Larry was angry at God for many years

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Dec
15

WITH FAITH, I FIRST BELIEVE, THEN I SEE

“Some say seeing is believing, but my spiritual self first believes, then sees. Faith does not require that I know all the steps before I begin my journey. I pray with faith, and then open my mind and heart to guidance. My faith is confirmed every day. I follow through on my guidance. As I am led, I act; I put my feet under my prayers. First I believe, and then I see.” Daily Word

As I pondered these words from the Daily Word, I thought about my own faith life and connection to Source. Someone I didn’t know very well surprised me by saying, “Pat is an amazing manifestor and always gets what she wants.” I don’t agree that I always get what I want, because I don’t. I do get what I need. What I agree with is that I do know how to manifest because I FIRST BELIEVE, THEN I SEE.

As I have shared in other blogs, my passion is to paint and I love to paint ocean scenes. I really don’t know what I’m doing, but I’m allowing my paintings to come from within and have fun. I wanted to find a teacher that would teach me some techniques and that I could afford. Here is an example of how I manifested the perfect painting teacher this week.

Just the day before I manifested the teacher, I was sharing with a friend that I wanted to find a painting teacher. We both agreed that the teacher would “show up.” I BELIEVED that the teacher would show up and was quite happy when she “showed up” the very next day.

Larry and I went out to lunch with our friends, Carol and John, and afterwards stopped to browse in one of the shops in Lahaina. It was a lovely little shop with gifts and beautiful paintings. As I was leaving the shop, I noticed some small paintings with easels on the shelf. I said to the clerk, “I love how the artist painted the easels.” She smiled and said, “I am the artist.” Of course, that opened up the conversation. I said, “Do you give lessons and what do you charge?” She said, “Yes, I do. My specialty is seascapes and I teach technique.” I knew instantly that my teacher had “showed up.” I had my first painting lesson this week and, although, I felt a little overwhelmed by all I didn’t know, I know this is my next step and I am ready for it.

I don’t know why it is easy for me to BELEIVE before SEEING. Perhaps it is because I have been practicing for so many years and I have experienced so many miracles and answered prayers. I have learned to step out in faith and Let Go and Let God Be God in me. I have given up self-reliance, having to be in control and be in charge. I know that I don’t have to know everything and do everything. I believe God is present and guiding me every step of the way.

It hasn’t always been easy for me to BELIEVE before SEEING my manifestation, especially if I had to wait for something I really wanted for a long time. I prayed and waited for Larry for 15 years and was impatient and angry at times when it took so long for him to “show up.” I learned to trust God’s plan and perfect timing in my life. I reminded myself that things would work out for my highest good at the right time and the right way. An important key is thanking God BEFORE what I am asking for “shows up.” For example, I said, “Thank you God for the perfect and right soul mate who is here now.”

It is more difficult to BELIEVE before SEEING when my loved ones or friends are suffering (especially for a long time) and there is nothing I can do but pray for them and love them. My faith is tested, as well as strengthened when I CHOOSE to believe and trust God that all is well and that it is their journey to travel. Life is a mystery and there is much that I don’t understand that things happen the way they do. Perhaps that is what the saying “Live and Let Live” means.

LARRY

Growing up with a Catholic influence, my faith consisted mostly of obeying rules. I didn’t think about it much, all I had to do was to obey the Ten Commandments and the church laws and I was alright. It seems like I wasn’t accepting responsibility for my life because I was allowing the church to do that for me.

Although I don’t agree with some of the doctrines of the church, I am grateful for a couple of priests who supported and encouraged me to think for myself on my spiritual journey and I would not be where I am today spiritually without them. As the years rolled by I slowly began to move in a new direction. Special people came into my life that were on different spiritual paths, more personal, more meaningful. I started reading books by Gary Zukav, Wayne Dyer, Alan Cohen and Eckhart Tolle, etc.

I see things so differently now, I fully accept responsibility for my relationship with my God, who is not somewhere out “there” waiting to punish me if I don’t live up to his rules. My God is a God of “LOVE” which resides in me and in every person. Anita Moorjani in, her book “Dying To Be Me, ” shares from the other side, “I became aware that we’re all connected. Everything belongs to an infinite Whole. I was intricately, inseparably enmeshed with all of life. We’re all facets of that unity-we’re all One, and each of us has an effect on the collective Whole.”

I didn’t manifest very often because I didn’t understand what it was about. In difficult times, I would ask for God’s help, yet it never really felt like I received any help. When my 21 year- marriage fell apart, I was very angry with God for many years. I felt like, if this is what happens to me when I ask for your help, I can do better on my own.

Now I am living with one of the great manifestors. I was a bit skeptical at first but all you have to do is see Pat in action and you cannot deny her ability to practice her faith in a very real way. When she wants something she just puts it out there and sooner or later she receives her request. She manifested our relationship, the house we live in, the joy and happiness we enjoy and even parking spaces.

I have to admit that Pat has convinced me to try to BELIEVE before I SEE. I find myself getting parking spaces all the time just by asking, being grateful and expecting the parking space to be there. I look forward every day to God’s little surprises.

Pat and I are practicing and supporting one another when we think about our financial future. We have heard of people who are millionaires and still struggle with not having enough money because they are fearful they will run out of resources before they die. I wonder if most or all people struggle with this “not enough money syndrome.” I know we do at times, especially when an unexpected bill comes in. When we become fearful at these times, we remind one another to live in the moment because all we have is NOW. The future is not here until it becomes NOW.

The opportunity for all of us is to live in the moment and believe that the energy and light of love will guide and take care of all of our needs in each and every moment. Our faith and trust enable us to believe and expect that whatever happens, we will be sustained in the moment.