As I sat in the waiting room waiting as my car was being serviced, tears came to my eyes as I read a chapter in Michael Singer’s book, “The Surrender Experiment .“ The book is about the author’s experience of surrendering everything to the Universe and watching what comes to him as a result of always saying “yes” and resisting nothing.
This book touched a deep part in my heart as the tears flowed gently down my cheeks. I was remembering the many stories, miracles and synchronicities as I surrendered my life and wrote my book, “Simply a Woman of Faith.” My experiences and stories were on a much smaller scale than the author’s but they were still very powerful and valid to me.
My spiritual journey of surrendering, letting go and trusting God the last 4 decades has brought me here today, to this NOW moment. I am living on the ocean in a beautiful home with my soul mate, Larry. I am retired, happy, content and peaceful. My heart is full of gratitude and I take nothing for granted. Is my life/relationship perfect? Of course not, and it will never be. This is not to brag about anything I have done, but to express gratitude for God’s grace and for EVERYTHING that has unfolded in my life. I learned to say “yes” to all the gifts God offered me and I let go of not feeling deserving.
Comparing ourselves to others is common and can happen so subtly. As I started to compare myself with the author, I quickly recognized that my ego was starting to act up and say things like, “How come you are not experiencing as many synchronicities and miracles as you did years ago when you wrote your book? Your life is so peaceful and stress free now; maybe you are doing something wrong?” It almost felt like I was put out to pasture with nothing (dramatic) happening in my life.
I asked myself, “Why am I questioning if I am doing God’s will and surrendered now? Am I willing to trust the Universe that I am exactly where I am meant to be? Am I willing to accept that this is what God wants for me at this time in my life?” Yes, I am. It has taken me years to get to this place of surrender, peace and contentment and I am vigilant about not allowing anything, especially my ego to rob me. Eckhart Tolle states, “True freedom and the end of suffering is knowing I have completely chosen what I am feeling & experiencing NOW.”
I am becoming more and more aware of how ego shows up. Once I become aware of what ego is doing, it loses its power. Whenever I want to “resist” something that has come into my life, whenever I judge someone’s behavior and think I am right or better than them or would do things differently, it is my ego. I heard Spirit’s voice very clearly in my prayer this week. “Pat, MYOB (mind your own business.) I think this will be my new mantra!
I trust that whatever comes into my life, I will handle it with peace, ease and grace. God will give me the strength and courage to deal with it and it will be for my highest good. I may not like it and it may take some time, but I will accept it.
Like the author, Michael Singer, I choose to surrender everything to the Universe and watch what comes to me as a result of always saying “yes” and resisting nothing.
Those of us with children have experienced firsthand the absolute commitment that most parents make in accepting responsibility for raising and protecting their child at any cost.
When they’re babies and young children we take great pleasure in their first- time experiences with life’s little treasures. As babies, we experience sharing their first realization that they can hear, see, touch, smell and taste. As young children, we begin to let go a little and allow those experiences (like riding a bike, or fishing for the first time, or the first day of school or summer camp). When they become teenagers, they want to grow and spread their wings and make their own decisions.
We worry and stress out because all of a sudden they don’t see the world through our eyes. They form their own opinions and perspectives that don’t always agree with ours. We worry that they may make some poor decisions, get hurt or make mistakes that could have a disastrous effect on their lives. We question the way we brought them up and wonder if we did enough for them. We may ask ourselves, “Was I a good enough parent?” We worry that they will suffer heart break and pain or that they will take the wrong path and ruin their life.
Somewhere along that journey we realize that no matter what we do or say they will know pain and suffering of some kind. Hopefully, if they choose to share that part of their journey with us, we can be there for them and love them through whatever transpires.
I had an interesting thought yesterday. What if God said to you, “I gave you this child to nurture and love, but remember this child is also mine to nurture and love. We both definitely want our child to have the best life experience they can possibility have.” Then God showed us a printout of the opportunities and challenges our child was going to be offered during this journey. Some of the challenges could cause great heart break and pain and some of the opportunities would bestow wonderful spiritual and worldly gifts greater than our child could have ever imagined.
God and parents would be there during this child’s journey to help in any way they could. Our child would learn to accept what was happening at any given moment and be open to the constant gift of love that is being offered. Our child would feel supported, worthy and fulfilled. Our child would not be fearful or allow ego to run her/his life. Our child would lead a peaceful, stress free life and when the journey was over would shed its form and be one again in total love consciousness.
Then God would say, “All you have to do is continue to love our child no matter what happens, you’ve seen the printout. You understand that our child has to experience certain difficulties so he/she can grow and become more conscious and open enough to accept my unboundless gift of love.”
Then I thought, “Thank you God for this thought and insight. Looking back it’s helpful to know that while raising our children we were not doing it alone, you were there every step of the way (even though at times it did not feel that way) to protect and guide us with your wisdom and love.
Wouldn’t it be great if we really were shown the printout of our child’s life before he/she was born? We would understand that all of our worrying and stress were meaningless. This is where trust comes in for worrying is an illusion.
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