Can you imagine the surprise of receiving a message on Facebook from my friend, Sharon, whom I graduated high school with 55 years ago? I haven’t seen or heard from her in all these years. OMG where does the time go?
Of course, memories of high school days danced through my head. I graduated from a class of 800 students and I was the captain of the cheerleaders, queen of the prom, president of my sorority and voted MOST POPULAR. I worked “very hard” at being POPULAR and it was exhausting!
I know today that I looked OUTSIDE to be validated, noticed, praised and loved. I had no idea how to love myself or that I “should” love myself. I beat up on myself and never felt good enough, no matter how many degrees I received. There was a HUGE hole inside of me that only God could fill. I tried to fill that hole by staying busy, rushing, working and being a people pleaser. On the outside, I looked great, but my outside didn’t match my inside. Can you relate?
Here is what my friend from high school wrote:
“I wanted to share how connected I feel to you. I too am a woman of faith and God has taken us on a similar journey. Although I didn’t grow up in an alcoholic home, I married an alcoholic, who is now recovering and my daughter is an Addiction Therapist.
My faith was nonexistent until I found Alanon and learned to surrender. Once having taken that leap of faith, I too received many blessings. What I wanted to share with you is that I had become very complacent in my faith. I read your inspiring book and it put the fire under me again, so thank you. I will be going to our 55th high school reunion in October. I will be bringing 3 copies of your book to share with some of my closest friends. I know from your postings that you have found your soul mate and are living your dream. I am living my dream too and I thank you for reminding me of how awesome God is.”
As you can imagine, I was thrilled and grateful to receive her message and that she is bringing 3 of my books to the reunion. Holy Moly! I’m also grateful that I had the courage to say YES to God, face my fears and have my book published 10 years ago.
When I was in the middle of writing my book (that took 7 years to write), I had a dream. I went to bed hysterical crying and said to God, “I can’t write this book, no one will read it, I’m wasting my time, you have chosen the wrong person.” I was riddled with FEAR. Thank you, God, for not giving up on me, like I had given up on myself.
Here is my dream:
I was climbing up a staircase. When I got to the top of the stairs, there was a STAR. As I reached out to touch the STAR, I became the STAR. I received an affirmation, “I am a STAR that shines brightly to lead others to the God within.”
It truly is my passion and purpose to shine brightly to inspire others to know their Source as the divine presence of God within. I share my story every week, not for validation or to be admired or praised. I share my journey to encourage you so that you know you are not alone and that you can live your dream, as I am doing today.
My friends, I encourage you to face your fears, listen to the small, still voice of God and remember Spirit will never lead to something without equipping you for the task.” I am here to help you and show you how to live your dream.
Have you ever asked yourself, “How did I get here?” I know I have, all the time! I said this to my son, Tim, a few years ago and he said, “Mom, you have been talking about living on the water for as long as I can remember.” It was my dream to live on the water and I didn’t care if it was a pond, a lake, a puddle or the ocean!
I am blissful, peaceful and grateful when I sit outside every morning looking at the ocean, smelling the flowers, listening to the birds or watching the beautiful sunset every night. Dreams do come true and often much bigger than you expected. Dream BIG. I not only attracted living in a home overlooking the ocean, but I attracted a loving husband who respects, loves and cherishes me. How blessed I am.
My “spiritual practice” and awakening journey with Spirit for the past 45 years is extremely important to me. It has brought me to where and who I am today. I don’t do everything perfectly (I practice), and not in any special order, but I SHOW UP daily and allow Spirit to guide me, as I trust the day to unfold with peace, ease and grace. It has not always been easy as I have had to work through and heal many layers of sexual, emotional abuse and parental addiction. It has taken years to transform and heal and I am grateful I didn’t give up.
I would like to share these spiritual practices with you. If you are struggling in any area of your life, I invite you to incorporate any or all of what works for me.
