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I am always guided to my highest good

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I love how I am ALWAYS guided to the right and best decision for my life and for my highest good. Guidance comes in different ways when we are “awake” and “conscious” and living in the moment. When we ask Spirit to guide us, we are guided in major decisions for our life as well as everyday ordinary decisions. When we are rushing around and busy, we may not hear the guidance from within.

Over the years, I have learned to listen to the still, small voice within, even when I don’t understand it and it doesn’t make sense. It may take awhile, but eventually I get the message.

Guidance may come from our intuition when something just doesn’t feel right or from meditation, a song, a dream, something we read, talking to someone, or overhearing a conversation that enlightens us. The list goes on and on and I’m sure we all have stories of how we received guidance.  Do you take time to listen to inner guidance or do you ignore it and then wonder why things aren’t going well?

I had a couple of things happen this week where I knew I was being guided. I felt exhausted after Larry’s birthday party last week and started to get a sore throat. I wanted to nip it in the bud and rested and took lots of vitamin C. A couple of days later, I came down with a “bug” with stomach cramps, gas and the runs. I was not a happy camper.

I happened to read a post on Facebook from a friend who had throat symptoms like I had. I sent her a message and then read some of the comments she received. Some people suggested she take vitamin C.  Others shared about the dangers of taking too much vitamin C. I had never heard of taking too much vitamin C.

I was stunned when I googled it and realized I didn’t have a stomach “bug” after all. The suggested dosage for vitamin C is 2000 mg daily and I was taking 7000 mg. I immediately stopped taking it and my stomach “bug” went away. I would not have known this and probably still be experiencing a stomach “bug.” Guidance comes in all different places, even from Facebook.

I am scheduled for cataract surgery in 2 days. Larry had it done a few months ago and I knew it wasn’t a big deal.  Although I have health insurance, I still had to pay a significant amount of money, like $4,000 for both eyes. The surgery would correct my long- distance vision, but I would have to wear glasses for close up like reading. If I wanted to have long distance and close up corrected, it would cost another $2000. I opted for the $4000 and would settle for readers until I received a phone call from my friend, Carole, in Rhode Island today.

It was great catching up with her because we hadn’t spoken in months. I shared about my cataract surgery and she said, “I had it done several years ago and I’m so grateful I opted to get both long distance and close up done, even though it cost more money. My sister is sorry she didn’t get it done because she has readers all over the house.”

I got off the phone and asked Spirit for guidance. Because of the money, I hadn’t even considered having it both done. I was settling because I was afraid to spend the money. I have always been provided for and know I always will be. I tell Larry, “God is my banker.”

I’m grateful that the belief of “not enough” was brought to the light so I could change it. I don’t need to settle because there is always enough. I’m grateful for the guidance and the phone call 2 days before the surgery.   God is good.




Larry celebrated his 80th birthday

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Larry celebrated his 80th birthday with 35 friends and family at our home on Sunday. What a beautiful day of love and joy. The love just FLOWED. When asked by a friend, “What have you learned that is most important and what wisdom do you want to share with us?” Larry smiled and simply said, “ALL THERE IS IS LOVE.”

My prayer for Larry was that his heart be open to receive the love that others wanted to shower on him for his birthday. It is not always easy to receive.

For many years, I unconsciously “blocked” love (even though I wanted it) because I didn’t feel deserving, worthy, or good enough. I didn’t think I could live up to what others said about me and I didn’t want others to think I was conceited. I worked hard at letting go of these erroneous beliefs that were running my life and not allowing me to receive love from others.

My intention for the birthday party was that it FLOW with peace, ease and grace. And that it did as I felt peaceful and relaxed. In the past, I always felt stressed before a party or company because I wanted everything to be perfect. I drove myself crazy and everyone around me.

One of the reasons I felt so peaceful was that I’ve learned to ask for HELP. I remember an incident years ago with my ex-husband. We were having company, and he was laying on the couch reading the paper, while I was racing around the house trying to get ready. I felt angry and resentful that he wasn’t helping and I was doing everything. I finally snapped and said something to him. I will never forget his remark, “Why didn’t you ask me for help?”

I never thought to ask him for help. The lesson for me was that I expected him to read my mind.  Of course, we could say he should have known and perhaps he could have been more aware, but he wasn’t. Expecting someone to read my mind and know what I need is setting myself up for trouble.

Why is it hard to ask for help?

