When you receive this blog, I will be in the “sky” on my way to visit my family in Rhode Island. I am excited to see my children and friends and very excited to meet my new grandson, Jared, who will be 4 months old at the end of this month. Of course, pictures are wonderful, but I can’t wait to get him in my arms and love him up.
My heart and home are in Maui so it is bitter-sweet leaving here this Christmas. I waited many years to meet my soulmate and celebrate Christmas together. This is my first Christmas with Larry and we will be apart. Of course, it is my choice to leave Maui and his choice not to join me, but that doesn’t make it any easier.
I make choices every day and trust that they are for my highest good and for the good of all. Perhaps you have heard the quote and even experienced it for yourself, “Absence makes the heart grow fonder.” We shall see, because I can’t imagine our hearts & love growing any stronger for one another. I have never experienced the kind of love that we have for one another. He writes me poems, sings me songs, sends me cards and brings me flowers. Although this is awesome and I love it, most of all, he SEES who I am and loves me just the way I am. We laugh all the time and have learned to live in the moment. As Larry says, “We never know when our train is going to come into the station.”
For many years Larry said to himself, “I know I can have it all and I now have it all with you.” My heart skips a beat when he tells me that. God has brought us together (just as He promised) and my heart is so grateful. If I were to die tomorrow, I know I have been loved unconditionally and deeply.
Many of my girlfriends and perhaps some of you who are reading this today have the same heart’s desire, and that is to have a loving partner to spend the rest of your life with. For 12 years, the desire of my heart was to have a relationship that was authentic, spiritual, loving, honest and playful. Believe me, it wasn’t always easy waiting and I tried to control and make things happen. I got angry and pouted and felt jealous when I saw others find a boyfriend. I sometimes thought, “What’s wrong with me, why haven’t I met a man yet?” I remember driving home from dances with tears rolling down my cheeks because I felt so lonely.
I have a chapter in my book, “Simply a Woman of Faith” about my struggle while waiting for my soul mate to show up and what I received in an email shortly after I asked this question.
God what’s wrong with me? Why haven’t I met my soul mate yet?
“But God said: not until you are satisfied, fulfilled and content with being loved by me alone. I love you my child and until you discover that only in me is your satisfaction to be found, you will not be capable
of the perfect relationship that I have planned for you. You will never be united with another until you are united with me, exclusive of any other longings or desires. I want you to stop wishing, planning and allow me to give you the most thrilling plan existing, one that you cannot imagine. I want you to have the best. Please allow me to bring it to you. You just keep watching, learning and listening to the things I tell you. You must wait. Do not be anxious or worried. You must keep looking off and away, up to me, or you will miss what I want to show you. And then you will be ready. I will surprise you with a love that
is far more wonderful than you could every dream of.
While on a spiritual retreat a few months later, I received this in prayer and meditation. It is a love letter from God.
Be at peace; be at peace, trust, trust. Beyond your wildest dreams will your soul mate come into your life. He will come to you. You don’t have to do anything, but just BE. Learn to love yourself
Compassionately. You are beautiful, cherished and loved. All is well and on time. Practice being in the moment. Let Joy exude from you. It is your Joy that will draw your mate. I give you the gift of Joy this day.
As I read these words from my book, I am amazed and in awe how I am living my dream today. I waited, surrendered, believed, expected and trusted that this was God’s promise to me. I am grateful that I put God first in my life and had the courage to stop wishing, planning and allowed God to give me the most thrilling plan existing, one that I couldn’t imagine. I do have the best.
I became my own best friend and fell in love with myself. I stepped out in faith and followed my heart to live on Maui, leaving my family, friends and community. It was truly God’s grace and my willingness to trust that God was leading me and that I was worthy and deserving to live in paradise.
I humbly share my story with you to encourage you and give you HOPE. God is faithful and God wants only your highest good. He has given you the desires of your heart. Believe and have faith they will come to pass.
Mele Kalikimaka and Hau’oli Makahiki Hou
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year. May it be the best one yet.
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