I pray, meditate and journal daily
I let go and let God
I am assertive and ask for what I want
I set my intentions for the day
I choose love
I practice an attitude of gratitude
I allow myself to feel my feelings and express them when I want to
I let go of negativity and focus on the positive
I set boundaries and say no when needed
I listen to my intuition and follow its guidance
I detach when necessary
I ask for help when I need it
I speak my truth, even when it’s difficult
I see everything as opportunities- rather than problems
I eliminate “shoulds” from my life
I embrace and welcome change-rather than fear it
I trust and surrender to “what is”
I forgive myself and others
I love and appreciate myself
I ALLOW things to come to me, rather than make things happen
I live in the NOW moment, as tomorrow is not promised and the future is not here yet
I let go of victim, poor me mentality
I choose love, happiness and joy
I open to infinite possibilities
I take responsibility for my actions-rather than blaming someone else
I look for opportunities to serve
I believe everything happens for a reason and there is a purpose for everything
That is quite a list and I encourage you to choose what works for you. We are all connected and are ONE. I don’t do it perfectly and I forget the truth of who I am sometimes. When I get out of alignment (and I do), Spirit always brings me back home, to where I am meant to be.
It is my desire to live my life to the fullest and BE the woman God created me to be, using my gifts for the good of all. I choose to be a vessel of love, have fun, play and enjoy my life. We are not promised tomorrow, all we have is NOW and it’s never too late to begin. You are worth it and you deserve peace and love in your life.
I would be happy to help and assist you go deeper so you can live the life you deserve.
Every week my prayer is that Spirit give me something inspirational to write about for my blog. Sometimes, it’s at the last minute when I get a message, but I have learned to wait because something always comes. God’s timing is perfect! God is faithful since I’ve been writing these weekly blogs for the last 10 years. I’m grateful and humbled that I’m the instrument He chooses to write through.
If it wasn’t for you reading the blogs and responding and sharing your experiences, I wouldn’t write. Thank you for encouraging me to keep sharing my love story and how God continues to “show up” to love, provide, guide and protect. You are not alone; we are all on this journey together and it is my joy and delight to share my sacred, personal experiences of God with you.
While I was taking my walk at sunset on the beach last night, I spotted an open house sign, as I walked past the house overlooking the ocean. I was curious and decided to take a quick look. I was honest and direct with the real estate agent, Lori. I wasn’t interested in buying the 12-million-dollar home, I just wanted to see what it looked like inside.
Lori and I started talking, which is not uncommon to do living on Maui. After the initial questions, “How long have you been living here, how did you get here, do you like it?” I shared our “love story” and how Larry and I met and are now married. She listened intently and I sensed that what I was saying resonated with her on a deep level. I shared about being single for 15 years after a 30-year marriage and how I learned to love myself during that time.
She shared her story, which had some similarities on how she came to Maui with her soulmate. She asked about my children and grandchildren ranging from 2 years old to 28 years old. I told her about my daughter, Mary, adopting my grandson, Herbie, and that he was in foster care before she adopted him.
She opened up and said, “I was in foster care and it was very painful being taken out of the house.” She started to cry, and said, “I never cry here.” I hugged her and assured her it was o.k. to cry for the pain still inside.
She shared, “I’m writing a book about my experiences in foster care and it’s called ‘Breath of Love.” It’s about overcoming fear and living in abundance. Of course, that brought the conversation to an even deeper level. I said, “I wrote a book called, “Simply a Woman of Faith” and it took me 7 years to write it because I was filled with fear and didn’t believe in myself. I shared a scripture with her: “Fear is useless, what is needed is TRUST.” I’m so grateful that I had the grace to face my fears and follow my heart to have my book published. I would not be living my dream and living on Maui in a beautiful home with my beloved.
I asked Lori, “What is keeping you from finishing your book?” She said, “I don’t know because most of it is already written.” I offered to help and support her because I know how important it is to be accountable to move through the levels of fear.
As we hugged and said goodbye to one another, she looked at me and said, “I have been here since 1:00 pm and there hasn’t been 1 person come to the open house. I was getting ready to close up when I heard God say, “Wait, don’t leave yet, someone is coming.” We both knew that someone was ME and it was a Divine Appointment.
