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Love is all there is

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May
8

Larry and I started a discussion group with spiritually minded friends focusing on the book called, “Love Is All There Is” by the Source. It is a powerful book that reveals much truth about love.  Our intention is to share different points of view to help one another on the spiritual path to grow in consciousness.

One of the chapters discusses what he calls common thought and the ego. He states, “Common thought is another name for ego, which in truth, doesn’t exist, but uses the common mind to create illusions of fear, used in the place of love. It is ego that impedes human’s understanding of his or her part in love. Ego is non-love in the extreme, the ultimate illusion. Hell is the world of ego. It is a world of competition and comparison, a world in which your imagined inadequacies are always in danger of exposure, a world in which failure is either present or just around the corner.  The only escape from hell is the surrender to love. Then you will see that the hell from which you escaped never really existed. Only the heaven of Love exists, for Love is all there is.”

I would like to share my experience of ego and how it has robbed me of my peace for as long as I can remember, probably forever. The only problem was that I didn’t recognize it as my ego. It felt REAL and I believed it.  It was this nagging inner voice that constantly whispered in my ear, “You are not good enough, not deserving or worthy, even though I was successful in my career, written a book, had a Master’s degree and on and on.  The belief was that whatever I did was never enough and I was never enough. Can you relate?

What I know today is that my ego voice is not real and is an illusion. All there is is love and I am not separate from God. We are ONE. Nothing else matters and it is just part of the play and only a dream. I recently participated in a meditation and my ego showed up as a “boogie man” dressed in black. As I prayed and meditated here is what came to me. The boogie man comes out at night and in dreams to scare me. When I “wake up” I realize it isn’t real, but an illusion. Whenever I feel jealous, judge another, feel less than, compare myself, I recognize this as my ego that is not real and not LOVE.

This is a time of “Awakening” and we are all waking up from the dream of separation in our own way. Some of us are kicking and screaming and blaming others for our problems. We are invited to take responsibility for ourselves and to see the truth of who we are. We are love, we were created in love and love is all there is.

Today, I recognize when my ego shows up to torment and scare me. I acknowledge it for what it is and say, you are not real, I CHOOSE LOVE.  The ego knows exactly where I am sensitive and will attack in the area that I am most vulnerable to constantly rob me of my peace and serenity.

There are so many ways ego shows up and we have to be vigilant and call ego by its name. It loses its power when we identify it as our ego by bringing it into the light and choosing love. Are you in the habit of constantly judging yourself after a conversation or gathering with friends? Do you say things like, “I talked too much or not enough? I should not have shared that or I was to negative? Do you recognize that it is your ego or do you believe it is true about yourself and then beat up on yourself?

My prayer for you is that you will know the truth of who you are and live in love. It is your birthright and you are adored by the Universe who created you and loves you.

“You can walk through your life of earth with love, in total unity, and know joy and peace. All it takes is for you to set your vision on truth instead of illusion, on love instead of ego, on the real instead of the unreal. Then you will see the world for what it really is – a place filled with divine possibilities and the opportunity for Love. Then you will embrace all as divine creation and, thus, you will treasure it all. The whole world sparkles with light when viewed through the eyes of love.  Why would you ever choose hell when heaven is here and now? Why choose fear when peace is available? Why choose lack when abundance is present? Why choose suffering when the surrender to love brings such joy?” Love Is Al There Is.”

 

 

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This is a time of awakening

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Mar
2

Larry and I started a discussion group with spiritually minded friends focusing on the book called, “Love Is All There Is” by the Source. It is a powerful book that reveals much truth about love.  Our intention is to share different points of view to help one another on the spiritual path to grow in consciousness.

One of the chapters discusses what he calls common thought and the ego. He states, “Common thought is another name for ego, which in truth, doesn’t exist, but uses the common mind to create illusions of fear, used in the place of love. It is ego that impedes human’s understanding of his or her part in love. Ego is non-love in the extreme, the ultimate illusion. Hell is the world of ego. It is a world of competition and comparison, a world in which your imagined inadequacies are always in danger of exposure, a world in which failure is either present or just around the corner.  The only escape from hell is the surrender to love. Then you will see that the hell from which you escaped never really existed. Only the heaven of Love exists, for Love is all there is.”

