I was being invited to rest, trust and do nothing. I also heard God say, “I want you to go deeper with me and let me fill you with my love.”
I know what it is like to live in fear, do nothing and stay stuck, but this felt very different. I was making a choice. What if my intuition, my gut and God, (which I believe are the same) were saying – don’t take action, stay still, in essence do nothing and let me bring the desires of your heart to you, just enjoy the beauty around you and just BE. Was that one of the reasons God called me to Maui, to learn to trust and love myself and God more completely – even if it doesn’t make sense to the outside world or to me?
I took a few books to Maui with me and one of them was a small book called “Faith” by A.C. Ping. I hadn’t read it in several years, but felt led to throw it in my suitcase. When I sat down to pray this morning, I remembered this book and took it with me to pray. I randomly opened to a chapter called Nothing is happening, or is it? I couldn’t believe it! God was speaking to me again and assuring me that I was right where I needed to be.
Here is a paragraph that spoke to my heart:
“One of the most frustrating times along the spiritual path occurs when NOTHING seems to be happening. Not only do we have lots of time to think, but at the same time people keep asking you “What’s happening?” On the surface nothing seems to be happening, but underneath a great shift is occurring. Instead of feeling frustrated, it may be that life is giving you a safe place to rest and gather your energy for the journey ahead. You may not be able to see which way to go, but if you sit patiently, have faith that life has meaning and wait until the mist clears, you may find that one day you wake up to a bright blue sky that reveals a clear path leading to an even more beautiful mountain than the one you just climbed. The temptation will be to run around in the mist searching for guidance. But this will wear you out and until you stop and rest, no further path will be revealed to you until you have the energy to attempt the next climb. Trust that although nothing seems to be happening on the surface, a whole lot is happening below the surface.”
After my prayer, I felt loved, reassured, peaceful and surrendered. I spent the day at the Ritz Carlton Hotel enjoying the beauty around me and quietly swinging in the hammock. I have a picture of being served fresh fruit as I sat at the pool reading my book. On my way back home, I took pictures with my new phone and just love the butterfly on the flower.
Let us all learn from the turtle, that it is safe and necessary to rest and go to the bottom of the ocean. When it is time to take action and put our heads out, we will do that with peace, ease and grace. God invites us all to go deeper, to rest and trust in ourselves that we are being led and will know what to do next in our lives. Aloha
God’s Divine Highway
I took a wrong turn and found myself veering off of God’s Divine Highway. I was sailing along, enjoying every minute of the journey, being in the present moment and then I LOST my peace. I was lost in some of the old beliefs and feelings. I don’t know why I took the wrong turn when everything was going so well. I was at church, of all places, when I found myself comparing myself to the guest speaker. I didn’t spot it immediately as I sometimes do, but this low energy kind of lingered throughout the day until I sat down to pray, meditate and journal. I wrote and wrote until I recognized the core belief of not feeling good enough. Comparing is deadly and I know that so I was surprised this was coming up. Whenever I compare myself with another, I either feel better than or less than.
Before I moved to Maui I was warned that all of your “stuff” would come up. I felt a little smug and thought I had worked for so many years on my stuff already, I was safe. Silly me, I should have known better because whenever we are being called to a higher level of consciousness or some big change is occurring in our lives, our stuff comes up. If I am honest, even though I don’t like it at first, I welcome my “stuff” coming up because I want to be the best me I can be, so I can serve and be a vessel for God in the purest way. I was sharing this with my son about “stuff” coming up and he reminded me that this is 2012 and this is happening to many people now. I am grateful that I am here in Maui where there is so much love and healing.
I know that change is good, but it can be scary. I was feeling some old insecurity reemerge as I started over again in Maui; and began meeting new people, living in a new place and leaving my home, family and friends. I asked myself, “Am I willing to walk through the discomfort of the unknown to embrace my greatness and follow God? Am I willing to stay in the place of mystery of “not knowing what’s next” without trying to control and make things happen? When I sat down to pray, I heard God say, “I want you to trust me more.” Like many of you “I want what I want when I want it.” Sound familiar? God also said, “Ease into your new life, rather than rushing into it.”
I read this in prayer this morning: “Do not fear what appears to be a change or a loss in your life. Embrace it as evidence that you are alive. Embrace your deepest emotions as a signal of your true human essence. What appears to be a loss is the beginning of a happy new phase. Change is scary and often contrary to what we want. It is always a call to be aware and to awaken to a conscious state of being. Today I boldly step forward and embrace change as my ally.”