I know the story isn’t over yet and Lori and I are meeting this week so I can give her a signed copy of “Simply a Woman of Faith.” I love how we are all connected.
I’m so grateful how I’m always guided, protected and provided for and, often before I even know I need something. It can be something small or big like moving 6,000 miles to Maui almost 8 years ago. Spirit is always communicating with us when we are awake and paying attention.
Here is what happened this week. I planned a mini vacation to a neighboring island called Lanai. I met Melissa on the ferry a few months ago and she invited me to stay with her in her cottage. The day before leaving, my eye glass chain holder for around my neck broke. My day was full and I didn’t have time to go into town to buy a new one.
I decided to go to Rainbow Attic, my favorite consignment store close by to see if they had something to hold my glasses. I had seen eye glass holders there before, so I knew exactly where to look. I searched and searched the bin, but to no avail.
I kept asking God to provide and lead me to eye glass holders because I didn’t want to lose my glasses when I went away. I was about to leave the store as I walked past a jewelry case. There were at least 20 necklaces hanging from the rack. I literally grabbed a necklace and couldn’t believe my eyes. It was exactly what I was looking for. My glasses fit beautifully in the holder. Not only was the price right, but the color matched my Maui Jim sunglasses. God is good!
Melissa and I had a great time exploring the island, snorkeling, shopping and eating out. I noticed the woman’s shirt who was sitting at a table across from us at the café. It said, HONEY in big letters. My mother’s name was HONEY and after she died 50 years ago, the song HONEY was released by Bobby Goldsboro. I have heard the song many times over the years when I’ve needed to feel my mom’s presence. I smiled as I felt my mother’s presence and wondered if she had a message for me?
The next day I received a text from Melissa expressing her gratitude for our visit. She wrote, “Thank you for your time and special love. I feel a warmth from you, that, honestly, is rare.” I thanked her for the text and forgot about it until the following day.
I was in the bathroom when a light bulb went off in my head. It felt like my mother was trying to communicate the truth with me. When I was growing up, and my mother was drinking, she would often say, “You are COLD, just like your father.” It’s obvious my parents’ relationship was struggling.
I didn’t really understand what being COLD meant, but it didn’t feel good and I hated when she said it to me. I never saw myself as COLD, but I’m sure at some level, it was buried in my subconscious.
Here 50 years later, God uses Melissa to speak to me to tell me the truth. I am loving and WARM and have always been.
I know today, it was my mother’s alcoholism and personal problems that made her say things that weren’t true and were hurtful. It had nothing to do with me.
Thank you Spirit for the truth of who I am and have always been and thank you mom for communicating with me and being there for me when I’ve needed you the most.
I arrived home safely from my 2- week vacation with family. I love going away and I love coming home because there is no place like home. There were 18 red roses waiting for me when I walked into the house from my beloved. I think he missed me, as I missed his loving presence and love.
As I walked through the airport on my way home, I thought about the thousands of travelers who travel daily and get on planes. They ultimately feel safe and put their trust in the pilot to get them to their prospective destinations.
I then thought, “Do we trust a HIGHER POWER to take care of us and protect us as much as we trust a pilot to get us to where we want to go in life or do we obsess or worry and live in fear?
As I was sitting and waiting for the plane to board, right in front of me was a flashing ad with several sayings on the TV for Bank of America. The first ad said, “What would you like the POWER to do?” Of course, they weren’t referring to a HIGHER POWER or God or Source.
I asked myself, “What would I like the POWER to do?” I encourage you to ask, “What would you like the POWER to do?” If we don’t know what we want the POWER to do, we won’t ask and we won’t receive. We may be feeling frustrated with where we are in life, confused, stuck or unfulfilled in a relationship or job. The truth is we are not living our dream.
