“While change is inevitable, my response or reaction to change is up to me. How can I best prepare myself for change, and how can I make the most of it? Change is a transition from one thing, one place, one state of mind to another. I AM EVOLVING FROM WHAT WAS TO WHAT IS. I AM BECOMING MORE THAN I WAS BEFORE. Just as my view changed as I transitioned from childhood to adulthood, I now see that I am gaining a new perspective during this transition. I may be stepping into unfamiliar territory, but this step is an opportunity to grow in spiritual awareness. With each shift or change in my life, I am moving forward.”
While living in Maui for 6 months, I was open and willing to listen to the inner voice of the Divine guiding me to rest, to BE and to receive God’s unconditional love. As I have shared in other blogs, I was a “HUMAN DOING” and pushed and tried to make things happen. Today, because of “BEING” and letting go, I am experiencing a peace and serenity that l haven’t known to this depth before. It feels like I am in a “Bubble of Grace.” It is truly a miracle that I am not feeling afraid and obsessed with the sale of my house. I stay in peace and gratitude KNOWING God’s timing is perfect and the right and perfect buyer is here now. I may be tempted to travel down the “what if” highway, but I don’t allow myself because that will keep me stuck and in fear. I used to beg God for what I wanted; now I ask, am open to receive, and then say “thank you” and trust.
OMG I am returning to Maui to live in 2 weeks. I am living my dream and am very excited about stepping into the unknown and into God’s arms. The MASTER PLAN is in place and I am saying YES to receive more good in my life. As God helps me to usher out the old (scarcity thinking, stuff in my house, etc.), I am trusting God will be there to welcome me and usher in the new (new life new home, new friends, new church.)
What I have learned about this process is to be clear about what is my work and what is God’s. When I came back to Rhode Island on June 27, it was my intention to stay focused, clean out my house and get it ready to be sold. I also visualized that it would flow with peace, ease and grace. It truly has, and everything I needed was there when I needed it. For example, my friend Steve was going to paint my bedroom and den and I planned on buying the paint the next day. I knew there were lots of old cans of paint in the basement that I was planning to throw away, but I was happily surprised to find 2 gallons of old unopened paint!
I don’t know where they came from! And the best part was that it was the perfect and right color for the rooms. Of course, I was in deep gratitude for the miraculous paint that “showed up.”
My work in this process was to prepare my house to be sold to the best of my ability, to visualize, to trust, to ask for help, to stay positive and grateful. God’s part is the HOW it will unfold. I know God is working behind the scenes and has me covered. God knows more than I do what I need and when the house will sell. God knows the best place for me to live when I land in Maui. When I worry and obsess, I dishonor myself and the God within. It is a choice to trust and walk in faith. What helps me to trust is to remember what God has done for me in the past.
For example, I remember God’s word to me several years ago when I was at a very low point and experiencing debilitating fear. I was in the middle of writing my book and wanted to give up. In fact, I told God “I am not doing it; you have chosen the wrong person.” While at work one day, I opened a magazine and across the page was “I have a plan that will make all of your dreams come true.” I cut it out and still have it as a reminder of how I sobbed with joy when I read it because I knew God was speaking to me. The message gave me the courage and strength to finish my book. I shudder to think how fear almost robbed me of my dream. I am so grateful because I would not be where I am today and moving to Maui to live if I stayed stuck in the fear.
Not only has God “showed up” for me by giving me strength, courage, grace, faith, peace and serenity, but my family and friends have reached out to support and help me by painting rooms, cleaning windows, gardening, cleaning my basement, fixing my toilet and the list goes on and on. I am so GRATEFUL for the love I have experienced.
As I reflect on the past 2 years, I realized that my Hawaii adventure has also been a process. It may look like I spent 6 months in Maui from January to June and made a snap decision to move back there. Not so! Before I even went to Maui for the first time in November 2010 for 2 weeks, I had a psychic reading that I have never forgotten. She said, “Maui is going to be the nucleus of something big.” When I returned home after being in Maui for 2 weeks, I knew that something big had shifted inside of me. All I knew is that I didn’t want to do business the way I was doing it with all the marketing and networking and pushing. It was scary because I didn’t know what was going on and what God was preparing for me. After all, I needed to make money to support myself.