Are you experiencing a change or loss in your life and is it bringing up your stuff? Do you lose your peace when you try to manipulate situations and control other people, when you compare yourself to others, judge or blame someone for your unhappiness, when you want your will rather than God’s will or when you are not willing to wait for God’s divine timing? Be willing to trust God that all is well and release whatever it is that is not working and get back on “God’s Divine Highway.”
I am happy to say that I am back on God’s Divine Highway, enjoying peace and dancing my way through life one day at a time. When I was in Belize Mexico, last month, I bought a CD with great dancing music on it. I play the CD when I take my daily walk and feel like I am in my own little world. I dance to the beat, clap my hands and shake my hips as I walk. Can you picture it? Today, a man stopped me, smiled and started to clap his hands with me and I have even had a few men wave to me as they go by in their cars. Now that brings a smile to my face and joy bubbles up in my heart. Aloha
Daily Word
“Today I release. Quietly and confidently, I yield to divine direction. In letting go of old thoughts and behaviors, I feel a deep sense of peace. As I rest in the awareness that God is with and within me, my inner compass is directed in the way I should go. I am filled with deep assurance and contentment, for I know that I am being directed by Spirit. Today I let go and let God’s life and love flow through every cell of my body. Today I let go and let God direct my thinking, my speech and my activities. Today I place my trust in God, and all is well.”
I Walk in Beauty……
I walk in beauty amidst the turtles, butterflies, flowers, birds, mountains, waterfalls, sunshine, whales, rainbows and the ocean. It is in this place of beauty and love that I am experiencing the presence and power of God. I grew up with the belief that “suffering” was good because it brought me closer to God. Certainly during those times of trials and tribulations, I did experience God’s love and protection. But, my thinking has changed about suffering…..today I believe that God wants only my good and that His favor is upon me every day. God wants me to be happy, peaceful, prosperous and abundant. I had to let go of the old beliefs and guilt so that I would be open to RECEIVE all the good that is planned for me. I realize that over the years I blocked my good and what God wanted for me because I didn’t feel deserving or worthy.
I believe living in Hawaii and walking in the beauty that surrounds me is a result of changing my thinking and knowing that I am deserving and worthy. Hawaii is like living in paradise and I keep pinching myself that I am really living on the ocean in Maui. When I take my walks in the morning I have a perpetual smile on my face and I say good morning to everyone.
When God placed the idea in my mind to move to Maui for 6 months while I was here last September, I remember very clearly writing in my journal, “Yes, why can’t I do this?” As I prayed daily for guidance and confirmation, I received messages through my angel and Goddess cards that this was God’s plan and that God was inviting me to take a leap of faith. Even before returning home, I called my children and told them I was going to move to Hawaii for 6 months.
As I ponder the last few months, I know it was God’s grace, and on the wings of prayer, that I had the courage to follow my dream and trust that this was God’s plan, despite the fact that I had a limited amount of resources and certainly not enough to live on in Hawaii. I did what I had to do; I sold some jewelry, my mother’s silverware and whatever else I could find that would support my trip. If I trusted God, which I did, money was not going to stop me from following the call and Divine plan for my life. I received a few small unexpected checks in the mail and the day before I left Rhode Island, I was blessed with a substantial financial gift that will take care of all of my needs while I am living here. The best part was that I had no idea I was receiving it. All I know is that God is my source and God is faithful. When you leap, you reap! So often I hear, “I don’t have the money to do what I want.” I didn’t have the money either, but I knew in my heart that God was calling me to follow my heart and I trusted that I would be provided for. I believe God is happy when we trust and even happier to provide for us, often miraculously.
Once I said YES, the magic started to happen. When I got home from Hawaii last fall, I bought a plane ticket to return, and my daily prayer was “thank you God for the right and perfect woman to rent my home. Thank you God for the right and perfect place to live in Maui.” As I have shared in past emails, the right and perfect woman showed up on my doorstep and now Carrie Ann lives peacefully in my home. I thank God for Pat and Bob for welcoming me into their beautiful condo. This is truly the right and perfect place for me to live.
