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I must not only talk the talk, but I must walk it

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Oct
4

I not only have to talk the talk, but I must be willing to WALK the WALK. Spirit has given me another opportunity to TRUST and put into practice what I believe about life. EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON AND PURPOSE AND I AM ALWAYS GUIDED TO MY HIGHEST AND GREATEST GOOD.

I’ve shared that I sold my condo in Rhode Island and closing was scheduled for August 28th. Everything was in order and papers were signed and FedEx to the lawyer. Four days prior to the closing, I received a phone call from my real estate agent, Bethany. She said, “Pat, I have some bad news for you.” I took a deep breath and said, “Oh, what is going on?”  She said, “The offer fell through because the buyer lost his job and will be unable to purchase the condo.”

Of course, I felt shocked and disappointed, but thankfully my default kicked in right away. I chose to TRUST in the divine plan for my life and let go of what I wanted or thought was right. It was clear that Spirit had another plan and hadn’t consulted me. Isn’t that always the way it is!

Still in shock, I called my son, Brian, who had been handling all the details with selling the condo. It just came out of my mouth and I said, “Brian, I have a THANK YOU GOD.” I’m sure he expected good news and not that the deal fell through. What an opportunity to share with Brian my trust in Spirit and faith walk.

I felt peaceful. which I knew was a gift from God. In the past, I would have felt fear and panic because we had to start all over again and put the condo back on the market. It had already been unoccupied since July 1.

It helped that Spirit brought to mind what happened 20 years ago when I tried to remortgage my home. I was in the process of getting a divorce and I was living alone in my house. If I wanted to stay in the house, I needed to remortgage and get a lower interest rate.

All of the paper work was completed, but when I went to the bank for the closing, they informed me that my husband had decided not to sign the papers at the last minute. I pleaded with them, but to no avail. They had to have his signature since we weren’t divorced yet.  I couldn’t believe it and was not a happy camper.

God had another plan, a better one. A week later, I received a letter from the bank that held my existing mortgage. I was shocked when I read the letter that said, “Because it is an adjustable mortgage, your interest rate has gone down on its own.” If my husband had signed the papers I would have had to pay a few thousand dollars to remortgage.  I saved money and the interest rate was exactly what I wanted.

For many years, my faith walk has been through asking Spirit to open or close the door when I’m not sure which way to go. It works every time as I have had many closed doors at the last minute, as well as doors that appear to open miraculously.

Clearly, the condo falling through 4 days prior to the closing is another example of Spirit closing the door. I know, without a doubt, that God’s plan is better than mine and I have been given another opportunity to TRUST Love.  My faith muscles continue to get stronger and stronger.

Stay tuned as I know I will have another example of how God works as I trust the divine plan to unfold in my life. It is my belief that everything has already been planned in the mind of God so all I need to do is show up, relax, let go and surrender.

 

 

Listening to your heart and following Spirit

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Oct
4

Spirit said, “You must be willing and ready to change directions in your life, especially when you don’t know WHY.” Let me share what happened.

My best friend, Kati, invited me to her birthday party this week.  My pupu was prepared and I was ready to go.  All of a sudden, out of nowhere, I didn’t want to go and felt really uncomfortable about going. I prayed about it and asked Spirit for guidance.  It would be one thing if I didn’t feel good, but I felt fine. How was I going to explain this to her and, of course, I didn’t want to disappoint her? It was so strong that I had to follow my heart and trust I was being led by Spirit.

I called Kati and said, “I won’t be coming to your party tonight and I don’t know why.” I felt stupid, but needed to be totally honest. Of course, she was disappointed, but understood I needed to follow my heart. We were both curious as to why this was happening. When I’ve changed my mind in the past about something I was doing, the next day it would be clear what the reason was. I decided that I wouldn’t beat up on myself and that I would trust Spirit whether the reason was clear or not.