  • We don’t want to be rejected
  • We don’t want to bother others
  • We may be afraid of what will be asked of us
  • We think we should know what to do

Because I’ve learned to say NO when I want to and YES when I want to, my friends also say no and yes and are honest with me when I ask for help

I asked a friend to come over a couple of days before the party and we discussed everything, as well as set up tables and figure out where the food was going to be placed. It was such a blessing to not have to do it all by myself. Our Friends delivered chairs and table and let us borrow their coolers. Another friend surprised us with 35 beautiful favors that everyone loved.  We felt so loved.

The day of the birthday party was truly amazing.  Everyone mingled and shared the love with one another. We were so grateful as our friends helped in so many ways without even being asked.

Larry was truly celebrated and honored as the LOVE flowed. It will be a day neither one of us will ever forget. All we can say is thank you for loving us the way you did and thank you for allowing us to love you and for being present in our lives.


I’m not responsible for others

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My daily prayer is to be peaceful. When I lose my peace, I go within to see what I’m feeling and what I need to change. I know I cannot change other people, I can only change myself. I’m grateful for the tools I have such as prayer, meditation, journaling and EFT (Emotional Freedom Technique) to get me back on track when I lose my peace and slip into old codependent behaviors, like I did this week.

Until I learned to love and appreciate myself, I struggled with codependent behaviors all the time and for many years.  A simple definition of codependency is when I’m focused on someone else at the expense of myself.  It’s like someone else’s needs are more important than mine. I had a lot of “shoulds” in my life and felt guilty when I focused on what I wanted and needed.

Codependency comes from a place of insecurity, self-doubt and lack of self-love. I didn’t love myself and looked to others to fill the hole in my soul.  It didn’t work because it was never enough. Only Love, God, Spirit can fill the hole in the soul.

Whenever I want to “rescue” someone or give unsolicited advice, I know I’m into old codependent behaviors because I’m not allowing them to experience the consequences of their behaviors and actions.  Of course, I don’t want to see people I love suffer, but that doesn’t give me the right to give advice or try to rescue or fix them. What someone else is doing or not doing is none of my business.

I have learned to Say NO and change my mind when it doesn’t feel right and I don’t want to do something.  In fact, saying NO has become quite comfortable. With that said, I was really surprised what popped up for me this week. I said NO to a friend when she asked me to do something for her. I knew I didn’t want to do it, but felt guilty and like I SHOULD do it. The little voice inside said, “What kind of a friend are you?” I really struggled, but knew it wasn’t in my highest good to do what she asked me to do. I needed to focus on myself. I also knew “shoulding” on myself and feeling guilty were old codependent behaviors.

I’m learning the difference between feeling responsible FOR others and being responsible TO others. We are responsible TO our children, but not when they are adults and capable of handling their own lives.

When I’m feeling responsible FOR others, I may feel resentful, exhausted, judgmental, overwhelmed, anxious, guilty, self-righteous and fearful.  I want to manipulate, fix, rescue, give advice, care-take, demand and bully. I want things to go my way and control circumstances and outcomes. In other words, I want THEM to change.

When we are responsible TO others, we take care of our own business. We trust them to take care of their business. We show empathy, kindness and understanding. We encourage and empower them to follow their heart. We share our experience and we listen.

When we are responsible TO others, we feel peaceful, trusting, connected and we accept what is.  We let go and let God, send love and respect the other person and their ability to take care of themselves.

I am grateful that I continue to learn and grow. I know I’m not perfect and that is ok. I’m doing the best I can and I am a work in progress. I know that old behaviors will pop up from time to time and I deal with them and move on.


Are you able to forgive yourself?

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I have some questions that I invite you to think about.

  • Is it easy for you to forgive someone who has hurt or wronged you?
  • Is it easy to forgive yourself?
  • Do you beat up on yourself and feel shame when you make a mistake?
  • Is it easy for you to ask for forgiveness when you have offended or hurt someone you love?

Often, the hardest person to forgive is yourself. I believe that forgiving yourself is the greatest act of self- love. Forgiveness is a gift you give yourself and the sooner you forgive yourself, the better you will feel. We all make mistakes, it is a part of being human. We need to be compassionate with ourselves and treat ourselves like we would our best friend. Would you say to your best friend what you say to yourself?

I had a situation this week where I needed to forgive myself and ask for forgiveness from another. The details aren’t important. What is important is that when I was confronted about a particular behavior of mine, I immediately took responsibility for my actions and apologized. I didn’t get defensive, which is a behavior that I struggled with for many years.