I “showed up” daily to pray and meditate and ask God for guidance and clarity about what my next step was. I had the opportunity to go back to Maui for a month in September 2011 and it was then that I heard God calling me back to Maui for 6 months. This really surprised me because I had never done anything like this and had to work through the “not deserving” voice to follow my heart and God’s calling. We have to be patient with the process of life and be willing to let go of control. Just like many of you, I use to want what I wanted when I wanted it and I kicked and screamed when I didn’t get my own way.
Today, I am learning a better way and that is to go with the flow, live in the present moment, trust that I have everything I need and that all is well. I have learned to trust my inner wisdom and trust God’s guidance in all things. I expect miracles and more good to come into my life. I am passionate about my life, especially when I use my life to inspire others to live their dream. I received this in prayer today.
Goddess Guidance Cards – Doreen Virtue
Aine – Leap of Faith
Take a risk, and put your heart’s true desire into action. Procrastination about your dreams won’t make them go away. Neither will they make them happen. Indecision is the death of the soul’s burning passion to improve, grow and learn. Don’t worry about making a wrong decision. Instead, worry about making no decision at all. Then take time to pray, meditate, investigate, research and make your decision. Once made the universal energies will immediately open as if my magic. The magic, you see, is that you have set your mind to accomplish something. Trust that your intention is clear and right for you. And then take a leaf of faith and jump fully into putting your dreams into action.
Last week I wrote in my blog that the JOURNEY of faith is about letting go of anything that is no longer useful in our lives so the new can come. I received an email from a woman thanking me for those words because it confirmed what she had just done, in letting go of negative people in her life.
My friends, Mary and Dave, invited me to come on their boat with them this weekend. Mary is a special friend and healer who often “finds” things that have symbolic meaning to me. She said, “Pat, they just come to me, and I know God wants me to buy this for you.”
So it wasn’t surprising when she handed me the small package on the boat and explained the story. She said, “Pat, I went shopping for a birthday present for my friend. While looking for a gift for her, I spotted this card that read JOURNEY – Enjoy the adventure. On the card was a beautiful stone bracelet. I immediately thought of you and your JOURNEY of faith and knew I had to buy it for you. When I picked it up to look closer at it, I was shocked when I the saw the turtle on it.”
Turtles are very significant to me because they know when to go within and when it is time to stick their heads out, take a risk and move forward. Several years ago, I made a dream book for myself, and put a picture of a turtle swimming in the ocean in Maui, in it. Little did I know that my dream would come true and I would one day swim with the turtles and live on the ocean in Maui. It is beyond my wildest dreams to think that I am now moving there to live full time.
I thanked my friend, Mary, for giving me the bracelet and the special message of “Enjoy the Adventure” on it. I thanked God for inviting me on this adventure of faith and all the good that is unfolding in my life. I love spending time with Mary and when we are together the signs keep “showing up.” She said to me, “Pat, God will never lead you where He/She will not keep you.” Just as she said the words, we hear the song over the radio playing “Spirit in the sky – you have a friend in Jesus.” Of course, we sang along and almost jumped out of our seats. When the song finished, for some reason, I turned my head around in the boat, and my eyes spotted a huge white boat behind us that’s name was MASTER PLAN! Was God speaking or what?
God does have a MASTER PLAN for me and for you. Will you trust that plan? Are you ready to step out in faith and follow your heart’s desire and dreams? Yes, it takes great courage to follow the will of God, but for me there is no other way. It just takes a little faith and God will multiply what you have. I love the adventure of life and the surprises God has in store for me. A friend called today and read me today’s reading from the Daily Bread about letting go and letting God. After she finished the reading, she said, “You can’t even imagine what God has planned for you.”
