I’ve been packing my suitcase for the last 2 weeks as I remember what I want to bring on my trip to Rhode Island. I don’t get stressed and am ready way before it’s time to leave. This will be my last blog until I return home to Maui on September 15th.
When you read this, I will be in the air flying over the Pacific Ocean. It’s been over 2 years since I’ve seen my children and grandchildren. It’s been too long and I miss them so much. We are having our family reunion and celebrating my 75th birthday together.
My oldest grandson, Zach is getting married and I will be there to celebrate with them. My daughter-in- law (Zach’s mother) died from cancer when she was 37. I was honored and thrilled when my grandson called and asked, “Grandma, will you dance with me for the mother and son dance?” We will be dancing to Somewhere Over the Rainbow by Iz. I know there won’t be a dry eye in the place.
I’m excited as well as concerned with the rise of COVID cases in the world. It’s not the best time to be getting on a plane and traveling to the east coast. I Keep checking inside to see if it’s God’s will for me to go. I am willing to cancel the trip if I hear Spirit tell me to do so, even though I would be terribly disappointed.
For the last 3 months, I have been meditating and daily affirming:
I am peaceful, safe and protected from everything and everyone that doesn’t serve my highest good.
My trip to Rhode Island has been planned in the mind of God and it will flow with peace, ease, grace, safety, and fun.
Here is the message from Holy Spirit:
RELAX and rest in me. I guide you every minute of the day. You have been guided to travel to Rhode Island to see your family. If it wasn’t safe for YOU, you would know it and I would CLOSE the DOOR. Do not worry about anything. It’s all being taken care of. Open your heart to give and receive love. You will feel the love like never before and your light will shine like never before. So, relax and enjoy. You are protected by an “invisible shield” and nothing and no one can get through. Relax, you are in my hands. Rise above the battleground, you are safe and protected. Don’t give in to fear. You must trust and surrender. I go before you and your trip will flow with peace, ease and grace.
With the grace of God, I let go of old beliefs and family memories that no longer serve me. Ego is often alive and well when we are with family and old patterns play out.
I’m a planner and in the past have had every detail of the trip mapped out. God’s plan is so much better than mine and I’m letting go of MY PLAN and surrendering to YOUR PLAN. I can’t wait to share it with you when I return.
I AM now choosing to cleanse myself and release any and all thought forms, beings, situations, and energies that are no longer of service to my highest and greatest good… across all planes of my existence, across all universes, and across all lifetimes. I ask that all energies that are less than love be transmuted for the highest good of all, and so it is.
I would appreciate it if you keep me and my family in your prayers. Thank you.
My friends call me the “Yard sale Queen.” They often ask me to look for something they need, and it inevitably shows up that day! It’s so much fun to pray for what I need and then have it show up. I’m so grateful to Spirit for how I am always provided for.
I also call myself the Queen of Anger. That’s right, Anger. I’m really passionate at encouraging and helping my clients and friends to release their anger that may have been buried in the their subconscious for years. I give them permission to feel and release. To feel is to heal. When I allowed myself to feel and release my anger many years ago, it was one of the best things I did for myself. It brought me to a new place of freedom, peace and ease.
It was not EASY because I had repressed and pushed my anger down for so many years. I was taught that little girls don’t get angry. I even prided myself that I didn’t feel anger much and felt sorry for others who got angry often. I was in denial and out of touch with myself for years until it just got too painful and things weren’t working for me.
I remember feeling like I had to prime the pump, so to speak. I was in therapy and memories of sexual abuse were coming up and I didn’t feel any anger. I knew it had to be there, but I couldn’t feel it.
It was easy for me to feel sad when something happened that hurt or disappointed me, but anger was another story. Underneath my sadness was anger-and a lot of it! I was filled with anger as a people pleaser. I was always trying to please others so they would love me. I looked outside to feel validated and approved of, rather than going within for what I needed.
I wouldn’t be who I am and where I am today if I hadn’t dealt with repressed anger, that was like a hidden cancer inside of me. I was angry at myself, at God and the abusers in my life and didn’t even know it.
