As I was taking my morning walk, the word maintenance popped into my mind. When I was in my thirties, I went to Weight Watchers. It was accountability every week that enabled me to lose weight. Today, I am accountable to myself and God.
If I wanted to keep the weight off, I needed to exercise and have good nutrition. Although I haven’t been to Weight Watchers in years, I learned a lot about the importance of accountability and maintenance in all areas of my life. We need to maintain our vehicles, garden, home, etc. to keep things in good order.
How about your relationships? How important is maintenance with your partner, children, parents, or work relationships? Our relationships need to be nurtured and supported to stay healthy and vibrant. They don’t just happen. It takes patience, honesty, forgiveness, communication, vulnerability, and commitment to evolve and grow.
I have learned the importance of communicating and asking for what I want, as well as saying what doesn’t feel good, and what I want more of. Larry and I say “ouch” to one another if we say something hurtful, although unintentional. It allows us to listen and be sensitive to our partner’s needs.
I had the opportunity this week to share with Larry how I would like him to respond to me when I am emotionally upset. I know we process differently. I am an empath and feel everything. I was triggered by a remark a friend said to me. Whenever I’m triggered it is because there is something inside of me that needs healing and needs to be released.
I allowed myself to feel and journal my anger and sadness. Feelings are a gift from God and I know how important it is to allow myself to feel. I no longer medicate myself by eating or staying busy to avoid feelings. I needed to release what no longer served me so I could move from blame, anger, and sadness to acceptance and love. How do you medicate your feelings?
As I was getting ready for bed, Larry said, “You look terrible and exhausted. It’s a shame it takes so much out of you to process what happened today.” He was right I was exhausted and it did take a lot out of me to do the deep inner work I needed to do.
The next morning, I thought about what response would have felt more nurturing and supportive from Larry. Instead of saying, “It’s a shame, it takes so much out of you to process what happened today (which felt like a judgment), it would feel better to say, “I appreciate your willingness to feel all of your feelings and how you work through things so quickly.”
He smiled and said, “I’m learning.”
I’m grateful I have learned the importance of speaking my truth and grateful that I have a partner who is willing to listen and change. It’s not always easy to bring things up to one another, but it is better than the “silent treatment” and building resentments.
Here is what I wrote in the last chapter of my book, “Simply a Woman of Faith” which was published 13 years ago.
“God’s plan is perfect. I continue to pray and visualize my soul mate coming into my life. What I think about and thank about, I bring into my life. When I visualize, I materialize. I see in my mind’s eye the results and feel like it has already happened. I see my soul mate and I walking on the beach, having fun, and praying together. If God allows me to see it, I can trust he will bring it about. I’ll have to write another book to share how God brings my soul mate into my life. I know it will be a wonderful story, no matter what, and it will be worth the wait.
Many of you know that I waited 15 years after my divorce for my soulmate to “show up.” During those 15 years, I learned a lot about myself; as well as self-love, self-appreciation, and self-care. I learned what I wanted and didn’t want without always trying to please a partner. I learned to live alone and trust myself and my feelings. I learned to become my own best friend. I learned to trust God’s perfect plan for my life. I learned to speak up and set boundaries. I learned to say NO when I needed to. I know today the time was not wasted and it was a gift I gave myself.
Waiting didn’t come easy for me. I don’t like to wait. I often felt impatient and asked God, “Why haven’t I met him yet? What is wrong with me?” Here is the message I received from God when I asked “What is wrong with me?”
“I want you to allow me to give you the most thrilling plan existing, one that you cannot imagine. I want you to have the BEST. Please allow me to bring it to you. YOU MUST WAIT. And then you will be READY. I WILL SURPRISE YOU WITH A LOVE THAT IS FAR MORE WONDERFUL THAN YOU COULD EVER DREAM OF.”
I’m so grateful that I had the grace to wait, surrender, and let go of “my plan” because I thought I was ready. I wouldn’t be where I am today if I had pushed to make something happen before it was God’s timing.
What are you waiting for and do you feel impatient as I did? Do you trust God’s perfect plan for your life or do you complain and have given up hope? Don’t ever give up on your dreams.
God is faithful! I was surprised by a love that is far more wonderful than I could have imagined.
God has a plan for your life and He has a plan for my life. His plan is for our good. It takes patience and courage to trust and believe He is working behind the scenes. Larry and I both had to do inner work to be ready for our great love relationship before we came together. It may take time, but it is worth the wait.
Here is a scripture that I have lived by for decades. I hope it comforts your heart as it has mine.
“For I know well the plans I have in mind for you, declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
My heart has EXPANDED to receive more love. I feel full, peaceful, grateful and happy. Larry and I celebrated our first wedding anniversary on Mother’s Day. Our love has grown and deepened for one another. As we open our hearts to receive more and more love, we are able to give more to others and be the vessels of love that we are intended to be. Here is an example of what happened this week as we opened our home and hearts to an almost stranger.
