“I want to give you more, but you must release and let go of guilt”

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Nov
4

I wondered what I was going to write about this week when I received an email from a woman in Rhode Island and – then I knew. She asked me this question. “Pat, I have always wondered . . . exactly what are you doing in Hawaii?” Thank you Carolyn for asking the question because it prompted this blog.

My first thought was “nothing.” But that is not the truth. No Thing to means – I am living my life to the fullest, enjoying the beauty around me in every flower, butterfly and tree, feeling pleasure and joy in my body and soul. I am doing what I want, playing and having fun. In other words, I am “Showing up” for life and allowing miracles to find me every day. I am in constant gratitude for the blessings I experience and my heart is full.

What I am allowing is for my light to shine wherever I go and BEING God’s presence in this world. I think I am getting it – I don’t have to do anything, I just need to BE. WOW, isn’t that awesome? It has taken me this long to know and embrace this in my heart. Is this the purpose of life and what life is meant to be? I asked myself, “Is this what God created us for – to live in peace, joy, love and happiness? I have a plaque in my kitchen that reads, “The purpose of life is to be happy.”

People notice when we are joyful and happy because our vibration is high. My friend, Kati, and I were sitting across from one another at the pool, talking and at one point, held hands and prayed together. There were several couples sitting close by chatting with one another. As they all got up to leave, one of the men walked over to us and said, “You are both beautiful. I don’t know what you are doing, but keep it up because it works.” Wow, he as an angel.

I then wondered why there are so many people who are unhappy? I don’t believe it has to do with the amount of money we have or fame or success or anything like that. I know wealthy people who have no peace in their hearts and worry about losing what they have all the time.

Happiness is an inside job, it is knowing who I am and where I came from. It is remembering that I was created in God’s image and God doesn’t make junk. It is knowing that it delights God to see me happy and enjoying my life. This is what we were created for. I want to delight God by appreciating everything I have been given. I think it also delights God when I love and cherish myself.

When I take my walk and look out into the ocean and up at the sky, my heart sings and I am grateful. When I say, “I live in Maui,” I smile and sing and rejoice from head to toe. I don’t know how I got here, other than believing and dreaming for years about it and being open to receive.

I believe that being open to receive is one of the keys. How hard it is for us to receive sometimes because we don’t fee deserving. We block our good, whatever that may be: success, abundance, healthy relationships, healthy body, peace or a job that is fulfilling and you are using your gifts, How hard is it to receive a compliment or receive a gift without feeling like you have to return something?

It is hard to believe that it will be two years in January that I have been living in Maui. I could have blocked this wonderful gift of living in paradise because I didn’t feel deserving or felt afraid to take the leap of faith – and it was a leap of faith, for sure, but it was also saying YES to God’s grace and God’s will for me.

If I didn’t have enough trust in myself and my God, I wouldn’t be living the life I am living. The journey is all about TRUST for me. I choose to trust myself that I am where I need to be and if I am not, Spirit will guide me another direction. I live my life in gratitude. I may not feel grateful at first when something happens that I don’t like or approve of, but I always get to that place of gratitude, because it is my belief that I attract everything into my life for my highest good- and that is help my soul to grow

Spirit revealed to me how I was blocking my good. Here is what happened: I woke up at 2 am this morning and couldn’t get back to sleep. I lay there full of gratitude for what had happened during that day. My friend, Larry, came over to help me wash my windows and do some odd jobs around my ohana. The ultimate act of being open and willing to receive was when I watched Larry wash my windows as I laid across my bed icing my back. I knew I was receiving a great gift of love (with no strings attached) from my friend. How good it felt to be able to receive. We spent the rest of the day together, playing and having fun. We went to lunch and then had dessert in another one of our favorite places.

As I was thinking about the day, I got quiet and then heard the “small still voice of God” whisper in my ear, “There is more, I want to give you more, but you must let go of and release your guilt. Feelings of guilt block me from showering you with more blessings.” I wasn’t completely surprised because I had just become aware of some guilt surfacing into my consciousness. My life was so good, I felt so blessed and wasn’t doing anything, but living my life in joy, love and happiness. I asked myself, “What had I done to deserve this life of living in Maui with such good friends who love me?”

I think the DO, DO part of me had surfaced again and I was ready to do battle with it, because that is not my truth anymore. I prayed, released and let go of all guilt because I KNOW that guilt of not of God. Perhaps this comes from the old saying, “It’s to good to be true.” I now say, “Yes, it’s true and it’s all good.” We don’t have to do, (pushing, striving, performing, teaching) we just need to be in our beauty and radiate our light from within.

What if, just what if we are all meant to live in love, peace and joy and find our passion and happiness within? I am living my dream, this gift that God has given me and I want to be FULLY open to it in every part of my being and soul. I want to appreciate and love everything and everyone I come in contact with. I am saying YES to all that is and all the good that God wants to bestow on me.

How about you? Are you ready to receive? Is there something you need to let go of and release so that you can receive your good?