Many years ago, I traveled to Bermuda by myself to heal from the memories of being sexually abused. I expected sunshine, peace and time alone with God. Instead, after 5 days of rain and no sunshine, I finally ventured out to do some sightseeing on the moped I had rented. On my way home to the hotel, the skies opened up and there was not only rain, but hail and ice balls hitting my face. I was terrified, to say the least. When I finally reached a covered shelter for buses up ahead, I pulled over. I turned off my moped, threw it on the ground and screamed at God at the top of my lungs. I felt the anger rise up from a deep place within me.
I didn’t get angry with God. I had never gotten angry with God until then. I sobbed uncontrollably and it seemed like time stopped. I realized that all of my life I had held in my anger and couldn’t hold it in any longer. It had to come out and it wasn’t pretty.
The next day, after my anger release, I felt very different inside. The sun came out for the first time and I felt lighter, peaceful and more alive than I had ever felt. I believe that God threw thunderbolts and created the perfect circumstances (a hailstorm in Bermuda) to free, transform and heal me.
Today, it is fairly easy for me to feel my anger when something happens that disturbs me. I feel it and can release it because it’s not years of repressed anger in my body. I do what I need to do for myself; journal, speak up if I need to, scream, forgive, and then let it go.
If you need help identifying and releasing your anger, I am here to help you. You are worth it.
I started the day with a prayer: “As I prepare my heart to celebrate my birthday this week, help me to live in the moment with no expectations from others and the grace to receive all that is mine.”
God danced the day I was born and God danced the day you were born! Today is my birthday and I’m celebrating me and how far I’ve come and what God has done in my life. It’s been a long journey of remembering the truth of who I am and that I am ONE with God and with everyone and everything.
Are you able to celebrate yourself or do you think you are not enough? I am learning to give myself what I need, instead of looking outside for love, praise, validation, approval and value.
It wasn’t always like that though. For many years of my marriage, I felt stressed when my birthday came around. My ex-husband didn’t celebrate birthdays, or at least not mine! He would forget my birthday and I would cry and feel like a victim year after year. He would apologize and promise it wouldn’t happen again – until it happened again the next year.
My core “mother wound” shows up when I perceive I’m being ignored or forgotten, especially with family. As I’ve done my inner work and healed, it has diminished a great deal, but not completely gone. I’m learning to not take things personally and to know what others do or don’t do isn’t about me. They are doing the best they can.
I’m practicing self-responsibility, which means instead of blaming others and feeling resentful when I don’t get what I want, I take responsibility for what I need and want. I buy myself flowers, take myself out to lunch or get a massage.
I have no control over others and how they act, respond or say or do. But I do have control over how I respond and if I allow myself to take things personally and make it about me. That is ego’s playground.
“The Five Love Languages” by Gary Chapman has been very helpful to me in understanding my love language and what I need. They are: Words of Affirmation, Acts of Service, Receiving Gifts, Quality Time, and Physical Touch. Each one is important and expresses love in its own way. Learning your partner’s and your own primary love language will help create a stronger bond in your relationship.
Receiving gifts and cards is my #1 love language so you can understand how painful it was each year to be forgotten by my husband for my birthday. Quality time and affirmations are a close second.
When I was single, I bought myself flowers and a special gift for my birthday. Larry understands and honors my love language and buys me red roses whenever I return home from a trip. I’m so appreciative because he always buys me something special and finds the perfect birthday cards.
Over the years, my children have sent me beautiful, loving and meaningful birthday cards that I’ve saved in a special box. Sending cards is not their love language. They are busy with their lives and don’t always send cards the way they use to.
This is how I’m taking care of myself and being responsible. I found birthday cards from my kids that I’ve saved. I will display them and take the words into my heart. I know this was Spirit’s idea because it feels so good and comforting.
I know this will be a great birthday as I celebrate myself and the love that is within and without. Love is all there is.
I love surprises, but it’s not easy to surprise me because I’m intuitive and pick up on things easily. With that said, I want to share the biggest “surprise birthday gift” I received this week.
I was really looking forward to celebrating my birthday with Larry at our favorite restaurant, Sea House, in Lahaina. That morning, in prayer, I asked to be open to surprises. God answered that prayer BIG TIME.