When I prayed about it the next day because I didn’t know why I said no, , Spirit said,

“Most of your life you have put others’ needs first because you needed their love. Today, you are loving yourself first and the love you share now with others is my love.  You followed your heart and risked your friend’s disapproval. I know it was difficult and uncomfortable saying no to her, but you also knew she would understand. It was more important to follow Spirit and your heart than to please Kati. You are going deeper in your trust of me and my guidance.”

This brings to mind what happened when I moved to Maui almost 7 years ago. I had to be willing to change directions because it was my plan to continue coaching, teaching and speaking. That was not God’s plan! I was only here a few weeks and settling in when I heard Spirit clearly say, “I don’t want you to do anything, but I want you to learn how TO BE.”  I knew how TO DO, but I didn’t know how TO BE.  There was resistance at first because I thought I knew how TO BE, but I didn’t

So much has happened since I listened and learned how TO BE.

  • I’ve learned the art of “allowing” and to surrender and go with the flow instead of pushing my way and making things happen. Exhausting!
  • I’ve learned how to TRUST myself and inner guidance, which enables me to RECEIVE the good that the Divine wants to give me.
  • I’ve learned how to say no when I need to and only do what feels right.
  • I’ve learned to love and appreciate all of me, my shadow as well as my light.
  • I’ve learned to give up control and RELAX knowing everything happens for a reason, has a purpose and there are no mistakes.
  • I’ve learned to live in gratitude knowing I am being led to my greatest and highest good.
  • I’ve learned to live in the moment because that is all there is.

I’ve really “settled in” to this peaceful place and enjoy relaxing, playing, swimming, surrendering and BEING. Now I am hearing Spirit say again, “YOU NEED TO CHANGE DIRECTIONS AND FOLLOW YOUR HEART AND SOUL’S CALLING.”  Of course, I will still do the things I love.

I ask for the grace to remember all I’ve learned in this time of BEING and bring these qualities to the new chapter with the Sacred Sexual Awakening and Healing trainings and workshops in which I’m involved in.

I’m excited as I am following my heart and soul’s calling. I feel honored, blessed, grateful, expanded and humbled to be doing this powerful sacred healing work with women.

Our first workshop on Maui is called “Awakening to Sacred Sexuality” and is scheduled for January 5th & 6th at the Waleia Healing Center.  L will be assisting Amrita Grace as an apprentice for the Awakening & Healing workshop in Oakland, California in October. I will be attending a week- long Awakening and Healing retreat in Costa Rica with Caroline Muir and Amrita Grace in November. Oh, happy day! I am free and ready to fly with the angels.

Are you following your heart and are you willing to change direction when Spirit guides you?

 

 

It was a busy day for Spirit

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Oct
4

Before I left my house to meet Dee for coffee this morning, I heard Spirit say, “You need to give 3 books away and bring one for Dee today.”  I was meeting Dee for the first time and had no idea what her spirituality was. I reached out to support her after a friend sent me an email explaining that Dee was coming to Maui for a 13=week contract as a PTA and didn’t know anyone.

After the initial chatter and getting to know one another, she asked, “How did you get to Maui?” I shared how I followed my heart after I heard Spirit’s invitation to leave my home and family and move to Maui. She was very interested and said, “How do you hear Spirit and how long have you been doing this? I would like to learn how to do that.” I smiled and said, “I’ve been on the spiritual path for over 40 years and I listen and practice a lot.”

I was off and running because I love to share my story and inspire others to go within for their answers. I asked, “Do you have a daily spiritual practice?”  She said, “I pray every day to God, but don’t always know if it’s God voice.”

I shared my “blouse story” with her of how I stepped out in faith after I heard the small, still voice of God say, “BUY IT AND I WILL PROVIDE.” It was a difficult time in my life as my husband was out of work for a year and we had 4 children under the age of 10. We had just applied for welfare so money was very tight. I went to the local boutique to kill some time as I waited to pick up the kids from school. I was drawn to the sale rack in back of the store and found a blouse that I fell in love with. It was $10 and I had $10 in my pocket that was for milk and bread on the way home. As I reluctantly put the blouse back, I heard the small, still voice of God say, BUY It AND I WILL PROVIDE.” I stood there stunned and remember thinking, “is that you God?” Thankfully, I trusted the voice and bought the blouse.