It is important to know what we want so we can ask the POWER greater than ourselves for assistance. I kept saying to my friend, Donna, while on vacation, “I don’t know what I want to do and I’m waiting for my next orders.” I wasn’t stressed about it, but felt peaceful that I would figure out what I wanted in time and that I didn’t have to push or make anything happen.
As I spent quiet time going within and meditating. I asked myself, “What do I want to do and what does Spirit want?” It became clear that Spirit was calling me to share my gifts as a Spiritual Life Coach again. I felt excited because I am living the life of my dreams (as many of you desire to do too) and want to help YOU to do the same.
I could hardly believe how things started to shift almost miraculously and organically as I became clear as to what I wanted to do. Within an hour, my prayer was answered as my first coaching client appeared and asked me to be her Spiritual Life Coach.
The next few ads that flashed on the TV screen about the POWER were:
“The POWER to know everything is OK”
“The POWER to live in the moment”
Here are a few of my own:
“The POWER to know everything is perfect and in divine timing”
“The POWER to experience self-care & self-love as a spiritual practice”
The POWER to awaken, expand and be inspired”
“The POWER to know we are all connected and ONE”
“The POWER to trust, surrender and let go”
“The POWER to know I AM ENOUGH and deserve my highest good”
“The POWER to know there is only LOVE”
We all have the same POWER within us to guide and protect us. We just need to consciously connect with our HIGHER POWER or Source on a daily basis.
If you need help connecting to the spiritual POWER within and you want to align with your soul’s purpose and make an impact in the world and you want to receive the abundance you deserve, I am here to serve you. If you’ve been on the spiritual and personal growth path for years and you want to move forward in your life, please contact me and we can discuss your needs.
I encourage you to ask yourself, “What is holding me back from having the intimate relationship I desire and the life I deserve?
Is it not TIME to know the truth of who you are and the POWER within? If not now, WHEN?
We all want to be seen, heard, appreciated and loved. Would you agree? It feels good when someone really listens and hears me, without trying to fix, control, give advice or change me. They listen with their heart, rather than with their head and it feels very different. It feels good when someone takes the time to see who I truly am and what I’m experiencing. If you have someone in your life who sees, hears, appreciates and loves you, be grateful for you are blessed.
Whenever Larry goes to the market, a restaurant or to the bank and the person is wearing a name tag, he always greets them using their name. It’s a way of seeing someone and appreciating them, even or especially when doing a service job. It’s such a small act of love and kindness, but it goes a long way and sometimes makes the person’s day to feel valued and recognized. I practice this now too and it feels good.
When Larry and I go to a restaurant, we often converse with the wait staff and somehow the conversation leads to the importance of gratitude and the power of love in our lives. We often leave hugging one another.
Gladys was our waitress at Café Ole when we went for breakfast on Sunday. I complimented her on her beautiful smile. I often compliment others when I see something I like; something they are wearing or their beautiful eyes or their smile. This is my way of showing kindness and appreciating what I see in others.
I keep small inspirational cards with me in my purse. When Spirit leads me, I give a card to someone or leave one at the table when I leave for the next person to find. I was led to randomly pick one for Gladys. It was, BELIEVE IN YOURSELF, AND YOU WILL BE UNSTOPPABLE.
When I handed it to her, her whole face lit up and she said, “Thank you, I really needed this today. I’m going to put this where I can see it every day. This will really help me and you made my day. I’m just getting into real estate and I’m struggling with not feeling good enough.” Of course, we were all smiling and hugged one another when we left the restaurant.
A few days later, I was reading over my journal for the past month and came across a dream that I had. I was screaming “I AM ENOUGH.” I am not good enough is a core belief that we all struggle with to some degree. This belief was coming to the light to be released and healed.
The spiritual journey is about remembering who I am and that I am ONE with GOD. I am LOVE and I am connected to my source. Everything is perfect NOW and has already been planned in the mind of God. I don’t have to push, strive, worry, be better or smarter than or try to earn it. I can enjoy the journey, relax and live in peace.