We planned on leaving the house at 11 a.m. since the restaurant was an hour away. A couple of hours before leaving, Larry came to me and said, “I just got a phone call from, Sue, and she needs a ride home from the airport. Her plane arrives at 11 a.m. Her ride just cancelled, do you mind if we go to the airport first, pick her up, drive her home and then we can go to the restaurant?”
Although I wasn’t crazy about the idea, I knew it was important to Larry and he really wanted to help his friend out who was quite stressed about not having a ride home. I said, “Sure, we can do that.” I am so grateful I listened to my heart and was willing to change our plans to help someone else out.
When we pulled into the airport terminal, I was looking for Sue. When Larry pulled over to the curb, I said, “What are you doing? I don’t see Sue here.”
The next thing I knew there was a man that I didn’t recognize coming up to the door of our car. I said, “Who is this man and what is he doing here?” The next thing I knew he was opening the car door. When he took off his hat and sunglasses, I saw that it was my son, Timmy, who is from Boise Idaho.
I was in complete shock and couldn’t move or talk at first. I couldn’t believe my eyes that my son was standing in front of me wishing me a happy birthday. I can’t remember what I said other than OMG and then the tears flowed. Larry said he has never seen me like this. It was the best surprise birthday present ever.
As we were pulling away from the terminal, I noticed 3 women sitting on benches that had witnessed the surprise visit and they had BIG smiles on their faces. What a touching moment for all of us.
Tim called Larry a few weeks ago to tell him he was coming to surprise me for my birthday. Larry did a great job of keeping it a secret and coming up with the idea about his friend, Sue, needing a ride.
What a joy it has been having him stay with us for a few days. We snorkeled and kayaked and relaxed together. I knew Tim loved me, but actions speak louder than words. He was so attentive and kind to his “mamma.”
As the wave was breaking and we came out of the ocean from kayaking, he stood in front of me to protect me from getting hit. He always offered me his arm wherever we walked. I felt so cared for and loved.
We don’t have air conditioning and it has been very hot here on Maui this summer. Tim and I went to Home Depot and he bought us a portable air-conditioner and then installed it the next day. He said, “It is an early Christmas present.”
I feel so loved, blessed and grateful. Thank you family and friends for the surprises; flowers, cards, calls, gifts and lunches. God is so good!
When I shared with Larry 5 years ago “I have feelings for you” after 2 years of being best friends, he was very surprised and answered, “Let’s see what happens.” Not exactly what I wanted to hear!
To be fair to him, I had made it very clear that I wasn’t interested in a romantic relationship and he accepted that. We often joked with one another and said, “We don’t want to mess up our relationship by going to the next level.”
It took about a week for us to go to the next level! We had already built the foundation of trust so it was easy to move forward. We have a lot in common and are compatible and we are very different in some areas. I guess that’s what makes it interesting, fun and sometimes challenging.
For example: I’m very expressive and get excited easily when a new opportunity comes or something good happens. I’m out there shouting from the roof tops to whomever will listen. Larry, on the other hand, is kind of laid back with an attitude of “Let’s see what happens.”
I know this about him and have accepted our differences. There is no right or wrong way, it’s just the way we have learned to process things. It’s not that he’s not excited and happy for me, because he’s very supportive of whatever I want to do in my life.
I asked Larry about where his “Let’s see what happens” attitude comes from. He said, “I guess I’m conservative and “Let’s see what happens” makes sense to me. I don’t count my chickens before they hatch and it protects me from disappointment.”
Here is what happened this week and how we worked through it.
I shared in last week’s blog that I had been on “Divine Pause” for the last 9 months. I prayed, waited, trusted, and surrendered my life to God. I trusted I would be guided and doors would open at the perfect and right time.
I also shared I was invited by Amrita Grace (Co-founder and director) to teach at the Divine Feminine Mystery School in November about Codependency-a subject that I am passionate about. She is recommending me as the Spiritual, Sexual Life Coach for the women if they want coaching while going through the program.
I’m over the top excited and said, “YES” when Amrita invited me to be on the staff at the school. I am honored and humbled for this opportunity to share my gifts and my own healing with the women going through the certification program.