Has God placed something in your mind and heart for you to do but you don’t trust it, are afraid it is “just you,” and that you might be making things up? What are your excuses? What is the desire of your heart? Is it to start a new business, write a book, leave a job/ relationship, or move to a new place? You know what it is, for God has placed that desire in your heart. It is time to step out, because God goes before you and will provide everything you need. God is inviting you to say YES and start living the life that is destined for you. Your gifts and talents are needed in this world and the Divine is waiting for your YES. God wants you to walk in beauty and experience His power and love like you have never experienced before.
My prayer for you is that you will trust yourself and your relationship with God, and know that all will be provided when you step out in faith and follow your heart. Aloha.
I Have Landed……..Waiting For Divine Orders
Waiting has not been my favorite thing to do, but I have learned over the years that it is essential to my spiritual health and well-being to wait on God. I arrived in Maui 5 days ago and it is beyond words how grateful I feel for this opportunity and adventure. In prayer this morning, I became aware of “old behaviors” creeping in and robbing me of my peace. Rather than resting in the energy of BEING and trusting in the divine plan to unfold in its own time and own way, I felt tempted to control and make things happen. I thanked God for this awareness and strengthened my resolve to live in the moment and trust the divine plan. “By waiting and by calm, I shall be saved, in quiet and trust lies my strength.”
It’s hard to believe that only a week ago I was on a cruise ship to Mexico and here I am today writing this newsletter while sitting on my lanai, overlooking the ocean, and enjoying a glass of iced tea. The cruise was amazing and the highlight for me was winning a contest on the ship, called Dancing with the Stars. As some of you may know, Dancing with the Stars is my favorite TV show. Since dancing is my passion, winning the contest was a thrill beyond words. My partner Armand and I connected immediately as soon as we started to dance and when he lifted me up high into the air, during our last dance in the Galaxy of the Stars ball room, it felt like God was lifting me up to the heavens.
As I reflected on this experience and its deeper meaning, I remembered a dream that I had during a very difficult time I had while writing my book, where I wanted to give up. In my dream, I was climbing a set of stairs that were leading me to heaven. As I reached the top of the stairs, I saw a Star. I reached out to touch the star and then in my dream, I became the star. “I am a star that shines brightly to lead others to the God within” became my daily mantra. It is my desire to inspire others by sharing my story of God’s love and transformation with the world.
We are all stars that God is calling to shine brightly. The world needs you and your gifts. Do you believe in yourself, or do you not feel good enough? Are you letting your light shine for the world to see, or are you living in fear, not believing you have gifts to share with the world? Just like I was lifted up in the air during the dance, God wants to lift you up and give you all you need to live your dream. You are a star that shines brightly to lead others to the God within.
Through the grace of God, I learned to let my light shine. I faced my fears, believed in myself and stepped out in faith. As a result, today I am living my dream and so can you.
God is my ever-present help and unlimited source of my supply. I rest in quiet expectation and my fear based emotions transform into faith-filled realities.
“I have a Plan that will make all of Your Dreams Come True
I am overwhelmed with gratitude and joy as I prepare to leave for my cruise to Mexico in two days and then on to live in Hawaii for 6 months. I truly am living my dream and everything has worked out perfectly, just as God promised. In prayer this morning I came across something that God had led me to notice in a People’s magazine 5 years ago, and then I remembered.……….
I was in the middle of writing my book, Simply a Woman of Faith and was feeling discouraged. I even wanted to give up on it because I felt so overwhelmed and inadequate. I went to bed sobbing and saying to God, “I can’t do it, you have chosen the wrong person.” The next morning when I went to work, I was straightening up the conference room and picked up the magazine on the table to throw it away, when the pages opened up to these words – “I have a plan that will make all of your dreams come true.” I sat down and put my hands in my face and cried some more. I knew in my heart that Spirit was speaking to me.
Have you ever felt that desperate and wanted to give up on your dreams? I shudder to think my dream almost died inside of me because of my fear and that I didn’t believe in myself. Of course, those words from Spirit and my daily prayer of “showing up” gave me the courage to finish my book, leave my job of 20 years as a therapist, and now today, leave my home, family and friends to live my dream in Hawaii. I know it is God calling me there and I trust everything will unfold in peace, ease and grace. I believe that “you get what you expect” and I am expecting many doors to open to adventure, miracles and magic.
