I was being shaken up to waken up

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Jan
10

Happy New Year. My prayer for you is that 2019 be the best year ever and that you experience miracles and abundance in all areas of your life. May you go from pleasure to pleasure and enjoy your life to the fullest. We are not promised tomorrow so let’s make the best out of each day by appreciating what we have and being grateful.

What I know about the spiritual life is that there is always more and we will never have arrived. We are invited to go deeper to heal and release baggage and beliefs that no longer serve us, but in fact, hurt us. It’s like peeling the onion and peeling an onion can make us cry.

We can either go kicking and screaming and resist “what is” happening in our lives or we can go with the flow in peace, ease and grace. Sometimes it’s easy to go with the flow and accept “what is” and other times it’s really difficult.

We may resist until we can’t stand the pain anymore and have to let go and surrender. I wish it was easier and not so painful. I’m grateful that I did some letting go and surrendering this past week. I want to be the best me I can be so I am willing to do the inner work of releasing and healing.

In order to release our subconscious beliefs, we must know what they are. They may be running our lives and we don’t even know it because they are so deep. We must allow them to come to the surface to be healed and released.

Do you remember the Christmas snowball that we used to shake up as kids? While in meditation this week, the Christmas snow ball came to mind and it felt like I was being shaken up. I was being shaken up to awaken. The snow on the bottom was coming to the top and it wasn’t pretty. When I’m triggered with something in the present, it is often about something in my past (a false belief) that is calling for attention, love and healing. It is not the time to beat up on myself for being triggered, but a call for self-love and compassion.

When I’m resentful, judgmental or blaming someone for what they did or didn’t do to make me happy, I’m not taking responsibility for my stuff or my “shit.” I was triggered and my shit was coming up and it was time to look at me and change my false beliefs. Spirit was showing me that what I thought was important and that I had to have to make me happy was false.

I am responsible for my own happiness and it doesn’t serve me to look outside for others to give me what I already have inside of me. The truth is that I have all the love I need inside of me. Looking to others for validation is futile and doesn’t serve me. Of course, we all want to give and feel loved by our friends and family. The problem comes when we expect others to love us in a certain way and when they don’t, we don’t feel loved.

I am grateful for my courage and willingness to use the tools I have been given to release beliefs that no longer serve me; meditation, journaling, prayer, self-love, Emotional Freedom Technique.

I had a major breakthrough and have set myself free of behaviors that have robbed me for years of knowing the truth of who I am. I am a woman giving birth to myself. I am love and I am loved and so are YOU.