It’s unbelievable how in one week’s time we can go from the bottom of the pit to the mountain top. Thank you God!
I shared in last week’s blog what a difficult time I was having when my condo fell through for the third time. Even though I struggled with disappointment and fear, I knew deep down that it would sell at the perfect time and to the right and perfect person. My prayer was, “Your will God, not mine be done.”
Today, I am in deep gratitude and my heart rejoices as I received a full price offer on my condo yesterday and it will probably close in 30 days (sooner than the last buyer). Here is what happened:
A couple of weeks ago, I asked for prayers that my condo would sell from my Face book friends. Many people responded and said they would pray. I received an offer from a woman within a few days.
In the meantime, I received a text from my friend, Cathy, who worked at the VA with me before moving to Maui. She saw it on face book and responded. I called Cathy “my angel” because she spent many hours helping me with computer stuff when I was writing Simply A Woman of Faith. I could not have done it without her assistance.
Cathy wrote, “I have a friend, George, who is looking for a place to buy, is yours still available?” We had just signed the agreement the day before so I had to tell her that I had another offer.
A week later, the women backed out and the condo was back on the market again. I remembered Cathy’s friend, George, and contacted her immediately. She said, “George is still interested.” I gave her my real estate agent’s number for him to call.
George and I started texting and I asked him “What are you looking for?” He said, “Someplace close to the VA, small and ready to move in.” It sounded perfect for him as it was only a few blocks away from the VA and it was ready to move in to.
George came to look at the condo the next day and fell in love with it. I shared with George that Cathy was “my angel” when I worked at the VA. He wrote back and said, “Cathy is my angel too.”
After he put his offer in and I accepted it, he texted me and said, “THANK YOU PAT. We are very happy. We invite you to stop by when you come back to Rhode Island. “
My real estate agent, Bethany, later informed me that George and his girlfriend were expecting a baby and she was 7 months pregnant and ready to nest. That brought tears to my eyes because I knew that they were the perfect family to buy my condo that is filled with love and peace.
I continue to learn through this experience of closed doors and waiting on God. I had to be patient, have faith, let go and trust that God’s timing is perfect. It is clear that the closed doors had nothing to do with me and what I’m doing or not doing. In other words, I wasn’t doing anything wrong.
I had to wait for George to SHOW UP. I believe that everything is planned in the mind of God and I am always being guided. If I hadn’t asked for prayers on Face book, Cathy wouldn’t have known I was selling the condo.
Thank God we cannot see the whole picture and what Spirit is doing in the background. It is always for our highest good and guaranteed that the right door will open at the right divine time.
If there is one thing I’ve learned on the spiritual path. it would be that God’s timing is perfect and I’m always provided for at the right and perfect time. Have you experienced this? When we know this at a deep level, there is no need to worry or obsess because God has it planned for my highest good.
I returned to Rhode Island for the family reunion at the end of June for two weeks and then traveled to North Carolina to attend The Sacred Feminine Mystery School for the teacher training to be certified as a Spiritual Sexual Educator.
The training was profound and powerful and I am happy to say that I’ve stepped into my sacred soul’s calling. This Awakening and Healing self-healing practice is for clearing trauma, shame and blocks that have left energetic imprints in our bodies. What I love about it is that it doesn’t have to be only sexual trauma, but any trauma we have experienced in our lives.
Spirit guided me every step of the way and I’m grateful for the grace and willingness to say YES to my own healing and the opportunity to share this with other women. I am proud to be a part of a growing global sisterhood and a part of the healing of the feminine and the earth. We are healing the whole world by holding sacred space for each other to heal ourselves.
Here is a 5- minute documentary on You tube of the “Awakening and Healing” workshop that I attended in April on Maui. I will be facilitating, along with two other sisters, our first workshop on Maui called, “Awakening to Sacred Sexuality.” It will be held at the Waleia Healing Center on January 5-6.
My heart is overflowing with gratitude, love and peace. Spending precious time with my children, grandchildren, and friends filled my being. We ate great food, laughed, played games, sang and swam in Mary’s pool.
I shared in the last blog that my tenants were moving out and that my family was going to help me paint and clean when I arrived in Rhode Island. It went very smoothly and the place looked great when we were done. I want to thank my family because I couldn’t have done it without you.