For the last month, I have been in the process of “letting go” on a daily basis, so the new can come into my life. Even though I am very excited about the adventure ahead of me, and what God has planned, it has not been easy. The tears have flowed when I thought about leaving my home of 12 years because it has always been a healing, sacred sanctuary for me. Saying goodbye to family and friends has been difficult also. My new tenant, Carrie Ann, moved in on January 1 and we both feel so blessed and in awe because we know this has been a match made in heaven. I could not have chosen a more suitable spiritual (and neater) woman to rent my home while I am in Hawaii. Right before sending this out, I received an email from Pat in Maui welcoming me to my new home that she was getting ready for me to move in to. She wrote, “A new year, a new life and I look forward to your aloha moment in Maui.” And so do I.
God has a plan that will make all of your dreams come true. Never give up on yourself, your dreams or God. You are not alone. It is God who has placed the desires of your heart inside of you. You have a gift for the world and God needs you to be His/Her instrument. Believe in yourself and the miracles that will find you. Be grateful and say Yes to receiving all that God has planned for you.
Aloha, Pat
The Power of Proactive Thanksgiving
Did you ever wake up in the middle of the night and your mind was like a blender? That happened to me recently when I woke up at 4:30 a.m. and my mind wouldn’t shut off. This surprised me because I had been so peaceful about my move to Maui. I still hadn’t rented my condo yet nor did I have a place to stay in Hawaii and it was only a month away. I prayed and just kept repeating “I let go and let God” and focused on being grateful. I finally got back to sleep and when I woke up a few hours later, my peace had returned.
Let me share what has enfolded and the miracles that have happened. I met Carrie Ann a few weeks ago at Concordia Center for Spiritual Living when I participated in a ceremony called “Proactive Thanksgiving.” We were invited to bring up to the altar a symbol of what we were visioning for ourselves. ”Proactive Thanksgiving” is thanking God for what you want before it happens, which to me, is faith. I shared I was being called to Hawaii for 6 months to teach, speak and write my new book, “I Know it’s Grace.” I said “I am thanking God for the right and perfect person to rent my condo and the right and perfect place to live in Hawaii.”
After the service, Carrie Ann walked up to me and inquired about my condo. She said, “I just moved here from California 6 weeks ago and am living with friends and starting a new job tomorrow. I’m not sure if I’m emotionally ready to leave my friends and if I can afford your place.” I invited her to come to dinner to see my place and we both agreed to pray that it would be for the highest good for the both of us.
She came to dinner the next week and loved the place. I felt excited about the possibility of her moving in because I trusted her. My spirit knew that she was the woman that I had been praying for and that my home would be a sacred and holy place for her. She fit exactly what I had envisioned for the right and perfect person to rent my condo. I screamed with joy when she sent me an email saying “Yes, I want to rent your condo.” She was the only person who looked at my condo, but you only need one person to rent it!
On the same day I received the email from Carrie Ann saying she was renting my condo, I received a call from Pat inviting me to stay with her and her husband in the condo they had just rented in Maui. Let me explain: Pat is Ellen’s daughter, my “Earth Angel” who I stayed with in Hawaii for the month of September. Pat and her husband Bob just moved to Hawaii 3 weeks ago and were staying with Ellen until they found a place to rent. When Pat called she said, “We will be renting a condo in the same complex as mom and you are invited to share it with us and have your own bedroom and bath.” I knew this was a gift from God. The condo is beautiful and overlooks the ocean!
God is faithful and when we trust God’s plan, let go and let God and step out in faith, miracles happen. I can hardly believe that my condo was rented and I found a place to live in Hawaii on the very same day. Now that is GOD!!!! If I hadn’t gone up to the altar that Sunday to share that I was leaving and thanking God for the perfect and right person to rent my condo and the perfect and right place to live in Maui, Carri Ann would not have known about it. God’s timing is perfect and God has me covered!
My desire is to INSPIRE. Don’t wait another minute longer to follow your dream and step out in faith.God has you covered too!
“I Have Wings to Fly”
About a month ago I had a dream that I found a small dead bird on the ground. I picked it up and put it on my car seat. I later got out of my car and placed the bird on the sidewalk. To my surprise, the bird came alive and had huge beautiful purple wings. I pay attention to my dreams and really felt like God was giving me a message for my life. God was saying “What you thought was dead has been resurrected and you now have wings to fly.” I was so excited that when I went to yard sales the next day, I was looking for a picture or something with purple wings. I didn’t find anything, but kept the image of the purple wings close to my heart.
