For several weeks now, I have been thinking and praying about moving to Hawaii to live. One day, I felt peaceful about moving here and then the next day, I felt stressed and fearful. It was disturbing to be waffling back and forth and not knowing “what I wanted.” One evening, while I was driving home from a dance, I turned off the radio and quieted my mind. I “went inside” to really get in touch with what I wanted to do. I saw myself in my mind’s eye returning to Rhode Island and living in my condo (which I love) to see how that felt. Immediately, I felt constricted and actually gasped as I put my hand over my heart. Then, I took a deep breath and saw myself returning to Hawaii to live and I felt expansive, and had a sense of love and openness. “Was this my answer”? I wondered. The next day I met some friends for Easter dinner and said “I am moving to Hawaii in September” just to test the waters and see how it felt. It felt exciting!
I plan on returning to Rhode Island on June 27th for a family reunion on the 4th of July weekend. I spoke with my tenant Carrie Ann and informed her I wanted to sell my condo and asked if she was interested in buying it. She immediately said, YES!” Yikes, another big step on my journey. I know God wants the highest good for the both of us and as we prayed together, I asked God’s blessing and that this entire process would flow with peace, ease and grace. There are some obstacles that need to be resolved but we are both trusting that God will do for us what we cannot do for ourselves. I would appreciate your prayers in this regard. I reminded her we know a “God of Miracles.”
I heard someone say this week, “We make plans and God laughs.” So “the plan” is that I will stay in Rhode Island for July and August and then move back to Hawaii in September and look for a place to live. My friend Ellen has invited me to stay in her condo on the ocean for the month of September since she will be going to Rhode Island for her grandson’s wedding. I hope God doesn’t laugh and that this is truly His/Her plan for my life. In all honesty, I only want God’s plan and don’t want to be here if it is not His/Her will for my life. That is why this is my favorite scripture (Jeremiah 29:11) which has been in my heart for years. “For I know well the plans I have in mind for you, says the lord, plans to prosper you. Plans to give you hope and a future.”
I am ready to take BIG STEPS with God for I know He/She will take BIG STEPS with me. This is an “extreme step in faith” for me and I know it’s God’s grace to follow my heart this way. This is the new me that has been reborn, because I lived in fear for so many years. I don’t know why I am being called to Hawaii (other than to BE love, serve and share my faith with others) and leaving my family, friends, home and my business. I am living in the mystery and following my heart rather than my head. To be honest with you, I would never have believed at the age of 65 I would be starting all over again, but I am. I guess I have said YES to living my life to the fullest and living the adventure with Spirit that lies ahead. Every once in a while I ask myself, “Have you lost your mind?” Maybe what I have really lost is the mind that is filled with all the negatives as to why I can’t do it, shouldn’t do it and why it won’t work. This is a big shift in my thinking because for most of my life I have tried to figure things out and control people places and things. Now, I am stepping off the cliff, knowing that God will catch me, keep me safe and hold me close. For me, it is truly about TRUST – trusting in Divine guidance and love. My prayer is “God, guide me and I will follow you.”
When I feel afraid, I remember the words “If you take big steps with me, I will take big steps with you. If you take small steps with me, I will take small steps with you.”
Science of Mind
“We are completely responsible for our lives. We are accountable for our experiences of life. I create this experience using my deepest wisdom and love. When we operate from the realization of self-responsibility, we are empowered to create an experience of life that is creative, meaningful, joyful and of service to the world. This is our true destiny. I am the only actor in my own experience.”
Today’s Angel Card reading – Doreen Virtue
What Do You Desire?
You now have the opportunity to write the script according to your heart’s true desires. Once you clearly decide upon your true desires and know that you’re ready and deserving of them, they’ll rush into your life as if by magic. This card comes to you because you have been waiting for external signs of what you should do next. The angels say that the answer comes from inside of you. You must decide what you want before anything can change. Carve out time to meditate upon your true heart’s desires, and know that you deserve the best, as we all do.
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