If only it were that easy!!! We forget constantly who we are and that we are not alone. Our ego wants to rob us of our peace and the truth of our magnificence and that we are ONE with GOD.
“Know that whenever you feel good about yourself and your magnificence, ego will try to rob you. You must SPOT IT and then let it go. Stay in the truth of who you are and the loving being that you are. I am in charge of your life. Switch your focus from problems to my presence and keep choosing love.”
I encourage and support you to remember who you are and that you are good enough. You are LOVE and you are loved.
BELIEVE IN YOURSELF, & YOU WILL BE UNSTOPPABLE
I love “synchronicities” and how Spirit always leads me when I listen to my intuition and follow it. I was led to do a “Pat day” as I refer to them, and took an early ferry to our neighboring island, called Lanai. I love being on the ferry as it touches my soul when I gaze into the beautiful blue ocean and just breathe.
We stood next to each other as we waited to get on the ferry and I started a conversation with Mellissa, which is so easy to do on Maui. She shared she was a traveling CNA and on her way to Lanai to get a drug screen and check out housing in the area. It was quite fascinating as she shared her journey of the last 2 years and all the places she’s traveled to. What an adventure, I thought.
I couldn’t help but notice the tattoos she had on both of her arms and asked if I could see them. There were beautiful flowers and symbols and a compass with the words underneath, “Lord, lead me.” Under that were the words, “My next will be braver than my now. My faith is stronger than my fear.”
Of course, that was my opening to share that I wrote a book called, “Simply a Woman of Faith.” I shared with her my story and how I followed my heart and moved to Maui. I told her about meeting Ellen in Rhode Island and being invited to stay with her in her condo overlooking the ocean.
We sat next to each other when we got on the ferry and continued our conversation. She shared more about how this job offer on Lanai just opened up the day before. It was her plan to go back to W. Virginia to visit family and she had just mailed all of her belongings a few days ago. God had other plans and she was following her heart. Within a couple of days after the offer, she had housing with a car included.
As I listened to Melissa and her trust in following God’s plan, something stirred inside of me. I looked at her and said, “I love your adventurous spirit.” She smiled and her face lit up. I then realized that I have the same adventurous spirit. I said, “You know what we see in others is in us, and I also have an adventurous spirit.” She smiled and said, “I was thinking the same thing, but didn’t want to sound weird.” We both laughed and I said, “We are both weird.” We knew meeting one another wasn’t an accident and it was meant to be. She invited me to stay with her in her new home when she moves in next month, which I will happily do.
After the intense year of traveling, retreats, graduating from the 6 months Sacred Feminine Mystery School and my own deep sexual healing, it is time to rest and integrate it all. Even though I am grateful for this rest period (which is so needed), it feels like I am in limbo and waiting for orders for my next assignment. There was so much expansion and growth and now it is time to contract and BE.
Because of this resting place, if you will, I didn’t see myself as having an “adventurous spirit.” I asked myself, “Why did I see it so clearly in her and didn’t recognize it in myself?” I needed to meet Melissa to remember and ACTIVATE my adventurous spirit.
I haven’t traveled all over the world (YET), but I have followed my heart and faced my fears in so many areas: going back to school in my forties, dropping out of school for 1 year because I didn’t think I could write a paper, writing a book, getting a divorce after 30 years of marriage and moving to Maui and leaving family, friends and community.
I’m not sure what Spirit is saying to me other than it’s not over yet baby and there is so much more adventure in you. I’m ready and willing to be guided. Show me the way Spirit. I say YES to the next adventure, whatever that is.
Melissa sent me a text the next day and said, “Small amount of time packed with adventure and aloha. I thanked God for you multiple times as you said many words I needed to hear and they put my wandering thoughts into place. I know we will see each other in the near future.”
It is my belief that living in the present moment is key to my peace of mind and spiritual health. Sometimes my mind is like a blender, jumping into the past or into the future. We are in trouble when we are in the “What ifs.”
