I had completely forgotten about what I had prayed for 10 years ago until Spirit, while in meditation, brought it to mind this week.
Ten years ago, I was invited to accompany a woman to Florida for a week for a personal guided retreat. It was a powerful experience for both of us and I remember even writing a blog about it. It was the desire of my heart to do more personal guided retreats for women. I had been leading women’s retreats for many years, but not one on one like this.
Life had other plans and I went with the flow and forgot about what I had prayed for. This morning I opened my computer and received an email from Abraham. Here it is:
When people ask us how long does it take for something to manifest, we say, “It takes as long as it takes for you to release the resistance. Could be 30 years, could be 40 years, could be 50 years, could be a week. Could be tomorrow afternoon.”
I didn’t think I had any resistance to the idea of leading personal guided retreats for women. Perhaps I did have resistance or maybe it just wasn’t God’s perfect timing.
God is never late or early, but always on TIME. We often have to WAIT, SURRENDER, TRUST and LET GO. If something is meant to be, it will be.
Here it is 10 years later, and I am leading my first guided personal retreat in our home, in April. I am so excited that what was conceived 10 years ago is now being born.
I met Christine last April on an Awakening and Healing retreat that we both participated in on Maui. I completed my 6- month training to become a Licensed teacher of Sacred and Awakening this past January in North Carolina. Christine lives in North Carolina and stopped by to say hello to us.
When she was leaving, I was led to give her my book, “Simply a Woman of Faith.” She thanked me for the book and said, “I would love to come back to Maui someday.” I responded, “Would you like to come to our home for a guided retreat?” She said, “Let me think about it.” When I returned home, I sent her a short video of our lanai overlooking the ocean. That did it as she contacted me the next day and said, “I want to come.”
Christine and I are communicating as to what she would like as part of her retreat. She wants to heal her inner child through play and has invited me to come play with her and pay for me. We will go to a Luau, ferry to Lanai, submarine ride, aquarium and art class. Of course, I said, “YES.”
A few weeks later, I sent Christine a text asking her if she had finished reading my book yet? She texted me back and said, “Right before I received your text, I had just picked up your book to bring it to my bedroom so I wouldn’t forget to bring it with me to Maui.”
She said, “I really feel that you have something to share with me that will impact and transform my life. I know you are the right person that I am to be working with.”
We are all connected and we are all ONE. Christine shared that her grandmother called her ANGEL and that is what my grandmother called me.
Don’t ever give up on your dreams and desires of your heart. They may take some time to MANIFEST as you WAIT, SURRENDER, TRUST and LET GO. What I do know is that God’s plan is perfect and right on TIME.
Getting back into my “LIFE” after 2 weeks of being away takes some doing, or shall I say some BEING. I am so grateful to be home to paradise and to my sweetheart, Larry. Before I left to visit my family on the mainland, my INTENTION was that my trip would flow with peace, ease and grace and that I would get into the FLOW of activities immediately. I didn’t want to give into “jet lag” with traveling 5000 miles across the ocean and being too tired to spend time with my family. My prayer was answered because I felt great and didn’t waste any time getting into things. I visited my son, daughter-in-law and new grandson in Connecticut and then went kayaking with my children and grandchildren the next day.
I had a wonderful visit with my family and girlfriends. My 4 children attended the annual family reunion at my daughter, Mary’s, farm and my son, Tim commented, “This was the best one yet” and I agreed. I held my new grandson, River, for the first time and what a blessing that was. I had so much fun with my grandsons: Jarred who will be 2 years old, Zach who will be 25 and Josh who is 20.
It was a busy time and the 2 weeks flew by. Although my life on Maui is much slower and relaxed, I was able to keep up with all of the activities, but was often in bed by 9 p.m. My daughter, Mary, and I gave a retreat for 20 women at her farm. It was a powerful day of healing and transformation. We look forward to giving another one next year. We also celebrated the grand opening of “The Sage Clinic” (naturopathic clinic) which was started by Mary and Naturopath Dr. John McGonagle.
When I returned home to Maui a few days ago, I wanted to “jump back into my life” and not “waste“ any time. There was so much I wanted to do; answer emails, get pictures developed, call friends, follow-up with women on the retreat, write thank-you notes, write blog, unpack suitcase and on and on. I quickly recognized that it didn’t take me long to get back into my “DOING” mode. Perhaps I feel more in control and more powerful when I am in the DOING mode and have a long list of things to accomplish. Of course, there is nothing wrong with doing, but FIRST THINGS FIRST.
As I prayed about what “TO DO” next, I heard God say, “I want you to relax and just BE.” I asked myself, “Did I think BEING was just wasting precious time?” Time is a gift God has given us and it is up to us to do what is best for ourselves. By the grace of God and my willingness to listen to Spirit, I was able to relax and take care of myself. I took several naps, sat outside and enjoyed the breeze, flowers, ocean and the mountains.
You see, my body was clearly very tired from the schedule of the last 2 weeks and being up for 24 hours when I traveled back home. But my mind and perhaps ego was saying something different. My mind said, “You need to get things done first before you can relax.” I realized this was an old belief that no longer served me. I remember when my children were teenagers and clearly capable of taking care of themselves. I wasn’t able to relax until everybody was taken care of. Not knowing any better, I put myself last.
If I want peace (which has been my daily INTENTION for many years), then I must pay attention to my body, mind and Spirit and give it the love it needs. I choose to live in the moment, follow my heart and trust that I am being led and that everything is in perfect and right order.
