I gave myself extreme self-care

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Oct
17

I counted the days before my trip to see my family in Rhode Island, especially after not seeing them for 2 years due to Covid. It was a great visit staying with my daughter, Mary, and grandson, Herbie on her farm. We had lots of fun and many opportunities to give and receive love.

Although I wasn’t sure what it would look like before I left, I decided I would give myself “extreme self-care” and rather than trying to control everything, I didn’t have an agenda or plan.It worked as I remained true to myself, relaxed, peaceful, and able to stay in the present moment, for the most part.

That’s not to say that everything went smoothly all the time because it didn’t. But I had the tools to *communicate *speak up *set boundaries *be accountable *forgive myself and others *be kind *make amends *accept what is *detach *let go and let God *feel my feelings and *not take things personally. WHEW!

My oldest grandson, Zach, married Francesca and it was a beautiful ceremony and celebration. My son, Tim, from Idaho, officiated the wedding, and Mary and I had a great time making all the flower arrangements for the wedding. I’m glad I didn’t know that Mary had volunteered us until I got there because I would have been stressed.

We had a 2- day family reunion at Mary’s and my son, Jimmy’s home which was lots of fun. I so enjoyed seeing all my children and grandchildren. We certainly had lots of hugs and love.

My birthday is October 2 and I will be 75 years young. Other than normal aches and pains, I have never felt better. My daughter surprised me with a family birthday party at the farm and a surprise party with some of my girlfriends at a restaurant. It’s not easy to surprise me, but she did it! I felt loved and blessed.

Although I love my family dearly and they love me, being with family and witnessing “old family patterns” triggered me and brought up my “stuff” to be healed and transformed.

I came across a poem called Life’s a Dance. “You can’t control how other people receive your energy. Anything you do or say gets channeled through the lens of whatever personal stuff they are going through at the moment. WHICH IS NOT ABOUT YOU. Just keep being yourself with as much integrity and love as possible.”

I am grateful that I had many opportunities to practice what I have been learning for the past several decades. As the poem says, I cannot control what other people do, say, or behave. All I can control is my behavior and my attitude.

Although I loved being with family and friends, there is nothing like coming home after being away for 3 weeks. I missed Maui, Larry, and our dog, Kobe. Even though it was late at night and I had been up for almost 24 hours, it was a great homecoming. I knew Larry wouldn’t forget me, but I wasn’t sure about Kobe! They were both quite happy to have me home again.

As the plane landed and I looked outside the window, I became emotional as the tears flowed down my cheeks. I felt grateful and blessed to be living on Maui and to have arrived home safely. I visualized an invisible shield around me to protect me the whole time I was there and affirmed “I am peaceful, safe, and protected from anything and everyone that doesn’t serve my highest good.”

I am responsible to keep my vibration high in love and gratitude. When stepping into a higher vibration, I look within for direction and guidance. Part of raising my vibration is taking responsibility for myself and not making excuses for myself.

I’m celebrating how far I have come and the changes I have made within. Love is all there is and I’m grateful that I continue to choose love, despite whatever is going on externally around me.