A few days ago, I met with Rev. Ian Taylor who is the leader of Concordia Center for Spiritual Living. I had a picture in my purse of me getting ready to go zip lining in Hawaii. As I was leaving, I pulled out the picture to show Ian. As he stared at the picture, it seemed like minutes before he said anything. In fact, I said, “Do you need your glasses, do you know that it’s me in the picture?” He smiled and said, “I know it’s you, but all I see are the wings.” “What wings, I exclaimed!” I was shocked and couldn’t believe my eyes when I looked at the picture again-beautiful purple tinged wings on my back. Why hadn’t I seen the wings before this moment, I wondered?
I thought about this and realized how often something is right in front of me and I don’t see it. When I focus on what’s missing, lack and not having enough, I miss the abundance and miracles that are right in front of me. Sometimes we need others to show us what is in front of us. We are all connected and are all one. I needed Rev. Ian to share with me what he saw so I could see it for myself. Not only did he show me my wings in the picture, but casually gave me the title for my next book. “I Know it’s GRACE.” I have received several messages from people over the past few years that God wanted me to write my next book. I have been putting the stories together in a word document, but it never felt like it was the right time to write the book. I know it’s time now and isn’t it wonderful to be going to Mother Maui to write my next book, “I Know it’s GRACE.”
Things are progressing for my trip to Maui and money keeps “showing up.” I received a small check from my doctor’s office and have no idea why they sent it to me. This has never happened before and I ask no questions, but just say “thank you God.” I have been receiving an annuity check every month for the last 10 years. The annuity checks were scheduled to stop in September of this year. For some reason, the checks keep coming and I just received a check for the month of December. Thank you God for you are my source.
My friend Eileen and her husband recently bought a retirement home on the Big Island of Hawaii (but they are not living there full time yet.) Eileen will be going there for 3 months in January and has invited me to stay with her in her new home. I plan on flying to the Big Island from Maui and spending 2 weeks with her. She has already contacted her church and told them about me. I will be speaking with the leader next week to schedule a date for a workshop and a book signing. It just keeps getting better and better. As I continue to have faith and trust in God’s perfect timing and provisions for my life, my heart rejoices to see the doors opening and golden opportunities coming my way.
Remember, we must step out in faith first and trust before the Universe opens doors and brings the right people and opportunities to us. I have learned that WHEN YOU LEAP, YOU REAP and God gives you wings to fly. And while you are leaping into the unknown and the mystery, Spirit takes over and all of your needs are provided for.
“I Have it all Planned Out”
It’s hard to believe that I first visited Hawaii a year ago on Thanksgiving. Today I am feeling very grateful that so much has happened because I said “Yes” to a simple invitation to go there and follow my life-long dream. Now I am preparing to leave my home, business, family and friends to move to Hawaii for 6 months. When I came home from Hawaii last November, I immediately was led to put together an intention/vision book that I prayed with daily. I knew I wanted to go back and creating that vision was about having faith in my dreams. God had big plans for me and I had no idea that I would be going back to live and work there for 6 months when I put that book together!
I have received many emails from you over the past few weeks thanking me for my inspiration and trust in God. I know I am living in grace and doing God’s will because as the result of my willingness to “step out in faith” into the unknown, everything is flowing with peace, ease and grace. To be honest, I am amazed at the peace that I feel deep within. For most of my life, I lived in fear and wanted to control everything around me. And here I am in this place of “not knowing” what’s ahead (where I will be living in Maui, finding work, renting my condo) and yet I possess a deep inner “knowing” that all is well in the Spirit world. In the mind of God, all of these details are already done. I have never done anything like this to this magnitude and it is exciting to see it unfold.
As I looked back over my journal for the past year, it is clear to me that God has been preparing me for this move. The journey for me has been one of surrendering, letting go, having faith and trusting. It’s not only about trusting God, but it’s about trusting myself, my feelings and the small still voice within. Today I believe in myself because I know that I am an expression of God’s love. I trust myself because I am a daughter of the Creator. I believe in, trust and value myself because God’s spirit is within me. The more I trust and have faith, the more I see the results that I am intending to see. Inner peace comes from having trust that everything is happening in divine order and in divine right timing.