We had an open house a week later and I was thrilled when the real estate lady called that same day with 2 offers. One of the offers was $6,000 more than asking price. God’s timing is perfect.
My son, Brian, and his family are coming to visit us next week. This is their first time here and we are all very excited. My grandson, Jared, who will be 4 years old next month wanted his own little travel bag with wheels for the trip.
My friends refer to me as the “Yard sale queen.” Being true to this title, I asked Spirit to provide a travel bag for Jared. I was meeting a friend for lunch and had time to stop at only 1 yard sale! As I glanced around the yard sale, I didn’t see a travel bag so I asked the women if she had one. She said, “Oh yes, right over there, it just fell down on the ground.” If I hadn’t asked her, I wouldn’t have seen it and it was a bargain at three dollars!
It was exactly what I wanted with “Thomas the Train” on the cover. I couldn’t wait to give it to Jared when I saw him the next day. He was thrilled and wheeled it around most of the day. He is packing his toys in it to bring to Maui.
When we are aligned with Spirit and are willing to release what no longer serves us and ask to be led, miracles happen.
“There are no mistakes, no failures, no delays, no detours. Things that seem to be in discord on one level may be harmonious on a higher level. What seems out of sorts right now might be what is needed when looked back at in the long run.”
~ Imi Lo
What I have learned on my spiritual journey is that “God’s timing is perfect.” I trust that when God closes a door at a particular time, it is for my highest & greatest good. I may not understand why or I may not even like it, but I have learned to “accept what is” and not question it. I love this quote from AA Big Book – “Acceptance is the answer to all of my problems. When I cannot accept every person, place and thing as it is, including my alcoholism, I will not have peace.”
Many people who visit Maui have heard about the “Road to Hana” and want to experience it. Some love it and some hate it. It is beautiful, but the roads are very windy and sometimes there is only one lane to travel. When they finally get to Hana, they often feel disappointed because there is nothing much in Hana to see. It is the journey to Hana that is what is magnificent. It is majestic and magical with the lush green foliage and forests with bamboo trees, huge mountains, beautiful flowers, waterfalls, cliffs that overlook the ocean, black and red sand beaches. It really feels like you are in another world and it could be called “Heavenly Hana.”
Hana is on the other side of the island of Maui and I had not been there in almost 4 years since I have lived here. It’s not that I haven’t tried to go there, because I have. Two years ago, my friend, Catherine, and I planned a trip to Hana for our birthdays, but I hurt my back and the trip was cancelled. Last year, my friend, Kati & I planned a trip to Hana, but for some reason, never made it. Kati and Catherine have been to Hana many times and both wanted me to experience its majesty and beauty.
Last week Catherine, Kati and I went to Hana and we had an amazing and powerful time together. I had 2 experienced “guides” to show me all the “secret” breathtaking places that most tourists don’t even know about. As we started our drive to Hana, we were graced with two beautiful rainbows in the sky. As we sat having our breakfast overlooking the ocean, we spotted a whale breaching. This was our first whale sighting this season, which we were thrilled about. We went into a lava tube which is a cave that formed from the volcano thousands of years ago. We walked on black and red sand beaches and visited the 7 sacred pools.
Now that I’ve experienced the journey to Hana and its beauty and magnificence, it’s hard to believe that I had never been there before, until now. Again, God’s perfect timing. As I thought about my experience, I realized there is always “MORE” that God wants to give us and show us. There is always more beauty and magic and love to be experienced when we are open and ready to receive it. The key for me is to be grateful and accept exactly what I have and where I am in my life, trusting that God knows what is best for me as I daily “let go and let God.” A heart that is grateful and open attracts more good into its life and doors open at the right time when you trust. I didn’t feel like I was “missing anything” by not visiting Hana sooner than I did because I was happy and content with what I had in my life.
My life has been enhanced, deepened and broadened by this experience to Hana in many ways. On a personal note, I was able to take care of myself and love myself by not people pleasing, knowing my limitations and setting boundaries. Kati and Catherine are experienced hikers and love to hike. I am not a hiker, (don’t even like hiking), but was willing to do my best and go along with them. I was really proud of myself because I stretched myself by going down deep cliffs along the ocean side and walking up steep hills through the woods. I prayed all along the way asking for strength and protection because it was wet and slippery in many places.