I have been reading Michael Singer’s book, “The Surrender Experiment” and Eckhart Tolle’s, “Stillness Speaks.” In both books the authors encourage their readers to learn to accept whatever comes into their lives and not resist.
My understanding of what they’re saying is that there is a Higher Power available to us and we can be helped by this Higher Power with any of our life’s situations if we just remain open to that possibility. The experience may not be pleasant and may even be painful. We are encouraged to just accept, no matter what it is. If we feel that we just can’t accept what’s happening at this time in our lives, then accept that we can’t accept. By accepting, we stay open and we allow the Higher Power to grant us the gift that each life experience is bringing us. By resisting what’s happening, we close ourselves to our Higher Power which prevents us from receiving help.
As I write this piece, I am being distracted by my neighbor’s gardener who is using his loud leaf blower and weed whacker on one side of my home and on the other side they are doing construction. I can imagine my Higher Power observing me with a smile as I try to concentrate and accept in this present life situation.
Accepting is a new way of life for me. The other day I decided to take a nap in the early afternoon. We don’t have air conditioning so we keep our windows and doors open. As I lay there, I became conscious of just how noisy it was outside. Dogs barking, people mowing lawns, hundreds of birds singing and chirping, etc. Usually, I would feel frustrated, impatient, angry and get all stirred up and would go into the “poor me, poor me” mode.
I have been working very hard to learn to be more accepting and just allow things to be the way they are. I decided to accept everything that was going on outside and stay open to possibilities. Before I knew it, I was able to visualize this commotion outside as a large philharmonic orchestra playing a beautiful symphony. I know this sounds crazy but it was really cool and before I knew it I was asleep.
I know this is just a small example in accepting, but if I can develop a new habit of staying open to life situations then hopefully, I can become more open to accepting larger situations as they arise.
We’re finding that it seems to be easier to “accept life situations” when we really try to live in the moment and not pay attention to what may happen in the future or what has happened in the past. Tolle suggests that what is happening in a life situation is not us; we are “who is observing the situation.” We are the one who is conscious of what is happening in that situation. It seems like when I can remember that I am an observer in the experience, I can stay open better and accept what is happening in the moment.
It’s such a positive experience to allow ourselves the opportunity to be flexible, to not be afraid of change, to be open to new ideas, and to accept the gift of joy and peace that is being offered to us. I send you the energy of love and light to help you on your journey, please accept my gift.
Several people recently have said to me, “When are you going to write the sequel to your next book?” I smile and say, “I don’t know, but I will know when it is time.” Deep down, I really didn’t want to write another book because I didn’t want it to interfere with the life Larry and I have created for ourselves. But, I also wanted to do God’s will and be guided and led if that was what I was meant to do.
God has used my dear friend, Joanne, to speak to me many times over the years. I dropped out of college in my junior year for 1 year because I was afraid of writing a 20 page paper. I have no idea what she said to encourage me, but whatever she said, I knew it was God and I returned to school the next semester. I graduated a year later and then went on to finish a Master’s degree. I am so grateful that I listened because I wouldn’t be living my dream today.
Joanne was unable to attend my presentation, “The Power of Self-Love to Manifest Your Dreams” in Rhode Island due to health challenges. A couple of days before the talk we spent the day together and I presented my talk to her. She was very quiet as she listened intently. When I finished, she looked at me and said, “Wow, this is the outline for your next book, Pat. I knew everything that happened to you but I couldn’t wait for you to tell me what happened next.” I sat there with tears in my eyes because I sensed God was speaking to me. I closed my eyes and heard God say, “HEAR WHAT SHE HAS TO SAY, PAT.” I hadn’t shared with Joanne what people have been saying to me about writing a sequel to my book. I said to myself, “OK God, show me the way. I ask you to bring it to me.”
Larry and I have been praying about the possibility of writing a book together about our story and the power of Love Energy in our lives. I shared with Larry what Joanne said to me and we agreed to continue to pray for guidance. Since I write my blog every week, Larry agreed to begin writing some blogs with me and see how that felt for us.
Here is what showed up today and how God is guiding us. Several months ago, I received a message on Facebook from a woman named Sharon, that I had not met before. She was moving to Maui and asked about a spiritual community. When she arrived, she called me and we planned to meet at Unity Church that Sunday. I had to leave the service early so we just got to say hello to one another.
She called me afterward, but we couldn’t get together since Larry was moving in and we were very busy. I ran into her at the theatre right before my trip to Rhode Island and she said, “Pat, I would really like to get together with you.” I said, “I will call you when I return home from Rhode Island.” When I returned to Maui, she kept coming into my mind and I knew I needed to call her and get together. When Larry asked me who I was having tea with that day, I told him the story of Facebook and that I didn’t really know Sharon, but that I knew we were meant to get together. As I was leaving the house to meet Sharon, I heard Spirit say, “Go back and get your book,” which I did.
Sharon and I didn’t waste any time getting to know one another when we met. We shared our lives and how our faith and trust in God brought us to Maui. She is the author of “Sacred Living, Sacred Dying – A Guide to Embodying Life and Death” and has had 2 near death experiences, which were very inspirational. She also owns a publishing company called “Sacred Life Publishers.”
I sat there quietly at first when she told me she owned a publishing company. I wondered if this could be a “Divine Encounter” and had God brought Sharon into my life to help me move forward with another book?
I shared that Larry and I were praying about writing a book together and what had happened with my friend, Joanne a few weeks ago. She smiled and grabbed my hand as my eyes filled up. She said, “I will help you Pat with whatever you need.” I said, “Thank you, I had no idea you had a publishingcompany.” And she said, “I had no idea you were an author and wrote a book.”