About an hour before my friend called to read that to me this morning, I had watched Joel Olsteen on TV. His message confirmed what Mary and I talked about on the boat. He said, “God will never ask you to do something that He will not give you the way.” I knew God was speaking to my heart and that there was no need for fear or doubt about the MASTER PLAN that I am choosing to follow. At the closing of his show, Joel said, “Put your dreams in God’s hands, give God what you have, and He will multiply it. God will take you to places you’ve never dreamed about.” I am banking on that!
What I have found is that God always gives me signs along the way that help me feel confident and trust that I can put my dreams in God’s hands. A few months ago while I was in Maui, I was taking my daily walk and heard the small still voice of God say, “Your cake is baked.” I said, “Thank you God, for whatever that means.” I wanted to believe that it meant that my cake was baked and I was ready to meet my soul mate, which I believe God has planned for me. I didn’t think much about it until I was having a conversation with a friend a few weeks later. She shared that her therapist told her that life is like a cake and we must put in all the ingredients before it goes in the oven to bake and then is ready to be eaten. I hadn’t said anything to her up to this point about “my cake being baked” but I felt like this was a confirmation. Wow, my cake is baked!
A few weeks later, I received an email about how to attract your soul mate. The writer wrote that we must love ourselves and love what we were doing, before we will attract our soul mate. I had heard this all before and felt that is exactly what I am doing in my life. What really resonated with me was when she wrote, “When your soul mate comes, it will be like icing on the cake.” I smiled knowing that my cake is baked, cooled off and ready to be eaten. I am waiting for the icing and I know it will be delicious!
Just recently, my friend from Maui sent me an email and shared what was happening with her “Life Cake.” Here is what she wrote: “My “Life Cake” is still in process. The ingredients have been gathered and I am in the mixing stage, working with the batter. Some family and friends are asking for a slice of the cake, and want to know what kind it is, and how does the frosting taste…and I haven’t even gotten it into the oven yet! The oven is preheating and my sleeves are rolled up and I’m measuring, cracking eggs and wiping any worry away on my apron. It’s a “leap of faith cake” and only God has the secret recipe; I am merely a channel. I know that Maui is a magical place, and Spirit is alive and well and swirling around me with messages and symbolism if we are willing to “sit still” and listen.”
What about you? Has your cake been baked? Or, are you like my friend who is still in the mixing stage? It is not a bad thing to be in the mixing stage because you are being prepared for the next chapter in your life and you will know deep within when it is time for your cake to be baked. Do not rush it, but be patient and trust that all is well and you are in God’s hands.
I am so grateful for those who write me and help me see things that I’ve missed. My friend, Jane, wrote, “Isn’t it a JOY when others clean off our spiritual and actual glasses and give us the vision. A PHD in faith means that the P represents Peace, the letter H represents Hope and the letter D represents Deliverance. Of course, your initials are placed in PHD for good reason as well.” Every day I do my best to maintain a consciousness of peace and hope, knowing that my life is unfolding with ease and grace and there is nothing to be afraid of. For me, deliverance means being delivered from fear, separation, lack, feeling not good enough and needing to control. It means knowing that I am never separated from the Power of God. I am within God and God is within me. God and I are ONE.
Today I cleaned out the bookshelf next to my bed and found an old journal. As I started to read the entry of January 18, the day I left for Maui for 6 months, I was amazed at what I wrote and what God’s message was to me. Here it is: “Pat, have fun and see your life as an adventure story and enjoy the process. You have said YES to follow your heart into the unknown. I am blessing you beyond your wildest dreams. This is just the beginning of what is to come.”
Even though my house hasn’t sold and I haven’t had one person look at it yet, and even though there is no “apparent evidence” that my house is going to sell, I KNOW that God is working behind the scenes and He/She has me covered. I have let go of the timing and how it will happen and just stay peaceful. I continue to believe and “act as if” all is well, because it is. Isn’t that what faith is about, believing when we cannot see? I am stepping into the unknown, spreading my wings to fly and leaving for Maui September 5 whether my house is sold or not. It’s all in God’s Hands.