When my knee started to hurt, I knew I needed to tell my friends that I would not be going any further into the forest to see the bamboo trees. I could have pushed myself and ignored the pain in my knee or I could have been honest and risked their disapproval. I knew they would be disappointed because they were really looking forward to me experiencing the bamboo trees, but I also knew they would honor and respect my decision not to go any further. I chose to be honest and tell them the truth because I knew my limitations and it didn’t matter what they thought of me. In the past, my ego might have said, “Don’t look weak, don’t disappoint them, keep pushing, don’t be a wimp.” But, today it is more important that I love and honor myself than being a people pleaser. It all worked out perfectly and, of course, they were wonderful. On the way back down the steep hill, Catherine said, “It would be great, Pat, if you had a walking stick to help support your knee.” A couple of minutes later, a man walked by with a walking stick and Catherine asked where he got it. He said, “Here you can have this one.” Wow, of course, Catherine handed it to me. God always provides when we ask, we shall receive.
I have found as I’m sure many of you have, that sometimes on life’s journey when I kept my attention on the goal, I missed the incredible opportunities that were actually the gifts along the journey. I wonder how much of the journey I missed while working long and hard to reach all of my goals. I believe that we make the best decisions we can at the time according to where our consciousness is. Now I am learning to find value in the journey by living in the moment.
It was fear and worry that kept me from living in the moment and the NOW. This is different from keeping my eye on the goal and what I want to accomplish in my life. When I lived my life in fear and worry, I felt a sense of control (which is an illusion) because I thought that the “fearful thoughts” were real. This created a constant negative energy and tension that supported my lack of trust. Although I was on a faith journey, my faith didn’t provide me with the tools I needed to live in the moment.
One of the difficulties I experienced in my life was that I had many unanswered questions about God and my faith. My religion taught me to obey rules and commandments and if I didn’t do that, I would be punished and I had to do penance. I had trusted God, done everything my religion had required of me and I still felt abandoned. I said” if trusting in God got me to this point in my life “screw it” I’m better off on my own.
During the years of suffering and pain, I wasn’t able to see it as part of my spiritual journey. I was angry at God and blamed God for things happening in my life that I didn’t like. I was trying to do everything right and couldn’t understand why everything turned to dust. I felt like a rudderless boat bobbing in the ocean. Little did I know God was giving me the opportunity for a whole new different walk in faith, where all my questions are addressed and answered.
As I am practicing living in the moment, I don’t have a sense of control. Therefore, I don’t have confidence in myself to make the decisions that I had when I lived in fear and worry. I sometimes feel frustrated because this is a new practice for me and I don’t fully understand it yet, although it feels right and the more I live in the moment, the more peaceful and relaxed I feel. That is what letting go is all about for me because I am learning to trust. The more I allow myself to seek awareness and consciousness, the more confidence I have in my ability to trust in the energy and light of love.
In retrospect and looking back over my life’s journey, I always had a sense that there was MORE and that I could have it all. Today, years later on my faith journey, I have it all. If I had not traveled the journey I did, I would not be where I am today and have the consciousness that I have.
|I love how the Universe works when I trust and follow my intuition. I love how things come to me when and how they are meant to come. God’s timing is perfect. I no longer have to push and make things happen like I did for so many years.
For the past 3 years when I’ve returned to Rhode Island to visit my family, I’ve led a retreat for women at my daughter, Mary’s, farm. The retreats have been very successful and I looked forward to doing another retreat this summer.
As I started to prepare for the retreat and write the talks, I felt stressed. As I thought about it, I realized it wasn’t giving the retreat and writing the talks that stressed me out, but marketing the retreat from 5,000 miles away. It felt burdensome. After praying about it and trusting my intuition that it didn’t feel right, I decided not to give a retreat. I felt peaceful after I made the decision which is always an indication for me that I am following the guidance within.
A couple of months later, my friend, Donna, called and asked me if I would be interested in being the speaker at the “Women of Faith” dinner sponsored by her church. Donna has been the chair person for the annual event for the past few years. I immediately said, “Yes” because this was right up my alley as a woman of faith. She said, “I will speak to the pastor and get back to you.” A week later she texted me and said it was a go.
