Along with the feelings of being trapped and alone because I didn’t have a car, I recognized fear bubbling up in the pit of my stomach.  I immediately began to pray, breathe and let go. If there is anything that will bring up fear it would be my unresolved issues around money or the “lack of it.” Even though I know that God is my source and God has always provided for me, apparently there were still some hidden beliefs that needed healing.  It seemed like all I was doing was spending money for things that needed to be repaired and I had no control over it. Between getting a new engine in my car, the money for the repairs needed on my condo back in Rhode Island, fear was rearing its ugly head.  Then I received an email that morning from my new tenant asking me to reduce the amount paid to me in rent this month, because she wasn’t able to move in because of the repairs that were being done in the condo.

During my prayer, I was led to pick up a book (that I hadn’t read in years) and read a chapter from “The Wisdom of Florence Scovel-Shinn.” God really spoke to me through reading this chapter.  She writes, “Man has so long separated himself from his good and his supply, through thoughts of separation and lack, that sometimes it takes dynamite to dislodge these false ideas from the subconscious, and the dynamite is a big situation.   How can I get rid of fear? By walking up to the thing you are afraid of. The lion takes its fierceness from your fear. Walk up to the lion, and he will disappear; run away and he runs after you. Scovel-Shinn write about how the lion of lack disappeared when an individual spent money fearlessly; showing faith that God was his supply and therefore, unfailing. There is no peace or happiness for man, until he has erased all fear from his  consciousness.”  I knew in my spirit that God was inviting me to fearlessly face my lion of lack and trust, and act in faith, knowing that all of my needs were being supplied.  I reminded myself that money is energy and that God is my source.

After my prayer, I called my friend Trudy to ask her if she wanted to drive with me to a special Sound Healing ceremony on the eve of the new moon, which was being held at another friend’s house that night.  She said, “I would love to do that.” When I asked her what she was doing, she replied, “I am still in bed and reading your book. It’s the chapter about courage.”  I said, “I could sure use some courage now.” I then proceeded to tell her what I was experiencing. When I was done, she asked if she could read me something from my book. Of course, I said,”Yes.” She told me later that day that she just opened the book randomly and read what she opened up to.  Here is what she read to me.

“God, where am I going to get the money from? I purchased some stocks
several years ago and decided to sell them a few months earlier. I received a check for twenty two hundred dollars from the credit union which enabled me to catch up on my bills. A month after I sold the stocks and received my money, I received another statement stating I had two thousand three hundred dollars in my account. There must be a mistake, I thought. I called the credit union the next day and asked what my balance was. “Mrs. Hastings, you have a balance of two thousand three hundred dollars.” I asked, “Are you sure?” She said, “Yes, is there a problem?” “No, No problem at all.” I don’t know how that happened, but it did. God works mysteriously. The money was there all the time, but I never saw it and didn’t know it was there. For whatever reason, it wasn’t on the monthly statement that I received each month (or I didn’t see it because I probably would have spent it.) The money came when I stepped out in faith, trusting God would provide.”