I returned home after picking up the kids from school and not buying milk and bread. I grabbed the mail and found the white envelope with “PAT” written on it.  I couldn’t believe my eyes when I opened it and found a crisp ten-dollar bill and note that said, To Pat, From the son of a carpenter.” That was thirty-five years ago and I am still listening to the voice within and stepping out in faith.

Dee sat there stunned after I finished my story. She had God bumps from head to toe as I did. I am grateful that I listened to Spirit and brought a copy of my book, Simply A Woman of Faith to give to her.  She was thrilled when I handed her my  book and said, “I will read this for sure.”  It was exactly what she needed.

I had 2 more books to give away. Larry and I go to Fabiani’s for breakfast every Sunday and Dee is always our waitress. I was really surprised last week when she reached out and hugged me when we left.  For months, I have heard Spirit say, “I want you to give Dee your book.”

Today was the day to give Dee my book. I walked into the restaurant and when she came up to me, I said, “I have a gift for you” and handed her my book. She looked into my eyes and looked genuinely pleased. We embraced and hugged one another tightly.

I trust God’s timing is perfect and that I am always being led. I must pay attention when I hear the small, still voice of God and not be concerned with the results or even if they read the book when I give it away. What is important is that I listen and do what I am instructed to do.

I had one more book to give away and heard Spirit say to go to the library and donate my book, which I did. While I was there, I inquired about giving a presentation on “Awakening to Your Sacred Sexuality.” The plan is to give a talk in November at the library to promote our workshop on Maui January 5th & 6th.

It was a busy day for Spirit!  I am grateful that I listen to the Divine voice within and follow what it says to do. I never know where I will be led and I’m not attached to the outcome. I trust it will be for my highest and best good.  Life gets better and better and continues to surprise and delight me.

 

 

 

The root of misery is control

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Aug
18

Author Kute Blackson writes, “The root of misery is control. Control is the master addiction, the hardest one to give up. Control is an illusion, as there is so much in life that we cannot control. When you try to control what you cannot, then suffering is your guaranteed result.”

Control is about CONSTRICTION and CONTRACTION. It’s been my experience that I tend to want to control when I feel threatened or afraid that I’m going to lose something or I’m not going to get what I want. The opposite of control is EXPANSION.  It’s about being in the flow, trusting, being, surrendering to “what is” and letting go.

All I can change is ME, plain and simple. I cannot change my spouse, my children, my friends or the world. None of us have that kind of power. We may observe things that are harmful that our loved ones are doing to themselves i.e., not taking care of their bodies, eating poorly, not exercising, staying in stressful situations, holding onto resentments, being unwilling to forgive, caught up in addictions, not leaving a marriage or job that is not for their highest good.  The list could go on and on. Can you relate? Is there someone in your life who you would like to change or control?

 

It is difficult to not want to CONTROL someone you love when you think they are hurting themselves and can’t see it or don’t want to see what they are doing. Of course, we love them and want the best for them. You may be thinking now, “Shouldn’t I share my thoughts and concerns with them?” Of course, you share your concerns about what they are doing or not doing. After you have shared your concerns, the key is to then LET GO, DETACH and PRAY and SEND LOVE. I invite you to ask yourself some questions:

 

  • Do I think I am God and know what’s best for someone I love?

 

  • Why don’t I trust that it is their journey to walk and when they are ready to change something in their lives, they will?

 

  • Is it my egoic thinking that I think I know best and have the answers for their lives?