“My name is Christelle and I live in Switzerland. I have been on an amazing journey since August when I landed on Maui for a retreat. I decided to take a year off from work and give myself the opportunity to experiment and to travel without a plan. I listened to my intuition and trusted that life would show me the way to follow.
I met Pat 3 weeks ago on the first day of our Maui Sacred Sexual Awakening & Healing Retreat. We instantly connected and shared lots of time together on the retreat. I had attended a Sacred Sexual Awakening retreat in Costa Rica in November and had experienced deep healing, even though I was very fearful. I highly recommend this retreat to all women.
I knew Pat would also feel a deep sense of joy and release going through her fears. At the end of my first retreat, I was deeply in Love with Life or I could say, in Love with Love!
Unexpectedly, after the powerful Maui retreat I felt deeply sad and felt like I was lost in the middle of an inner storm without any compass. One of the other women on the retreat was staying on Maui for another week and invited me to stay with her. Pat invited us both for a visit to her home during the week. My friend was leaving the next day and I still felt like I needed to stay on Maui. I said to Pat, “I will look for a B&B to stay longer.”
Pat spontaneously invited me to stay with her and Larry and I quickly realized that is what I wanted to do, even though I felt uncomfortable to receive at first. I said YES, trusting that if she offered it to me. she really was ok with it. What a blessing I said YES. Pat and Larry are pure unconditional LOVE.
In the middle of the inner storm after the Maui retreat, (which needed to come up for healing) I felt a little desperate and wondered why, as human beings, we are unable to get our energy from a loving source, (love, God, consciousness) and express ourselves and share with others from that source. rather than getting into power struggles. I felt deeply sad about this realization and wondered why we (including myself) use so much energy to run away from that source of love and why it is so difficult to use our energy to go back to that source to find it?
When I arrived at Pat and Larry’s home, I felt like I had landed in a loving island, exactly what I needed and even more than that. I was surrounded by two amazing human beings who nourish themselves in the source of Love and act and share with the other from that source. I spent 6 days with Pat and Larry and felt unconditional love, the kind of love I want to share with others and my partner in life.
Pat and Larry take time for themselves to do what nourishes them and spend time together as a couple to love and respect one another. When they were together, they were truly present to each other and were playful and laughed a lot at themselves. They trusted that whatever happened each day was a gift and for their highest good. They are open to unexpected amazing adventures.
In the middle of my inner storm, I know that life and love led me to Pat and Larry to show me how I can nourish myself from that same source of unconditional love and that it is possible to live from a loving source.
By saying Yes when Pat invited me to stay in their home, I said Yes to Love which came through them. I allowed myself to receive love from them and to share that love with them. I loved myself by trusting in the power of unconditional Love.
Thank you love, life, God, Consciousness and both of you for your presence in my life. Thank you for who you are and for helping me remember that I can trust myself and to keep believing in unconditional love. even when I am lost in the middle of a storm. Remembering both of you and the time we shared will now be my compass when I will get lost again.
Thank you Spirit and thank you Christelle for receiving and allowing us to give you unconditional love. It was truly a joy having you here and sharing your adventure with us.
Three of my single girlfriends moved into their new homes the last couple of months. I probably am one of the first people to ask, “How can I help you and what do you need?” Of course, they are very grateful and appreciative. I always say to them, “It is my pleasure and I am just giving back what was given to me.” And I truly mean it. It will forever be in my heart what was given to me and the real meaning of community.
Over 35 years ago, my family and I were very active in a Christian community. To be closer in proximity to our brothers and sisters, we bought an old house that 2 women had lived in for fifty years and nothing had been done to it. It was a mess and needed EVERYTHING done before we could move in with 4 children under the age of 10.
It was truly through the eyes of “faith” that we had the courage to buy this house. I could see its potential and possibility and the price was within our means. What I didn’t know, at the time, was that we would only have 2 weeks to complete the needed renovations (a new bathroom, kitchen and every room needed to be painted) before we could move in.
It looked impossible that we would be able to move in on time and obvious to us that we couldn’t do this on our own. When you are desperate, and we were desperate, your pride goes out the window and we cried out to the people in community for help. Do you ever wonder why it is so difficult to ask for help? Although very humbling, what happened was truly a miracle in action.
This may sound crazy, but it is true. One man in the community took a week of vacation to put in a brand new kitchen and wouldn’t take any money for his time and expertise. Another member built a new bathroom on the first and second floor. Every room was newly painted before we moved in.
Because my ex-husband was working full time and I was caring for the children, we couldn’t be there 24/7 to oversee and supervise. Of course, we visited every day to see the progress and were in awe of the people who showed up daily to help us.
Outside each room (we had 4 bedrooms) there was a clipboard with all that needed to be completed in the room. The men and women came whenever they could and stayed for an hour or 5 hours. The next person that “showed up” would check the clipboard to see what was needed to do next.
I will never forget the day we moved in and the gratitude and joy we felt in our hearts. The house was completely done over and it looked beautiful. At the end of the day, the love was flowing and we all celebrated with a meal that the women in the community prepared.
