I am worthy and deserving to receive

Posted by admin in Blog (Weekly), Blogs

Oct
17

For those of you who have been reading my weekly blogs, you know I have been hearing the small, still voice of God for over 40 years. There have been many miracles I’ve shared in my book, “Simply a Woman of Faith” by listening and following Spirits guidance.

We all have the voice of God inside of us, but we often don’t trust it and think it’s our voice. It takes courage, practice, and a willingness to step out in faith when we don’t understand something we are guided to do. Can you relate?

I received money for my birthday from family and friends and wanted to buy a new 13 iPhone at the Verizon store. There was a big promotion going on for a new phone and iPad. They didn’t have the color phone I wanted in stock and it had to be ordered. I accepted that it would take 2 weeks to get it.

It was a bit overwhelming purchasing a new phone by myself and the manager, Kelly, was so helpful in guiding me to the right phone. I said, “If I were your mother, what would you advise?”

I’m not sure how or why I told him I was an alcohol and drug therapist for 20 years, but I did. He opened up and shared he was clean and sober for 7 years. We became fast friends as we both had the same Higher Power. I shared my family didn’t live here and were from Rhode Island. He smiled and said, “Now you have family here.”

As I was walking out of the store, I changed my mind and decided I wanted a pink phone instead of a blue one. They only had one black phone in stock and would also have to wait for a pink one.

A few hours later, I received a call from Kelly telling me they just received a shipment and there was 1 pink 13 iPhone available. Was I interested? You bet I was and dropped everything to go to the store. It felt like a confirmation that I was to buy the phone.

I have an old iPad that works just fine so I didn’t need a new one. Kelly advised me to buy a new iPad because it was a great promotion. I prayed and asked God for guidance. I heard Spirit say, “I want you to buy it.” After some deliberation, I walked out of the store with a new phone and iPad.

Instead of being excited after my purchases, I felt stressed and questioned myself if I had really heard God’s voice to buy the iPad. I’m frugal and don’t usually buy new things for myself. Before going to bed, I tried to order a cover for the iPad on Amazon, but it wouldn’t go through.

Here is the message I received from Spirit that night before going to bed.

“I’m a bit stressed Spirit. Did I do the right thing at Verizon by buying a new iPad when I didn’t need it?”

Message: You asked me to guide you and I did. You heard my voice to buy the iPad. Now ego is working hard to discredit my voice and is playing tricks. You feel guilty about spending the money and afraid you made a mistake. This is not of me. I want you to have this. You don’t understand why in this moment.

“Can I trust you God that it was your voice? Do I don’t feel worthy or deserving to buy a new iPad when the old one works fine?”

Yes, you can trust my voice. This was a big purchase and you are not used to spending this kind of money on yourself. Rest in me and stop trying to figure it out in your head. I want to give you a gift and you are having a hard time receiving it because you don’t feel worthy.

I had to go back to Verizon the next day as my contacts weren’t loaded into the iPad and stopped at a yard sale on the way there. I couldn’t believe it when I spotted the beautiful iPad cover that read “I can do all things through CHRIST who strengthens me.” I walked to my car to get my new iPad hoping it would fit. Needless to say, it fit perfectly! God is good and faithful.

I was stunned and had tears in my eyes as I shared with the 2 women my struggle of buying the iPad the day before. They wouldn’t take the money for it when I went to pay for it. I also bought a water bottle that read YOU ARE WORTHY.

After I got in my car, I was very emotional and sobbed in gratitude because it was a confirmation that I had heard the voice of God and listened. I couldn’t wait to show it to Kelly when I arrived at Verizon. His face lit up and he said, “This is my favorite scripture that saved me when I got sober.”

We are truly all connected and ONE.