I AM FAITH-FILLED, STRONG AND COURAGEOUS – Daily Word
Sometimes I resist change and other times I feel an inner stirring to initiate change and start a new adventure. I may have satisfactory employment of or a comfortable lifestyle, yet feel called to something more. Spirit calls me to expansion, inviting me to step out in faith and act courageously. I pray, listen to my inner guidance, and then put feed under my prayers. The positive action I take sends a clear message to Spirit. I am saying “Yes” to my increase and expansion right now. I am not discouraged if I hit a roadblock. I fully trust that God goes with me wherever I go, showing me the way through any challenge. I am faith-filled, strong and courageous, living a life of adventure.
In order to get from where I am, to where I want to be, I must go THERE. You may ask, where is THERE? Please let me explain.
For much of my life, I ran from myself. I didn’t know who I was or what I wanted, but I knew what others needed and wanted. My focus was on pleasing others because I didn’t have any self worth or self-love. My thinking was distorted because I thought that if I loved you, then you would have to love me back. Here are some of the ways I ran from myself: staying busy, eating, shopping, controlling others, people-pleasing and rushing. These behaviors kept me from knowing my true self and loving myself.
Have you ever felt down or depressed and then went shopping or had a big piece of chocolate cake, and your mood shifted and you were blissful? There are numerous ways people run from themselves through addictions. As an addiction therapist for over 20 years, I know a lot about addictions. Regardless of whether you ingest something like food, alcohol, nicotine or drugs, or have a process addiction like workaholism, gambling, religiosity, hoarding, shopping, rushing, perfectionism, spending hours on the internet or just staying busy, the same thing happens as a result. You medicate your feelings and push them down, so you don’t have to feel them, and so that you don’t have to go THERE.
Today, rather than running from myself, I am running to myself. In the quiet of doing nothing with myself, by myself, I find myself. I am loving myself by allowing myself to go THERE. I am allowing all of my feelings to come up so I can feel them and then let them go. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t always like to go THERE (especially when I am feeling anger, fear, grief or sadness), but I have learned from experience, that in order to get from where I am to where I want to be, I must allow myself to go through this process and it is crucial to my spiritual and emotional health.
It used to be a way of life for me to pretend everything was OK and push my feelings down, but not anymore. Today, I welcome my feelings in and am honest with others, and myself, about what I am feeling.
I have spent the last few weeks, letting go of my “stuff” so that I can move to Maui full time. As I was doing that I kept hearing the message “You must let go of the old, so the new can come.” One day as I sat in my living room and looked around my house, I felt incredible peace and what I realized in that moment is that I loved the old. I loved my home and everything in it. I had created a sacred sanctuary where I felt safe and comfortable.
I’m not selling my home because I don’t like it, I have loved living in it. As I realized that, feelings of sadness and loss welled up inside of me and I sat and cried. I know what the “old” is and it feels comfortable, but I don’t know what the new is and that can feel scary. This is where the trust comes in. Even though I love my home, I know I will love my NEW home in Maui even more and I will create the same sacred sanctuary there.
Earlier this week, I did a huge cleaning out in my basement and the next morning when I woke up, I felt wiped out and like I had been hit by a truck. It almost felt like I was in withdrawal from letting go of my “stuff.” I even questioned if I was doing the right thing by moving to Maui. I hadn’t realized that letting go was going to be so emotionally draining. I said to God, “I need a big dose of you today.” I went to brunch at a friend’s house and then went home and took a hot bath and slept for several hours. I allowed myself to bask in God’s presence and rest. I meditated and prayed, knowing my strength would come back as I allowed myself to go THERE and feel all of my feelings. It was like I emptied myself so I could be filled again.
In the evening, as a way of nurturing myself, I re-read 62 letters that college students had sent me after I spoke to their business class last fall about the importance of spirituality in their lives. I truly got my “dose of God” through reading their heartfelt sentiments and how I impacted their lives. I knew I was living my passion and doing God’s will.