I may not be able to say thank you to all the people that helped us 35 years ago so I am paying it forward. It is no wonder that it is my pleasure to help my friends when they move. I want to GIVE back after all I RECEIVED.
DAILY WORD I am abundantly blessed when I GIVE and RECEIVE
“The spiritual law of giving and receiving brings forth abundant blessings. In my sacred prayer time, Spirit reveals to me the ways that I can give and be of service. This law is very simple. If I desire to experience more love in my life, I give more love. If peace is what I seek, I offer peace. I am abundantly blessed when I participate in the flow of energy in the Universe.”
I wrote in my journal, “Everything is in perfect and right order” after processing my dream from the night before. I felt some anxiety about writing another book because it felt like “WORK” and that didn’t feel very good. I needed to change my thinking so it would feel good. I changed my thinking to, “My writing is flowing with peace, ease and grace. I love writing “our book” and waiting for it to unfold in the perfect and right timing. I have all the time I need and EVERYTHING is in perfect and right order.”
When I finished writing, I opened to the “Daily Word” and the title was, “My life is unfolding in perfect order.” It said, “I remember to be patient with the natural timeline of occurrences in my life. Looking back, I see how the right opportunity or person came along just at the right time. Turning within, I affirm with confidence: All is in divine order. I listen and follow my guidance on what my next right step is.”
As I was meditating, my friend, Mary, came into my consciousness. Over the last several years, God has given me divine messages for Mary. I don’t have any idea what they mean, but I follow my intuition and guidance and either call or email her the message. She ALWAYS responds that the message was “right on” and how she needed to hear Gods words at that moment.
I felt in my Spirit that God was giving me a message for Mary. I called and left the message on her answering machine. It was very simple, “EVERYTHING is in perfect and right order. Let go of control. Trust me, all is well.”
Later in the day, I received an email from Mary and here is what she wrote:
“Thank you so much for your message today. You always know when to call and what to say. God so works through you. Dave and I were out car shopping today. When they were working out the figures in the other room, I checked my messages while waiting. OMG. What great joy and comfort to receive your message for when they came back it did not work for us and we were dismayed. We so wanted that car. So I kept thinking of your message from God to trust all is perfect and well. Later that day, we found a car with more features for less money in the color we wanted. As always, God’s perfect timing. Thanks for being such a divine conduit and reflection of God’s love and oneness. Love knows no distance. Also, just yesterday, I was packing my altar and on it were all the messages you sent me over the years. So touching and can you believe it today you send me one just when I needed it again. Thank you so much.”
God worked overtime with me that day because I experienced another “perfect and right” timing incident right after calling Mary with the message. Last week, I shared about meeting with Sharon (Sacred Life publishing) and Margie from my yoga class. Margie hired Sharon “on the spot” because God had promised Margie He would bring the publisher to her. I felt excited and honored to be a part of the “divine orchestration” and watch how that unfolded right before my eyes.
Right before yoga class, I heard the small, still voice of God say, “I want you to bring Margie a present to congratulate and thank her for trusting me and writing the book.” I love to give gifts to my friends and have a “gift drawer” in my living room. Several months ago, I bought a beautiful card with a poem on it at a fair that Larry and I attended. I even found a frame and framed it. I had no idea who I would give it to, but trusted I would know when it was time.
As I picked up the card and read the poem, I knew in my spirit, that it was meant for Margie. I wrapped it and planned on giving it to her at the yoga class. When she read the poem and that the author was Marianne Williamson, she was stunned. She said, “Pat, you are not going to believe this. While I was just driving to class, Spirit was telling me to CALL Marianne Williamson and ask her to endorse my book.” We just smiled at one another, knowing that Spirit was involved. Here is the email I received from Margie later that day. “What a GIFT you gave me!!!! I have it right with me on my desk as a reminder of the Perfection of it all! Mahalo
I invited Larry to share a time that he heard the small, still voice of God within and listened.
’When you read Pat’s blogs you read how she listens and “hears” the small, still voice of God or the Universe speaking to her. It is because she BELIEVES that it is Spirit, God or the Universe. She is dedicated to discerning the voice within and following through.
I often think I’m listening, but I’m not hearing anything much of the time. I sometimes feel frustrated and think perhaps I’m listening the wrong way. I may think about doing something and think it’s a bit far out. For example: I say things to myself like “I can’t do that, what will people think of me, that’s crazy, where did that thought come from? Do you ever feel that way? Sometimes the thought or idea will simply not go away until I act on it. It’s been my experience that when I follow through, I always learn and grow, even when it seems crazy. Here is an example.
Years ago we had an elderly couple named, Evelyn and Phil who were our neighbors. We knew each other casually and would always say good morning to one another. I would help them with their yard work, whenever they needed help.