Although I felt shame and regret at first, I quickly moved to self-forgiveness and didn’t beat up on myself.  It wouldn’t do me any good to obsess or torture myself and make myself feel even worse for making a mistake. I did that for too many years and it doesn’t serve me or the other person involved. It was clear that I had made a mistake and blew it. There was nothing I could do about it, but ask for forgiveness, send love and trust the other person would forgive me.

I knew it would take some time and I had to be patient and wait. I had to let go of my control and give the person time and space to work through their process.  Of course, I would have liked to have been forgiven immediately, but I also didn’t want them to do a spiritual bypass and forgive prematurely.

When I started to have memories of my father sexually abusing me, I wanted to forgive him right away. I didn’t want to go through the grief process because it was to uncomfortable and painful. Thank God I had a good therapist who said, “You are not ready to forgive your father yet, you need to feel your feelings of anger, sadness, and depression before you reach acceptance. She was right and I’m so grateful I listened and didn’t do a spiritual bypass. It was not easy, but I knew I had to go through the process and trust Spirit. I prayed daily and asked for guidance. It took me 3 years to forgive my father and work through the process.

While in prayer one day, I heard Spirit say, “It is time for you to forgive your father, you are ready now.” It was very scary picking up the phone after not communicating with him for 3 years, but by the grace of God, I was ready and did it. I had done my inner work and released the anger and sadness and was ready to move on.

What I know about forgiveness is that it is for me, not the other person. If I’ve been hurt by another person’s words, actions or inactions and I hold a grudge, I keep myself in a prison and I suffer needlessly. If I obsess about what someone has said or done and play the blame game, it will lead to resentment. Resentments and unforgiveness keep me stuck in a lower vibration. Certainly not in the vibration of love where I choose to live my life.

  • Are you ready to set yourself free by forgiving yourself and being compassionate and kind to yourself?
  • Are you ready to treat yourself like you would your best friend?
  • Are you ready to forgive others who have hurt you?

It’s o.k. if you are not ready to forgive yet. Trust the process, ask Spirit for help  and be willing to do the inner work.

I waited 10 years for prayer to be answered

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I had completely forgotten about what I had prayed for 10 years ago until Spirit, while in meditation, brought it to mind this week.

Ten years ago, I was invited to accompany a woman to Florida for a week for a personal guided retreat. It was a powerful experience for both of us and I remember even writing a blog about it. It was the desire of my heart to do more personal guided retreats for women.  I had been leading women’s retreats for many years, but not one on one like this.

Life had other plans and I went with the flow and forgot about what I had prayed for. This morning I opened my computer and received an email from Abraham. Here it is:

When people ask us how long does it take for something to manifest, we say, “It takes as long as it takes for you to release the resistance. Could be 30 years, could be 40 years, could be 50 years, could be a week. Could be tomorrow afternoon.”

I didn’t think I had any resistance to the idea of leading personal guided retreats for women. Perhaps I did have resistance or maybe it just wasn’t God’s perfect timing.

God is never late or early, but always on TIME.  We often have to WAIT, SURRENDER, TRUST and LET GO. If something is meant to be, it will be.

Here it is 10 years later, and I am leading my first guided personal retreat in our home, in April. I am so excited that what was conceived 10 years ago is now being born.

I met Christine last April on an Awakening and Healing retreat that we both participated in on Maui. I completed my 6- month training to become a Licensed teacher of Sacred and Awakening this past January in North Carolina.  Christine lives in North Carolina and stopped by to say hello to us.

When she was leaving, I was led to give her my book, “Simply a Woman of Faith.” She thanked me for the book and said, “I would love to come back to Maui someday.” I responded, “Would you like to come to our home for a guided retreat?” She said, “Let me think about it.” When I returned home, I sent her a short video of our lanai overlooking the ocean. That did it as she contacted me the next day and said, “I want to come.”

Christine and I are communicating as to what she would like as part of her retreat. She wants to heal her inner child through play and has invited me to come play with her and pay for me.  We will go to a Luau, ferry to Lanai, submarine ride, aquarium and art class.  Of course, I said, “YES.”

A few weeks later, I sent Christine a text asking her if she had finished reading my book yet? She texted me back and said, “Right before I received your text, I had just picked up your book to bring it to my bedroom so I wouldn’t forget to bring it with me to Maui.”

She said, “I really feel that you have something to share with me that will impact and transform my life. I know you are the right person that I am to be working with.”

