I have to leave my home in 8 days
Thank you God for the opportunity to practice everything I teach. It is easy to live in gratitude when things are going “my way” or the way I think they should go. It is not so easy to be grateful when plans are changed mid-stream. That is where the rubber hits the road, if you will. For many years, I have been living my life trusting God to open and close doors when I don’t know what’s ahead of me. It has always worked, even though at the time, I don’t understand why the door is closed.
This morning I received an email from my landlord telling me that he was sorry but plans had changed regarding leaving my boxes and belongings in the bedroom, while construction was going on in the house. Of course, my initial reaction was disappointment because it meant that I would have to get a storage unit and move twice until I find my new home-or it finds me. I made a decision to trust God and immediately became grateful for “what is” and the closed door in my face.
As I sat to meditate, I heard the small still voice of God say, “I am using you as my instrument to teach others what you do as a woman of faith, so they can do the same thing.” I then remembered an email I received from my friend, Linda, in response to last week’s blog. “Pat, this was your best blog ever. You know, what you’re going through is to teach others, and you’re doing an incredible job! I’ll bet you’ll get a raise after this assignment.” It is a humbling experience being God’s instrument and sharing the highs and the lows of building my faith muscles. But I would have it no other way and I am grateful that God has chosen me for this assignment!
I looked at a place to rent last week. There were many things I liked about it, especially the lanai with an ocean view. I loved the landlord and I could afford the rent. The problem was that it was very small and didn’t have a stove. I thought, “Well, I can always get a small oven and make it work.” The other problem was that it didn’t have a sink in the bathroom and I would have to use the kitchen sink to wash up. I was willing to make it work if that was God’s will for me. I prayed and asked God to close the door if that wasn’t my right and perfect place. I felt relieved when the door was closed because a bathroom without a sink and a mirror just wouldn’t work for this girl! Anyone that knows me knows I love my mirror!
I shared last week that I felt stressed and fearful because I didn’t know where I was going to move to. Today, I am happy to say that I feel “surrendered” and peaceful. I didn’t realize that I hadn’t surrendered until I actually surrendered and the peace returned. I wanted it “my way” and was struggling and fighting the reality of what was going on-not having a place to move right into when my lease was up.
I asked myself, “What does it mean to surrender?” It means that I stop fighting inside and say, “Okay God, you get in the driver’s seat and drive the car. I don’t know the way and what is ahead, but you do. You take over and I will stay in the passenger’s seat. I can relax and enjoy the scenery when I am in the driver’s seat- how much better can it get than that?. I am excited about the adventure before me and know God is preparing something wonderful for me. Could a delay be just a way God is showing me a better way? It really is about saying YES to whatever is showing up in my life.
That day, I received a quote from Abraham that spoke to my heart. “Say yes to whatever it is. Because if you say yes to it and then you get in the middle of it, and you say, “Uh oh, this isn’t really turning out the way I wanted it to,” then out of that is born another desire. And as you say yes to that, then it turns out. And you say, “Well, it’s still not quite right.” So you have another desire… Until eventually you get it exactly right. You cannot get it wrong. No creation is ever complete. Just do it.”
My friend, Louise, wrote, “It is incredible the blessings that have been attracted to you and how they came. Amazing when your flight was delayed several days, what unfolded. Thank you for sharing all the bright light. Now, as God, Spirit, Infinite Universe prepares for your move, a beauty is unfolding as vibrant as the energy you radiant. I am picturing lots of color that you love so much. Sparkling colors that are also very Earth oriented, as Maui so gracefully displays, are guiding you. Count me in on your Team!”
Thank you, Louise, for reminding me about what happened when my flight was cancelled in January and the miracle that happened. Often when things don’t go the way we expect them to go, there is a reason for the delay. I don’t know yet why I have to wait for the right and perfect home to “show up” and that is okay. I trust that I will know when I need to know. And it will be better than I could ever have imagined.
I have to be out of my ohana in 8 days. Friends have helped me pack boxes and get ready to move. I am moving in with my dear friend, Jodene, for 2 weeks and my friends, Patrick and Nicole, called and offered their home for me to stay in after that. My friend, Ali, wrote, “Count me in as one of your angels and team members. Thank you for taking care of yourself and sharing who you are with us. If it’s God’s plan for you to move out before you have a final rental, Bob and I would be delighted to have you sleep on our couch/live with us for free for up to two weeks. After all, it would be like having an angel moving in with us.”
Thank you for your prayers, encouragement, emails and offers to stay at your home while I am waiting for my right and perfect home to “show up.” My heart is full of gratitude for the love I am experiencing from all of you.
Have suitcase, will travel! I have my “giant” suitcase packed and will just wheel it right in to your home. What an adventure and so much fun to be walking in faith and getting out of the driver’s seat.
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