For example: WHAT IF: I run out of money; I don’t have enough energy to do what I want to do; I don’t meet my soulmate; I don’t get clients; my health declines; I don’t have a place to live; I make a mistake; I lose my job; my business fails or my marriage fails. The list goes on and on. What are the “What ifs” in your life?
The key for me is to become AWARE when I’m NOT living in the present moment. I may notice tension in my body, irritability or fear in my gut. I lose my peace when I’m trying to figure things out, want to be right or trying to control an outcome or a person, place or thing.
It’s easy and common to lose our peace when we are in the “hallway” and don’t know the future and how things are going to work out, whether that be in business, health, financial or relationships. It’s in these “hallway” experiences (and I have had a lot of them) that my faith muscles grow stronger.
I am given the opportunity to trust and surrender to “what is.” I can CHOOSE to *complain, *bang on the door, *cry, * plead or I can CHOOSE to wait patiently for the next door to open or for guidance on what I am to do or know next. I can CHOOSE to trust God’s perfect timing. It is always my CHOICE!
I’ve had some health challenges (opportunities) for the past couple of months that have been scary, confusing and frustrating. Sometimes, it feels like I’m going down a rabbit’s hole trying to figure out what’s wrong and what to do next. I read one book and it says to do this to heal my body and another book says to do the direct opposite. I will continue to pursue my healing, knowing Spirit is guiding me. Who do I listen to?
• I’m listening to my body and what it needs and doesn’t need.
• I’m allowing myself to feel all of my feelings including frustration, anger, fear, disappointment, sadness.
• I’m CHOOSING LOVE.
• I’m staying positive and grateful for what I have and not what’s missing.
• I’m trusting Spirit to show me the next right step.
• I know that EVERYTHING has a purpose and is for my highest good.
• I’m practicing living in the moment because that is all there is and that is where God is.
• I’m trusting my intuition.
• I’m praying, meditating, being patient, letting go and surrendering.
Instead of all the “What ifs” which is often motivated by fear about the past or future, I am living in the present moment and “ACTING AS IF.” Acting as if means that if I want something, I must act as if I already have it in order to get it.
If I want to be healthy, I must act as if I am already healthy. If I want new friends, I must act as if I already have friends. If I want more money, I must act as if I have money, rather than come from a place of lack. The key is a willingness to look BEYOND my current reality, knowing that it can and will change.
I am healthy and whole, I am guided, I am protected, I am loved. My affirmation is: “Everything is flowing with peace, ease and grace and I have all the energy I need to do what I want to do.”
I love this season of my life where I do what I want, when I want and with whomever I want. If I don’t want to do something, I don’t do it. I check in with myself and ask Spirit to guide me as to what I am to do next or who I am to be with. Sometimes I take a walk early in the morning and sometimes at sunset on the beach.
Years ago, I remember a quote that spoke to my heart. “When you learn to trust yourself, you will know how to live.” It has taken me many years of hard work to trust myself and release old beliefs and behaviors that no longer served me. I try to live in the moment and let go of the past and future. It’s not always easy, but I strive for it.
Of course, while I was raising a family and holding a full- time job. I had to do things I didn’t want to do, whether it was convenient or not. I didn’t have a choice when I had to nurse a baby in the middle of the night or get up with a sick child. I loved being a mother and don’t regret a minute of all that I did.
I didn’t know then what I know now about the importance of loving and appreciating myself, self-care and taking sacred time for myself. I had it backwards. I had to take care of everyone else first (including my ex-husband and children who were old enough to take care of themselves) before I did anything for myself. I said yes when I meant no and then felt resentful when I was exhausted. I’m grateful for all I have learned and continue to learn.
Being in a relationship and married now, I know it isn’t all about me and what I need and want. Larry and I work beautifully together to make our relationship harmonious. We listen to each other and negotiate our needs for the good of the relationship. We rarely question what the other is doing or not doing. We may suggest something to the other and then let it go if the other isn’t interested. Instead of being codependent or dependent, we are interdependent.