So I began praying about the title of the talk. I wanted it to be inspirational and, of course, I wanted to share the aloha spirit and how I manifested my dreams of living on the ocean and meeting my soul mate. Donna and I agreed that the focus and theme of the night would be the aloha spirit.
As I thought about my spiritual journey and what has happened over the past 3 ½ years since I stepped out in faith and moved to Maui, it became clear that learning to love and appreciate myself was crucial for manifesting my dreams. “The Power of Self-Love to Manifest your Deepest Desires” became the title for the talk.
|I felt really excited as the time approached for the “Women of Faith” dinner. I planned on doing the hula and even had a hula dress to wear that I found at a yard sale for $5.00 a year ago. When I bought the dress, I didn’t know when or where I would wear it, but couldn’t pass it up for $5.00. When I saw it in my closet, I didn’t know if I would ever wear it. God knew way before I did that I would need the dress to do the hula at the “Women of Faith” dinner. God prepares the way for us when we trust and walk in faith.
All I had to do was “SHOW UP” and let my light shine for the night of the dinner. I brought sea shells from Maui for all of the women. We also had Aloha booklets as gifts. The place was decorated beautifully with an Hawaiian theme and the food was catered by a local restaurant. There were over 50 women attending the dinner and talk.
My daughter, Mary, had never been to any of my retreats or heard me speak before. I was thrilled (and nervous) by her presence at the dinner. I greeted all the women as they came into the restaurant and when I sat down at the table before I spoke, there was a card and beautiful candle at my seat. The envelop read, Patricia “Lady of Faith.” Of course, I didn’t know who it was from. What a surprise when I opened it and it was from my daughter. It said, “Mom, so proud of you! You are an inspiration. Love you, Mary. My heart was full of joy and gratitude. What a gift of love she had given me that I will treasure forever. I was flying high.
Before my talk, I danced the hula. After I danced for a few minutes I invited all of the women to stand up at their tables and do the hula with me. It was beautiful to see them dancing and sharing the aloha spirit.
It was a powerful night seeing old friends and meeting new friends. I loved every minute of it and so did the women attending. I shared what it is like to live on Maui and the energy of aloha. What a gift it is for me to share and inspire others to follow their hearts and believe in miracles.
Here are some of my closing remarks.
*God has placed your dreams and desires in your heart and will help you manifest them.
*You don’t need to know HOW they will happen. All you need to know is what your dreams are.
*Face your fears and do what you are called to do. Be the presence of God in the world.
*Love yourself like you have never loved yourself before.
*Love God with all your heart and soul.
*Say YES to receiving the plans God has for you. Let your light shine.
*Pray, Meditate, Believe, Let Go, Trust, Wait, Be courageous, Take a risk.
*God’s timing is perfect.
*God is faithful.
*Now is the time to BE the star of your own life.
*Don’t let your dreams die inside of you.
Thank you Donna for inviting me to speak at the “Women of Faith” dinner. Thank you to all the women who attended and shared their faith. Thank you that I am learning to follow my intuition and to trust God to open and close doors for my highest good.
“I am with you and for you. When you decide on a course of action that is in line with My will, nothing in heaven or on earth can stop you. You may encounter many obstacles as you move toward your goal, but don’t get discouraged-never give up. With my help, you can overcome any obstacle. Do not expect an easy path as you journey hand in hand with Me, but do remember that I, your very-present Helper, am omnipotent. Much stress results from your wanting to make things happen before their time has come. One of the main ways I assert my sovereignty is in the timing of events. Instead of dashing headlong toward your journey, let Me set the pace. Slow down, and enjoy the journey in My Presence.” Jesus Calling, Sarah Young, p. 10
These words speak deeply to my heart as I look back on my journey over the last 3 years. It is hard to believe that it’s been 3 years this January that I said YES to God to follow my dream and move to Hawaii. I truly know it was God’s grace and my willingness to step out in faith and take a risk to leave my comfortable home, family and community. I could have listened to my fears (false evidence appearing real) and all the “what ifs” and why I can’t do it, why I don’t deserve it and missed out on the greatest love relationship of my life. Are you missing out on anything in your life because you are stuck in fear?
