How I learned to TRUST myself

Posted by admin in Blog (Weekly), Blogs

Apr
13

My journey of faith for the last 50 years has always been and always will be about TRUST. Trust in a Power greater than myself to lead, guide, protect, support, direct, and keep me safe. I can relax, have fun, go with the flow, and enjoy my life in peace when I TRUST. I have learned to relinquish my need to control as it’s impossible to TRUST and control at the same time.

Like most of us on the spiritual journey, I have had many opportunities to TRUST, even though at times, I felt afraid, lost, angry, abandoned, and alone. As I look back on my life, I realize that it has ALWAYS worked out for my highest good.

Many of us weren’t taught to trust in ourselves or a Power greater than ourselves. Learning to trust myself takes practice. It is not only a commitment and a process, but a profound act of self-love. Trusting in myself and a Higher Power is a choice and a decision that I make every day, no matter what is happening on the outside or in the world.

Self-trust develops when I learn to value, appreciate, believe, honor, and love myself. It’s knowing that I can co-create with the Divine Intelligence within me. I believe that I am a Divine being destined to live in peace, joy, love, and happiness.

Self-trust is about listening and following God’s small, still voice within. It’s being connected to our heart and intuition. The more I trust myself, the more I hear my inner voice, which I choose to call God. God is our essence, energy, and presence, and not a person. God is not in the sky punishing me, but within my very being. I AM the essence of what God is. God is Love and Light and so are you.

When I trust God, I know that everything is as it needs to be and that whatever happens is required for my growth and evolution and is perfect for everyone involved. I have surrendered the outcome and ACCEPT “what is” knowing all is in perfect timing and divine order.

Of course, it’s easier to TRUST when everything is going smoothly in our lives and the lives of our loved ones. It’s much harder when we see loved ones suffer and have no control to help or fix them. It is in this place that our TRUST muscles grow or NOT. We can become BITTER and angry or we can choose to TRUST and become BETTER and find the peace within. Trials can help us grow our TRUST muscles.

Here is an example that happened over 25 years ago.

I was recently divorced after 30 years of marriage. It was my first time living on my own and providing for myself. I was trying to navigate being “single” and making decisions about the future of my life. It was not easy as I had to TRUST that I would be ok and that I could make it on my own.

At the same time as the divorce, I had applied for a job as an Alcohol and Drug Therapist at the VA hospital in Rhode Island. There were hundreds of applicants as it was a good-paying job and sought after by many.

I don’t know how, but there was a deep KNOWING and TRUST that the job was mine. After the initial interviews, I waited for weeks to hear from them and was elated when I received a verbal offer and a start date that the job was mine as soon as the paperwork was completed.

I gave my 2 weeks’ notice at the agency I had worked for several years. A week before the proposed start date, I received a call from the Personnel Department at the VA stating there was a problem that needed to be worked on.

They assured me that they wanted to hire me, but they had just received an application from a veteran applying for the job. Veterans had to be given preference if they qualified for the position.

I initially went into a tailspin, scared to death and in shock. I was recently divorced, had no income, and had no job. I had a choice, either live in fear and be angry or TRUST and accept that it would all work out.

It seemed like forever for them to get back to me. I prayed, let go, TRUSTED, surrendered, and waited. It was such a relief when they called and offered me the job.

Because of my journey of faith and living in TRUST for many years, I have experienced many miracles and answered prayers. My Divine self, my soul, is EXPANDING and embracing my inner authority and sovereignty. I am ready to own my worth and power. How about you?