I was excited to share this news with Larry about Sharon’s publication company and wondered what his reaction would be. Would he see this as a sign from God that we were meant to write a book together? Just that morning, he had agreed to write something for my blog.
Here it is:
“Pat and I share and discuss our spiritual journey all the time, we respect and encourage each others growth and value each others opinion. We have been praying about writing a book together and were waiting for signs that it was God’s will.
Writing a book together and even writing in her blog each week is definitely a stretch for me and I am completely out of my comfort zone. It’s really difficult for me to share my spiritual journey and private thoughts in public. I have learned, however, that Spirit will give us gentle nudges to get our attention to do something and if that doesn’t work then we may just get banged on the head. I think I’m feeling gentle nudges and I better listen.
For as long as I can remember I’ve had dreams filled with being chased, being in very stressful situations and generally very unhappy circumstances. Pat and I have been doing the Emotion Code by Dr. Bradley Nelson to release trapped emotions regarding my dreams and I have definitely experienced a shift.
The day after Pat met with Sharon, I had a dream that was very meaningful and I believe could be a sign from God that we are meant to write a book together. In my dream, Pat and I had a baby and I was trying to find a place to lay it down. The baby started to become cranky and unhappy. I remember thinking “You are not going to be a cranky baby and the baby instantly became happy and peaceful.” I believe, perhaps the “BABY” could be representing the book that we are considering and could be a nudge in that direction.
During my walk and meditation that day, I thought, “I want to accept every gift, every occasion in my life as something positive even if it frightens me or is asking me to stretch and leave my comfort zone. I will be open to all possibilities and see every gift as an opportunity.”
So, stay tuned, I believe the sequel to “Simply a Woman of Faith” has been birthed. WHEN YOU LEAP, YOU REAP and God gives you wings to fly. And while you are leaping into the unknown and the mystery, Spirit takes over and all of your needs are provided for. I know it is time for the next book and I say YES!
I breathe in God’s love, I breathe out fear and control. I surrender to the moment, and God’s will in my life. I say YES to the mystery and adventure we are stepping into of writing a book together. Help us know you will show us the HOW, WHERE, and WHEN in the perfect and right timing. I trust you will bring us the people to help and guide us and that it will flow with peace, ease and grace. All we have to do is “show up” and do the next right thing. Thank you God because with God all things are possible.
It has been an interesting week of living in the “mystery” because for a couple of days all I could say to myself was, “I don’t know, I don’t know.” I realized how difficult and uncomfortable it is for me “not to know.” It’s scary “not to know” because I usually want to know right NOW! This is about wanting to control things and what’s going to happen next in my life. I saw something on Facebook this week that made me laugh. It said,” RELAX – nothing is under control.” Can you relate?
I shared something with my girlfriend, Kati, about a situation in my life that was unsettling and I didn’t know where it was going. She listened, laughed and then said, “I have never seen you squirm like this before.” She was right, I was squirming and I didn’t like it.
This is not living in the moment, where there is peace, love and joy. It is called “future tripping” and not a very good place to be in my head. I believe it is God’s invitation and opportunity for me to surrender more deeply and to practice what I preach and what I know works. This is “miracle living.”
In meditation one morning, I asked for clarity in what I wanted and didn’t want to do or have in my life. When I go within (my answers are within) and listen, I do know what I want and don’t want. Did I say “I don’t know” because I didn’t want to make a decision, make a mistake or take a risk and perhaps go in a direction that I hadn’t gone before?
It reminded me of when I was thinking about moving to Maui a few years ago. One day I said, “YES” I am moving to Maui and the next day, I said, “NO.” I drove myself crazy and it wasn’t until I got serious and ready that I finally went inside and asked myself the question, “WHAT DO I WANT?” How could God help me and go to work on my behalf if I wasn’t clear about what I wanted? I know sometimes it takes time to know what we really want and we need to be patient with the process. We will know when we are ready to know. It took me 67 years to manifest my dream of living on the ocean and I am so grateful for God’s grace that I had the courage to go within because if I hadn’t, I wouldn’t be living my dream today.
I am learning that it is ok “not to know” and to live in the mystery, trusting God is in control and the divine plan for my life is unfolding in the perfect and right timing. It is about being patient and willing to WAIT until I am ready. This feels so much better and I am at peace. I know my wanting to control came from living in a dysfunctional home where there was chaos and I never knew what was going to happen next. So control was a way of life to cover up the fear and pain inside. That doesn’t work anymore. Today, I am free, surrendered and can let go and let God.
I received a special gift this week. As I stretched on my bedroom floor, I noticed in the corner of the room some framed pictures that I hadn’t put up on the walls yet. I was led to read a poem that I received many years ago (and I hadn’t read in many years) when I really needed to receive it. It is called HONEY.
BEE BUSY Doing what you love to do
BEE TRUE To the dream’s God’s given you
BEE SURE To taste the sweetness of each day
BEE SILLY Giggle lots and take off to play
BEE BOLD Enough to trust your wings to fly
BEE-LIEVE The power of prayer will get you by
BEE HAPPY Keep your outlook bright and sunny
BEE YOURSELF BEE CAUSE YOU REALLY ARE A HONEY
My mother’s name was HONEY and she died on New Year’s Day when I was 21 years old. In 2005, on New Year’s Day, I asked to feel her presence. A few hours later, I opened my computer and this poem was there and I didn’t know who sent it. I knew my mom had “showed up” for me. She was showing up for me again today, when I needed her. As I read the poem, the words touched my heart deeply because it felt like she was affirming how I am living my life today.