I knew in my heart that I was going to meet my soul mate in Maui, but of course, I didn’t know WHEN or HOW. I also didn’t know that I would make Maui my home and live here permanently. I knew I was going to live here for 6 months, but I didn’t know the rest.
I don’t have to see or know the whole picture before I step out in faith. What works for me is one step at a time, doing the next right thing and trusting the process. It’s my control, fear of change and my ego that wants to have it all figured out before I make a move and do something different in my life.
I had a plaque on my desk many years ago that read, “When you learn how to trust yourself, you will know how to live.” I am so grateful that I trusted my heart and the “small, still voice of God” within to move 5,000 miles away from all that was familiar. I didn’t know where I was going to live, what I would be doing, or how I could afford it. A few weeks before my arrival in Maui, my friend, Pat, invited me to share a condo with her and her husband which, incidentally, overlooked the ocean. My share of the rent was $300 a month and I lived there for 6 months.
As Larry and I danced the night away last night at Kaunoa Senior Center, I couldn’t help but smile and remember the first night I asked him to dance. It was my first dance in Maui and I didn’t know a soul, except for Pat and Ellen, who I came with. Of course, there were many more women at the dance and if I wanted to dance, I had to take the first step and ask a man to dance. I noticed Larry and liked how he danced, but it took me a while before I finally got the nerve to ask him for a dance. We had something in common in that we were both from the East Coast. I only danced with him once that night, but would see him at the weekly dances that I attended. He was so much fun to dance with and I loved dancing with him (and so did all the other women).
When I moved to Kihei, 8 months later (in Larry’s neighborhood) and I saw him at a dance, he asked me, “Would you like to go for a walk sometime?” I said, “Sure, I would like to do that.” I remember almost instantly talking about love and spirituality. I had no idea that he was interested in spirituality and we quickly developed a friendship and then became best friends. We called each other daily and ended our conversations with, “I love you.” Although we were best friends, I had no interest in a romantic relationship because I was waiting for my soul mate to arrive. Here he was right in front of me for 2 years and it wasn’t until God’s perfect timing and plan that we became partners. Others could see our love for one another and often asked, “How come you two are not partners?” It’s because it wasn’t God’s timing or we would have been together. I believe there were some things we both needed to do on the inside before we were ready for one another.
When I truly know and believe that “God’s timing is perfect” I am peaceful and relaxed. I stop DOING, trying to control outcomes and the timing of events in my life. I surrender to “what is” and choose to live in love because I AM LOVE. I live in the present moment because that is all there is and it is where God is. There may not be another moment as we are not promised tomorrow. This present moment is the best and I want to BE there. The peace that I am seeking and want can only be experienced in the present moment.
Unfortunately, sometimes our ego gets in the way when things aren’t going the way we want them to go and we want what we want when we want it. We get impatient, and think we know what’s best for ourselves. We complain and get angry because we don’t want to wait on God’s timing. I speak from personal experience because I did all of the above when I was waiting for Larry to show up.
It wasn’t until I let go and trusted divine timing that the perfect love came into my life. I focused on loving myself, doing what I loved, being happy and having fun. I think the challenge for all of us is to learn to wait with grace and peace, knowing that everything is in order and in perfect and divine timing.
I invite you to look back over your journey to recognize God’s perfect timing in your life and to trust the divine plan for your life. Instead of dashing headlong toward your journey, let God set the pace. Slow down, relax and enjoy the journey in God’s Presence.
When I got my divorce 15 years ago, I found a plaque that spoke to my heart and it said RELAX. I still have it hanging in my living room in Maui to remind me to RELAX.
I have been seeing the word RELAX all over the place lately. Today, I noticed it written on a man’s shirt, I see it in store fronts, on license plates, on a beach umbrella and I hear it in songs on the radio. I asked myself, “What does it mean to relax and why was this word “showing up” in my life now?’
The dictionary says: to make looser, or less firm or tense: to relax one’s grip, to make less strict or severe; soften: to relax discipline, to abate; reduce; slacken: to relax one’s efforts, to release from intense concentration, hard work, worry, etc.; give rest to: to relax the mind.