 

When I have been “awakened” to something that needs changing in my own life, it is natural for me to want to share it with those I love and want them to get on board. But when I try to push it down their throats, nag, preach, guilt them or leave books around to educate them, it is about trying to control another, no matter how well- meaning I am.  My loved ones may never choose to change and it is not my responsibility to change them or judge them

 

It is disrespectful when I try to control another. So often we are not even aware of how controlling we are and just think we are being helpful to those we love. Thankfully, I am learning that trying to control another’s destiny just doesn’t work.

 

What comes to mind is a situation that I had with my son many years ago. It was like a light bulb went off when I realized I was trying to control him because I wanted him to UNDERSTAND how I was feeling. I shared with him that I felt hurt about something he had done. He didn’t get it and defended himself. I tried everything I could to make him understand what I was feeling and felt frustrated and angry that he wasn’t getting it and I wasn’t willing to let it go.

 

All of a sudden (after a long time of trying to get him to see it my way) Spirit showed me that it was my control issues that I needed to look at. I was trying to control his reaction to me because I needed or wanted him to understand what I was feeling. It was a lesson that I will never forget and hopefully never do it again.

 

I am grateful I have the tools and know how to detach and stay out of another’s business. I have learned to love them just as they are and trust they will change if and when they want to.  My responsibility is to focus on myself and what I need to do in my own life and love others just as they are because we are all doing the best we can.

 

I choose LOVE

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Aug
18

I really want my default to be “I choose Love” in all situations and with all people instead of blaming, judging, shaming, copping an attitude or feeling resentful when things don’t go my way or the way I think they should go with other people. Can you relate?

It takes lots of practice to have my default be “I choose Love.”  It doesn’t come naturally to choose love when I’m pissed or think I’ve been wronged or not respected. My natural tendency is to shut down or want to “get back” and judge the other person when I’m hurt or angry.

Spirit always gives me the perfect opportunities to practice choosing Love. Sometimes it may take me awhile but when I’m conscious, I see everything as opportunities to grow and change.

We all have expectations of what we hope for or want things to look like. It’s probably impossible not to have expectations.  We go on vacation and we expect or hope the weather will be beautiful. We have a date with a new person and hope it will go well. Of course, being positive is healthy and there is nothing wrong with that.

When things don’t go my way and how I had hoped they would go, I have the opportunity to accept “What is” and live in the moment. When I accept things or people just as they are, I have peace. I lose my peace and serenity when I want to control people and how they do things or don’t do things.

I have learned that I am responsible for myself and my reactions, feelings and behaviors. We fail to understand that all we have control over is ourselves and not another. I cannot control anyone else to do something the way I expect them to do it.

My opportunity this week had to do with expecting an event to go in a certain direction with a friend. I had it pictured in my mind (an expectation) how I wanted it to unfold. When it didn’t go the way I pictured it, I felt resentful, at first, and judged my friend. I allowed myself to feel my disappointment because I didn’t want to do a “spiritual bypass” and push my feelings down.

Instead of wallowing in the resentment and disappointment, I started to repeat to myself, “I choose Love, I choose Love.” Within a few minutes, I felt peaceful and the resentment was gone. I have read that “An expectation is a premeditated resentment.”

When I saw my friend the next day, by choosing Love, I didn’t feel any resentment or judgement and we had a great day together. The outcome would have been very different and I would have missed out on a great spiritual experience if I hadn’t chosen Love.

I am grateful that I recognize my behaviors and that I have the tools to change myself one day at a time a time. I am learning to not take things personal, to detach from outcomes and to know that I am not responsible for another person’s happiness.

Today I choose Love, how about you?

There is a gift in everything

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Jun
17

I don’t know about you but when I am going through a difficult time in my life either emotionally, spiritually, financially or physically, I don’t always recognize the gifts it has for me. I may be experiencing anger, depression or sadness and need time to feel and process my feelings.

