“I slid back to the OLD ways of DOING”

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Sep
8

“I am faith-filled and fear-free because I know what to do without doing anything at all. You don’t have to do anything to get your good in life. You must, however, be open to receive it. For some of us, receiving is much more difficult than doing (giving) because we think we know what is required to earn our good.  Earning puts you in control. Your doing is motivated by the belief that the more you do, the more you will get.  Receiving means trusting that God is aware of what you need, desire and deserve.

Deserving is a function of Being:  Being open, Being clear, Being grateful, Being focused, Being committed, Being Faithful, and Being willing to receive. Being is a state of consciousness developed through unwavering faith and trust. You trust that you will always have what you need, and that is the foundation of your faith.”  Iyanla Vanzant

I said to the cashier at Longs Drug store, as I was paying for my purchases, “You have a beautiful smile.” She smiled and said, “Thank you.” It just popped out of my mouth and I said, “It takes one to know one.” She replied, “You took the words right out of my mouth.” And we both giggled as I walked out of the store. Learning to give and receive compliments is an important part of our spiritual growth. I enjoy receiving and giving compliments and often give compliments to strangers.

Last night, I was fortunate enough to be in the presence of spiritual teacher, Ram Dass at the Makawa Union Church. What a beautiful humble soul who practices living in the present moment and loves everything.  He said, “I even love my negative thoughts.”  When asked what he meant by that and how to do it, he said, “I just LOVE them to death.”  He also talked about the importance of receiving.

After the talk, dinner was served. There were two women sitting at the table with us and one of the women was stunning with beautiful long red hair and blue eyes.  I decided to tell the woman that she looked stunning and as we said goodbye, I quietly whispered in her ear, “You are stunning.” Her face lit us and, of course, she said, “Thank you, and it takes one to know one.”  

WOW, yes it takes one to know one. What we see in others, the positive and the negative, or the light and the dark are all a part of us. I love it when I see the beauty and gifts in someone else because they are also in me.  I am not as thrilled when I see something I don’t like in another because I know that is also in me and it is called my “shadow.” At first I may think, “No way, that is not in me.” But, in the long run, I am grateful because I want to know, embrace and love all of me, the light and the dark. People in our lives are mirrors and unless we accept and love all parts of ourselves, we will not be whole and spiritually healthy.

Many people have a hard time receiving compliments and often don’t believe the person giving it to them.  It may be a sign of low self- esteem and an inability to receive. They may feel embarrassed or not worthy to receive the compliment. They may think to themselves, “If they only knew the real me, they wouldn’t think that” or something like that.  It’s hard to just say, “Thank you.” I challenge you to notice how you feel when someone gives you a compliment and to practice taking it in and just saying “Thank you.” I invite you to receive all compliments, gifts, smiles – anything that is given to you. I invite you to accept them all gratefully and graciously. Once you receive the “little” things, you will easily be able to receive the big things.

I have had some powerful lessons this week I would like to share with you. As I have shared in my past blogs, I knew how to DO things by pushing and making things happen. I liked being in control, even though I really had no control at all and it was only an illusion.  For the last year and a half since living in Maui, I have learned (after some resistance) to “BE” which means to live in the present moment,  to be comfortable with the mystery of not knowing what is next,  to receive, to trust the process as it unfolds and to allow and trust God to bring things to me.

Today, God is inviting me to practice something new and that is to DO and BE at the same time. I will make mistakes, perhaps go back to the “old way” of doing things, but it will not feel good and I will quickly realign with source energy.

That is exactly what happened to me this week. I slid back to the “old ways” of DOING. I spent hours on the computer, felt stressed and didn’t take the time to go to the ocean or swim in the pool-things that are nurturing to my soul and keep my vibration high. I prayed as I couldn’t get back to sleep in the middle of the night because my mind was like a blender, “Lord, I don’t know how to do this, I need your help.”

My prayer was answered.  My friend, Kati, gave me an angel reading over the weekend. The messages from the angels were very powerful and empowering in regards to my future.  As Kati and I discussed the meaning of the cards I chose, it became clear to me that I was operating from the old paradigm and belief system.  The angels said that I needed to simplify my life and that I was spread too thin.  At first, I felt discouraged and felt some self-condemnation that I was back there again-DOING TOO MUCH. I hadn’t realized it until then that I had 7 “projects” on my plate that I was involved in. They were all good and I loved doing all of them.

In the past, when I was doing TOO MUCH and had a lot on my plate, it was coming from a place of fear and under the fear was inadequacy.  When I am all over the place and I can’t focus on one thing and what is important, my energy is diluted and I feel exhausted and stressed with all I have to do. I had to ask myself, “What am I afraid of?” Even though I have already written a book and knew the process, I think I felt some inadequacy because I wasn’t sure HOW I was going to move forward. I reminded myself, “You just have to do the next right thing and the HOW is not up to you, but to God.”

The message that I needed to hear was that I am to focus on what my heart’s desire is and the vision for my life.  I was being invited to ask myself, “Which project aligns me with my vision and heart’s desire?”  I was being invited to FOCUS, FOCUS and make choices that would be for my highest good and for the good of all involved. I was being invited to go within and ask my higher self what I really wanted. 

My deepest desire is to BE the star that shines brightly to lead others to the God within. I asked myself, “What do I need to put aside for a while so I can FOCUS on the vision for my life and heart’s desire?”  At this time, I know God is calling me to FOCUS on finishing my new book because this will be the vehicle to share my faith and how trusting in God and following my heart has led me to paradise and living the life of my dreams. I have made a commitment to myself and God to work on my book daily. I was also inspired to ask Spirit before each activity I embark on, “Is this for my highest good?” I heard the small still voice of God say, “I like when you do that.”

Being a Libra, I need balance. I want to balance DOING with BEING. I want to live my life in peace, ease and grace. My intention is to be peaceful, to love and to serve.

 “Balance is the key to my serenity. I attain balance by listening to my inner wisdom and to the wisdom of others. There is no situation in which I cannot find a point of balance. There is no circumstance in which I cannot find inner harmony. As I ask to be led into equilibrium and clarity, I will find that my answers come to me. I am wiser than I know, more capable of right action and attitudes than I yet believe. In every event, I see the balance point of God’s action through me.”  Julia Cameron – Heart Steps

I am back on track, I know what I need to do and I am doing it!  I am simplifying, focusing and making choices that align with my heart’s desire and vision for my life. We all have choices that we must make in our lives. God’s desire for us is to be happy and free. It is our job to free ourselves of the past and all that holds us back from receiving God’s good in our lives. You are deserving and so am I.

“Life isn’t about pedaling faster to keep up; it’s about soaring beyond the limitations you’ve been taught to have. Passion is the voice of God calling you to awaken to your true purpose. If you celebrate your heart’s desires, you’ll deliver life to everyone you touch” Alan Cohen