Of course, I shared it with Larry when Amrita invited me to be on staff at the school. Larry responded calmly with “Let’s see what happens.” I felt disappointed because this is not what I wanted to hear. Instead of walking off in a huff and being angry with him, I simply asked him, “Could you please put aside for a moment your “Let’s see what happens” attitude and congratulate me and be happy for me?”
He quickly responded with a big smile, hug and congratulations. We both laughed and I felt heard and valued. I am learning to ask for what I want and need. I don’t always get it, but sometimes I do.
Is there such a thing as a “DIVINE PAUSE” button or have I made it up? Either way, it feels like it’s been God’s plan for me to be on DIVINE PAUSE for the last 8 months. The dictionary says pause means to “Interrupt action or speech briefly and a temporary stop or rest.”
If I believe my life is on “DIVINE PAUSE,” then I must trust everything is perfect and for my highest good. PAUSES are powerful, even though I may not like them and they feel like nothing is happening. I’ve asked God to run the show and get me out of the driver’s seat. Each morning, I connect with the divine Power within and turn my life and my will over to God. It’s called surrender.
As I reflect on the last 8 months after completing the Sacred Awakening & Healing 6- month training program and becoming a Licensed and Certified Spiritual Sexual Educator, I’ve asked myself, “What happened? Where did my passion go?” I was all ready to go and Spirit pushed, “PAUSE.” This is not what I wanted to hear and I struggled accepting it at first.
Instead of beating up on myself, thinking what’s wrong with me and feeling guilty that I didn’t know if I wanted to continue as a Spiritual Sexual Educator, I chose to TRUST MYSELF AND THE DIVINE PLAN and wait for guidance and direction.
I had to give myself permission to slow down and PAUSE, instead of staying busy and trying to make things happen. I pushed myself most of my life and my body was done with pushing. I had to go within through prayer and meditation and listen to my soul and what it wanted next.
My body was speaking and needed to rest and integrate all of the profound, deep healing that I experienced throughout the program.
When we are on DIVINE PAUSE, we may feel bored, unfulfilled, impatient, guilty, angry, frustrated and like we are not serving higher power and using our gifts. I struggled with this and wanted to push the PLAY button again and use my gifts for the highest good. It didn’t work!
I’m grateful that with the grace of God, I listened to my soul and rested and PAUSED. I became peaceful and surrendered, knowing God is in control and when the time was right, the PLAY button would be pushed again. During the DIVINE PAUSE, I went within to discover what I really wanted to do.
It is my joy and I LOVE working with women to help them love themselves and heal patterns of codependency. I’ve healed myself and know how to help women heal and recover. It is an honor and privilege to walk the sacred path of healing and transformation with women. Please contact me for a complimentary coaching session (on the phone) if you need help moving forward in your life.
Although I haven’t facilitated any Awakening and Healing workshops, I LOVE supporting the women in the sacred awakening community that I have been intimately involved with this past year.
I spoke with Amrita, the co-founder of the Sacred Awakening and Healing Mystery school and she’s invited me to teach a video class on codependency at the next certification training in November. Here is the link if you would like to check it out.
Not only will I be teaching a class at the training, Amrita is recommending me as a spiritual life coach for the women going through the program. Going through the program is intense and a deep dive into yourself. It will bring up issues and beliefs that no longer serve us.
It feels like the DIVINE PAUSE is now on DIVINE PLAY. I’m ready and willing to do your will, be the woman you created me to be and use my gifts for the greatest good of all.
I believe I attract everything and every experience into my life for my highest good. It may be to help me remember the truth of who I am (there is no separation and we are all ONE and connected) or to release an old belief that no longer serves me, but hurts me and keeps me “stuck in the muck.”
Whenever I follow my heart, whether that be moving 6000 miles away from my friends and family or getting a divorce after 30 years of marriage, there is a good possibility I may be judged and will disappoint a loved one. It may not be something big like moving, it may be saying no or setting a boundary. Our loved ones may experience feelings of hurt, anger, resentment or even abandonment.
If I want to be happy, peaceful, live the life of my dreams and most importantly do God’s will, I must be willing to deal with others’ disappointments and possible disapproval. It takes a great deal of courage and strength to follow your heart, knowing it may disappoint and anger loved ones, consciously or unconsciously.