My mind isn’t RELAXED when I obsess, worry, want to control or try to figure things out. Sometimes I am invited just to ACCEPT “what is” and trust. Here is where my faith grows when I don’t know what’s going on and I just have to let go of the outcome or what I think it should be like. Like the definition says – to relax one’s efforts.
To RELAX is to know and believe that God is in control of EVERYTHING because I have turned my life and my will over to the God within. To RELAX means to be at peace knowing all is well and that God has my back covered. It is to know and trust that God’s timing is perfect and I have nothing to worry about. Worry is an illusion and it is also a choice. I can choose to worry and live in fear or I can choose to love and be at peace. I am choosing love, instead of fear.
I’ve shared that I put my condo up for sale in Rhode Island a few months ago. It has been an “emotional roller coaster ride” and I have had to let go of my control and trust God’s plan and timing. It has not been easy knowing that I will now have to pay two rents since my tenant moved out on September 1 and I don’t know how long it will take to sell. Yikes, money issues or coming from a lack consciousness could make me crazy – if I let it.
I thought there was a buyer and was informed that an offer was going to be made the next day. When it fell through and I didn’t hear anything, I decided to try to rent it again since there were no buyers showing up. Three weeks later, the first person who I thought was going to make an offer came back with his contractor and I was told that he was going to make an offer the next day Talk about having your hopes up. I have no idea what happened, but I never heard a thing from him. Clearly the door was shut in my face! Not the first time.
So right now, I am in the wings or the hallway waiting, trusting, surrendering and letting go. I am not sure what is best for me at this point – whether to rent or sell, so I have asked for guidance. I have done everything I know possible; prayer, visualization, gratitude and hiring a rental agent. I am so blessed that I have so many opportunities to practice what I preach; to choose love instead of fear, to let go, to relax and allow my faith muscles to get stronger.
The temptation for me and for most of us is to doubt our decision in the first place and think we made a mistake. It would be so easy to judge myself because it hasn’t turned out the way I thought it would. Instead of judging or doubting myself that I made a mistake by trying to sell it, I am choosing to TRUST the God within that I am being divinely guided and all is well. I cannot see the results in the middle of this, but I know I will and there will be a story.
I would like to share how God has guided me through the concept of open and closed doors for the past 40 years on my spiritual path.
When I don’t know if something is God’s will or my will, I pray, “God open or close the door.” It hurts when the door is slammed in my face and I’m left wandering in the hallway until the next door opens.
“Closed doors are a valid part of guidance. When God closes a door, it’s because there is another plan, a better plan. If He closes one door, He’ll open another – according to His timing, not mine. I keep moving in faith, even in the face of closed doors.” (Basham, 1975)
I may be guided to do one thing and then when I get there, God has something else in mind. He doesn’t tell me His full plan ahead of time, which is probably good. That’s His way. Mine is to love, trust and follow.
Guidance comes when I move in faith, not when I sit in doubt. I step out in faith, trusting that if I make a mistake, God will correct it and get me back on the right path for my life. I’ve made plenty of mistakes along the way, but have always been protected and led back to where I need to be.
There seems like there will always be something in our lives to cause us to expand and grow and to trust. I love my journey and I love to share the miracles of how things work out. So, stay tuned because I know God is trustworthy and has my back covered.
“For I know well the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you. Plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11. As I trust God’s plans to prosper me and give me hope and a future, I will RELAX and enjoy the present moment.
As I sat to mediate this morning, I asked God what He wanted me to write about. I then remembered a beautiful clock that hung on my kitchen wall over 35 years ago. It said, “GOD’S TIMING IS PERFECT.” Little did I know then how true that would be in my life.
I read something that same day that said, “You will get there when you are meant to get there and not a moment sooner. So relax, breathe and be patient.”
It occurred to me that we are always “waiting” for something to happen in our lives: waiting to graduate, waiting to get married, waiting for a house to sell, waiting to meet your soul mate, waiting for a new job, waiting for money, waiting in line at the supermarket or your food to be served in a restaurant, waiting for a baby to be born, waiting to leave a marriage that is dead, waiting for your adult children to leave the nest, waiting for chemo to end or start, waiting to lose weight, waiting to go on vacation, waiting to start a new job and the list goes on and on. Are you waiting for something?