It’s interesting what happened this week when Larry was triggered by something I said. I went into the TV room and said, “I love how we respect one another’s decisions to do whatever we want to do for ourselves. I feel the freedom to do what I need to do for myself and think you do too.”
The Universe definitely set this up for us to communicate with one another. He looked at me and said, “I would appreciate it if you didn’t question me about when I have my breakfast.” I had no idea what he was talking about and asked him to explain.
Larry works on the computer in the morning and usually eats his breakfast about 11:00 am. That morning he came into the kitchen at 9:00 am and said, “I’m hungry and going to have my breakfast now. I was surprised and innocently said, “It’s only 9:00 am, you don’t ever have your breakfast at 9:00 am.” I had no intention of telling him what to do or what not to do. It was just a comment.
Larry then explained to me that he felt judged and like he was doing something wrong when I made the comment. We both realized he was being triggered by an old belief that no longer served him. His old belief was that he couldn’t relax until he was productive and finished his work.
I could certainly relate to that belief in my own life. If I didn’t check off things on my to-do list, I felt guilty that I didn’t do enough. It was hard to relax and do nothing if I wasn’t productive first.
We were both grateful that we recognized this old belief that keeps us from doing what we want when we want to do it. Communication, respect, trust, honesty and vulnerability with one another are key components of a healthy relationship.
As I look back on my life, I know that Spirit has guided me every step of the way, although it may not have felt that way when I was going through a difficult time.
Was it being in the right place at the right time? Was it through a closed door only to find out later it was for my highest good? Was it following my intuition? Was it giving a talk and a woman inviting me to come to Maui?
I often wonder, “How did I get here living on Maui?” I got here because I kept saying YES and trusting I was being guided. It was not easy leaving my family and friends and community 7 years ago to follow my heart and move to Maui.
I chose to TRUST myself and God that I would be provided for and kept safe. If I had not faced my fears and believed in myself, I would not be living my dream. I am so grateful for the grace and courage it took to step out in faith and follow my heart. How about you? Are you living your dream? Do you trust yourself that you are being guided?
One of the ways I am guided is through listening and trusting my feelings. Feelings are not right or wrong, they just are. There were many years that I didn’t have a “feeling language” and didn’t know how or what I felt. I would ask others, “Would you feel this way if this happened to you?”
Today, I know what I’m feeling and am able to express my feelings in a healthy way. I pay attention to what I’m feeling and trust my feelings are there to guide me. If my feelings appear jumbled, I take the time to journal and go within to feel. It is my belief that I can’t heal what I can’t feel. I don’t allow myself to do a spiritual bypass because I don’t want to feel something.
Here is how I was guided this week.
I started to feel “uncomfortable” about a decision I made to do something a few weeks away. Even though I knew that I had a right to change my mind, I struggled and felt disappointed in myself that I didn’t want to do what I said I would do.
As I prayed about it, Spirit showed me that I was beating up on myself for changing my mind. Rather than trusting that perhaps I wasn’t meant to do this particular thing at this time, I judged myself and felt guilty. I asked myself, “Would you be compassionate and understanding to a friend who changed their mind?” Yes, of course, I would.
Here is the message I received from Spirit:
“Breathe, the truth is coming to the light. You are following your heart. You showed up and said yes. Nothing is lost. Can you trust that you are not meant to do this at this time? It doesn’t mean that you will never do it, but not now. Can you trust I’m leading you and you can trust your feelings? Give yourself a break. Love yourself. Be gentle and trust the process. I have your back. “
What is my truth?
*I can trust myself and my feelings. They are not right or wrong, they just are.
*I can trust God is guiding me.
*It’s ok to change my mind.
*I don’t need to beat up on myself, I need to accept and love myself.
*The will of God will never lead me where the GRACE of God will not protect me.
The good news is that I can change my mind over and over again and it’s all good. I’m not crazy or irrational, just following my heart.
What is your truth? Are you able to trust your feelings? Are you able to change your mind with peace, ease and grace or do you beat up on yourself for changing your mind?”
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