When I am open and awake, it’s often after I go through something that I see the gifts that came from the experience. For example: when I had my cancer scare 6 months ago and had to see a cancer specialist to rule out cancer, something shifted inside of me. Of course, I was grateful that I didn’t have cancer and that I could be treated with diet.

I have four grandchildren ranging from one years old to 27 years old.  My oldest grandsons are young adults and are 22 and 27 years old.  Although we love one another and are close, I didn’t have a lot of phone communication with the older ones during the year. We have a yearly reunion in Rhode Island and we spend time together there.  We had great intentions and when we left one other, we promised we would keep in touch, but we seldom did.

After the cancer scare, I called both of my grandsons and shared about my health issues and the cancer scare. I said, “This has made me aware of what is really important in my life, especially my family and friends. Would you like to make a commitment to talk every two weeks?” They both said, “Yes” and we agreed we would take turns calling one another. It was a challenge with their work and school schedules and being six hours difference, but we did it and I looked forward to our conversations.

When I was talking to my grandson, Josh, a couple of weeks ago on our regular scheduled times, we talked about him coming to visit with us as he had just finished his college semester. While we were on the phone, he decided to look on line to see what it would cost to fly to Maui. We were both shocked to see how low the fare was. He was over the top excited and within a week, he booked a flight to Maui and arrived this week.

After he booked the flight he called and said, “Grandma, thanks for giving me the “push” because I really needed this in my life now.” I laughed and remembered when he was born 22 years ago. I was his mother’s birth coach and supported her as she pushed him out to the world and gave birth to a beautiful baby boy.

What a delight when we picked him up at the airport and greeted one another. We hugged me and  picked me up off the ground. What a fine young man he has become and a true JOY to have him staying with us for two weeks. He is adventurous and has been exploring the island, taking walks on the beach, swimming and meeting the locals. Josh and I took a ferry ride to another island called, Lanai, and he snorkeled and had a blast. We plan to do a helicopter ride this week together.  I am sure it will be thrilling. Up up and away we go!

Larry calls him a “Gentle Giant.” He has such a beautiful spirit and I call him an “old soul.”  I am so proud of him and how he lives his life. I looked at him and said, “Your mannerisms and facial expressions remind me of your dad.” He smiled and said, “I am happy to be growing up like my HERO.” My heart did a little flip for him and for my son, Brian.

I have shared about how much Larry and I love the book, Love is All There Is written by the Source. After having a conversation with Josh about love being the only answer, Larry was led to give the book to him and he’s been reading it and loving it.  I wish I had that book when I was 22 years old and know what I know now.

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Spending time with Josh over a meal. walking the beach, watching a sunset or driving around the island has given Larry and I both the opportunity to share our spiritual beliefs and what gives our life purpose and meaning. What a gift it has been for all of us.  It gives me great hope for the future generation when I look at Josh and hear him share his thoughts about spirituality and life.

I am grateful and blessed for all the gifts in my life.

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I asked for help

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Jan
29

I had to remind myself what I shared with my clients when they came into therapy.  I said, “It is a sign of strength when you ask for help.” Why doesn’t it feel like I am strong when I ask for help? In some instances, I have felt weak, embarrassed and even shameful that I didn’t know how to do something or figure something out on my own and was forced to ask for help.

I asked myself some questions:

  • Is it my pride that I think I should know how to do things or figure things out on my own?
  • Am I afraid of feeling vulnerable?
  • Am I afraid of being judged or looking stupid?
  • Do I think I am bothering someone if I ask for help?

If I believe it’s a weakness, of course, I don’t want to ask for help. Who wants to feel weak? If someone asks me for help, I feel honored to share my experience. If for some reason I cannot help them, I am free to tell them that and direct them to someone who can help them.

It is an old belief that no longer serves me when I am unable to ask for help when I need it. Not only am I depriving myself of what I need and I will suffer needlessly, but I am depriving another of helping me and sharing their experience.  Of course, we all want to figure things out on our own because it feels good. But, sometimes we just need to swallow our pride and ask for help.