When we are waiting for something to happen, I like to think of it as “being in the hallway of our lives.” It is in this place that we learn to trust. One door may be closed and the other hasn’t opened yet. It can be scary because we don’t know when or what the new door will be when it is opened (or if it will be opened.) We may want to control the outcome and try to make things happen. We may complain, get angry, bang on the door to open or try to make things go our way. This can drive us crazy. I don’t know about you, but I don’t particularly like to wait. I want what I want when I want it and I can be impatient and ask why it’s taking so long for something to manifest. After all, I think I’m doing everything I know how to do to manifest what I want.
The good news for me is that I am learning the art of waiting, being patient, grateful and trusting God’s divine plan to unfold. It feels so good and it truly is living heaven on earth.
I have been in the hallway many times in my life and have learned many things while waiting in the hallway.
I learned to trust God’s timing
I learned to surrender
I learned to trust my intuition
I learned to let go
I learned to be patient
I learned that I’m not in control
I learned to rely on God’s grace in all things
I learned how to BE and relax
I learned that God’s plan is so much better than my plan
I learned to be peaceful and watch things unfold in God’s perfect timing
I learned to love myself
My personal experience has been that it is only when I am ready body, mind and spirit that I change and consequently things change in my life. I need to learn my lessons and they will take as long as I need them to take. I don’t need to rush the process or judge myself that I am doing something wrong. I need to trust that all is in God’s perfect divine timing.
I stayed in a marriage until I was strong enough and confident enough that I could take care of myself and ready to leave. I couldn’t have left one minute earlier than I did. When a flower is ready to bloom, it will bloom. We cannot make it bloom until it is ready. A baby will not be born until it is ready to be born.
So, wherever you are in your life, whatever transition you are in, rejoice, relax and be grateful for God is doing a mighty work in you and transforming you on the inside. You are being prepared for something new.
I was in the “hallway of my life” as I waited for my soul mate to arrive. Was I always patient and trusting? Absolutely not. As I reflect on the last 12 years, I recognize my personal growth and how I had to prepare myself for the love that God had promised me and for the depth of love I would receive and give to my soul mate.
I would like to share a few things that I did to prepare myself for the love of my life: I put God first in my life, I became my own best friend and loved myself to the best of my ability. I spent time alone playing and having fun. I didn’t depend on someone else to make me happy. I made myself happy because I knew happiness was an inside job. I knew what I wanted and didn’t settle for less. I asked for what I wanted and said no when I wanted to. I blessed others when they had what I wanted.
I am in such gratitude that I didn’t give up and continued to BELIEVE in God’s promise. Because I learned to love myself and follow my heart, I’m able to love in a way that I’ve never loved before and be loved like I’ve never been loved before. Now that is good news!
My prayer for you, wherever you are in your life is that you will continue to trust God’s perfect timing and plan for your life. I would love to hear from you how God has or is working in your life.
“While change is inevitable, my response or reaction to change is up to me. How can I best prepare myself for change, and how can I make the most of it? Change is a transition from one thing, one place, one state of mind to another. I AM EVOLVING FROM WHAT WAS TO WHAT IS. I AM BECOMING MORE THAN I WAS BEFORE. Just as my view changed as I transitioned from childhood to adulthood, I now see that I am gaining a new perspective during this transition. I may be stepping into unfamiliar territory, but this step is an opportunity to grow in spiritual awareness. With each shift or change in my life, I am moving forward.”
While living in Maui for 6 months, I was open and willing to listen to the inner voice of the Divine guiding me to rest, to BE and to receive God’s unconditional love. As I have shared in other blogs, I was a “HUMAN DOING” and pushed and tried to make things happen. Today, because of “BEING” and letting go, I am experiencing a peace and serenity that l haven’t known to this depth before. It feels like I am in a “Bubble of Grace.” It is truly a miracle that I am not feeling afraid and obsessed with the sale of my house. I stay in peace and gratitude KNOWING God’s timing is perfect and the right and perfect buyer is here now. I may be tempted to travel down the “what if” highway, but I don’t allow myself because that will keep me stuck and in fear. I used to beg God for what I wanted; now I ask, am open to receive, and then say “thank you” and trust.