Evelyn was diagnosed with cancer and was in the hospital for a long time. I would see her husband Phil around and always inquire about how she was doing. Then one day I was instructed (small, still voice of God) to go to the hospital and tell her how much God loved her. My initial reaction was, “Not me, this is crazy, I can’t do that because I don’t even know her that well.” My family already thought I was crazy because of my beliefs. I knew if my wife ever found out I was going around telling people that God loved them, she would try to have me committed.
I didn’t act on this for a few days, hoping it would just go away. Of course, it didn’t and it became even more intense. I finally stepped out in faith and said, “O.K. God, if this is what you want me to do, I will do it.” I went to the hospital with the little pocket size new testament that I carried around in those days. When I arrived at the hospital, I felt afraid and was a wreck. I thought to myself, ”What if there are people in her room with her, what if she’s sleeping, what if she doesn’t even recognize me?”
When I got off the elevator and started to walk to her room, my hands were shaking so badly that I had to put them in my jacket pocket. My knees were also knocking and I thought everyone could hear them. I thought I was going to faint.
When I arrived at Evelyn’s room, I discovered she had a private room, was awake and alone. Thank you God! She remembered me and seemed genuinely happy to see me. We talked for a while and then I said, “Evelyn, the main reason I came to see you tonight is that GOD wanted me to tell you how much he loves you.” The tears started to flow down her cheeks and she said, “I really needed to hear that.” We visited a little while longer and I read her a few verses from my pocket new testament. When I was getting ready to leave she said, “Larry, will you please come back and see me again?”
I visited her quite often after that and she once said, “I am so grateful for your visits because you are the only one I can cry with and tell how I am really feeling. I always have to be happy and optimistic with my family.” Evelyn passed over to the other side to continue her journey a short time after that. I can still feel her presence as I write this story. My lesson from this experience is that when Spirit, Love (God) or the Universe speaks, whether it is often or just once in a while, I will try to listen.”
God has given each one of us the gift of intuition and wants to use us as His instruments. It is not always easy to listen to the small, still voice of God and do what we are asked to do. It takes PRACTICE and not being attached to the outcome. Like Larry, I have also experienced the fear of what others will think. It has been my experience that the more I TRUST my “inner voice” and step out in faith, the more confident I become and know it is God. Fear is useless, what is needed is trust.
Several people recently have said to me, “When are you going to write the sequel to your next book?” I smile and say, “I don’t know, but I will know when it is time.” Deep down, I really didn’t want to write another book because I didn’t want it to interfere with the life Larry and I have created for ourselves. But, I also wanted to do God’s will and be guided and led if that was what I was meant to do.
God has used my dear friend, Joanne, to speak to me many times over the years. I dropped out of college in my junior year for 1 year because I was afraid of writing a 20 page paper. I have no idea what she said to encourage me, but whatever she said, I knew it was God and I returned to school the next semester. I graduated a year later and then went on to finish a Master’s degree. I am so grateful that I listened because I wouldn’t be living my dream today.
Joanne was unable to attend my presentation, “The Power of Self-Love to Manifest Your Dreams” in Rhode Island due to health challenges. A couple of days before the talk we spent the day together and I presented my talk to her. She was very quiet as she listened intently. When I finished, she looked at me and said, “Wow, this is the outline for your next book, Pat. I knew everything that happened to you but I couldn’t wait for you to tell me what happened next.” I sat there with tears in my eyes because I sensed God was speaking to me. I closed my eyes and heard God say, “HEAR WHAT SHE HAS TO SAY, PAT.” I hadn’t shared with Joanne what people have been saying to me about writing a sequel to my book. I said to myself, “OK God, show me the way. I ask you to bring it to me.”
Larry and I have been praying about the possibility of writing a book together about our story and the power of Love Energy in our lives. I shared with Larry what Joanne said to me and we agreed to continue to pray for guidance. Since I write my blog every week, Larry agreed to begin writing some blogs with me and see how that felt for us.
Here is what showed up today and how God is guiding us. Several months ago, I received a message on Facebook from a woman named Sharon, that I had not met before. She was moving to Maui and asked about a spiritual community. When she arrived, she called me and we planned to meet at Unity Church that Sunday. I had to leave the service early so we just got to say hello to one another.
She called me afterward, but we couldn’t get together since Larry was moving in and we were very busy. I ran into her at the theatre right before my trip to Rhode Island and she said, “Pat, I would really like to get together with you.” I said, “I will call you when I return home from Rhode Island.” When I returned to Maui, she kept coming into my mind and I knew I needed to call her and get together. When Larry asked me who I was having tea with that day, I told him the story of Facebook and that I didn’t really know Sharon, but that I knew we were meant to get together. As I was leaving the house to meet Sharon, I heard Spirit say, “Go back and get your book,” which I did.
Sharon and I didn’t waste any time getting to know one another when we met. We shared our lives and how our faith and trust in God brought us to Maui. She is the author of “Sacred Living, Sacred Dying – A Guide to Embodying Life and Death” and has had 2 near death experiences, which were very inspirational. She also owns a publishing company called “Sacred Life Publishers.”