We are all connected and we are all ONE. Christine shared that her grandmother called her ANGEL and that is what my grandmother called me.

Don’t ever give up on your dreams and desires of your heart.  They may take some time to MANIFEST as you WAIT, SURRENDER, TRUST and LET GO.  What I do know is that God’s plan is perfect and right on TIME.






A dark night of the soul

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Thank you for reading my blogs and encouraging me to continue to share my life journey with you. It is my desire to inspire you so that you know you are not alone and that we are all CONNECTED.

It’s hard to believe that I started writing my blogs 12 years ago in 2007. So much has changed and continues to change in my life; like writing a book, moving to Maui, getting married, living on the ocean and finding my soul calling at this later stage of my life.

I’ve been sharing my journey with you as honestly as I could with the ups and downs as I’ve grown and navigated my spiritual life. I’ve been vulnerable and It hasn’t always been easy, but I continue to go deeper to release and let go of what no longer serves me. What I know for certain is that there is a PLAN and I am never alone and neither are you.

Although this is my deepest truth and knowing that God has a plan, a purpose and a gift for everything that happens in my life, sometimes I FORGET, especially if I’m going through something painful and it doesn’t make sense. My ego is relentless and vicious as I go deeper with Spirit and FORGET that there is only LOVE and that we are all CONNECTED.

This past month has been a struggle for me and it felt like a “dark night of the soul.”  It came on suddenly as I was triggered and felt anxious, sad, disappointed, fearful, confused and didn’t feel safe. I didn’t run from it, but instead allowed myself to feel it all as I tried to make meaning out of what was going on. After praying about it and seeking guidance, it became clear to me that it was childhood memories that I needed to release and heal. It felt like the veil was lifted as I experienced what it was truly like growing up in my childhood home.

Thomas Moore writes, “A dark night of the soul is a kind of initiation, taking you from one phase of life into another. You may have several dark nights in the course of your life because you are always becoming more of a person and entering life more. The first step is to embrace the darkness, take it to heart, winnow out any subtle innuendos of resistance. You will awaken into something deeper. A deeper sense of purpose or connectedness with a greater life that is not dependent on explanations or anything conceptual. It’s a kind of re-birth. The dark night of the soul is a kind of death. What dies is the egoic sense of self. Of course, death is always painful, but nothing real has actually died—only an illusory identity. Often it is part of the awakening process, the death of the old self and the birth of the true self.”

I picked a Goddess card called Crone of Seas-Resurrection

“She rises from the ocean depths reborn through the dark night of the soul. She embodies heart transformation and resurrection from death into new form. She is renewed and resurrected through massive emotional change. She appears during powerful times of release and shifts in life.”

My daughter, Mary, was present during my “dark night of the soul.” She loved and supported me through it all. When she left, she gave me a beautiful card and wrote, “I am so proud to see you work through your past and learn and grow. This is the best gift you could have ever given to me. You are an amazing example of perseverance, love, patience and joy.” Her words of affirmation will remain deep in my heart forever. The greatest gift we can ever give our children is to work through our past and release what no longer serves us.

A couple of days ago, I received a card from a friend with a bookmark that read “I know the PLANS I have for you, declares the Lord.” God has a plan for you and it is always good. TRUST and RELAX as it unfolds in the perfect and right way.




I needed to relax and integrate

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Mary, Herbie and I had a wonderful relaxing mini-vacation on Oahu last week. I walked the beach every morning and sat watching the waves for 4 hours, while reading a good book. I don’t usually do this here on Maui because I have my daily routine and there is always something to get done at home or in the community. I look forward to taking my  “Pat Day” every Sunday by going to the pool, eating lunch out and relaxing and just BEING.

I believe I always get what I need, even when I don’t know I need it  It’s been my experience over the years that when I’m in the middle of something that is intense, like raising kids, working full time and getting a Masters degree all at the same time, I have the energy to just keep going until I complete what I’m doing. I guess that is a good thing.

I didn’t realize how much my body needed to relax, integrate and do nothing until I reflected on the last 6 months and everything I’ve accomplished. Since last July, I’ve traveled 5 times to the mainland and to Costa Rica in November. I graduated from the Sacred Feminine Mystery School and became a Certified Spiritual Sexual Educator and Licensed Teacher of Awakening and Healing. I had the privilege and honor to facilitate over 25 sacred healing sessions with women, as well as facilitate a Women’s Sacred Sexuality Retreat weekend on Maui in January. Whew, that’s a lot of stuff!

