Last weekend I went to Ma’alaea Harbor to wander around and watch the boats come in and out. I love the ocean and wanted to just be around the boats and kind of hoped I would meet someone to invite me on their boat! No luck. Later on in the week, I said to a few of my friends, “I really want to go on a boat, do you know of anyone that has a boat?”
Last January, I signed up to be a volunteer at the Pacific Whale Foundation, but was never able to volunteer. I periodically receive emails from them telling me about upcoming events. This week I received an email from them about a whale watch that was coming up. It read, “Aloha Volunteers, Thank you for your RSVP’s for the volunteer whale watch and potluck on Wednesday, January 23rd.We have now filled seats on the boat and cannot accept any additional passengers.”
Since I had such a strong desire to go on a boat, I decided to respond to the email and asked to be put on the waiting list. I received an email back saying there were 2 seats left and I was invited to join them for the whale watch. Of course, I was very excited and said, “Yes.”
When I told my friend Joni that I was going on a whale watch, she asked, “What will you be doing?” I responded, “I don’t know, I just know I’m going and I don’t care what I do.” I thought I was volunteering to help on the boat. When I arrived on Wednesday, I was informed by another volunteer that this whale watch was a “thank you” party for volunteering during the year. Yikes, I had never volunteered, and yet I was now boarding The Odyssey for a whale watch. I’m not sure why I received this email in the first place, but I did. Not only does God provide money for what I need, but provided a free whale watch with my new binoculars. I have another whale watch scheduled in 2 weeks and I can’t wait.
Just 4 days before the whale watch, I found binoculars at a yard sale. I have been looking (and praying) for binoculars at yard sales as I wanted to see the whales close up. I spotted the big black binoculars on the table at the first yard sale I went to (in my mind, I thought five dollars.) I quickly picked them up and checked them out. “How much”, I asked the man. I was delighted when he said, “five dollars.” I walked away with a big smile on my face and said, “Thank you God.”
The binoculars came at the perfect and right time. I was thrilled to be able to see the whales jump up out of the water on the whale watch. Here is what I learned about humpback whales from one of the volunteers on the boat.
From December to early May the humpback whales call Hawaii home. Traveling an incredible 3,000 miles of ocean in less than two months time, these gentle giants migrate from the gulf of Alaska to Hawaii for breeding and birthing in the islands’ warm and shallow waters. Their annual migration delights both visitors and residents alike during the peak of their numbers between January and early April. Weighing up to 45 tons, these whales can be graceful acrobats. Seeing a humpback whale “breach” the ocean by propelling its 45-foot long body out of the sea is a spectacular event. Their mysterious whale song is yet another intriguing trait of male humpback whales. These complex songs can be heard underwater from up to twelve miles away. The crew put what is called a hydrophone 30 feet into the ocean so we could hear the whales sing. It was amazing to hear the songs being sung by the whales.
I am so grateful for the grace and courage to follow my heart and move to Maui. There have been so many miracles and gifts. As I have shared in other blogs, it hasn’t always been easy as things have come up that needed healing. They still continue to come up and when they do, I have the tools and wisdom to work through them. On a daily basis, I am trusting myself, my intuition and God on what I need to do next in my life. God is always there to guide me when I listen and pay attention. Today, I am spending time alone with Pat and loving myself. I was led to do an exercise in prayer this morning that I haven’t done before. I wrote in my journal I love your … smile, strength, faith, courage, etc. It was 2 pages long and I just kept writing and finding more things that I loved about myself. It felt really good. How easy it is to see what we don’t like about ourselves. I invite you to try this exercise for yourself because you are love and loved.
Mine Is An Adventurous Heart – Heart Steps, Julie Cameron pg. 21
I choose an expansive life. I choose adventure, freedom, self-expression. I choose self-definition, self-love, self-renewal. Life expands or contracts according to my expectations. I expect good and that is what I experience. Viewing the whole, I choose to be interconnected yet independent. I allow the God-force within me to open and enlarge my lens of perception and realm.
Do you ever say to yourself “I can’t believe this is happening to me AGAIN!” or… “How many MORE times do I have to learn this lesson?” Or, perhaps you have felt as if everything in your life was going smoothly and you were in the FLOW, which feels great, and then bang, seemingly out of nowhere, stuff happens and your life feels out of control. For me, when that happens, it’s like God has a giant flashlight that shines into my heart, which enables me to suddenly see the unconscious (and usually false) beliefs I have about myself and the world.
Recently, this happened to me. I had an intense week of inner work, forgiveness and transformation as the result of attending a Radical Forgiveness Workshop by the best- selling author, Colin Tipping. Practicing Forgiveness has been an integral part of my spiritual life for many years, and it has enabled me to forgive many significant people and experiences in my life (including myself). As a result of my own experiences, I have come to believe that while forgiveness is a gift that I give myself, it is something that all of us deserve to experience.
Through a series of synchronistic events, I was surprised when shame and guilt reared their ugly heads in my life, and after extensive prayer, meditation and journaling, I got in touch with some beliefs about myself that were buried deep within my subconscious. Once an unconscious belief is brought to light, it can be healed and transformed, and I believe learning how to do this is a very useful process to incorporate into your daily life. As the result of my inner work, God revealed to me that I was living in victim consciousness in a particular area of my life.
Victim Consciousness is when I blame and judge others and make them “wrong,” and me “right.” When I am in victim consciousness, I’m not willing to take responsibility that my soul attracted this situation or person that I’m blaming and judging, so that I can heal limiting beliefs I have that are not true about who I am. This state of victim consciousness makes me unwilling to see the divine perfection in every interaction or experience. I believe that everything happens for a reason and I create my reality by my thoughts. That means I believe that I attract people, situations into my life to heal unconscious beliefs that are still operating in my life and consequently blocking my progress and soul’s evolution.
Through God’s grace, I became willing to see the perfection in what I had attracted into my life and was willing to stop blaming and judging the players on the field. Rather than coming from a place of anger, blame and judgment, I was able to come from a place of love. I was then able to forgive myself and these other people for what I had “perceived” as their wrong doing. I recognized that I was attracting people into my life that would abuse and ignore me, because I had a limiting belief that said, “I don’t deserve to receive attention and to be treated with respect.” Once I was able to identify this belief, and shine God’s love upon it, I was given the grace to forgive myself, and those people I was angry with. Once this happened, miracles occurred.
With radical forgiveness, it isn’t even necessary to know what unconscious belief needs to be healed and transformed. What is necessary is that we be willing to see the perfection in what is happening and recognize this is an opportunity to expand our ability to love and grow. I’m so grateful for the deep healing and freedom I experienced by being willing to do the deep inner work of forgiveness.
Here are some of the common core beliefs that most of us still hold in our subconscious:
I am not good enough. I am not worthy to receive
I have to be perfect to be loved
I am unlovable and will be abandoned, rejected
I don’t deserve love. I will always be betrayed.
If you find yourself realizing that you have a belief similar to the above, you may want to practice “Radical Forgiveness” and experience the radical freedom and grace you will know when you free yourself from this darkness, and allow the light of your soul to expand.
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