I had an opportunity to ask for help this week from my daughter, Mary, who is staying with us for several weeks. For years, Mary has been health conscious and has tried to share her wisdom with me, but unfortunately, I wasn’t open until now.  It felt humbling and vulnerable asking for help after being so resistant for so many years. Here is what happened:

I had my follow-up appointment with my primary care doctor this week and wasn’t expecting new information about my health since the plan was to wait a few months before taking another blood test to see if my platelets were back to normal and inflammation gone. A new piece to the puzzle of why I have inflammation was revealed and for this, I am grateful.

Since I was feeling so much better after following the anti-inflammatory diet and not eating sugar for the last 2 months, I was very surprised when the doctor shared the test results that were taken at last visit.

Since I wasn’t expecting the tests results to be a bacterial infection in my gut, I felt like I was knocked off my horse and felt very overwhelmed on how to proceed. The doctor prescribed an antibiotic and probiotics to follow-up with.

Mary and I were eating breakfast when I had my “melt down” and shared with her how overwhelmed I  felt and asked for her help. She was so compassionate and loving and told me exactly what I needed to do to get rid of the bacteria/infection in my gut. She also shared how important it was that when I finished the antibiotic, l have no sugar, including fruit for a week. She not only told me what I needed to do, she said “I will cook for you to make sure you have nothing with sugar in it.”  How much better does it get than this? Instead of feeling overwhelmed as I had been feeling, I felt grateful, relieved and so loved.

Mary is my coach and I will eat whatever she tells me to eat and not to eat because my health is important.  This change of attitude and my willingness to follow the plan truly is God’s grace and a miracle for me. I am humbled and grateful that she is here to guide and support me. I shared in a past blog that Mary and Herbie were volunteering and staying at a bee farm for 2 weeks. This fell through at the last minute, so they are here with us for these 2 weeks.

I truly see God’s hand and perfect timing in this since Mary is present and willing to help me when I needed her the most. I have changed my thinking and know without a doubt that asking for help is a strength, and not a weakness.

How about you? Are you able to ask for help when you need it? We are not meant to suffer alone, we need one another on this journey of life.

Divine abundance

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Jan
29

Happy New Year.  I wanted to start the blog with a quote from the DailyWord because it speaks to my heart about my life and how it has unfolded.

“Divine Abundance is unlimited. I am prepared and open to receive it all. I surrender to life’s plan for me, EXPECT the best and receive it with joyful gratitude.”

It has been 6 years this month that I stepped out in faith and moved to Maui. I can hardly believe how my life has unfolded. Although, like most of us, I had created vision boards of what I wanted to create in my life, I could not have imagined it to be this magnificent. God’s plan is always so much greater than I could have ever imagined. I just kept saying “YES” and moving forward, despite all my fears and doubts.

Larry and I feel especially blessed this week because our daughter, Mary, and our grandson, Herbie, are staying with us for 7 weeks.  Mary and Herbie are volunteering at a Bee farm for 2 of the weeks. Every morning, Mary and Herbie do their stretching on our Lanai and then go for a run in the neighborhood. It is awesome to watch Herbie following his mamma and doing the same moves as she does. Mary is home schooling him so for the next few hours, they are doing school work as well as learning about the ocean and different parts of the island.

We are blessed to have our son, Tim, from Boise, Idaho also staying with us for a week. We are taking a trip to Hana and staying in a lovely cabin for 2 nights with an outdoor hot tub. We will be exploring the beaches and trails in Hana, as well as eating delicious meals that Mary loves to cook.

We are having a blast playing in the waves at the beach and going down the slide at the pool. Herbie was a little reluctant at first to go down the slide and didn’t know if he wanted to do it. Mary went first and then he went behind her. He loved it so much that he went down ten more times.

Grandma was next in line and very reluctant to go down because it’s been years since I went down a water slide. I felt embarrassed not to go since my 8 year old grandson was so courageous to go down. I have to say it was quite the ride and I’m glad I did it, but once was enough!