I feel so grateful and blessed for my own healing and that I’m following my heart and soul’s calling by facilitating this sacred healing with women.The Awakening and Healing self-healing practice is for clearing trauma, shame and blocks that have left energetic imprints in our bodies. I believe all women would benefit from this profound work, whether sexually abused or not.

I’m grateful for the “technical” support I received from Mary this week. I knew i needed lots of help and welcomed it with wide open arms.

She helped me with my new website “www.Sacred Awakening and Healing.

Mary also made a short video of our home on Maui overlooking the ocean. Have you always wanted to visit Maui? Now you can. You can tour the beautiful island, go to the beach and receive sacred Sexuality sessions in our home. Please contact me for details.

How do you know it’s God’s voice?

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Over the years people have asked me, “How do you know when God is guiding you and it’s not just your own will or voice?

About 40 years ago, I was led to a small book titled, “How God Guides Us” by Don Basham and it changed my life. I have been living by this principle for all these years and it has never failed me. When I don’t know if something is God’s will or my will, I simply pray, “God, open or close the door.”

Basham writes, “Closed doors are a viral part of guidance. When God closes a door, it’s because there is another plan, a better plan. If He closes the door, He’ll open another, according to His timing, not mine. I keep moving in faith, even in the face of closed door.”

Guidance comes when we move in faith, not when we sit in doubt. We step out in faith, trusting that if we make a mistake, God will correct it and get us back on the right track.  I’ve made plenty of mistakes along the way, but I have always been protected and led back to where I need to be.

When I’m fearful about moving forward and not sure if I’m on the right path, I pray, “God close the door.” This makes me feel safe because I know one way or the other the door will be closed. I may not like it, but I trust there will be something better.

I stepped out in faith when I left my family, friends, home, community, and moved to Maui 7 years ago. I trusted God would close the door if it wasn’t meant to be. I just kept moving ahead and doors kept opening at the perfect and right time.

I am so grateful that I had the courage and willingness to follow my heart and my dream. I would not be living on the ocean with my beloved husband, Larry, if I hadn’t trusted God was leading me.

I shared in last week’s blog that my daughter, Mary, and grandson, Herbie, are staying with us for 6 weeks. We are excited to have them with us and are really enjoying one another’s company.

Several months ago, Mary found a B&B upcountry that had a beautiful pool and several hiking trails nearby. She decided to rent it for 10 days in the middle of her stay with us. Last month, she was notified that they had to remove the kitchen due to new laws just passed in Maui county. They offered to return her deposit if she wanted to cancel. Mary loves to cook and decided to cancel the B&B. Closed door!

Another door opened 2 weeks ago when Mary’s girlfriend told her that she and her family were vacationing in Oahu the same time as Mary was in Maui.  Mary decided to rent a lovely cottage in Oahu and invited grandma to join them. It is 1 block away from her friend’s house and it has a heated pool and a two- minute walk to the ocean.

I love how when one door closes, another one opens. Oh happy day, a fun trip to another Hawaiian island with Mary and Herbie.

I am always provided for and guided

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I love how Spirit gets my ATTENTION and how I am always guided and provided for. Here is how my day unfolded. I haven’t been to yard sales in a few months.

I woke up bright and early Saturday morning and decided to go to the farmers market and stop at yard sales along the way. I always pray when I get in the car before sailing, “Only what I need, Lord.”  My daughter, Mary, and grandson, Herbie, are coming to stay with us for 5 weeks on Tuesday and I wanted to get some things for Herbie to play with.

I stopped at the first yard sale and the woman looked at me and said, “I was in a car accident last night and it is a miracle I didn’t get hurt and neither did the  people in the other car. I am so grateful that I am alive. I want to give back and everything is FREE here.” I chatted with her a few minutes and just listened as I could tell she needed to just talk.

I have never been to a yard sale in all my years as the “Yard sale queen” that everything has been free. I helped myself to a few things that I could use and share with others. I found a puzzle for Herbie that he would enjoy on his visit. I thanked her and went on my way.

The next yard sale was even better. I loved the sign I spotted when I first walked in that read, “LOVE IS EVERYWHERE.” I picked it up and asked, “How much is this?” She said, “It’s free.”  I said, “Really, how nice of you, thank you.” I continued to look around and then heard her say, “I am moving and everything is FREE.”