I have personally experienced withdrawal, avoidance and being ignored by others. This is painful when a loved one withdraws, and I don’t know why they are withdrawing or ignoring me (and they won’t tell me why). They may have buried their feelings of hurt, anger or abandonment and it may come out sideways. Until they are ready to share their pain and release it, there is not much I can do, but to send love.
Many years ago, when my son and family moved to Florida and I wouldn’t see them often, especially holidays, I had to give myself permission to feel the disappointment, sadness and anger. I remember standing at the edge of the ocean, screaming and getting my anger out.
At first, I judged my feelings and felt guilty that I was angry. After all, they were doing what was right for them, even though I wasn’t happy with it. Once I was able to identify my feelings and give myself permission to feel, my peace returned and I was able to send them love and even be happy for them.
For many years, when I was ignored, forgotten or a loved one withdrew from me and didn’t give me the attention I craved, I automatically thought I DID SOMETHING WRONG and it was my fault. There was always a story I made up in my mind as I tried to figure out what I did to hurt them. I often found out that it had nothing to do with me and I was taking it personally. Can you relate?
I lost my peace and power this week when an old belief that no longer served me reared its head. I spent a lot of time by myself in prayer and meditation, as well as writing and exploring where the belief came from. The old belief originated as a child when I felt responsible for my mother and her alcoholism. I unconsciously felt guilty and wrong that I couldn’t fix her or make her better. The search for love from outside of ourselves is a sign of arrested emotional development. We strive to be the best in order to be noticed and found worthy of attention and love.
Intellectually, I know that I’m not responsible for others’ feelings or behaviors. What they do or don’t do is their business, not mine. It is another story emotionally when I’ve been hurt or ignored, like I was this week. I had the opportunity to work through it and release the old belief of feeling responsible for others’ feelings and behaviors.
The first step of healing is to become aware of what’s going on within. Guilt is usually an indicator for me that I’m taking responsibility for another’s behaviors and feelings. The belief is REVEALED to be HEALED and RELEASED because it no longer serves me.
The truth is I am responsible for myself; my behaviors, feelings, attitudes and actions. I cannot control or change another person, no matter how much I love them.
What is important is that I keep my side of the street clean. If I’ve hurt someone unintentionally, I make amends, as well as let go of judgement, blame, resentment and anger. I choose love, I send love and surrender to a Power greater than myself. I will continue to follow my heart and do God’s will.
Have you ever asked yourself, “How did I get here?” I know I have, all the time! I said this to my son, Tim, a few years ago and he said, “Mom, you have been talking about living on the water for as long as I can remember.” It was my dream to live on the water and I didn’t care if it was a pond, a lake, a puddle or the ocean!
I am blissful, peaceful and grateful when I sit outside every morning looking at the ocean, smelling the flowers, listening to the birds or watching the beautiful sunset every night. Dreams do come true and often much bigger than you expected. Dream BIG. I not only attracted living in a home overlooking the ocean, but I attracted a loving husband who respects, loves and cherishes me. How blessed I am.
My “spiritual practice” and awakening journey with Spirit for the past 45 years is extremely important to me. It has brought me to where and who I am today. I don’t do everything perfectly (I practice), and not in any special order, but I SHOW UP daily and allow Spirit to guide me, as I trust the day to unfold with peace, ease and grace. It has not always been easy as I have had to work through and heal many layers of sexual, emotional abuse and parental addiction. It has taken years to transform and heal and I am grateful I didn’t give up.
I would like to share these spiritual practices with you. If you are struggling in any area of your life, I invite you to incorporate any or all of what works for me.