I am doing what I love to do
I am being true to the dream God’s given me
I am tasting the sweetness of each day
I am giggling and playing
I am trusting my wings to fly
I am seeing the power of prayer
I have a bright and sunny outlook
I AM BEING MYSELF BECAUSE I REALLY AM A HONEY
God gives us what we need when we are open, ready and willing to receive. What do you want today? What is the desire of your heart? Your desire is God’s desire for you. Live in the mystery, trust and surrender to God’s plan in your life. You are worth it!
Last week I shared about some of the ways I love myself. This week I would like to share about the ways I’ve felt loved, provided for and protected by the Divine.
I left my house early Saturday morning to facilitate the retreat/Play’dom, “Fall in Love with Your Inner Goddess.” I planned on meeting, Kati, the co-facilitator at 8:45 a.m. to set up the space and get it ready for the women attending. I had ten minutes to spare when I noticed the big “garage sale” sign on the corner of the street. If you have read my book, you know that I am the “Yard Sale Queen” and just couldn’t resist a yard sale. I jumped out of my car to look around the yard sale. I found nothing interesting and walked back to my car. But, to my dismay, my car was dead as a door nail and wouldn’t start. I needed a jump start– perhaps I should not have jumped out of my car!
I looked around and noticed a man walking his dog across the street. I walked over to him and said, “Hi, my name is Pat and I need some help.” I explained that my car was dead and I needed a ride to a house just a few blocks away. He said, “Sorry, but my wife has the car.” I am not in the habit of asking men that I don’t know for a ride, but I was desperate. I thanked him and walked back to my car. A lady was outside on her lawn and I said to her, “I need help.” She was so gracious and offered to drive me to my destination. But, I looked up and spotted Sally, a friend from my dancing group walking out of the yard sale. I thanked the lady and asked Sally to drive me to the house. I left my car there and off we went. I totally forgot about my car and concentrated on the women at the retreat.
Thank you God for bringing Sally at the perfect and right time to help me when I needed it. Thank you God that I wasn’t in the middle of nowhere and had a safe place to leave my car for the day.
The retreat was a success and the women all loved it. We laughed, prayed, danced, sang and healed together. At the end of the day, Kati drove me back to my car to see if it would start. No, it was still dead. I called AAA and they said they would send a truck out in 40 minutes. When the mechanic arrived and jumped my car with his cables, he said, “I’ve never seen this before, the problem may be the starter or the alternator. Lady, you better drive this car right home and bring it to your mechanic as soon as you can.” I knew if I drove my car home, which was 30 minutes away, I would have to call AAA in the morning to have it towed to my mechanic. My mechanic lived a few minutes away from where I was.
At this point, I could hardly think straight and didn’t know what to do. Kati said, “Why don’t you just call your mechanic and tell him what is going on.” It is now 7:00 p.m. on a Saturday night and Kati and I are hungry and exhausted. What is the likelihood of my mechanic answering the phone and being there?
To my surprise and delight, Andy answered the phone on the second ring. “Hi Andy, this is Pat, remember me, the lady that bought the 1997 Camaro.” I explained to him what was going on and I was just a few minutes away. He said, “Bring your car right over and I will look at it
Andy’s garage is attached to his home and when we arrived he was working on another car in the garage. He popped the hood of my car and said, “It just needs a new battery and I have one here that is almost brand new. Would you like me to put it in for you? I can have it done in 10 minutes.” Of course, I said, “YES.” I was never so happy to write him a check for $100 and have a new battery put in my car.
I drove away thanking God all the way home for taking care of me in such a magnificent way. It just all worked out perfectly from Sally picking me up and driving me to the house, to Andy being home at 7:00p.m. and having a battery there to put in my car. I love how the Universe works when I trust and surrender.
I shared in last week’s blog about meeting the angel, Heidi, on the beach and that her message was, “Be Yourself and Let Go.” On the morning of the retreat, Kati took her walk, and ran into Heidi walking on the beach. They stopped and talked for a few minutes. Heidi said, “I have some new books in the trunk of my car that I want to get out into the world. Do you know of any women who would like them?” Of course, Kati said, “Yes, I am leading a retreat later today and there will be 10 women there who would love them.” I was amazed when Kati told me the story and how “Heidi” showed up again at the perfect and right time. The name of the book is “Awaken Your Royalty – A playful blending of Body, Mind and Spirit –by Heidi Hohani.
I finished this part of the blog 5 days ago and KNEW there would be another “story” of God’s love to share, but I had to wait. God is faithful because the “story” was born tonight.
My friend, Kati, and I were having dinner together and catching up on the week’s happenings. As women do, we went from one subject to another. I shared with her about writing my blog and was waiting for another “story” of God’s love to unfold. We both agreed it would happen.
My birthday is October second and Kati said, “What do you want to do for your birthday?” I said, “I have never been to Hana and would love to take a trip there. Everybody talks about the “Road to Hana” with the beautiful waterfalls, windy roads and pools. It is definitely a must while in Maui. Kati agreed to check around to see if we could find a place to stay for a night.
As we were chatting, a young woman walked by selling colorful leis. She stopped to greet us and told us her name was “Faith.” We talked for a few minutes and then she walked to the table behind us to greet the two women sitting there. Kati said, “I just heard the woman sitting at that table say she lived in Hana.” Kati and I just looked at one another and said, “Hmmmm.”