WOW, I couldn’t believe that this was happening again. I found several things that I needed and found some new books and games for Herbie. I found a warm bathrobe for Mary as it gets chilly here in the morning since it is winter in Maui.

Of course, I felt grateful but I didn’t think too much about it until that night when Larry and I attended the Valentine’s dance at the MAC. As we were about to pay, Sandy said, “It’s free tonight.” I said, “How come?” She replied, “Because we want to.”

We had a great time dancing and had fun. As we walked to our car after the dance, it dawned on me that this was the third time in one day that I had received something for FREE. I knew it was not a coincidence, but something I needed to PAY ATTENTION to. I prayed and asked Spirit to show me what the message was.

Here is what Spirit revealed to me. “You are responsible for the pace and PEACE you bring to each moment. You cannot blame anyone else if you lose your peace or give your power away.”

Spirit is inviting me to PAY ATTENTION and to go within for guidance in everything I do. I do this by:

  • Trusting my intuition, even it if doesn’t make sense.
  • Trusting when I need to be quiet and still.
  • Trusting when I need to go out.
  • Trusting when I need to speak up.
  • Trusting when I need to say NO.
  • Trusting when I need to detach and let go.
  • Trusting when I need to rest and sleep.
  • Trusting Spirit is guiding me always.
  • Trusting God’s plan for my life.
  • Trusting God’s timing is perfect.
  • Trusting everything I need is inside of me.
  • Trusting all there is is LOVE
  • Trusting my body and what it needs.

Do you pay attention to the small, still voice of God within? Do you ask for guidance from Source or do you go full steam ahead, get exhausted and then wonder why you aren’t peaceful?

“You are responsible for the pace and PEACE you bring to each moment.”





I have all the TIME in the world

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As I sat with my friend, Barbara, leisurely sipping my Earl Grey Lavender tea in the coffee shop, I turned to her and said, “It feels so good to not have to PUSH.”  It felt like we had all the time in the world and we were enjoying every minute of it. I felt relaxed, in the moment, present, trusting and peaceful. I smiled and said to her, “I am a RECOVERING PUSHER.” Not a pusher of drugs, thank God. This is not the only area I am recovering from as I am a recovering Catholic, rushaholic, controlaholic, perfectionist and people pleaser. Can you relate?

Many years ago, one of my friends commented, “You push yourself a lot.”  It was so natural to push and I couldn’t stop myself, nor did I want to. It almost felt like a badge of honor and I felt proud of how I pushed. I realize today that I had to push myself to DO better, BE better, Be the BEST, perform and achieve.

Just thinking about this behavior now makes me feel exhausted. I didn’t know any better and I was afraid not to push. I wondered what would happen if I didn’t? Would everything fall apart and I wouldn’t get what I wanted and deserved? There was a hole inside of me that I was trying to fill from the outside.

Spirit is revealing to me that at the core of my pushing for so many years and all my addictions was FEAR-fear that I wasn’t good enough! No matter what I did, it was never good enough. This was a learned behavior to escape the pain, low self-esteem, no self-love and shame inside of me.

The opposite of pushing is relaxation. It’s no surprise that I have several signs around my home with RELAX on them. I need the reminder to relax, be present, enjoy and have fun. Since I have been a “pusher” for so many years, I will probably be tempted or inclined to push myself from time to time in an unhealthy way.

The good news is that it doesn’t feel good to push anymore because it creates stress in my life.  When I become aware that I am pushing or rushing, I bring myself back to the present moment and breathe. It always works.

I was out of balance and lived much of my life from the masculine within which is about doing, pushing, goal oriented, comparing, perfection, and achieving. The divine feminine within is about receiving. nurturing, surrendering, going with the flow and trusting.

I’ve experienced so much growth and transformation in myself since I completed the Divine Feminine Mystery School in July. I can honestly say that for the first time in my life, I know what it feels like to be balanced within and to acknowledge my gifts that I bring to the world.  It has taken me so many years to believe in myself and heal and release the trauma that I carried deep within my body. I am so grateful for the journey I have taken and my willingness to dive deep and not let fear rob me, as it did for so many years.

I have been given the opportunity to dive deep into the Divine Feminine and my power as a woman. I have embraced my feminine essence and will continue to embark on the path of self-healing, sexual awakening and transformation.

I am here to embody and serve the Divine Feminine in the world and to continue to balance the relationship between the male and female within myself. We need both our masculine and feminine to bring to the world.

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