OMG I am returning to Maui to live in 2 weeks. I am living my dream and am very excited about stepping into the unknown and into God’s arms. The MASTER PLAN is in place and I am saying YES to receive more good in my life. As God helps me to usher out the old (scarcity thinking, stuff in my house, etc.), I am trusting God will be there to welcome me and usher in the new (new life new home, new friends, new church.)
What I have learned about this process is to be clear about what is my work and what is God’s. When I came back to Rhode Island on June 27, it was my intention to stay focused, clean out my house and get it ready to be sold. I also visualized that it would flow with peace, ease and grace. It truly has, and everything I needed was there when I needed it. For example, my friend Steve was going to paint my bedroom and den and I planned on buying the paint the next day. I knew there were lots of old cans of paint in the basement that I was planning to throw away, but I was happily surprised to find 2 gallons of old unopened paint!
I don’t know where they came from! And the best part was that it was the perfect and right color for the rooms. Of course, I was in deep gratitude for the miraculous paint that “showed up.”
My work in this process was to prepare my house to be sold to the best of my ability, to visualize, to trust, to ask for help, to stay positive and grateful. God’s part is the HOW it will unfold. I know God is working behind the scenes and has me covered. God knows more than I do what I need and when the house will sell. God knows the best place for me to live when I land in Maui. When I worry and obsess, I dishonor myself and the God within. It is a choice to trust and walk in faith. What helps me to trust is to remember what God has done for me in the past.
For example, I remember God’s word to me several years ago when I was at a very low point and experiencing debilitating fear. I was in the middle of writing my book and wanted to give up. In fact, I told God “I am not doing it; you have chosen the wrong person.” While at work one day, I opened a magazine and across the page was “I have a plan that will make all of your dreams come true.” I cut it out and still have it as a reminder of how I sobbed with joy when I read it because I knew God was speaking to me. The message gave me the courage and strength to finish my book. I shudder to think how fear almost robbed me of my dream. I am so grateful because I would not be where I am today and moving to Maui to live if I stayed stuck in the fear.
Not only has God “showed up” for me by giving me strength, courage, grace, faith, peace and serenity, but my family and friends have reached out to support and help me by painting rooms, cleaning windows, gardening, cleaning my basement, fixing my toilet and the list goes on and on. I am so GRATEFUL for the love I have experienced.
As I reflect on the past 2 years, I realized that my Hawaii adventure has also been a process. It may look like I spent 6 months in Maui from January to June and made a snap decision to move back there. Not so! Before I even went to Maui for the first time in November 2010 for 2 weeks, I had a psychic reading that I have never forgotten. She said, “Maui is going to be the nucleus of something big.” When I returned home after being in Maui for 2 weeks, I knew that something big had shifted inside of me. All I knew is that I didn’t want to do business the way I was doing it with all the marketing and networking and pushing. It was scary because I didn’t know what was going on and what God was preparing for me. After all, I needed to make money to support myself.
I “showed up” daily to pray and meditate and ask God for guidance and clarity about what my next step was. I had the opportunity to go back to Maui for a month in September 2011 and it was then that I heard God calling me back to Maui for 6 months. This really surprised me because I had never done anything like this and had to work through the “not deserving” voice to follow my heart and God’s calling. We have to be patient with the process of life and be willing to let go of control. Just like many of you, I use to want what I wanted when I wanted it and I kicked and screamed when I didn’t get my own way.
Today, I am learning a better way and that is to go with the flow, live in the present moment, trust that I have everything I need and that all is well. I have learned to trust my inner wisdom and trust God’s guidance in all things. I expect miracles and more good to come into my life. I am passionate about my life, especially when I use my life to inspire others to live their dream. I received this in prayer today.
Goddess Guidance Cards – Doreen Virtue
Aine – Leap of Faith
Take a risk, and put your heart’s true desire into action. Procrastination about your dreams won’t make them go away. Neither will they make them happen. Indecision is the death of the soul’s burning passion to improve, grow and learn. Don’t worry about making a wrong decision. Instead, worry about making no decision at all. Then take time to pray, meditate, investigate, research and make your decision. Once made the universal energies will immediately open as if my magic. The magic, you see, is that you have set your mind to accomplish something. Trust that your intention is clear and right for you. And then take a leaf of faith and jump fully into putting your dreams into action.
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