I have been sexually AWAKENED

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May
9

As I shared in my last blog, I was led to attend the “Sacred Feminine Awakening and Healing Retreat” on Maui this past week. Thank you for your prayers. It was very appreciated.

I have been given the KEYS to unlock the door of my heart to reclaim my life force energy and receive new life, freedom, passion, enlightenment, transformation and healing. Because of the sexual abuse, I dissociated from my body and wouldn’t allow myself to receive sexual pleasure. I was happy to give sexual pleasure, but had difficulty receiving it. As women, our birthright is pleasure.

I believe the KEYS to my sexual healing was my WILLINGNESS, FAITH, COURAGE and a strong desire to heal deeply. Spirit had prepared me for this retreat that I needed and I was guided each step of the way by Spirit. I am so grateful for my “YES” and that I didn’t let fear rob me as it had for many years. Instead, with the grace of God, I faced my fear head on. Alleluia!

It is hard to put into words my experience, but I will try to capture it and share it with you. I have been on the healing/ spiritual path for over 40 years and have had lots of therapy, groups, retreats, but I have never experienced anything like this in all my years. I knew it was time to take my sexual power back, as well as clear lifetimes of trauma.

My experience was profound, deep, sacred, holy and powerful. There were women from the US, as well as from France, Peru, Argentina, Switzerland, Ireland and Equador. The love and sisterhood that was created was extraordinary. We were women sharing and healing one another through our bodies and loving one another. Because we are all connected what each of us does impacts all women.

Our leaders, Amrita Grace, and Caroline Muir, created a loving, sacred and safe container for all of us to open our hearts and heal trauma. We laughed, cried, played, swam, danced and meditated together I was surprised that several of the women had not been sexually abused, but were wounded and repressed from childhood, past relationships. both culturally and from their religion.

After attending the retreat and my sexual awakening and healing, something stirred inside of me and it felt like my soul was inviting me to work with women and teach them about this sacred experience.

After praying and meditating to discern if it was God’s will and talking to Larry about it, I decided to apply for the 6-month teacher training program to become a “Certified Spiritual Sexual Educator.” I had just paid for the retreat and now I was considering putting out a big chunk of money again. GULP. I trusted the money would be provided if this was truly in alignment with God’s will. I knew that stepping out in faith before the money arrived is essential for my growth.

I felt this was a call from Spirit, but I didn’t know if I would even be eligible for this training. When I called Amrita to discuss this, she was excited and said, “You are the perfect kind of woman that I want to attract into the program.” We both had chills and tears were rolling down my cheeks.

I love surprises, synchronicities, as well as how Spirit guides and provides for me. The same day I made the decision to move forward and say YES to the certification, I received a call from my son, Brian, telling me he had a buyer for my house in Providence that hadn’t even been put on the market yet. To make it even better, the buyer was going to pay cash. Oh, happy day!

God always provides when I step out in faith, listen. trust and act. Receiving the news of my house being sold on the same day I called Amrita to apply was a confirmation that I am aligned with God’s will for my life. I am very excited (and scared) about this opportunity to serve and support women, even though I was not looking for another career. I love the saying, “We make plans and God laughs.”

I truly believe that every woman would benefit from this sacred, holy experience. I have been awakened and given birth to myself.