I would like to share my experience of ego and how it has robbed me of my peace for as long as I can remember, probably forever. The only problem was that I didn’t recognize it as my ego. It felt REAL and I believed it.  It was this nagging inner voice that constantly whispered in my ear, “You are not good enough, not deserving or worthy, even though I was successful in my career, written a book, had a Master’s degree and on and on.  The belief was that whatever I did was never enough and I was never enough. Can you relate?

What I know today is that my ego voice is not real and is an illusion. All there is is love and I am not separate from God. We are ONE. Nothing else matters and it is just part of the play and only a dream. I recently participated in a meditation and my ego showed up as a “boogie man” dressed in black. As I prayed and meditated here is what came to me. The boogie man comes out at night and in dreams to scare me. When I “wake up” I realize it isn’t real, but an illusion. Whenever I feel jealous, judge another, feel less than, compare myself, I recognize this as my ego that is not real and not LOVE.

This is a time of “Awakening” and we are all waking up from the dream of separation in our own way. Some of us are kicking and screaming and blaming others for our problems. We are invited to take responsibility for ourselves and to see the truth of who we are. We are love, we were created in love and love is all there is.

Today, I recognize when my ego shows up to torment and scare me. I acknowledge it for what it is and say, you are not real, I CHOOSE LOVE.  The ego knows exactly where I am sensitive and will attack in the area that I am most vulnerable to constantly rob me of my peace and serenity.

There are so many ways ego shows up and we have to be vigilant and call ego by its name. It loses its power when we identify it as our ego by bringing it into the light and choosing love. Are you in the habit of constantly judging yourself after a conversation or gathering with friends? Do you say things like, “I talked too much or not enough? I should not have shared that or I was to negative? Do you recognize that it is your ego or do you believe it is true about yourself and then beat up on yourself?

My prayer for you is that you will know the truth of who you are and live in love. It is your birthright and you are adored by the Universe who created you and loves you.

“You can walk through your life of earth with love, in total unity, and know joy and peace. All it takes is for you to set your vision on truth instead of illusion, on love instead of ego, on the real instead of the unreal. Then you will see the world for what it really is – a place filled with divine possibilities and the opportunity for Love. Then you will embrace all as divine creation and, thus, you will treasure it all. The whole world sparkles with light when viewed through the eyes of love.  Why would you ever choose hell when heaven is here and now? Why choose fear when peace is available? Why choose lack when abundance is present? Why choose suffering when the surrender to love brings such joy?” Love Is Al There Is.”

 

 

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I Not Only Reacted, I Attacked Larry

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Jun
7

I experienced something this week that brought me back to my family of origin, if you will. Growing up in an alcoholic/dysfunctional home, I learned certain behaviors that I wasn’t aware I was still exhibiting in my adult life, until now.

For example: If my father confronted my mother about something she did, she would deny it and then turn it around about something she didn’t like in him. They would end up arguing about what he said to her and the problem that was brought up in the beginning was never resolved.

When I confronted my ex-husband (who was not an alcoholic) when he forgot to bring the milk home after he said he would, he would say, “Mrs. Saint, you never forget anything, do you?” I would then defend myself and we didn’t address him not bringing home the milk.

I still get defensive sometimes, especially when I “PERCEIVE” that someone I love is making a judgment about me or they don’t approve of something I‘m doing or not doing. Talk about giving your power away because I know what others think of me is none of my business.

Here is what happened with Larry and I.  I love to listen to soft music playing in the background when I am in the house. I feel comforted, relaxed and peaceful.

For the most part, Larry likes quiet. Since we are both living in the same house, I respect his need for quiet and keep the music quite low. I don’t like the sound of the TV playing, but that doesn’t bother him.  He loves to eat his lunch in the TV room to unwind and relax. That has not been a problem for us because I like to sit outside on the lanai looking at the ocean.