I pray, meditate and journal daily
I let go and let God
I am assertive and ask for what I want
I set my intentions for the day
I choose love
I practice an attitude of gratitude
I allow myself to feel my feelings and express them when I want to
I let go of negativity and focus on the positive
I set boundaries and say no when needed
I listen to my intuition and follow its guidance
I detach when necessary
I ask for help when I need it
I speak my truth, even when it’s difficult
I see everything as opportunities- rather than problems
I eliminate “shoulds” from my life
I embrace and welcome change-rather than fear it
I trust and surrender to “what is”
I forgive myself and others
I love and appreciate myself
I ALLOW things to come to me, rather than make things happen
I live in the NOW moment, as tomorrow is not promised and the future is not here yet
I let go of victim, poor me mentality
I choose love, happiness and joy
I open to infinite possibilities
I take responsibility for my actions-rather than blaming someone else
I look for opportunities to serve
I believe everything happens for a reason and there is a purpose for everything
That is quite a list and I encourage you to choose what works for you. We are all connected and are ONE. I don’t do it perfectly and I forget the truth of who I am sometimes. When I get out of alignment (and I do), Spirit always brings me back home, to where I am meant to be.
It is my desire to live my life to the fullest and BE the woman God created me to be, using my gifts for the good of all. I choose to be a vessel of love, have fun, play and enjoy my life. We are not promised tomorrow, all we have is NOW and it’s never too late to begin. You are worth it and you deserve peace and love in your life.
I would be happy to help and assist you go deeper so you can live the life you deserve.
An invitation to come to Maui and be healed and transformed
AWAKENING TO YOUR SACRED SEXUALITY
- RECONNECT with your body, embrace your full feminine potential
- HEAL trauma that keeps you small and inhibited
- AWAKEN and nourish your powerful life force energy
- IGNITE your Divine Power in a uniquely feminine way
- RECLAIM your Passion, Power, Pleasure and Creativity
- EXPERIENCE more self-love, joy, expansion and vitality in your life
- SPEAK your truth with confidence, peace, ease and grace
This workshop is a great way to get introduced to sacred sexual awakening and healing (AH) in a safe, clear impeccable step-by-step process. The AH practice is a self-healing modality for clearing trauma, shame and blocks to pleasure and enjoyment. We hold trauma, emotional and energetic imprints in our bodies that can be released with this unique, transformational healing.
Facilitators: Pat Hastings-Burns, Antisk Atma, Barbara Lezynski
Date: January 5 & 6, 2019
Time: 9 am to 5 pm
Place: Waleia Healing Center, Maui HI
Price: $250 early bird special
To Sign Up Contact: Pat Hastings-Burns 401-862-8859
Larry and I arrived home on Sunday after our 2 week cruise to Australia. We really enjoyed the cruise, especially the food, staff and entertainment. We spent many hours just being together, dancing, reading, and loving one another. One of the highlights for me was winning the jive for “Dancing with the Stars.” What a thrill to perform with my dance partner in the theatre in front of a few thousand people. I really felt like a STAR.
It feels like something has “shifted” inside of me since the cruise and I don’t know what it is, but I know something is different. I am giving myself time to process it. I made the decision before I left to completely “unplug” from the world, which meant no phone, email, texts or Facebook for 2 weeks. I knew I would miss it, but I didn’t want anything to distract me from “living in the moment” and my time with Larry. I felt excited because I sensed it was going to be a powerful time together. My intention was to relax, be peaceful, be in the moment, have fun, pray, play, rest, enjoy, dance & be a vessel of love. I experienced all of the above and more.
I journaled daily so I was able to look back over the days and see what transpired for me. After we arrived on the MS Noordam and got settled into our room, Larry and I made a commitment to one another that we would not complain about anything, but be grateful for everything that happened. I immediately started a gratitude book that I wrote in daily.
Although there were many things to be grateful for, we had lots of “opportunities” to practice our commitment not to complain about anything. There are always lessons to be learned in life and it takes practice to become a master at what you are learning. We were learning about living in the NOW because it is all we have. The next minute is not promised. I asked myself, “Do I want to waste this precious moment complaining because I don’t like what’s happening or will I choose to be grateful, knowing that whatever is happening is for my highest good and a gift and opportunity to grow and learn?”
After only 5 days of cruising on the ocean, I woke up feeling a sense of “boredom.” I missed Maui, my girlfriends, my painting and my phone! I tried not to judge myself (a cruise of a lifetime with my beloved and I am feeling bored, what is wrong with you girl?) I shared it with Larry and he had just finished reading something from Eckhart Tolle’s book “Stillness Speaks” that talked about boredom. Tolle wrote, “Just feel it, just like you would sadness or anger. Go into it, rather than giving it meaning, because it’s not you.”