I sat there quietly at first when she told me she owned a publishing company. I wondered if this could be a “Divine Encounter” and had God brought Sharon into my life to help me move forward with another book?
I shared that Larry and I were praying about writing a book together and what had happened with my friend, Joanne a few weeks ago. She smiled and grabbed my hand as my eyes filled up. She said, “I will help you Pat with whatever you need.” I said, “Thank you, I had no idea you had a publishingcompany.” And she said, “I had no idea you were an author and wrote a book.”
I was excited to share this news with Larry about Sharon’s publication company and wondered what his reaction would be. Would he see this as a sign from God that we were meant to write a book together? Just that morning, he had agreed to write something for my blog.
Here it is:
“Pat and I share and discuss our spiritual journey all the time, we respect and encourage each others growth and value each others opinion. We have been praying about writing a book together and were waiting for signs that it was God’s will.
Writing a book together and even writing in her blog each week is definitely a stretch for me and I am completely out of my comfort zone. It’s really difficult for me to share my spiritual journey and private thoughts in public. I have learned, however, that Spirit will give us gentle nudges to get our attention to do something and if that doesn’t work then we may just get banged on the head. I think I’m feeling gentle nudges and I better listen.
For as long as I can remember I’ve had dreams filled with being chased, being in very stressful situations and generally very unhappy circumstances. Pat and I have been doing the Emotion Code by Dr. Bradley Nelson to release trapped emotions regarding my dreams and I have definitely experienced a shift.
The day after Pat met with Sharon, I had a dream that was very meaningful and I believe could be a sign from God that we are meant to write a book together. In my dream, Pat and I had a baby and I was trying to find a place to lay it down. The baby started to become cranky and unhappy. I remember thinking “You are not going to be a cranky baby and the baby instantly became happy and peaceful.” I believe, perhaps the “BABY” could be representing the book that we are considering and could be a nudge in that direction.
During my walk and meditation that day, I thought, “I want to accept every gift, every occasion in my life as something positive even if it frightens me or is asking me to stretch and leave my comfort zone. I will be open to all possibilities and see every gift as an opportunity.”
So, stay tuned, I believe the sequel to “Simply a Woman of Faith” has been birthed. WHEN YOU LEAP, YOU REAP and God gives you wings to fly. And while you are leaping into the unknown and the mystery, Spirit takes over and all of your needs are provided for. I know it is time for the next book and I say YES!
I breathe in God’s love, I breathe out fear and control. I surrender to the moment, and God’s will in my life. I say YES to the mystery and adventure we are stepping into of writing a book together. Help us know you will show us the HOW, WHERE, and WHEN in the perfect and right timing. I trust you will bring us the people to help and guide us and that it will flow with peace, ease and grace. All we have to do is “show up” and do the next right thing. Thank you God because with God all things are possible.
“My faith feeds me like the rain and the sun nourishing flowers. I call on faith in all my life experiences and yield a beautiful bouquet of experiences. I dig into my faith by looking beyond appearances that may seem limiting. My faith leads me to explore new possibilities. I plant positive thoughts in my mind, then let go. I leave the “when” and “how” up to God, and trust in divine order. I nourish my garden of faith by connecting with God in this moment. I envision myself growing in the light of Spirit. I adapt to life’s changes with ease. Just as the gardener reaps a bountiful harvest, I receive abundant blessings. I trust in God and see beauty everywhere.” Daily Word June 11, 2015
My faith is a gift from God that I cherish and am grateful for. It is my faith that allowed me to move 5,000 miles away from my family and friends to live on Maui. It is my faith that has carried me through many trials and made me the woman I am today. It is my faith that gave me the courage to write and publish my book. I stepped out in faith and followed my heart knowing I would meet my soulmate on Maui. Faith will continue to lead me on to new possibilities and adventures, for this I am certain.
I shared in my blog last week about meeting Dana at the Fairmont Hotel pool and our “Divine Connection.” Since then we have been in daily communication either by phone or text. She’s shared some of her experiences since returning home that I would like to share with you. We never know what the impact will be when we “shine our light” in another person’s life. It could just be a conversation, a smile or a kind deed that has lasting effects.
I just got off the phone with Dana and she shared her personal experience of reading “Simply a Woman of Faith” with me. When she read Chapter 5 Messages from Heaven – How God speaks through Songs she was blown away and said she almost felt giddy. For those of you who haven’t read my book, this chapter is about my mother “Honey” and her death when I was 20 years old. My mother died in front of me in the church on my parents’ 25th wedding anniversary.
Dana wrote, “Pat, I didn’t want to put your book down when I read this chapter. Although the yard sale stories in the first chapter were fun and I enjoyed them, this chapter really spoke to me and I thought this woman has had hardships and tragedy and she is REAL. I saw you living your faith through difficult times. My best girlfriend (since kindergarten) is also named “Honey.” What is even more interesting is that her mother’s name was “Honey” too. She was like a mother to me and she was a big part of my faith journey. As a teenager (when my friends were in the basement having a party), I was in the kitchen talking to her mother about God. What I remember is that she shared her faith and she shined her light. She is just like you Pat. Her eyes sparkled, she was full of joy and she laughed a lot.” After hearing this, I knew it was destiny that Dana and I met at the pool.