The next day I attended the spiritual center I belong to. The feelings had moved through me and I was feeling more like myself. I didn’t notice it at first and then was shocked when I saw what was written on the man’s shirt right in front of me. It read MAUI and ALOHA! I said, “Thank you God for the confirmation I am on the right track and following you!” I was reminded once again that we get what we need when we need it and are open to receiving it.
This week I was also reminded that we can help others get what they need too! A couple of weeks ago, a woman called me from the Center for Women and Enterprise in Providence, asking if she could interview me for a “business success” story in their newsletter. Of course, I was honored and said, “Yes.” After the initial questions of how CWE helped me in my business, I talked about my own definition of success. I said, “I used to think success only meant making a lot of money and if you weren’t making a lot of money, your business wasn’t successful.” Of course, we need and want to make money so we can serve more, have fun and enjoy the fruits of our labor.
What I later realized is that true success is being free to do whatever you want to do and whenever you want to do it. It is living in love and joy. It is using your gifts to serve the community. It is being passionate and doing what you love to do. It is experiencing abundance in all areas of your life. It is living your life to the fullest in gratitude for all the good in your life.
As our interview continued, the young woman interviewing me appeared open to discussing spirituality and what it meant to her. She said, “I have been thinking about meditating lately because I want to know myself better.” She looked around my house and said, “It feels like a church here (I have nothing spiritual on the walls), there is so much peace in this room.” I was thrilled because I am visualizing the person who buys my house will walk in the house and feel the energy of love and peace and feel compelled to buy the house.
Then, I heard God say, “Give her your book” so I did. What appeared to be just an ordinary interview, turned out to be extraordinary. We never know when God is going to use us to share our faith and help someone grow on the spiritual path.
I encourage you to go deeper with God and stop running from yourself. Be still, rest, trust and know that God is in control and wants only your best. I like to think that God has me covered.
Heart Steps – Julia Cameron
My Soul Has Patience and Containment
I am patient. I am able to live with ambiguity. I am able to allow situations to evolve and alter. I am able to await outcomes. I tolerate quiet periods of non-knowing while solutions emerge and present themselves. I do not force solutions. I expect the successful working-out of difficulties and differences. My heart is wise. It knows when to act and when non-action is the action to take. I trust my patient heart. I trust the power of my containment.
I heard God say, “SIT STILL.” I said, “Sit still? You have to be kidding me. I have to do something to make my house sell quickly.” If you are anything like me and I suspect you are, sitting still is not easy, especially when it is important and you think you should do something NOW.
I had my open house last week and one person showed up and they weren’t interested. I handled it well and stay focused and peaceful by using my affirmations such as “Thank you God for the right and perfect person who will buy my house, for the right and perfect price and perfect timing.” However, the next day I received a call from my real estate agent informing me that a house on the next street just went on the market for $5,000 less than mine and it had a garage and hardwood floors, which mine didn’t have. “What do you think I should do?” I asked him. “You may want to lower the price $10,000 so you will be more marketable” he said. I instantly felt panicked as I clicked off the remaining days in my head that I have left before returning to Maui.
I wanted to be in alignment with God’s will and didn’t want to react from a place of fear, so I prayed and asked for guidance and a dream that night. I knew I needed to “Go Within” rather than seeking advice from family and friends because I knew they would all have different opinions on what I should do. I trusted God would guide me and show me the way. Sometimes, walking in faith doesn’t make sense to the rational mind. It made perfect sense to lower the price, but my gut was saying something different. And God was saying, “SIT STILL.” I recently came across something that I wrote in my journal in 1998. “You must learn to be still in the midst of activity and to be vibrantly alive in repose.” When I look back over my life, there have been many occasions when what I was doing didn’t make sense, but I followed my heart and it to turned out to be best thing to do.