As I sat with it and prayed about it, I realized that I am fearful sometimes when I have nothing to do or nothing planned, even though I love the days where nothing is planned and I let the day unfold naturally. I still feel some anxiety when I don’t know what the next thing I am going to do is rather than enjoying the moment, living in the NOW and going with the flow. I asked myself, “Is this about my need to control and needing to know what’s next?” It definitely was. Since living in Maui, I have been practicing going with the flow and living in the moment so I was surprised to see there was more healing that I needed. It feels like I am being invited to a deeper level of BEING, trusting and letting go of control. Since I have come home, I feel more peaceful and relaxed. I haven’t “hit the ground running” like I always do when I return from a trip.
We had a wonderful experience on our cruise, but I am so happy to be home. I’ve discovered that I’m not a true and blue traveler and missed Maui and our home digs.
Pat shared that we had decided not to complain about anything, but to stay in a place of gratitude, acceptance and peace. A few occasions arose that truly challenged me to practice this. First of all, after 5 or 6 days on the ship I started to get a sore throat that turned into a full blown cold and cough. My response to that in the past would have been, “Poor me, I paid all this money on a cruise anticipating a wonderful time and I get sick.” But I didn’t go there and didn’t complain. Then Pat got sick which was kind of expected. She also stayed positive and was able to function well. We spent lots of time reading, relaxing and spending quality time together, which is exactly what the doctor ordered.
I’m reading Eckhart Tolle’s book “Stillness Speaks” in which he suggests that we are not our thoughts, we are not our sickness or trials, we are “WHO” is aware of them. He invites us to not take our thoughts to seriously, to not own our sickness or trials and to not hold onto them, but to allow ourselves to go through them to the other side, to awareness. With these intentions in mind, this is what I tried to do when I got sick. I was only incapacitated for one day, then started to feel better. Pat spoke to the doctor on the ship and he told her these coughs were lasting for 7-14 days and his lasted for 6 months.
The second challenge came after we disembarked from the ship at 8 a.m. in the morning. The taxi picked us up to take us to our hotel. Our flight back to Maui was at 9:30 p.m., so we had all day to tour Sydney. We booked a hotel for the day through Travelocity so we could relax and take a shower before our 10 hour flight back.
The taxi cab driver kept driving around in circles trying to find the hotel (as I watched his meter going higher and higher.) Would you believe there was no hotel when we arrived at the address given to us? We tried calling the hotel, but there was no answer. There we were at 9 a.m. in the morning with 6 suitcases and no hotel for us to stay. It would have been so easy for me to feel angry, frustrated and fearful, but I didn’t go there. I was able to almost see the comedic aspect of the whole thing as I looked over at Pat with her eyes closed repeating, “Everything is flowing with peace, ease and grace, everything is flowing with peace, ease and grace.”
Meanwhile, the cab had pulled over to the curb and stopped in front of another hotel. I asked the manager of the hotel if he had a room available and he said, “Yes, but you are lucky because they were completely booked for Friday and Saturday. So we were able to get a room right away at the same price we had paid for at the phantom hotel.
We made plans for the same taxi driver Sam to pick us up at 7:00 p.m.and drive us to the airport for our flight at 9:30 p.m. We waited for him in front of the hotel until 7:15 p.m. but no cab driver in sight. We knew if we didn’t leave very soon we would miss our flight. We called another taxi company that arrived ten minutes later and off we went racing to the airport. Again, we didn’t complain and didn’t allow fear, frustration, or anger to enter our energy. On the way to the airport, I turned to Pat and said, “We have to send “Sam” love and forgiveness” and she agreed.
I am learning little by little that if I can live in the moment and trust the energy of love, situations can be resolved in a way that doesn’t require us to get upset, stressed out and life is so much more enjoyable. I’m really happy that after all these years I am beginning to remember that I always have a choice, in difficult situations: to get frustrated, angry and stressed out or to stay present in the moment and trust there is an energy, if I am open to it that is peaceful and will offer a solution to the problem.
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