I was devastated

Posted by admin in Blog (Weekly), Blogs

Mar
24

I was devastated when my son and his wife told me they were moving to Florida with my two grandchildren over 20 years ago. I felt sad that we wouldn’t be spending birthdays and Christmas together that year. I allowed myself to FEEL it all.

Of course, I wanted the best for my son and family and was happy for their new adventure to Florida. I wasn’t even aware that I felt angry until after a therapy session when my therapist gave me “permission” and helped me get in touch with my anger. After the session, I went to the ocean by myself and screamed out my anger. I felt so much better after that purge.

It was Thanksgiving and I can remember clearly dreading Christmas without the grandchildren to celebrate with. I kept thinking, “This is going to be the worst Christmas ever.” I was negatively “future tripping” about how I would feel when Christmas arrived.

I’m grateful that I remembered what I think about I bring about and I get what I expect. If I didn’t want it to be the worst Christmas ever, I had to change my thinking. Instead of expecting and dreading the upcoming holiday, I started to affirm “This is going to be the best Christmas ever.”

Guess what? It worked! Although I missed my family, I had a great Christmas celebrating with friends and other family members.

Spirit brought this incident to my mind this week as I anticipated an event that I planned on attending. I had looked forward to the event and felt excited until a few days ago. I felt anxious and was not looking forward to the event. I’m generally not an anxious person so I was surprised by the depth of my anxiety.

I was concerned about meeting a friend at the event who I hadn’t seen in a few years. I was triggered by her big time in the past. I know when I’m triggered there is something in me that needs healing. I had to remind myself that just because I was triggered by my friend in the past didn’t mean that I would be triggered by her in the present.

Everything is energy and I didn’t want anxiety in my energy field. The key is to become aware of what’s going on inside of me rather than blame, shame, or judge someone else. I am not the same today as I was a few years ago and neither is she. The past is gone and the future is not here yet. All I have is the present moment. It is in the present moment that I connect with Spirit and I experience peace. On occasion, I’ve even thanked the person who triggered me as they helped heal unconscious beliefs that no longer served me.

I allowed myself to journal and feel the anxiety, without judging myself or making myself wrong. I have a powerful tool called the energetic cleanse which I used to free myself and not “future trip” about seeing my friend at the event.

It is important to keep my vibration high in love and gratitude. After I did the energetic cleanse, I started to affirm, “This is going to be the best event ever, and meeting my friend will flow with peace, ease, and grace.”

I love how Spirit affirms me when I’m in alignment and doing God’s will. The day after I did the energetic cleanse, I stopped at a yard sale on my way home from the beach. I found a picture that reminded me of my friend that said, “I love you.” There was a ladybug in the picture and ladybugs are a powerful symbol for me when I encounter them.

With the grace of God, I took responsibility for my feelings and changed my thinking. Remember, what I think about I bring about and I get what I expect.

I’m now looking forward to the event and even seeing my friend because “This is going to be the best event ever and meeting my friend will flow with peace, ease, and grace.”