The next morning when I awoke, I remembered my dream and I knew exactly what it meant. In the dream, I was riding my bike and racing to get to a cruise ship so I wouldn’t miss it. When I got there, the ship had already left. I was missing the boat – which meant I wasn’t seeing the bigger spiritual picture (learning to let go of control and trust in the higher plan.) It became clear to me that my racing was about my wanting to control this process, which was coming from a place of fear and panic. To bring peace back into my life, I chose to surrender and let go of the timing and the HOW my house would sell. Because God’s grace and presence is so evident in my daily life, I tend to minimize that what I am doing by moving across the world and leaving my family, home and friends to follow my heart, is huge. I shared with my friend, “I think I am getting a PHD in FAITH.” She laughed and said, “You sure are.”
The day before my first open house, I went down my basement and noticed a big puddle of water on the floor. I looked up and saw it was coming from the pipes overhead. I started to panic because it wouldn’t look to good if the pipes were leaking. I didn’t know who to call to help me. “Stay calm, Pat, it will work out,” I said to myself and then asked God for help. A few minutes later, I received a call about the 2 air conditioners that I was selling on Craig’s list. He said he lived close by and would be there in 10 minutes.
Meanwhile, I went back down the basement to try to figure out where the water was coming from (Are you kidding me? I know nothing about leaky pipes)! When the doorbell rang, I ran upstairs and brought this man down to the basement so he could look at the air conditioners, which he ending up buying. Because I was a little desperate, I asked, “Do you know anything about pipes?” He said, “Not really, but what is the problem?” I pointed to the pipe that was leaking. He reached up and just tightened it and the problem was solved! Of course, I thanked him profusely.
This journey for me is about letting go of whatever is no longer useful in my life. My whole life has flashed before me as I go through albums and boxes of pictures that I had saved for years. I found report cards from when I was 10 years old, pictures of great-grandparents, my children, family vacations, dances, proms, old boyfriends, my wedding and sorority friends. Was I ready to let go of the pictures that I held onto for so long? I kept saying, “You must let go of the old so the new can come.” My daughter came over and helped me pack up the albums and she will keep the ones I am saving at her home. Of course, I will be taking some pictures with me that I just cannot let go of.
I wasn’t expecting the onslaught of tears as I came across pictures of my mother who died at age 44 when I was only 21 years old. I still miss my mother and I asked God in that moment to help me feel her presence. In prayer that morning, I heard her say, “I am very proud of you.” Later that night, I was invited to a FREE open house of alternative healers and angel readings. During my card reading, my mother “showed up” and told me through this reader that she was proud of me. I was blown away and very grateful that God heard my prayers and I was able to feel my mother’s presence.
Here is another example of how God provides. I went to Staples to return some computer paper I hadn’t used. Since I didn’t have the receipt, the clerk gave me a credit slip in the amount of $12.42. I needed tape to pack my boxes to send to Maui. I thanked God that they were on sale and bought several rolls. When I went to pay for it (just a couple of minutes later), the total came to $12.40. I was 2 cents short. The clerk smiled and said, “You left these 2 pennies on the counter when I gave you the credit slip back.” I didn’t leave any pennies! I smiled and said, “Thank you” because I knew that was God assuring me that He was taking care of me. I left the store and said to myself, “Did that really happen?” You may think, what’s the big deal, it is only 2 cents. I thought, if God provided 2 cents, He can provide $2,000 and $20,000 and more.
My lessons have been many and will continue to come. I know how important it is to ask for what you need and trust the answer will come. Be willing to listen and TRUST your intuition because your answers are within. Sometimes, we need to act and sometimes we need to SIT STILL and trust that God is in charge and working things out for our good. Once we make the decision to trust and follow God, the peace returns. I am grateful for God’s grace, which has given me the courage to follow my heart and live my dreams.
God has a sense of humor! I have shared that one of my symbols is the ladybug. Was I ever surprised when the ladybug “showed up” on my pillow when I was making the bed this morning and it was “SITTING STILL.”
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