When I asked Dana what she liked best about reading my book she said, “It was your ongoing, natural dialogue with God. It showed me a different kind of relationship with God that I could have if I wanted one, and I do. It was the simplicity of your relationship with God that I was particularly drawn to because you talk to God about everything. It’s like you know you have God on your side. I need to practice what I have just learned because I don’t know how to talk to God on a regular basis like you do. Since meeting you only a week ago, I have a different mindset about my spiritual growth and I am open to allowing myself to be guided by God in what to do next in my life.” She also enjoyed the moped story in Chapter IX God is my Travel Agent – A Calling to Bermuda. She said, “When you screamed FU God and threw your moped to the ground, I knew you were real.”
Probably like most of you, I don’t always know what kind of an impact my presence and sharing my life and light has on people’s lives and how far-reaching it may go to impact others’ lives. Probably just as well because I might get a big head! So I am grateful to Dana for sharing how her life is changing and how she is now being used to share her light with her clients and students in her yoga classes. It delights me that she is paying it forward.
I met Dana for a beach walk on the day she left to go back home. She bought another one of my books and didn’t know who she was going to give it to. We laughed and both knew she would be led to give it to the right and perfect person. It didn’t take her long to know who that was. For example, she shared with me about a recent therapy session she had with one of her clients.
“My client is a young woman with a strong desire to find her soulmate, just like you did. She considers herself to be a person of very strong faith, but felt anxious. Remembering your book, I encouraged her to use her faith as her guide when trying to find this man. In fact, I was led to give her your book! I told her that I met the author who deepened her own relationship with God on her journey to find a life partner. Little does the reader know that you actually did find your soulmate after writing the book, Pat. You’ve got a sequel!” The woman was so excited about the book when Dana gave it to her and said, “My mother would love this book also and I’m going to buy her one.” Upon leaving the client commented, “You look different, Dana, you seem very spiritually inspired.” She was right!
In several of her yoga classes this week, Dana told her students about meeting me and reading my book. She laughed and said, “I shared with my students that I had been praying for a “guru” to inspire me spiritually. I thought that I had met him at a conference that I attended last month. But no he’s not the one. Pat is the REAL one that I know God brought into my life. The theme of our classes was about God/Divine being inside of us.”
This whole experience has been exciting for me and has shown me how important it is to just BE me and SHINE. I have a small plaque in my bedroom that I have had since moving to Maui.
“SHINE – You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden. Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead, they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. In the same way, let your light shine before men and women, that they may see your good works and praise our Father in heaven.”
As I sat down to the blank piece of paper in front of me, I didn’t know what I was going to write about. I prayed and asked God, “Please guide me and help me share what I need to share.”
Last night while sitting on the lanai, with Larry, I turned to him and said, “You are amazing.” He is the most loving, kind, caring, gentle, patient and compassionate man I know. It is clear to me how much he cares and goes out of his way to love and help others. I think this is one of the reasons I fell in love with him.
He turned to me, looked deeply into my eyes and said, “It takes one to know one.” Of course, I’ve heard this before many times, but for some reason, it went straight to my heart and kind of shook me up. Could I really accept that the qualities I see so clearly in him were also in me? Was that why he fell in love with me?
Could I be that loving, kind, caring, gentle, patient and compassionate? It is one thing to think maybe I had these qualities in my head, but to accept them with my heart and embrace and CLAIM them as my own was something very different. I felt excited because I was allowing this truth to penetrate my being and soul. I asked myself, “If I continue to love Larry and see his good qualities, would I continue to love myself and see my good qualities?” That felt really good and I knew that I had received a gift that I wanted to cherish and deepen. If I believed this about myself, my actions and reactions would naturally demonstrate that.
I have heard that what I see in others is also in me, both the light and dark side of ourselves. We truly are mirrors for one another. For most of us, it is easier to see the dark side and the things we don’t like about ourselves than it is to see the light and our magnificence.
I had just finished writing this part of the blog when God didn’t waste any time and gave me the opportunity to see and embrace the dark side of me. This is the human or unhealed part of me that wants to judge, be right, gossip and defend myself.
This didn’t feel quite as good as seeing me as loving, kind and compassionate. But I knew it was a gift and invitation to love all parts of me and ask God to heal me.
The details of what happened don’t matter, what matters is how I moved through it and the tools I used to free myself. First of all, I needed to allow myself to feel my anger at what I “perceived” as wrong doing to me. For much of my life, being a people pleaser, I was out of touch with my anger and just pushed it down, ate over it, or stayed busy over it.