The next thing I knew I was up and walking over to the table to introduce myself to the women. “Hi, I’m Pat and I overheard you say you lived in Hana. I live in Maui Meadows and want to visit Hana for my birthday next week. Do you know of a place we could stay?” After thinking for a minute, I was shocked when she said, “Do you want to swap houses? I am staying with my friend here tonight, but I love to come down this way when I can.” That is how this “Divine Connection” began. We decided to talk over coffee after dinner.
I went back to our table with a big smile on my face and said, “Kati, you are not going to believe what just happened. We have a place to stay in Hana – and it overlooks the ocean.” We call it Maui Magic or “Ask and you shall receive.” We needed a place to stay while in Hana and God answered the prayer. We will be “swapping houses” for 2 nights.
My new friend, Carol, shared with me that she wants to move to this area and this is perfect to stay in my ohana for 2 nights. My friend, Linda, from Massachusetts is coming to visit me in November and Carol and I will be “swapping” homes again so I can take Linda to Hana.
I invited Carol and Sherri to see my home after we spent time getting to know one another at the restaurant. They are both women of faith and were thrilled when I gave them my book. I just never know when God is going to “show up” in my life. I do know that God is faithful. I have a feeling this is going to be a very special birthday. And it has only just begun!
I received an email from Sherri yesterday that read: “Aloha. It was “Divine Intervention” at work last night. I have been reading your book all day and thanking God for making our paths cross. I love your book and I can relate to so many things. Mahalo for taking the time to write it and gifting me a copy…..I’m so thankful to have met an AWESOME lady like you.
As I ponder God’s action and love in my life this week, I am reminded to ask for what I need, have faith, trust God in all things, and to know that I will be provided for at the right and perfect time.
As this year comes to an end and a new year begins, I want to thank all of you who have supported and loved me this past year. It has certainly been a year of adventure, stepping out in faith and living my dreams. I have loved sharing it with you and inspiring you to live your dreams as well. Many of you have written to me sharing your dreams as well as your struggles and how your faith in God has been tested and strengthened. For many of us, it has been a year of “letting go and letting God.”
When you receive this blog, I will be on my way back to Maui from my visit with family and friends in New England. I so look forward to being back in paradise and the warm weather and the whales that are coming back. It was great seeing everyone and spending time together. We all stayed with my daughter Mary and she did a fantastic job of cooking delicious meals for all of us.
We even had snow on Christmas day and 8 inches of snow 3 days later. I was prepared with my heavy coat, boots and gloves as we took a walk through the woods. My son Jimmy and his girlfriend Lara had a beautiful Christmas tree (that he cut down himself) that filled the room and reached the ceiling. We celebrated the Winter Solstice at my
daughter’s farm with singing and a big bonfire, where we were invited to write down what we wanted to let go of and what we wanted to bring in for the new year. Five year old Cielea said, “I want to let go of crying and I want to bring in flowers and a healthy new baby (Her mom is due to give birth any day.)
Even though I had a wonderful time being with my family, “my stuff” came up (which never feels very good.) I think being with family (especially ex’s) triggers old behaviors, patterns and feelings that still need healing. I prayed for a dream, asking for clarity on what needed to be changed in me. God answered that prayer when I woke up from a sound sleep in the middle of the night with a dream that headlights from a car were shining in the room. Spirit revealed to me how I give my power away by looking to others to give me what I need to give to myself. Something shifted inside of me after the dream and I was able to feel peace and get back to sleep. So I am grateful for more opportunities to see what’s inside that needs to be changed; whether it be to detach with love, let go, forgive, or just to focus on the positive, instead of complaining.
I had a pleasant surprise when I returned to my condo for the first time since I left in September. Almost all of my furniture was out of my condo except a small table and lamp in my bedroom. When I put the lamp on, I noticed a ladybug sitting on the table! As I have shared in other blogs, ladybugs are one of my signs of God’s unconditional
love for me. I then looked on the floor and spotted another one. It looked like a mother and baby. I was delighted to received this wonderful gift of love. Then, a couple of days later at Christmas, I received a beautiful bracelet from my son and future daughter-in-law that had a ladybug on it. It came with a wonderful description about the meaning of the ladybug.
“Legend has it that the ladybug was named for the Virgin Mary who assisted farmers once they prayed to her. Keeping fields safe from harm, the ladybug evokes the energy of harmony. A ladybug’s life is short. It teaches us to release worries and to enjoy experiences to the fullest. A messenger of promise, when the ladybug appears in our lives it is telling us to “Let go and let God.”
Not only do I think this message of “letting go” confirms my lessons for 2012, but it will be the theme for 2013.
This is what I read today in “Effortless Prosperity” by Bijan
“As we were growing up, we were taught the importance of being in control; the more control that we had, the happier we would be. The truth is that the more we surrender control to Spirit (taking it away from ego), the more we will be guided in the right direction. It is like jumping into the river while wearing a life jacket. As we float downstream near the rocks, we can try to push ourselves away, but we will usually
crash into them. However, if we just let go and let the water carry us through, it will naturally take us around the rocks. If we just give up control, with little intention of going anywhere other than where the current leads us, we will be carried where we are supposed to go and where it will be best for us.”
More and more I find that I am able to surrender my plans to God and allow myself to be carried where I am supposed to be, in the way that is best for me (even though it may be painful.) I surrendered the sale of my home in Rhode Island to God and I am happy to report that I found a wonderful new tenant. I signed my lease to rent my condo (yea) on January 2 and leaving for Maui on January 3rd. Yes, God came through at the 11th hour and at the perfect and right time!
My prayer and wish for you for this coming year is that you know that you are ONE with God and that you experience God’s love and peace in all that you do.