Since my first trip to Hawaii, I realized that I was being called to let go of what didn’t feel right anymore, and what wasn’t working, especially in my business. I had been caught up in the masculine energy of pushing and making things happen, until this became very uncomfortable and I didn’t want to be doing things the way I had been doing them for so long. I knew deep down, things needed to change and God was calling me to live more in the feminine energy of being and receiving. I think that is why I am being called to move to Mother Maui, to experience and live in the feminine energy of God.
What is God’s vision for you? Do you have a vision and dream for your life? Do you trust yourself? Do you have faith in yourself to follow the longings of your heart? Do you trust the guidance of the still, sacred voice within?
If not, what needs to happen in order for you to trust and have faith? Trust that you will never have a vision until God has already allocated the provision for its manifestation. I believe that the desires of our hearts have been placed there by God.
MESSAGE FROM THE ANGELS
There is no need to worry as everything is working out beautifully. The year ahead has the potential to be unlike any year that has come before. It is waiting to be filled with God-given dreams, plans fulfilled, goals accomplished and opportunities explored. I HAVE IT ALL PLANNED OUT, plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for.
I booked my Plane Ticket to Maui
When I said YES to God calling me back to Maui 6 weeks ago, I had no idea of what the process of letting go of the old, releasing fear, trusting and “jumping in” would look or feel like.
While cleaning out my closets and drawers to prepare for my new perfect and right tenant (not easy because I love my “practically new yard sales treasures), I was led down memory lane. First, I found beautiful cards and letters that my grandmother sent me 40 years ago expressing her love for me and how I was her angel. I cried as I felt her love coming through the pages. I saved cards from my 4 children that they sent to me over the years that brought tears to my eyes too. How I treasure each and every card, some hand drawn and others with the perfect words to express their love for me. I wondered, does anyone else save their children’s cards? I cannot part with them because they are so special and mean so much to me. They will get boxed up and put in the closet.
Then, during my morning prayer, I picked a Goddess card called Abundantia (Prosperity.) It said “The universe is pouring its abundance out to you - be open to receiving. Expect unforeseen windmills and gifts. Your new venture will be financially successful.” I said, “Yes, I am open to receiving more good, thank you God.”
Later that afternoon, I received an unexpected escrow check from my mortgage company in the amount of $270 and I smiled and said, “Yea, thank you God.” That same evening, while I was cleaning out my underwear drawer, I found a small brown envelope that was tucked away in the back. I didn’t remember putting it there and I literally gulped when I counted 15 crisp $100 bills. I racked my brains out trying to remember where it came from. And then the light bulb went off. Last summer, I sold my mothers sterling silverware set and tucked the money in the drawer because I was getting ready for my trip to Maui. That sure was a windfall and I love it when God surprises me like this! I also love that all of that money was there waiting for me to discover it. That is part of the journey of faith, trusting that you already have everything you need, and being willing to discover it inside of you, so that you can then receive it in the world outside of you.
I found the money at the “perfect time” because I needed to book a reservation with the airline, but was procrastinating about buying a ticket. I struggled with the “what if’s” like, what if I can’t rent my condo or what if I can’t find a free place to live in Maui? I got on my knees and prayed for courage, wisdom and guidance. Then I picked the dates for my departure and return, and called the travel agency to book the flight. That was definitely stepping into the unknown and trusting that God was in control. When I had called the first time, I was quoted a price of $1009.00, but when I called the very next day, it had gone up to $1450.00. Then, my heart skipped a beat when the travel agent told me that there was one seat left on the plane at the price I had been originally quoted of $1009.00. I said a prayer of thanks because God is good. Then I called my daughter Mary and said,”I did it, I booked my flight and I am going to Maui!” She said “good for you, mom.”
Some people may think I’m rich or have a lot of money since I’m able to go to Maui for 6 months. Truthfully, I don’t have a lot of money, but what I do have is faith, vision, passion and trust, and I know that God is my source, and that God provides when I follow my heart and step out in faith.
The more I practice stepping out in faith and am open to receiving more of God’s goodness, the more miracles seem to occur in my life. My job is to stay peaceful & positive while letting go of the outcome, and it’s God’s job to work out the details.
Affirmation: Today and everyday, I expect the best. Everything I do turns into good for myself and others. I affirm oneness with the source of abundance within me that has no conception of lack. It is God’s good pleasure to give me the kingdom and it is my good pleasure to receive it. When you become ready to receive, you are prepared for the next step and open door. All you have to do is to turn the key and say YES and thank you.
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