I allowed myself to feel my anger and write about everything I was angry about. I didn’t hold back because I knew it was necessary for my process and transformation. When it felt complete that I had released all of the anger inside of me, I then gave it to God and used a powerful forgiveness tool that I’ve used for years.
I prayed and affirmed, “I have attracted this into my life for my highest good. She is not wrong and I am not right.” There is always some resistance at first when I say this because I want to make someone else wrong that I believe has hurt, disrespected or wronged me. I may have to do it several times until it becomes a part of me and I believe it. I know that whenever I make someone else wrong, (and me right,) I am a victim. I don’t want to live my life as a victim with unforgiveness and resentment in my heart. So it is a choice that I make to free myself and it has never failed me.
I then prayed, “I release judgment and send light and love whenever the thought came up about what was said or done to me.” This is a powerful affirmation and works instantly. I cannot give myself the luxury of ruminating or obsessing about this because it hurts me and keeps me in bondage. It says in scripture. “Be transformed by the renewal of your mind.”
It is amazing how “free” I felt after I did this spiritual work and cleansing. The truth is that, “What other people think about me is none of my business.” My business is to love; to love God first, and myself and others to the best of my ability.
I want my light to shine and to live my life being a loving, kind and compassionate person. I want to accept, love and embrace the light and dark parts of me because if I love myself this way, I am able to love others in the same way.
As I sat down to write my blog today, I opened my journal and read these words that spoke to my heart. I am not sure what spiritual book I read them from, so I cannot give credit.
“Love is synonymous with God. It is an unfailing and unchanging mine to draw upon. When I allow love to permeate my entire being, it becomes a powerful source driving out any doubt, sadness or fear. My heart fills with the mighty magnetic force of love and I am empowered to do only good and to share only love. My every thought, word and action expresses the love of God in me. Aglow with God’s love, my heart becomes a magnet attracting good from every direction.” Unknown
For years, my daily mantra and prayer has been to be peaceful, to love and to serve. It feels like a miracle when my dreams are manifested. Yes, it is a miracle but I also know my dreams have come true because of my faith, trust, willingness to receive, surrendering, confidence and creativity.
I had a dream to live on the ocean for as long as I can remember. I felt in my heart that it would happen, but I didn’t know HOW – that was up to God. I needed to do some “inner work” and to know that I deserved and was worthy of God’s love and good. I learned to say YES to God’s plan for my life and to wait for God’s perfect timing to unfold. That wasn’t always easy because I felt impatient at times, but kept surrendering to God’s will and love in my heart.
I am still in awe when I sit on my lanai and look out over the ocean because I am now living in a 2 million dollar home. I am humbled and filled with gratitude and joy. This is not to brag by any means, but to inspire you to be open and to receive God’s good in your life.
Many of you have been following me for years and have witnessed my struggles, fears and transformation. I have not held back because I chose to be authentic and show you how I did it so you can do it. I have been stepping out in faith for years BEFORE I had all of the answers or the money or the know how to do something. When you do this, you ALLOW God to take the reigns and provide you with everything you need.
I have a chapter in my book, “Simply a Woman of Faith” about how the money came when I was looking for an editor for my book.
“With the manuscript complete, I needed to find an editor. Prices ranged from sixty dollars an hour to one hundred and twenty five dollars an hour. I had no idea how long it would take to edit my book and how much it would cost. I sensed it would take a while since I had no formal training in writing. I prayed and asked God to lead me to the right editor.
My son, Tim, said to me ,“Mom, you have to change your yard sale mentality when it comes to looking for an editor.” “You’re right Tim, I always want a bargain, but I’m not willing to do that with my book. I want the best editor I can find and I don’t care how much it costs.”
After checking out a few different editors, I called the Book Coach, Lisa Tener. I knew in my heart that I wanted her to edit my book. She also happened to be the most expensive, but she was the best.
Okay God, where’s the money going to come from? This could be very expensive by the time she’s through editing.
I asked for a dream that night. In my dream I was walking up a ladder into the sky. In my spirit, I knew God was saying – The sky’s the limit. I called Lisa the next day and hired her, trusting the money would come. A half hour later, I checked on line for the balance in my checking account. I received my paycheck the day before, but hadn’t looked at it since it goes directly into the bank.
What’s this extra money God? Where did it come from?
When I reached work, I asked about my last paycheck and discovered that I’d received a performance award. In the past, we’d always been informed of our awards at the awards ceremony. When the editing was complete, it turned out that the extra money covered the bill and it was exactly what I needed. My God is full of surprises and loves to shower His blessings on me when I trust Him and step out in faith.”
Moving to Maui was certainly stepping out in faith because I didn’t know what was going to happen or how it would happen. I showed up every day, TRUSTED my inner voice, God, and followed my heart.
When I meet new people in Maui, they often ask me, “What brought you here?” I always respond with “My heart.” My heart knew what I needed. Today, my heart sings and I am full of joy and gratitude that I had the grace to follow my heart. I have manifested love and the desires of my heart. Aglow with God’s love, my heart becomes a magnet attracting good from every direction.
