Going within to make my decisions

Posted by admin in Blog (Weekly), Blogs

May
8

Do you have a hard time making decisions? Are you trying to make a decision about something now in your life? Instead of making a decision and taking action, do you have a tendency to stay stuck and do nothing? Doing nothing is a choice. Perhaps you don’t have all the information you need to make the decision or it’s just not the right timing. All of these are valid reasons for not making a decision. It is a conscious choice you are making.

Sometimes it’s fear when you don’t make a decision one way or the other. Fear is insidious and you may not even recognize it as fear. You may be afraid to make the wrong decision because you don’t trust yourself, so you do nothing. Fear can block you and keep you” stuck in the muck” and therefore you will miss God’s plan for your life.

I didn’t know it was fear when I put my book to bed for 6 years. I am so grateful that God never gave up on me and I became willing to face my fears and write my book, “Simply a Woman of Faith.” I wouldn’t be living the life of my dreams in Maui with Larry.

You may not know what you really want and that is why it takes so long to make a decision. That’s ok because it often takes time to know what we really want. I believe knowing what we want is the key to moving forward. Once we know what we really want and have asked for Spirit’s guidance, we can begin to take some steps in the direction we want and doors will open often miraculously.

When I was making the decision whether to move to Maui for 6 months, I drove myself crazy with all of my questions of HOW it could happen. I talked to friends and did the pros and cons and prayed for God’s will. I discovered at the bottom of it all was the belief that I didn’t deserve it. I cleared that belief quickly. I finally got sick of myself going back and forth and not knowing what I was doing. I needed an answer and asked Spirit for help. I got quiet and simply said, “I’m moving back to Rhode Island.” Immediately, my hand went over my heart and I let out of a GASP. It felt so heavy and I knew in my heart what my answer was. When I said, “I’m going to live in Maui for 6 months” I had an incredible peace and knowing. The rest is history.

I have learned to “go within” to trust my intuition (which I believe is God) to make decisions in what feels right in the moment. I also know that I can change my mind if I want to. This is what happened this week:

A few months ago, I met a lovely spiritual woman at an art show. We briefly shared our lives and both felt like we wanted to get to know one another better. She facilitates dream circles and we discussed the possibility of having them at our home. I gave her my card and she said, “I will be in contact to get together.” I forgot about it and didn’t hear from her until last week.

She emailed me and wanted to get together to discuss the dream circles. With my present health challenges and restrictive diet, I didn’t have the energy or the desire to get together with her. I responded and said,

“Thank you for writing, but the dream circles are not going to work for me at this time.”

She responded and said, “I understand about the dream circles, but would you like to meet for tea or coffee?”

I still didn’t have the desire to get together and decided to be honest with her.

I responded and said, “I have some health challenges that I am dealing with right now so it’s not going to work for me.”

She was quite gracious and responded, “I healed myself after a 2-year illness. If there is anything I can do, please let me know.”

Something inside of me shifted and I knew I wanted to meet with her. I gave myself permission to change my mind. I sensed she had something important to tell me and I was open.

I responded and said, “I would like to meet for tea and hear about how you healed yourself.”

We met a few days ago and it was quite interesting, but not surprising, when she told me what her 2-year illness was and how she healed it

She said, “I had digestive/gut problems for 2 years that western medicine couldn’t figure out. I went to a Naturopath doctor and he diagnosed me with chronic parasites. I have been healed through diet, herbs and supplements.” We are on the same diet and shared our experiences with one another.

What a confirmation that I am on the right track with my health and what I am doing to heal myself. I am grateful that I listened to my intuition and changed my mind to get together with her. Spirit is always guiding us to give us what we need and help us make decisions for our highest good as we “go within” and listen.