We had a “Meet the kids” party with several of our friends and had so much fun playing and wearing hats and glasses.

I think the greatest gift is seeing the love that Mary and Herbie have for one another. She adores him and he adores her. Mary is patient, kind and loving with him. I am amazed at how she talks to Herbie about everything. He is like a sponge and so open to learning. Herbie is truly a light and so full of love and innocence. I am so grateful that my daughter was given the opportunity to be a mother and am so proud of her. He is a gift from Heaven to all of us.

 

 

Don’t let the doctor put fear in you-you don’t have cancer

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Dec
14

I made a decision that I would not allow fear to rob me of my peace. Whenever I thought about my new health issues, I said “I choose LOVE.” I said it constantly! It really worked because I didn’t lose my peace and even felt detached from it all, which was truly a miracle.

What could have caused Larry and I to be in a state of worry and panic choosing LOVE kept us centered and peaceful. It all started when I asked my doctor to do some blood tests because I was feeling more tired than usual. I have a history of anemia and thought for sure that I was anemic again.

In my prayer about the upcoming visit with the doctor, Spirit said, “Trust in me always, knowing everything has been planned so there is no need to worry or obsess. Just accept and let go. DO NOT LET THE DOCTOR PUT FEAR INTO YOU. She will make it worse than it is so it is important for you to stay calm and not buy into it. Stay centered knowing I am with you and all is well.”

I wasn’t alarmed when the nurse called a few days later and” asked me to come in to see the doctor because I thought she would be treating me for anemia.

I kept remembering what Spirit had said to me before my appointment, “Stay calm and centered and don’t let the doctor put fear into you.”  As she looked over my blood/ labs tests, I could tell that it was more than anemia.

She said, “Your white blood cell count is higher than it should be and your platelets are very high. I recommend you see a hematologist /oncologist.” I was stunned and said, “Why would I see an oncologist and what are they looking for?” She said, “We want to rule out cancer.  We will call the oncologist and make a referral today.”

To say that I was in shock would be an understatement. Just hearing the word cancer and that they wanted to rule it out left me speechless. I left the office in a daze, wanting to break down and cry. I didn’t want to call Larry and tell him the news over the phone.

When I got to my car, I breathed deeply to calm myself down. I had to talk to someone so I called my daughter, Mary, to tell her the news. Thankfully, she calmed me down and didn’t allow me to escalate it. I don’t remember what she said, but I felt better and was able to center myself. Of course, when I shared the news with Larry, he was concerned, but very supportive and loving.  In prayer and meditation, here is what I affirmed for myself:

Iwill trust and delete worry and fear.

I will stay centered, calm, and peaceful.

I will accept what is.

I will have faith that all is well.

I will stay positive and see only perfect health for myself.

I will choose LOVE instead of fear.

Larry and I both felt strongly that Spirit was giving us the opportunity to choose LOVE instead of fear and we promised each other to choose LOVE when we felt afraid. When I prayed about it Spirit said, “You are choosing LOVE and when you choose LOVE, there is no fear. Fear is an illusion and fear and worry are a waste of energy. Your faith will carry you through. Ego will try to rob you of your peace so be aware of your thoughts and what comes up.”

Thankfully, I was able to get an appointment with the oncologist within a few days.  I knew in my heart that I didn’t have cancer.  Larry came with me for my appointment and we were both very peaceful and  and even laughed in the car when I didn’t know the doctor’s name. I knew the address and I had his telephone number.  Of course, when we arrived at the office, his name was on the board and there wasn’t a problem.

You can imagine the relief and joy we felt when the doctor looked at us and said, “You don’t have cancer.”  God is good! I may have an infection in my body that is causing inflammation around heart and platelets to be high, which doctor reassured me is treatable. I appreciate your prayers as I move through this health challenge. I see myself as healed, whole and healthy.