Are you following your heart? Do you know how to follow your heart? Do you know what makes your heart sing? I would be happy to help you manifest the desires of your heart as I have. You deserve to be happy.
During meditation this morning, I imagined myself picking people for my team. I remember as a child when the captain of each team picked who they wanted to be on their teams. How horrible it felt if you were picked last.
Instead of team mates, I imagined myself picking words to be on my team and support me on my spiritual journey. I picked 11 words or values starting with Love, Trust, Peace, Joy, Contentment, Freedom, Happiness, Hope, Gratitude, Prayer and Faith. I then imagined myself, as the captain of the team, in the middle of a huddle doing a cheer together. As a cheerleader in high school, this was easy for me to imagine. The cheer was “The team is in the middle, the captain is at the head, they all got together and this is what they said, T.E.A.M. go TEAM go.” I felt so safe and protected being in the middle of the huddle. Perhaps it is also like being in the middle of all the angels and our loved ones.
This visualization reminded me that I am the captain of my life and my team. My team is there to support me and they are dedicated to my success. They want me to win and will do what I direct them to do. In order for them to support me, I must know what I want and then be able to communicate what I want them to do. Do you have a team of supportive people and do you feel protected and loved?
To be the captain of my team means I must be responsible for my life, my thoughts, feelings, actions and choices. I can surround myself with people who are supportive and loving or with people who are energy vampires. I can surround myself with all the values that I chose for my team and call upon them at any time when I need them.
It has been an interesting week and I have spent quite a bit of time alone and going within, remembering what has happened in the past and listening to what Spirit is saying to me today. As I shared last week, I am looking for a new home and there are decisions I have to make. Do I need to make provisions for a storage unit for my furniture and where will I live if I don’t find a place before the end of the month?
As the days tick off, and it gets closer to the end of the month, I am constantly in prayer and choosing trust instead of worry and fear. Have I felt fear? Yes I have. I wrote in my journal one morning that I felt like a little girl who wanted her daddy to take care of her because I didn’t feel strong.
I have surrounded myself with beautiful, supportive, loving beings on my team. I have asked for prayer and help when I needed it. I am doing all I know to do and it’s up to God to do the rest. I know that God is working behind the scenes and preparing the perfect and right place for me to live. I am acting “as if” and packing boxes and cleaning my ohana. I know the miracle is around the corner as I let go and trust.
In prayer, I heard God say to “REST, instead of pushing and rushing. Give your fears to me and have faith that you are being taken care of. Let go of worrying about HOW your needs will be met because I will take care of all the details. Be open to receiving gifts and help from other people.”
Has this ever happened to you? One minute you are full of peace, knowing all is well and the next minute you are so stressed that the tears are pouring out of you and you just want to crawl up in a ball and go to sleep? Perhaps just the human condition! When I’m feeling like this, it is an invitation not to judge myself, but to love and accept myself just the way I am. It is not only an invitation to be gentle and to love myself, but to allow others to love me when I’m feeling so vulnerable and weak. To strengthen my faith, I have been carrying a heart shaped stone that says FAITH on it. Whenever my faith is shaky, I just put my hand in my pocket and peace returns. Today, I found a small rock that said, TRUST so that is in my other pocket.
Years ago, when I worked as an alcohol and drug therapist, I had a patient who had real difficulty with the concept of God and a Higher Power. He truly wanted to believe, but it took time for him to get there. I gave him a rock to carry with him and he called it his “Pocket God.” He said, “Pat, until I am able to believe, I will carry in my pocket Pats “Pocket God.” In time, through this small act of faith, he found his own Higher Power.
My own experience this week reminded me of what happened with my client. I told my friend, Kati, “My faith is shaky, please pray for me. I am not feeling like a woman of faith today.” She said, “I know who you are, I will remember for you, until you can remember again.” Sometimes, I just need another person who believes in me to hold that for me until I get aligned with Spirit again and know the truth of who I am and who God is in my life.
What I know about the spiritual life is that it is about progress and not perfection. I pray, ask for help, let go, trust, surrender, do a gratitude list and feel my feelings. I don’t have to pretend that a woman of faith doesn’t have fear. I am trusting that I am moving through it and will come out the other side stronger, brighter and lighter.
I want to stay in the middle of the huddle, with my team of angels and loved ones surrounding me. I know I am protected and God is showering us with divine love. I hold Love, Trust, Peace, Joy, Contentment, Freedom, Happiness, Hope, Gratitude, Prayer and Faith in my heart.
Thank you or praying for me, reaching out to me and offering your home for me to stay until I find my right and perfect home. Thank you for being on my team. GO TEAM GO.
I am Fearless and Free – Daily Word
I am an overcomer. I am bold and fearless. My indomitable inner power comes not from my ego, but from the power of God within me – for God and I are one. All my accomplishments are the result of a TEAM effort. With God as my partner, no one or no thing can defeat me.
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