Recently I had a delightful day with my friend Ellen, who invited me to a holiday pops concert at the Maui Arts and Cultural Center. I had started my morning in prayer and had written a hundred things I was grateful for, so after such a lovely experience, I didn’t expect to end my day in tears.
Even though I have wonderful friends here in Maui that love me and who I enjoy spending time with, that night, I went to bed feeling a deep sense of loneliness and sadness. These feelings seemed to come out of nowhere. I felt like the energy was drained from me and I cried as I drifted off to sleep. I couldn’t remember my dream but when I woke up, it felt like I was hit by a big wave. As I got out of bed, I heard the words, “Pat, practice what you preach and don’t give up before the miracle.”
That morning I was scheduled for my weekly online conference call with 3 other women. I called my friend Kati to tell her I didn’t want to be on the call because I felt like I had been hit by a wave and was crying. I didn’t want to be vulnerable with the other women who I had just met a few weeks ago. Kati listened and encouraged me to participate in the call and said, “We are not meant to walk alone” but she also gave me permission to do what my heart needed to do. I didn’t want to be a part of the call but I also didn’t want to deny myself love from the other women. She encouraged me to “be grateful and welcome the wave because there would be a release that would be very powerful.”
I decided to “show up” and reluctantly called into the conference number a few minutes later. What is interesting is that the other 2 women were not able to be on the call that morning, and it was only Kati and I. Kati shared that this is an intense time on our planet and what was happening to me (releasing old karma, beliefs and wounds) is happening world- wide. There is an intense global purification and everything is coming up to be purified. We are a part of a global shift and we are all feeling the effects of it in different ways.
There is more light being ushered into our solar system than ever before because the sun has changed polarities. This affects our physical bodies very powerfully as well as our nervous system and brain. The transformation to the “golden age” is happening on our planet right now, and it is tapping our cellular memory and bringing to light any memories that have been tucked away for many years. They are coming up for us to look at them, feel any old emotions that have been repressed or stuck, so that we can release them and heal completely.
We must clear out of our system what no longer serves us by releasing and surrendering it back into the light. This is a time of healing our wounds, the grief, trauma, sadness and the separation from spirit and thinking we are alone. We are invited to allow the sadness, grief to flow through us, so we will be restored to feeling love and knowing our perfection.
After speaking with Kati, I spent the day alone loving myself and doing whatever I needed to do to release these intense feelings that were surfacing. I trusted that this was coming up so it could be released and healed. I didn’t have to know why (or where) these feelings were coming from, I just had to allow myself to feel them and let them run through me. It was very uncomfortable and I didn’t know what to do with myself at times. I slept, cried, prayed and wrote about what I was experiencing. By that evening, the feelings were gone and I felt renewed again.
That night, I picked up a book called, “Finding your way home” by Melody Beattie and was surprised to read a chapter on Healing Emotions that confirmed my experience that day. Here is what she wrote, “Sometimes we go numb for survival’s sake and stop bothering to feel. That may have worked then, but no more. Now, our soul wants to survive. To do that, we need to feel. And feel. And feel. We don’t want our feelings to control us. But they do, until we feel them. Feeling our feelings means we bow to them, we acknowledge them. Stay with it until you can feel the emotional charge, until it resonates within you and your body tells you it is so. Then release the energy. Breathe it out. Let it move through your entire system. Get it out of your field. Be done with it. You may experience unexpected, yet powerful emotions that quickly dissolve. You may experience purging on physical and emotional levels. Try to ride the wave of these changes and remain clear. Trust the process and you will experience an accelerated rhythm of cleansing and purification. After you clear each obstacle, you will be open to new levels of energy and must assimilate and integrate them.”
Stepping into the “Golden Age” on Earth means we are leaving behind old beliefs and feelings that no longer serve us. This cycle is about co-creating on the planet with Mother Earth and each other. This is what we have been waiting for- seeing unity in all things. This is a time to be the light and to hold this vision of light in ourselves and others. Sometimes, it is easy for me to see the light in other people, but not always easy to see the light in me. If I can see the light in another person then I believe that is a reflection of the same light in me, so I must embrace it and claim it as mine.
Today, I am feeling grateful for the wave of energy that brought healing and love to me, enabling me to release old emotions so that I can receive and radiate more light into my life and into the world.
Have you been hit by a wave lately? It may have hit you in your personal relationships, business, health or finances. Don’t be afraid because all is well and in divine order. We must remember this is a time of purification, letting go, surrendering and trusting. It is a time to deepen our relationship with Spirit.
A couple of weeks ago, I received a beautiful plaque from my friend Mary that said, “This Little Light of Mine I’m going to let it shine”. As we approach the special season of Christmas, let us prepare our hearts and minds to receive more of God’s light. Let us all shine our light for the world to see because we are the hands and feet of God and the world needs us now, more than ever.
As I was about to send this out, I received an email that read, “Catch the wave of love, light and unity and then turn around and spread it around.” I am spreading the wave of love, light and unity to you.
For the first time in my life, I have an iPhone. I used to have a basic phone where all I did was make and receive phone calls and it was great. Now I am in the big leagues with an iPhone that has so many functions that I am still learning how to use it. Being in Maui and not knowing the streets, I especially love the GPS who talks to me and tells me where to go. When I am going in the wrong direction, some funny thing comes on the screen and she quickly “RECALCULATES” and gets me back in the direction I need to go. I feel like God has been “RECALCULATING” me all week long. Please let me share the events of the week with you.