I share this with you to encourage you to choose LOVE instead of fear. It doesn’t have to be a health issue, but can be anything in your life that you are fearful about and robbing you of your peace.

Love is all there is.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Moving to a higher level of consciousness

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Nov
13

I want to thank all of you for responding to my last blog and sharing your experiences and what’s going on in your life. Please know I hold you in my heart and prayers. I trust that what Spirit has revealed to me this week will benefit you and help you understand what you may be going through. It has helped me tremendously to move forward.  I am grateful that I was guided to surrender and trust Spirit when I had no idea what was going on.

My friend, Mary, who is a healer and author of “Divinely Touched” called me after reading my blog last week and said, “Pat, what’s going on?” I replied, “I don’t know.” She said, “You are definitely going through the Ascension Process. I had heard of the Ascension Process, but didn’t know what it meant. I was curious to learn about it in hopes I could make some sense of my recent experience of emotional upset and exhaustion.

What I have learned through my research is that Ascension is the process of a “spiritual awakening” that moves you into a higher level of consciousness. The more we grow spiritually, the more our energy increases, and the more we will understand how perfectly everything is orchestrated. The individual is becoming more heart centered, compassionate and creative, and is also opening to greater cosmic consciousness. We are all moving through a transformative process whether we are aware of it or not. It could be a health challenge, grief, relationship problems, emotional upset or loss of job.

During the ascension process changes are occurring on all levels of your being. The changes you will go through on your ascension path will not always be easy. Spiritual growth and ascension although incredibly positive, may have chaotic, uncomfortable, and challenging symptoms that appear on the path.. Your energy and your vibration state is higher. The more positive your energy is (high vibration), the more you will attract positive circumstances in your life.

Your system is rebooting, being ‘tuned up’ or upgraded. Old patterns begin to fall away as one starts to embody much more light. Things that no longer serve your highest and greatest good will crumble fall away and dissolve to make way for what will ultimately serve you in the highest possible vibration for your life. During this process, our consciousness rises, our vibration elevates, and we expand becoming increasingly more connected to each other until there is only the One unifying consciousness of All That Is.

Ascension and awakening are all part of the soul awakening and expanding from this little light that ignites within our heart. ALL are emerging to become ONE. Awakening is the process of remembering who we truly are. When we incarnated on Earth, we voluntarily contracted spiritual amnesia; however, humanity has collectively chosen to awaken from this dream. We must expand our conscious awareness to encompass a much wider reality. During this process, it’s not uncommon to experience awakening symptoms, commonly known as “ascension flu.”

The ascension process purges so much of the darker and denser energies from us that we find ourselves in them for quite some time. We may feel like things are simply never going to get better. And to add insult to injury, the outer world is no longer in alignment with the new, higher vibrating you. Our emotions are what carry the energy. When we are falling apart (and we are doing just that), we can get pretty emotional. When we are releasing, we can cry at the drop of a hat. We can cry when we feel relief or cry when we see any kind of suffering. These tears are a great cleanser and releaser.

As I think about and process the past 3 or 4 weeks and my experience, I knew deep down that something powerful energetically was happening but as I shared, I had no idea of what was going on.  I was willing to release and let go of everything from the past (including thoughts and beliefs) which no longer served me.  All I knew was that I needed to have faith and trust and surrender to the process, which I did. I look forward to new blessings in my life.

That was confirmed when I read one of the online articles. It said , “When you go with the flow, trust in the process of life, allow and surrender your ascension path to unfold and change you in every way according to Divine will, you will experience incredible soul growth and immense blessings on your ascension path and in your life. The fully ascended state is one of vibrant health, radiant joy, divine love, blissful serenity, peace, abundance, awareness, and oneness.

I hope this has helped you understand what you may be experiencing in your life. If you would like more information on the symptoms of the ascension and awakening process, google ascension and awakening process.

I say YES to it all.

 

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