When he asked me this question, “Do you think you are getting enough”quiet” with the music playing all the time?”  I didn’t blink an eye and came at him with a vengeance.  I not only REACTED but ATTACKED him and said, “What do you mean by that? What do you think I do when I sit outside every morning?  I have plenty of quiet time.  I like the music playing in the background because it relaxes me and makes me feel peaceful.”

Instead of not reacting or taking it personally and just listening to his perspective, (which was not right or wrong), when he asked me the question, I turned it around just like the alcoholic turned things around when confronted about a behavior.  I said, “I don’t like the TV playing and see you in there for hours at a time. I don’t judge you or complain about that.”

Later that evening, I realized how defensive I was and apologized for my behavior.  He accepted it and were both able to let it go.  As I thought about it and prayed about it the next morning, I realized that my reaction was so strong not only because I felt judged by him, but because it didn’t appear that he trusted me to know what was good for me  That was the bigger issue for me.

I know it shouldn’t make a difference because it was only his perspective and that doesn’t make it right or wrong.  Even if I am being judged by another, that doesn’t mean that I have to defend myself or make myself wrong. I can’t tell you how many years I did that to myself

I brought it up to him again because it didn’t feel settled and because communication is so important to the both of us. I said, “Do you think you were being judgmental about me playing the music?”  He said, “No, I don’t think it was judgmental, but just an observation.”  It is understandable that we both have different needs and perspectives and we are learning to communicate and respect each other in that way.

As we discussed it further, he realized that he sometimes likes the music playing, but not all the time in the house. He wanted me to turn the music off when I was outside or left the house, which I agreed to do. That was very different from, “Do you think you are getting enough “quiet” with the music playing?”  Rather than saying what he wanted – to have the music off when I am not in the room, he projected it onto me that I wasn’t getting enough “quiet” time.

I feel like this was an “awakening” for me because I had no idea this behavior that I learned in childhood was still playing out.  I want to be open, to listen and not defend myself and take things personally.  With God’s grace and my willingness to change, it will happen

Larry

Lately I’ve been having trouble discerning what to write about.  Usually I have an idea that’s been floating around for a while and the words just start coming.  It hasn’t been that way the last couple of weeks.  When we decided that I would contribute to Pat’s blog there was an understanding that I would try but I didn’t want to start stressing out if I had nothing to contribute.

Last week I contributed and the week before that I did not.  This week my thoughts have been pretty scattered and I felt I had nothing to contribute, so I informed Pat that I wouldn’t be writing.  She was fine with that and told me not to worry about it but suggested that I could perhaps share what I was experiencing.

When I decided that I wasn’t going to write the blog, a funny thing happened.  My ego started having a ball with this. It started with, “Hey, you have a responsibility to contribute and you are not living up to your responsibility. Pat can’t depend on you. What about the people that look forward to reading your stuff every week?  You are letting them down.  Is this process too difficult for you? Is there too much soul searching for you? Is it too difficult?  Do you just not want to do the work?”

I don’t want this to sound like it’s a “poor me, poor me” because it isn’t but it is very hard work to strip away all the defenses and perhaps knock down some walls and let others see how vulnerable I am.  In all honesty, this worlk has to be done week in and week out if someone wants to contribute to a blog like this.  In the end it’s worth it because whether anyone reads it or not, I learn a lot about myself, that I didn’t know before.

Pat shared with you her reaction to my comment about having music playing all the time and my inquiry if she had enough quiet in her life.  Well, I said it, so I have to do the work to understand why that makes any difference to me.  After doing some work on it I realized that what I really wanted to communicate is that from my perspective it is easier to hear the silent voice of God when we have silence.  The lesson I learned is “Larry that’s your perspective, keep it to yourself.”

I know you all have had similar experiences in a friendship or relationship, it’s not always easy. If we can learn more each day how important love, compassion, patience and forgiveness is we will have a happier life together.

 

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