After I returned from my mini vacation to Kauai, I tried to settle back in to my new home. The first thing that happened was that I learned the house where my ohana is in, was sold and the landlords were moving out Dec 6, 2012. I knew when I rented my place that the house was on the market, so it wasn’t a complete surprise. I also trusted that I would be provided for and if it didn’t work out for me to stay here, I would just find another place to live. Easier said than done! I don’t really want to move out and look for another place. I know that I may not have to move out when the new owners buy it, but there is that possibility. Since the house was on the market when I rented it, I signed a 3 month lease, which will bring me to January 17th. I am trusting that nothing will change and I will easily sign a another one year lease with the new owners.
I wish I could say there was no fear, but there was. This is just another area I am being invited to trust more deeply that God is in control and has me covered. I know that everything that happens is a gift and for my highest good. I also know that all separation is fear when I forget that God and I are one. When I remember God is with me and I am with God, fear leaves me.
Today’s lesson in the book, “Absolutely Effortless Prosperity” by Bijan is “I am realizing that all of my experiences happen for a reason. I choose to see each one as a part of my personal growth. Because of this, I can give up control and let God lead the way. God knows what is best for me, far better than I do. Today, I know that God loves me more than I love myself. When I trust God, I do not question any event that happens. I know that everything that occurs in my life is in my best interest. My power to create miracles for myself begins as I realize that I can make a conscious choice to trust God.”
After reading and pondering this powerful message, I was “RECALCULATED” and trusted that I was going in the right direction again because I felt peaceful. But, it didn’t last for long. I began feeling stressed and my chest felt heavy (very unusual for me). I no longer felt the peace that I had been experiencing since I arrived in Maui. I wrote in my journal one night, “God, I’m not sure what is going on, I feel like crying. I have a headache (and I rarely get headaches). Things seem off. I am really struggling and can’t seem to shake this heaviness. Please bring me into your truth and light. What is coming up God? Is it fear, control? I want my peace back and to live in the flow. How and why have I lost my peace?”
A couple of things seemed to be coming up for me that I was able to identify. I was feeling some fear around not having enough money and coming from a place of lack and scarcity, something I have worked on for many years. I remembered what I read a few weeks ago about the meaning of prosperity. Prosperity is knowing I will always be provided for. I was being “RECALCULATED” again to the truth of what I know in my being. How easy it is to forget the truth that God is my source. Thank God for my inner GPS to get me going in the right direction again.
As I have shared in other blogs, it is the desire of my heart to meet my soul mate and I know that God brought me to Maui to meet him here. I have been opening my heart and thanking God for the right and perfect man for several years now. I thought I was ready until recently when I started to date (yea) and felt some anxiety come up. After I prayed about it, it seemed like some of my stress and heaviness was coming from dating again and wanting to know what was going to happen (control). Instead of just having fun and relaxing, I was obsessing a bit and perhaps, even ready to sabotage myself. After I welcomed the fear, I reassured myself and said, “Of course you have some fear, this is new and it’s been a while since you dated.”
I am happy to report that today I am relaxing and giving myself permission to play and have fun. I don’t need to see the future; all I need to do is to live in the present moment and allow whatever happens to happen. What is mine will come to me at the right and perfect time.
My friend recently said to me, “Lessons are coming fast and furious to many of us light workers.” This is true and I am grateful that I can work through these lessons rather quickly and RECALCULATE so I can go on to the next lesson. I want to be free and live my life to the fullest. Once I recognize that fear or control is coming up, I can choose not to stay there. I can choose Love because I know Love is all there is and fear is an illusion, although sometimes, it really feels real.
Are you living your life in peace? Are there areas in your life where you need to RECALCULATE?
Here are my 6 TIPS TO LIVE IN PEACE that I practice daily.
1. Show Up – Develop a daily spiritual practice of prayer and meditation.
2. Ask For What You Want – and expect an answer. Be clear about what you want. Visualize and Believe.
3. Be Grateful – An attitude of gratitude is the key to make things manifest quickly. Focus on what you have, rather than what’s missing.
4. Forgive Yourself & Others – Holding onto resentment and anger blocks the energy flow and prevents or slows down your ability to manifest your dreams.
5. Have Faith – Your prayers are being answered. Faith is believing in what you cannot see. Change your thinking.
6. Let Go of Control – Trust the process and surrender to what is. You are exactly where you need to be.
In his book, Creative Ideas Ernest Holmes, writes “Whatever I should know, I shall know. Whatever I should do, I shall do. Whatever belongs to me must come to me.”
For me, this quote is all about trusting and letting go; trusting in the Divine and trusting in myself and that my answers are within. Whatever I should know, I shall know. This quote is also about trusting in divine timing and what must come to me. I have been on the spiritual path for many years and it seems like life is a constant invitation to let go and trust more deeply.
I believe everything is our teacher if we are awake and conscious. As I sat outside in my yard one morning and looked up at the Ficus tree right in front of me, God spoke to me through nature about the importance of letting go. I noticed that the pod (with a flower inside of it) was still hanging from the tree. Then I noticed another pod right next to it that had partially opened and I could see part of the flower peeking through, but the pod was still hanging from the tree.
A couple of hours later when I walked outside, the pod had “let go” and was completely open and had fallen from the tree to the ground. A beautiful white flower had opened up before my eyes! I asked myself, “How did the pod know when it was time to let go from the security of the tree and bloom?” It just knew it was time! These beautiful flowers surround me every day (there are hundreds of pods on the trees) and are a constant reminder of God’s love, and our ability to trust in divine timing and let ourselves bloom at just the right time. We are invited to bloom where we are planted.
How do we know when it is time to let go? In my own experience, I know that I let go when I am ready (just like the pod with the flower in it) and not a minute before. Today, I don’t judge myself about not being ready or willing to let go until I am ready, I just trust that whatever I need to know about what to do or not to do, will be revealed.
When I asked my husband for a divorce 13 years ago, after 30 years of marriage, I knew in my heart that this is what I needed to do to live my life to the fullest. I wasn’t ready until that moment. How did I get myself ready? There were many things I did, but most of all, I loved myself unconditionally and became my own best friend. I focused on what made me feel happy and alive. I prayed and meditated and was willing to do whatever I needed to do to heal and transform my fears and insecurities so that I could move forward.
My lesson this week has been about letting go of the timing and WHEN things are going to happen in my life. As I have shared before in other blogs, every once in a while I find myself in a place where….”I want what I want when I want it, and I think I know what is best for my life.” Wrong! Time and time again I have learned that HOW things manifest in my life is none of my business. I just “show up” for life and follow my heart and passion and miracles happen. That is why I am now living in Maui. I “showed up” to speak at a Unitarian church in Rhode Island in 2010 and met my now good friend Ellen, who invited me to visit her in Maui – for as long as I wanted. Two years Later, I am now living my dream in Maui.
I know that if the details of that dream can manifest so perfectly, so can any other desire I hold, but I have to be willing to let go and trust. So, how do you know if it is time to let go, and release the need to know WHEN things are going to happen? I recently reached this moment when I realized that I was feeling anxious and complaining about my house not selling yet, and I was also looking outside of myself for guidance and answers. I had several dreams indicating that I was trying to control things in my life, and often, when I am trying to control a situation in my life, I dream about a person from my past who was very controlling. This week, my mantra became, “I let go, I let go…. until my peace came back.
I have learned that the sooner I let go and surrender, the faster I will manifest what I want, and it cannot manifest when I am in fear. Since I let go, I am experiencing a peace that passes all understanding and I have been more “IN THE FLOW” than I have ever been.
Usually, what drives controlling behavior is a fear, and for me it is fear that I won’t get what I want. I was starting to feel afraid that my house wouldn’t sell and I would have to leave Paradise and that I wouldn’t meet my soul mate. I know that FEAR is False Evidence Appearing Real, so I needed to re-connect with my source and TRUST that God and I are ONE.
Once I restore my connection to this source, I know that all is well in the spiritual world and I am exactly where I need to be (or I wouldn’t be there.) I remind myself that I hired my Higher Power to take over my life, therefore I am choosing to trust in God’s faithfulness and promises to me. I know on a deep level that I came to Maui to meet my soul mate and it will happen in God’s timing, not my timing. And like many other things that have manifested, I am sure it will be beyond my wildest dreams. God’s timing is perfect and He/She is always on time. As that quote states, “whatever belongs to me MUST come.”
On a lighter and more fun note, my Hawaii license plate is KRG, which to me, means KEEP RECEIVING GOOD.
I believe that I have been letting go, so that I can keep receiving more good. The more good that I receive the more good I can give to others. Today, I truly believe that I am worthy of receiving good things in my life and so are you. In fact, a couple on months ago, my friend Ellen invited me to join her at her time-share on the island of Kauai. We are leaving Sunday for a week. We will be staying at the Marriott on Poipu Beach, which I am told is beautiful!
I said YES to the Universe and doors have opened up for me beyond my wildest dreams. Almost everyday in paradise, there is sunshine and warm breezes, swimming in the ocean, butterflies and incredible views of mountains and sunsets. I continue to have a grateful heart for the blessings God has bestowed on me as I continue on this wonderful, adventurous journey one day at a time.
Remember, we get what we expect. Are you expecting more good in your life?
My Heart is a Verdant Meadow with many blooms
Heart Steps, Julia Cameron
I open my heart to receiving love and respect. I open my heart to many quarters. I allow my good to come to me from all directions. Remembering that the Universe is my source, I release individuals from any demands that they be the source of my good. I allow the Universe to support me as it chooses, not as I demand. I surrender my narrow version to a broader and longer view of events. I trust that as I respect and honor myself and others, I will be treated in kind.
As I sat down to write my monthly message for the newsletter, the word TRUST screamed out to me. I saw in my mind’s eyes TRUST TRUST TRUST written across the sky. It seems like many of us are being called to trust at a very deep level. At least I know I am. What does it mean to trust? For me, it means trusting that regardless of how things may look like on the outside, that I am safe and in God’s care. It means trusting in a power greater than myself and believing that there is higher plan for my life which is good. I may not know what’s ahead, and that can make it difficult to let go and surrender control of how I think my life should look.
Are you doing the best you can? Are you showing up for life ready to share your gifts and talents? Maybe things are still not going the way you want them to go. It may be a marriage that isn’t working, lack of finances, a job that you hate, grieving the loss of a loved one or being unemployed. It is only in these difficult times of darkness and not knowing what’s going on that we learn to trust and our faith muscles grow stronger. We do not grow on the mountaintop. Mountain top experiences come from being in the darkness and not giving up.
We often give up right before the miracle because of fear. We say we trust but when the s…. hits the fan we often go into fear mode, and it can happen almost automatically without consciously realizing it. Fear can cripple you and make you want to give up and run away. It is in precisely these times that you are given the opportunity to trust in a loving God for your strength and sustenance. You learn that God is all there is and God can be trusted.
What I know about God in my heart of hearts, from my own life experience, is that God is faithful and can be trusted. Are you ready to trust God with your life and surrender to the love in your heart? All you need to do is say YES.
Light and Love, Pat
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